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- BANTAM CLASSIC-A BANTAM CLASSIC-A BANTAM CLASSIC-A BANTAM
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- The Troll Garden
- and
- Selected Stories
- by Willa Cather
-
-
- Introduction by Rita Mae Brown
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- BANTAM BOOKS
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- NEW YORK - TORONTO - LONDON - SYDNEY - AUCKLAND
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- THE TROLL GARDEN AND SELECTED STORIES
- <i>A Bantam Classic Book / November 1990</i>
-
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- <i>Cover art "Stone City, Iowa" by Grant Wood;
- courtesy of Joselyn Art Museum</i>
-
- <i>All rights reserved.</i>
- <i>Introduction copyright (c) 1990 by Rita Mae Brown.
- No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted
- in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical,
- including photocopying, recording, or by any information
- storage and retrieval system, without permission in
- writing from the publisher.
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- For information address: Bantam Books.</i>
-
- ISBN 0-553-21385-7
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- <i>Published simultaneously in the United States and Canada</i>
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- <i>Bantam Books are published by Bantam Books, a division of Bantam
- Doubleday Dell Publishing Group, Inc. Its trademark, consisting of
- the words "Bantam Books" and the portrayal of a rooster, is
- Registered in U.S. Patent and Trademark Office and in other
- countries. Marca Registrada. Bantam Books, 666 Fifth Avenue, New
- York, New York 10103.</i>
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- PRINTED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
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- Contents
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- Introduction by Rita Mae Brown vii
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-
- <i>Selected Stories</i>
-
- On the Divide 1
- Eric Hermannson's Soul 15
- The Enchanted Bluff 40
- The Bohemian Girl 51
-
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- <i>The Troll Garden</i>
-
- Flavia and Her Artists 99
- The Sculptor's Funeral 128
- "A Death in the Desert" 144
- The Garden Lodge 167
- The Marriage of Phaedra 180
- A Wagner Matinee 199
- Paul's Case 208
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- Selected Stories
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-
- On the Divide
-
-
- Near Rattlesnake Creek, on the side of a little draw stood
- Canute's shanty. North, east, south, stretched the level
- Nebraska plain of long rust-red grass that undulated constantly
- in the wind. To the west the ground was broken and rough, and a
- narrow strip of timber wound along the turbid, muddy little
- stream that had scarcely ambition enough to crawl over its black
- bottom. If it had not been for the few stunted cottonwoods and
- elms that grew along its banks, Canute would have shot himself
- years ago. The Norwegians are a timber-loving people, and if
- there is even a turtle pond with a few plum bushes around it they
- seem irresistibly drawn toward it.
-
- As to the shanty itself, Canute had built it without aid of
- any kind, for when he first squatted along the banks of
- Rattlesnake Creek there was not a human being within twenty
- miles. It was built of logs split in halves, the chinks stopped
- with mud and plaster. The roof was covered with earth and was
- supported by one gigantic beam curved in the shape of a round
- arch. It was almost impossible that any tree had ever grown in
- that shape. The Norwegians used to say that Canute had taken the
- log across his knee and bent it into the shape he wished. There
- were two rooms, or rather there was one room with a partition
- made of ash saplings interwoven and bound together like big straw
- basket work. In one corner there was a cook stove, rusted and
- broken. In the other a bed made of unplaned planks and poles. it
- was fully eight feet long, and upon it was a heap of dark bed
- clothing. There was a chair and a bench of colossal proportions.
- There was an ordinary kitchen cupboard with a few cracked dirty
- dishes in it, and beside it on a tall box a tin washbasin. Under
- the bed was a pile of pint flasks, some broken, some whole,
- all empty. On the wood box lay a pair of shoes of almost
- incredible dimensions. On the wall hung a saddle, a gun, and
- some ragged clothing, conspicuous among which was a suit of dark
- cloth, apparently new, with a paper collar carefully wrapped in a
- red silk handkerchief and pinned to the sleeve. Over the door hung
- a wolf and a badger skin, and on the door itself a brace of thirty
- or forty snake skins whose noisy tails rattled ominously every time
- it opened. The strangest things in the shanty were the wide
- windowsills. At first glance they looked as though they had been
- ruthlessly hacked and mutilated with a hatchet, but on closer
- inspection all the notches and holes in the wood took form and
- shape. There seemed to be a series of pictures. They were, in a
- rough way, artistic, but the figures were heavy and labored, as
- though they had been cut very slowly and with very awkward
- instruments. There were men plowing with little horned imps
- sitting on their shoulders and on their horses' heads. There were
- men praying with a skull hanging over their heads and little demons
- behind them mocking their attitudes. There were men fighting with
- big serpents, and skeletons dancing together. All about these
- pictures were blooming vines and foliage such as never grew in this
- world, and coiled among the branches of the vines there was always
- the scaly body of a serpent, and behind every flower there was a
- serpent's head. It was a veritable Dance of Death by one who had
- felt its sting. In the wood box lay some boards, and every inch of
- them was cut up in the same manner. Sometimes the work was very
- rude and careless, and looked as though the hand of the workman had
- trembled. It would sometimes have been hard to distinguish the men
- from their evil geniuses but for one fact, the men were always
- grave and were either toiling or praying, while the devils were
- always smiling and dancing. Several of these boards had been split
- for kindling and it was evident that the artist did not value his
- work highly.
-
- It was the first day of winter on the Divide. Canute stumbled
- into his shanty carrying a basket of. cobs, and after filling the
- stove, sat down on a stool and crouched his seven foot frame over
- the fire, staring drearily out of the window at the wide gray
- sky. He knew by heart every individual clump of bunch grass in the
- miles of red shaggy prairie that stretched before his cabin. He
- knew it in all the deceitful loveliness of its early summer, in all
- the bitter barrenness of its autumn. He had seen it smitten by all
- the plagues of Egypt. He had seen it parched by drought, and
- sogged by rain, beaten by hail, and swept by fire, and in the
- grasshopper years he had seen it eaten as bare and clean as bones
- that the vultures have left. After the great fires he had seen it
- stretch for miles and miles, black and smoking as the floor of
- hell.
-
- He rose slowly and crossed the room, dragging his big feet
- heavily as though they were burdens to him. He looked out of the
- window into the hog corral and saw the pigs burying themselves in
- the straw before the shed. The leaden gray clouds were beginning
- to spill themselves, and the snow flakes were settling down over
- the white leprous patches of frozen earth where the hogs had gnawed
- even the sod away. He shuddered and began to walk, trampling
- heavily with his ungainly feet. He was the wreck of ten winters on
- the Divide and he knew what that meant. Men fear the winters of
- the Divide as a child fears night or as men in the North Seas fear
- the still dark cold of the polar twilight. His eyes fell upon his
- gun, and he took it down from the wall and looked it over. He sat
- down on the edge of his bed and held the barrel towards his face,
- letting his forehead rest upon it, and laid his finger on the
- trigger. He was perfectly calm, there was neither passion nor
- despair in his face, but the thoughtful look of a man who is
- considering. Presently he laid down the gun, and reaching into the
- cupboard, drew out a pint bottle of raw white alcohol. Lifting it
- to his lips, he drank greedily. He washed his face in the tin
- basin and combed his rough hair and shaggy blond beard. Then he
- stood in uncertainty before the suit of dark clothes that hung on
- the wall. For the fiftieth time he took them in his hands and
- tried to summon courage to put them on. He took the paper collar
- that was pinned to the sleeve of the coat and cautiously slipped it
- under his rough beard, looking with timid expectancy into the
- cracked, splashed glass that hung over the bench. With a short
- laugh he threw it down on the bed, and pulling on his old
- black hat, he went out, striking off across the level.
-
- It was a physical necessity for him to get away from his cabin
- once in a while. He had been there for ten years, digging and
- plowing and sowing, and reaping what little the hail and the hot
- winds and the frosts left him to reap. Insanity and suicide are
- very common things on the Divide. They come on like an epidemic in
- the hot wind season. Those scorching dusty winds that blow up over
- the bluffs from Kansas seem to dry up the blood in men's veins as
- they do the sap in the corn leaves. Whenever the yellow scorch
- creeps down over the tender inside leaves about the ear, then the
- coroners prepare for active duty; for the oil of the country is
- burned out and it does not take long for the flame to eat up the
- wick. It causes no great sensation there when a Dane is found
- swinging to his own windmill tower, and most of the Poles after
- they have become too careless and discouraged to shave themselves
- keep their razors to cut their throats with.
-
- It may be that the next generation on the Divide will be very
- happy, but the present one came too late in life. It is useless
- for men that have cut hemlocks among the mountains of Sweden for
- forty years to try to be happy in a country as flat and gray and
- naked as the sea. It is not easy for men that have spent their
- youth fishing in the Northern seas to be content with following a
- plow, and men that have served in the Austrian army hate hard work
- and coarse clothing on the loneliness of the plains, and long for
- marches and excitement and tavern company and pretty barmaids.
- After a man has passed his fortieth birthday it is not easy for him
- to change the habits and conditions of his life. Most men bring
- with them to the Divide only the dregs of the lives that they have
- squandered in other lands and among other peoples.
-
- Canute Canuteson was as mad as any of them, but his madness
- did not take the form of suicide or religion but of alcohol. He
- had always taken liquor when he wanted it, as all Norwegians do,
- but after his first year of solitary life he settled down to it
- steadily. He exhausted whisky after a while, and went to alcohol,
- because its effects were speedier and surer. He was a big man and
- with a terrible amount of resistant force, and it took a great
- deal of alcohol even to move him. After nine years of drinking,
- the quantities he could take would seem fabulous to an ordinary
- drinking man. He never let it interfere with his work, he
- generally drank at night and on Sundays. Every night, as soon as
- his chores were done, he began to drink. While he was able to sit
- up he would play on his mouth harp or hack away at his window sills
- with his jackknife. When the liquor went to his head he would lie
- down on his bed and stare out of the window until he went to sleep.
- He drank alone and in solitude not for pleasure or good cheer, but
- to forget the awful loneliness and level of the Divide. Milton
- made a sad blunder when he put mountains in hell. Mountains
- postulate faith and aspiration. All mountain peoples are
- religious. It was the cities of the plains that, because of their
- utter lack of spirituality and the mad caprice of their vice, were
- cursed of God.
-
- Alcohol is perfectly consistent in its effects upon man.
- Drunkenness is merely an exaggeration. A foolish man drunk becomes
- maudlin; a bloody man, vicious; a coarse man, vulgar. Canute was
- none of these, but he was morose and gloomy, and liquor took him
- through all the hells of Dante. As he lay on his giant's bed all
- the horrors of this world and every other were laid bare to his
- chilled senses. He was a man who knew no joy, a man who toiled in
- silence and bitterness. The skull and the serpent were always
- before him, the symbols of eternal futileness and of eternal hate.
-
- When the first Norwegians near enough to be called neighbors
- came, Canute rejoiced, and planned to escape from his bosom vice.
- But he was not a social man by nature and had not the power of
- drawing out the social side of other people. His new neighbors
- rather feared him because of his great strength and size, his
- silence and his lowering brows. Perhaps, too, they knew that he
- was mad, mad from the eternal treachery of the plains, which every
- spring stretch green and rustle with the promises of Eden, showing
- long grassy lagoons full of clear water and cattle whose hoofs are
- stained with wild roses. Before autumn the lagoons are dried up,
- and the ground is burnt dry and hard until it blisters and cracks
- open.
-
- So instead of becoming a friend and neighbor to the men that
- settled about him, Canute became a mystery and a terror. They told
- awful stories of his size and strength and of the alcohol he drank.
-
- They said that one night, when he went out to see to his horses
- just before he went to bed, his steps were unsteady and the rotten
- planks of the floor gave way and threw him behind the feet of a
- fiery young stallion. His foot was caught fast in the floor, and
- the nervous horse began kicking frantically. When Canute felt the
- blood trickling down into his eyes from a scalp wound in his head,
- he roused himself from his kingly indifference, and with the quiet
- stoical courage of a drunken man leaned forward and wound his arms
- about the horse's hind legs and held them against his breast with
- crushing embrace. All through the darkness and cold of the night
- he lay there, matching strength against strength. When little Jim
- Peterson went over the next morning at four o'clock to go with him
- to the Blue to cut wood, he found him so, and the horse was on its
- fore knees, trembling and whinnying with fear. This is the story
- the Norwegians tell of him, and if it is true it is no wonder that
- they feared and hated this Holder of the Heels of Horses.
-
- One spring there moved to the next "eighty" a family that made
- a great change in Canute's life. Ole Yensen was too drunk most of
- the time to be afraid of any one, and his wife Mary was too
- garrulous to be afraid of any one who listened to her talk, and
- Lena, their pretty daughter, was not afraid of man nor devil. So
- it came about that Canute went over to take his alcohol with Ole
- oftener than he took it alone, After a while the report spread that
- he was going to marry Yensen's daughter, and the Norwegian girls
- began to tease Lena about the great bear she was going to keep
- house for. No one could quite see how the affair had come about,
- for Canute's tactics of courtship were somewhat peculiar. He
- apparently never spoke to her at all: he would sit for hours with
- Mary chattering on one side of him and Ole drinking on the other
- and watch Lena at her work. She teased him, and threw flour in his
- face and put vinegar in his coffee, but he took her rough jokes
- with silent wonder, never even smiling. He took her to church
- occasionally, but the most watchful and curious people never
- saw him speak to her. He would sit staring at her while she
- giggled and flirted with the other men.
-
- Next spring Mary Lee went to town to work in a steam laundry.
- She came home every Sunday, and always ran across to Yensens to
- startle Lena with stories of ten cent theaters, firemen's dances,
- and all the other esthetic delights of metropolitan life. In a few
- weeks Lena's head was completely turned, and she gave her father no
- rest until he let her go to town to seek her fortune at the ironing
- board. From the time she came home on her first visit she began to
- treat Canute with contempt. She had bought a plush cloak and kid
- gloves, had her clothes made by the dress maker, and assumed airs
- and graces that made the other women of the neighborhood cordially
- detest her. She generally brought with her a young man from town
- who waxed his mustache and wore a red necktie, and she did not even
- introduce him to Canute.
-
- The neighbors teased Canute a good deal until he knocked one
- of them down. He gave no sign of suffering from her neglect except
- that he drank more and avoided the other Norwegians more carefully
- than ever, He lay around in his den and no one knew what he felt or
- thought, but little Jim Peterson, who had seen him glowering at
- Lena in church one Sunday when she was there with the town man,
- said that he would not give an acre of his wheat for Lena's life or
- the town chap's either; and Jim's wheat was so wondrously worthless
- that the statement was an exceedingly strong one.
-
- Canute had bought a new suit of clothes that looked as nearly
- like the town man I s as possible. They had cost him half a millet
- crop; for tailors are not accustomed to fitting giants and they
- charge for it. He had hung those clothes in his shanty two months
- ago and had never put them on, partly from fear of ridicule, partly
- from discouragement, and partly because there was something in his
- own soul that revolted at the littleness of the device.
-
- Lena was at home just at this time. Work was slack in the
- laundry and Mary had not been well, so Lena stayed at home, glad
- enough to get an opportunity to torment Canute once more.
-
- She was washing in the side kitchen, singing loudly as
- she worked. Mary was on her knees, blacking the stove and scolding
- violently about the young man who was coming out from town that
- night. The young man had committed the fatal error of laughing at
- Mary's ceaseless babble and had never been forgiven.
-
- "He is no good, and you will come to a bad end by running with
- him! I do not see why a daughter of mine should act so. I do not
- see why the Lord should visit such a punishment upon me as to give
- me such a daughter. There are plenty of good men you can marry."
-
- Lena tossed her head and answered curtly, "I don't happen to
- want to marry any man right away, and so long as Dick dresses nice
- and has plenty of money to spend, there is no harm in my going with
- him."
-
- "Money to spend? Yes, and that is all he does with it I'll be
- bound. You think it very fine now, but you will change your tune
- when you have been married five years and see your children running
- naked and your cupboard empty. Did Anne Hermanson come to any good
- end by marrying a town man?"
-
- "I don't know anything about Anne Hermanson, but I know any of
- the laundry girls would have Dick quick enough if they could get
- him."
-
- "Yes, and a nice lot of store clothes huzzies you are too. Now
- there is Canuteson who has an 'eighty' proved up and fifty head
- of cattle and--"
-
- "And hair that ain't been cut since he was a baby, and a big
- dirty beard, and he wears overalls on Sundays, and drinks like a
- pig. Besides he will keep. I can have all the fun I want, and
- when I am old and ugly like you he can have me and take care of me.
-
- The Lord knows there ain't nobody else going to marry him."
-
- Canute drew his hand back from the latch as though it were red
- hot. He was not the kind of man to make a good eavesdropper, and
- he wished he had knocked sooner. He pulled himself together and
- struck the door like a battering ram. Mary jumped and opened it
- with a screech.
-
- "God! Canute, how you scared us! I thought it was crazy Lou--
- he has been tearing around the neighborhood trying to convert
- folks. I am afraid as death of him. He ought to be sent off, I
- think. He is just as liable as not to kill us all, or burn
- the barn, or poison the dogs. He has been worrying even the poor
- minister to death, and he laid up with the rheumatism, too! Did
- you notice that he was too sick to preach last Sunday? But don't
- stand there in the cold, come in. Yensen isn't here, but he just
- went over to Sorenson's for the mail; he won't be gone long. Walk
- right in the other room and sit down."
-
- Canute followed her, looking steadily in front of him and not
- noticing Lena as he passed her. But Lena's vanity would not allow
- him to pass unmolested. She took the wet sheet she was wringing
- out and cracked him across the face with it, and ran giggling to
- the other side of the room. The blow stung his cheeks and the
- soapy water flew in his eves, and he involuntarily began rubbing
- them with his hands. Lena giggled with delight at his
- discomfiture, and the wrath in Canute's face grew blacker than
- ever. A big man humiliated is vastly more undignified than a
- little one. He forgot the sting of his face in the bitter
- consciousness that he had made a fool of himself He stumbled
- blindly into the living room, knocking his head against the door
- jamb because he forgot to stoop. He dropped into a chair behind
- the stove, thrusting his big feet back helplessly on either side of
- him.
-
- Ole was a long time in coming, and Canute sat there, still and
- silent, with his hands clenched on his knees, and the skin of his
- face seemed to have shriveled up into little wrinkles that trembled
- when he lowered his brows. His life had been one long lethargy of
- solitude and alcohol, but now he was awakening, and it was as when
- the dumb stagnant heat of summer breaks out into thunder.
-
- When Ole came staggering in, heavy with liquor, Canute rose at
- once.
-
- "Yensen," he said quietly, "I have come to see if you will let
- me marry your daughter today."
-
- "Today!" gasped Ole.
-
- "Yes, I will not wait until tomorrow. I am tired of living alone."
-
- Ole braced his staggering knees against the bedstead, and
- stammered eloquently: "Do you think I will marry my daughter to a
- drunkard? a man who drinks raw alcohol? a man who sleeps with
- rattle snakes? Get out of my house or I will kick you out
- for your impudence." And Ole began looking anxiously for his feet.
-
- Canute answered not a word, but he put on his hat and went out
- into the kitchen. He went up to Lena and said without looking at
- her, "Get your things on and come with me!"
-
- The tones of his voice startled her, and she said angrily,
- dropping the soap, "Are you drunk?"
-
- "If you do not come with me, I will take you--you had better
- come," said Canute quietly.
-
- She lifted a sheet to strike him, but he caught her arm
- roughly and wrenched the sheet from her. He turned to the wall and
- took down a hood and shawl that hung there, and began wrapping her
- up. Lena scratched and fought like a wild thing. Ole stood in the
- door, cursing, and Mary howled and screeched at the top of her
- voice. As for Canute, he lifted the girl in his arms and went out
- of the house. She kicked and struggled, but the helpless wailing
- of Mary and Ole soon died away in the distance, and her face was
- held down tightly on Canute's shoulder so that she could not see
- whither he was taking her. She was conscious only of the north
- wind whistling in her ears, and of rapid steady motion and of a
- great breast that heaved beneath her in quick, irregular breaths.
- The harder she struggled the tighter those iron arms that had held
- the heels of horses crushed about her, until she felt as if they
- would crush the breath from her, and lay still with fear. Canute
- was striding across the level fields at a pace at which man never
- went before, drawing the stinging north winds into his lungs in
- great gulps. He walked with his eyes half closed and looking
- straight in front of him, only lowering them when he bent his head
- to blow away the snow flakes that settled on her hair. So it was
- that Canute took her to his home, even as his bearded barbarian
- ancestors took the fair frivolous women of the South in their hairy
- arms and bore them down to their war ships. For ever and anon the
- soul becomes weary of the conventions that are not of it, and with
- a single stroke shatters the civilized lies with which it is unable
- to cope, and the strong arm reaches out and takes by force what it
- cannot win by cunning.
-
- When Canute reached his shanty he placed the girl upon a
- chair, where she sat sobbing. He stayed only a few minutes. He
- filled the stove with wood and lit the lamp, drank a huge swallow
- of alcohol and put the bottle in his pocket. He paused a moment,
- staring heavily at the weeping girl, then he went off and locked
- the door and disappeared in the gathering gloom of the night.
-
- Wrapped in flannels and soaked with turpentine, the little
- Norwegian preacher sat reading his Bible, when he heard a
- thundering knock at his door, and Canute entered, covered with snow
- and his beard frozen fast to his coat.
-
- "Come in, Canute, you must be frozen," said the little man,
- shoving a chair towards his visitor.
-
- Canute remained standing with his hat on and said quietly, "I
- want you to come over to my house tonight to marry me to Lena
- Yensen."
-
- "Have you got a license, Canute?"
-
- "No, I don't want a license. I want to be married."
-
- "But I can't marry you without a license, man. it would not be
- legal."
-
- A dangerous light came in the big Norwegian's eye. "I want
- you to come over to my house to marry me to Lena Yensen."
-
- "No, I can't, it would kill an ox to go out in a storm like
- this, and my rheumatism is bad tonight."
-
- "Then if you will not go I must take you," said Canute with a
- sigh.
-
- He took down the preacher's bearskin coat and bade him put it
- on while he hitched up his buggy. He went out and closed the door
- softly after him. Presently he returned and found the frightened
- minister crouching before the fire with his coat lying beside him.
- Canute helped him put it on and gently wrapped his head in his big
- muffler. Then he picked him up and carried him out and placed him
- in his buggy. As he tucked the buffalo robes around him be said:
- "Your horse is old, he might flounder or lose his way in this
- storm. I will lead him."
-
- The minister took the reins feebly in his hands and sat
- shivering with the cold. Sometimes when there was a lull in the
- wind, he could see the horse struggling through the snow with
- the man plodding steadily beside him. Again the blowing snow would
- hide them from him altogether. He had no idea where they were or
- what direction they were going. He felt as though he were being
- whirled away in the heart of the storm, and he said all the prayers
- he knew. But at last the long four miles were over, and Canute set
- him down in the snow while he unlocked the door. He saw the bride
- sitting by the fire with her eyes red and swollen as though she had
- been weeping. Canute placed a huge chair for him, and said
- roughly,--
-
- "Warm yourself."
-
- Lena began to cry and moan afresh, begging the minister to
- take her home. He looked helplessly at Canute. Canute said
- simply,
-
- "If you are warm now, you can marry us."
-
- "My daughter, do you take this step of your own free will?"
- asked the minister in a trembling voice.
-
- "No, sir, I don't, and it is disgraceful he should force me
- into it! I won't marry him."
-
- "Then, Canute, I cannot marry you," said the minister,
- standing as straight as his rheumatic limbs would let him.
-
- "Are you ready to marry us now, sir?" said Canute, laying one
- iron hand on his stooped shoulder. The little preacher was a good
- man, but like most men of weak body he was a coward and had a
- horror of physical suffering, although he had known so much of it.
- So with many qualms of conscience he began to repeat the marriage
- service. Lena sat sullenly in her chair, staring at the fire.
- Canute stood beside her, listening with his head bent reverently
- and his hands folded on his breast. When the little man had prayed
- and said amen, Canute began bundling him up again.
-
- "I will take you home, now," he said as he carried him out and
- placed him in his buggy, and started off with him through the fury
- of the storm, floundering among the snow drifts that brought even
- the giant himself to his knees.
-
- After she was left alone, Lena soon ceased weeping. She was
- not of a particularly sensitive temperament, and had little
- pride beyond that of vanity. After the first bitter anger wore
- itself out, she felt nothing more than a healthy sense of
- humiliation and defeat. She had no inclination to run away, for
- she was married now, and in her eyes that was final and all
- rebellion was useless. She knew nothing about a license, but she
- knew that a preacher married folks. She consoled herself by
- thinking that she had always intended to marry Canute someday,
- anyway.
-
- She grew tired of crying and looking into the fire, so she got
- up and began to look about her. She had heard queer tales about
- the inside of Canute's shanty, and her curiosity soon got the
- better of her rage. One of the first things she noticed was the
- new black suit of clothes hanging on the wall. She was dull, but
- it did not take a vain woman long to interpret anything so
- decidedly flattering, and she was pleased in spite of herself. As
- she looked through the cupboard, the general air of neglect and
- discomfort made her pity the man who lived there.
-
- "Poor fellow, no wonder he wants to get married to get
- somebody to wash up his dishes. Batchin's pretty hard on a man."
-
- It is easy to pity when once one's vanity has been tickled.
- She looked at the windowsill and gave a little shudder and wondered
- if the man were crazy. Then she sat down again and sat a long time
- wondering what her Dick and Ole would do.
-
- "It is queer Dick didn't come right over after me. He surely
- came, for he would have left town before the storm began and he
- might just as well come right on as go back. If he'd hurried he
- would have gotten here before the preacher came. I suppose he was
- afraid to come, for he knew Canuteson could pound him to jelly, the
- coward!" Her eyes flashed angrily.
-
- The weary hours wore on and Lena began to grow horribly
- lonesome. It was an uncanny night and this was an uncanny place to
- be in. She could hear the coyotes howling hungrily a little way
- from the cabin, and more terrible still were all the unknown noises
- of the storm. She remembered the tales they told of the big log
- overhead and she was afraid of those snaky things on the
- windowsills. She remembered the man who had been killed in the
- draw, and she wondered what she would do if she saw crazy Lou's
- white face glaring into the window. The rattling of the door
- became unbearable, she thought the latch must be loose and took the
- lamp to look at it. Then for the first time she saw the ugly brown
- snake skins whose death rattle sounded every time the wind jarred
- the door.
-
- "Canute, Canute!" she screamed in terror.
-
- Outside the door she heard a heavy sound as of a big dog
- getting up and shaking himself. The door opened and Canute stood
- before her, white as a snow drift.
-
- "What is it?" he asked kindly.
-
- "I am cold," she faltered.
-
- He went out and got an armful of wood and a basket of cobs and
- filled the stove. Then he went out and lay in the snow before the
- door. Presently he heard her calling again.
-
- "What is it?" he said, sitting up.
-
- "I'm so lonesome, I'm afraid to stay in here all alone."
-
- "I will go over and get your mother." And he got up.
-
- "She won't come."
-
- "I'll bring her," said Canute grimly.
-
- "No, no. I don't want her, she will scold all the time."
-
- "Well, I will bring your father."
-
- She spoke again and it seemed as though her mouth was close up
- to the key-hole. She spoke lower than he had ever heard her speak
- before, so low that he had to put his ear up to the lock to hear
- her.
-
- "I don't want him either, Canute,--I'd rather have you."
-
- For a moment she heard no noise at all, then something like a
- groan. With a cry of fear she opened the door, and saw Canute
- stretched in the snow at her feet, his face in his hands, sobbing
- on the doorstep.
-
-
-
-
-
- Eric Hermannson's Soul
-
-
- It was a great night at the Lone Star schoolhouse--a night
- when the Spirit was present with power and when God was very near
- to man. So it seemed to Asa Skinner, servant of God and Free
- Gospeller. The schoolhouse was crowded with the saved and
- sanctified, robust men and women, trembling and quailing before the
- power of some mysterious psychic force. Here and there among this
- cowering, sweating multitude crouched some poor wretch who had felt
- the pangs of an awakened conscience, but had not yet experienced
- that complete divestment of reason, that frenzy born of a
- convulsion of the mind, which, in the parlance of the Free
- Gospellers, is termed "the Light." On the floor before the
- mourners' bench lay the unconscious figure of a man in whom
- outraged nature had sought her last resort. This "trance" state
- is the highest evidence of grace among the Free Gospellers, and
- indicates a close walking with God.
-
- Before the desk stood Asa Skinner, shouting of the mercy and
- vengeance of God, and in his eyes shone a terrible earnestness, an
- almost prophetic flame. Asa was a converted train gambler who used
- to run between Omaha and Denver. He was a man made for the
- extremes of life; from the most debauched of men he had become the
- most ascetic. His was a bestial face, a. face that bore the stamp
- of Nature's eternal injustice. The forehead was low, projecting
- over the eyes, and the sandy hair was plastered down over it and
- then brushed back at an abrupt right angle. The chin was heavy,
- the nostrils were low and wide, and the lower lip hung loosely
- except in his moments of spasmodic earnestness, when it shut like
- a steel trap. Yet about those coarse features there were deep,
- rugged furrows, the scars of many a hand-to-hand struggle with the
- weakness of the flesh, and about that drooping lip were sharp,
- strenuous lines that had conquered it and taught it to pray. Over
- those seamed cheeks there was a certain pallor, a greyness caught
- from many a vigil. It was as though, after Nature had done her
- worst with that face, some fine chisel had gone over it, chastening
- and almost transfiguring it. Tonight, as his muscles twitched with
- emotion, and the perspiration dropped from his hair and chin, there
- was a certain convincing power in the man. For Asa Skinner was a
- man possessed of a belief, of that sentiment of the sublime before
- which all inequalities are leveled, that transport of conviction
- which seems superior to all laws of condition, under which
- debauchees have become martyrs; which made a tinker an artist and
- a camel-driver the founder of an empire. This was with Asa Skinner
- tonight, as he stood proclaiming the vengeance of God.
-
- It might have occurred to an impartial observer that Asa
- Skinner's God was indeed a vengeful God if he could reserve
- vengeance for those of his creatures who were packed into the Lone
- Star schoolhouse that night. Poor exiles of all nations; men from
- the south and the north, peasants from almost every country of
- Europe, most of them from the mountainous, night-bound coast of
- Norway. Honest men for the most part, but men with whom the world
- had dealt hardly; the failures of all countries, men sobered by
- toil and saddened by exile, who had been driven to fight for the
- dominion of an untoward soil, to sow where others should gather,
- the advance guard of a mighty civilization to be.
-
- Never had Asa Skinner spoken more earnestly than now. He felt
- that the Lord had this night a special work for him to do. Tonight
- Eric Hermannson, the wildest lad on all the Divide, sat in his
- audience with a fiddle on his knee, just as he had dropped in on
- his way to play for some dance. The violin is an object of
- particular abhorrence to the Free Gospellers. Their antagonism to
- the church organ is bitter enough, but the fiddle they regard as a
- very incarnation of evil desires, singing forever of worldly
- pleasures and inseparably associated with all forbidden things.
-
- Eric Hermannson had long been the object of the prayers of the
- revivalists. His mother had felt the power of the Spirit weeks
- ago, and special prayer-meetings had been held at her house for her
- son. But Eric had only gone his ways laughing, the ways of youth,
- which are short enough at best, and none too flowery on the Divide.
-
- He slipped away from the prayer-meetings to meet the Campbell boys
- in Genereau's saloon, or hug the plump little French girls at
- Chevalier's dances, and sometimes, of a summer night, he even went
- across the dewy cornfields and through the wild-plum thicket to
- play the fiddle for Lena Hanson, whose name was a reproach through
- all the Divide country, where the women are usually too plain and
- too busy and too tired to depart from the ways of virtue. On such
- occasions Lena, attired in a pink wrapper and silk stockings and
- tiny pink slippers, would sing to him, accompanying herself on a
- battered guitar. It gave him a delicious sense of freedom and
- experience to be with a woman who, no matter how, had lived in big
- cities and knew the ways of town folk, who had never worked in the
- fields and had kept her hands white and soft, her throat fair and
- tender, who had heard great singers in Denver and Salt Lake, and
- who knew the strange language of flattery and idleness and mirth.
-
- Yet, careless as he seemed, the frantic prayers of his mother
- were not altogether without their effect upon Eric. For days he
- had been fleeing before them as a criminal from his pursuers, and
- over his pleasures had fallen the shadow of something dark and
- terrible that dogged his steps. The harder he danced, the louder
- he sang, the more was he conscious that this phantom was gaining
- upon him, that in time it would track him down. One Sunday
- afternoon, late in the fall, when he had been drinking beer with
- Lena Hanson and listening to a song which made his cheeks burn, a
- rattlesnake had crawled out of the side of the sod house and thrust
- its ugly head in under the screen door. He was not afraid of
- snakes, but he knew enough of Gospellism to feel the significance
- of the reptile lying coiled there upon her doorstep. His lips were
- cold when he kissed Lena goodbye, and he went there no more.
-
- The final barrier between Eric and his mother's faith was his
- violin, and to that he clung as a man sometimes will cling to his
- dearest sin, to the weakness more precious to him than all his
- strength, In the great world beauty comes to men in many guises,
- and art in a hundred forms, but for Eric there was only his violin.
-
- It stood, to him, for all the manifestations of art; it was his
- only bridge into the kingdom of the soul.
-
- It was to Eric Hermannson that the evangelist directed his
- impassioned pleading that night.
-
- "<i>Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me?</i> Is there a Saul here
- tonight who has stopped his ears to that gentle pleading, who has
- thrust a spear into that bleeding side? Think of it, my brother;
- you are offered this wonderful love and you prefer the worm that
- dieth not and the fire which will not be quenched. What right have
- you to lose one of God's precious souls? <i>Saul, Saul, why
- persecutest thou me?</i>"
-
- A great joy dawned in Asa Skinner's pale face, for he saw that
- Eric Hermannson was swaying to and fro in his seat. The minister
- fell upon his knees and threw his long arms up over his head.
-
- "O my brothers! I feel it coming, the blessing we have prayed
- for. I tell you the Spirit is coming! just a little more prayer,
- brothers, a little more zeal, and he will be here. I can feel his
- cooling wing upon my brow. Glory be to God forever and ever,
- amen!"
-
- The whole congregation groaned under the pressure of this
- spiritual panic. Shouts and hallelujahs went up from every lip.
- Another figure fell prostrate upon the floor. From the mourners'
- bench rose a chant of terror and rapture:
-
-
- "Eating honey and drinking wine,
- <i>Glory to the bleeding Lamb!</i>
- I am my Lord's and he is mine,
- <i>Glory to the bleeding Lamb!"</i>
-
-
- The hymn was sung in a dozen dialects and voiced all the vague
- yearning of these hungry lives, of these people who had starved all
- the passions so long, only to fall victims to the barest of them
- all, fear.
-
- A groan of ultimate anguish rose from Eric Hermannson's bowed
- head, and the sound was like the groan of a great tree when it
- falls in the forest.
-
- The minister rose suddenly to his feet and threw back his
- head, crying in a loud voice:
-
- "<i>Lazarus, come forth!</i> Eric Hermannson, you are lost, going
- down at sea. In the name of God, and Jesus Christ his Son, I throw
- you the life line. Take hold! Almighty God, my soul for his!"
- The minister threw his arms out and lifted his quivering face.
-
- Eric Hermannson rose to his feet; his lips were set and the
- lightning was in his eyes. He took his violin by the neck and
- crushed it to splinters across his knee, and to Asa Skinner the
- sound was like the shackles of sin broken audibly asunder.
-
-
-
- II
-
- For more than two years Eric Hermannson kept the austere faith
- to which he had sworn himself, kept it until a girl from the East
- came to spend a week on the Nebraska Divide. She was a girl of
- other manners and conditions, and there were greater distances
- between her life and Eric's than all the miles which separated
- Rattlesnake Creek from New York City. Indeed, she had no business
- to be in the West at all; but ah! across what leagues of land and
- sea, by what improbable chances, do the unrelenting gods bring to
- us our fate!
-
- It was in a year of financial depression that Wyllis Elliot
- came to Nebraska to buy cheap land and revisit the country where he
- had spent a year of his youth. When he had graduated from Harvard
- it was still customary for moneyed gentlemen to send their
- scapegrace sons to rough it on ranches in the wilds of Nebraska or
- Dakota, or to consign them to a living death in the sagebrush of
- the Black Hills. These young men did not always return to the ways
- of civilized life. But Wyllis Elliot had not married a
- half-breed, nor been shot in a cowpunchers' brawl, nor wrecked by
- bad whisky, nor appropriated by a smirched adventuress. He had
- been saved from these things by a girl, his sister, who had been
- very near to his life ever since the days when they read fairy
- tales together and dreamed the dreams that never come true. On
- this, his first visit to his father's ranch since he left it six
- years before, he brought her with him. She had been laid up half
- the winter from a sprain received while skating, and had had too
- much time for reflection during those months. She was restless and
- filled with a desire to see something of the wild country of which
- her brother had told her so much. She was to be married the next
- winter, and Wyllis understood her when she begged him to take her
- with him on this long, aimless jaunt across the continent, to taste
- the last of their freedom together. it comes to all women of her
- type--that desire to taste the unknown which allures and terrifies,
- to run one's whole soul's length out to the wind--just once.
-
- It had been an eventful journey. Wyllis somehow understood that
- strain of gypsy blood in his sister, and he knew where to take her.
- They had slept in sod houses on the Platte River, made the
- acquaintance of the personnel of a third-rate opera company on the
- train to Deadwood, dined in a camp of railroad constructors at the
- world's end beyond New Castle, gone through the Black Hills on
- horseback, fished for trout in Dome Lake, watched a dance at
- Cripple Creek, where the lost souls who hide in the hills
- gathered for their besotted revelry. And now, last of all, before
- the return to thraldom, there was this little shack, anchored on
- the windy crest of the Divide, a little black dot against the
- flaming sunsets, a scented sea of cornland bathed in opalescent air
- and blinding sunlight.
-
- Margaret Elliot was one of those women of whom there are so
- many in this day, when old order, passing, giveth place to new;
- beautiful, talented, critical, unsatisfied, tired of the world at
- twenty-four. For the moment the life and people of the Divide
- interested her. She was there but a week; perhaps had she stayed
- longer, that inexorable ennui which travels faster even than the
- Vestibule Limited would have overtaken her. The week she
- tarried there was the week that Eric Hermannson was helping Jerry
- Lockhart thresh; a week earlier or a week later, and there would
- have been no story to write.
-
- It was on Thursday and they were to leave on Saturday. Wyllis
- and his sister were sitting on the wide piazza of the ranchhouse,
- staring out into the afternoon sunlight and protesting against the
- gusts of hot wind that blew up from the sandy riverbottom twenty
- miles to the southward.
-
- The young man pulled his cap lower over his eyes and remarked:
-
- "This wind is the real thing; you don't strike it anywhere
- else. You remember we had a touch of it in Algiers and I told you
- it came from Kansas. It's the keynote of this country."
-
- Wyllis touched her hand that lay on the hammock and continued
- gently:
-
- "I hope it's paid you, Sis. Roughing it's dangerous business;
- it takes the taste out of things."
-
- She shut her fingers firmly over the brown hand that was so
- like her own.
-
- "Paid? Why, Wyllis, I haven't been so happy since we were
- children and were going to discover the ruins of Troy together some
- day. Do you know, I believe I could just stay on here forever and
- let the world go on its own gait. It seems as though the tension
- and strain we used to talk of last winter were gone for good, as
- though one could never give one's strength out to such petty things
- any more."
-
- Wyllis brushed the ashes of his pipe away from the silk
- handkerchief that was knotted about his neck and stared moodily off
- at the skyline.
-
- "No, you're mistaken. This would bore you after a while. You
- can't shake the fever of the other life. I've tried it. There was
- a time when the gay fellows of Rome could trot down into the
- Thebaid and burrow into the sandhills and get rid of it. But it's
- all too complex now. You see we've made our dissipations so dainty
- and respectable that they've gone further in than the flesh, and
- taken hold of the ego proper. You couldn't rest, even here. The
- war cry would follow you."
-
- "You don't waste words, Wyllis, but you never miss fire. I
- talk more than you do, without saying half so much. You must have
- learned the art of silence from these taciturn Norwegians. I think
- I like silent men."
-
- "Naturally," said Wyllis, "since you have decided to marry the most
- brilliant talker you know."
-
- Both were silent for a time, listening to the sighing of the
- hot wind through the parched morning-glory vines. Margaret spoke
- first.
-
- "Tell me, Wyllis, were many of the Norwegians you used to know
- as interesting as Eric Hermannson?"
-
- "Who, Siegfried? Well, no. He used to be the flower of the
- Norwegian youth in my day, and he's rather an exception, even now.
- He has retrograded, though. The bonds of the soil have tightened
- on him, I fancy."
-
- "Siegfried? Come, that's rather good, Wyllis. He looks like
- a dragon-slayer. What is it that makes him so different from the
- others? I can talk to him; he seems quite like a human being."
-
- "Well," said Wyllis, meditatively, "I don't read Bourget
- as much as my cultured sister, and I'm not so well up in analysis,
- but I fancy it's because one keeps cherishing a perfectly
- unwarranted suspicion that under that big, hulking anatomy of his,
- he may conceal a soul somewhere. <i>Nicht wahr?</i>"
-
- "Something like that," said Margaret, thoughtfully, "except
- that it's more than a suspicion, and it isn't groundless. He has
- one, and he makes it known, somehow, without speaking."
-
- "I always have my doubts about loquacious souls," Wyllis
- remarked, with the unbelieving smile that had grown habitual with
- him.
-
- Margaret went on, not heeding the interruption. "I knew it
- from the first, when he told me about the suicide of his cousin,
- the Bernstein boy. That kind of blunt pathos can't be summoned at
- will in anybody. The earlier novelists rose to it, sometimes,
- unconsciously. But last night when I sang for him I was doubly
- sure. Oh, I haven't told you about that yet! Better light your
- pipe again. You see, he stumbled in on me in the dark when I was
- pumping away at that old parlour organ to please Mrs. Lockhart
- It's her household fetish and I've forgotten how many pounds of
- butter she made and sold to buy it. Well, Eric stumbled in, and in
- some inarticulate manner made me understand that he wanted me to
- sing for him. I sang just the old things, of course. It's queer
- to sing familiar things here at the world's end. It makes one
- think how the hearts of men have carried them around the world,
- into the wastes of Iceland and the jungles of Africa and the
- islands of the Pacific. I think if one lived here long enough one
- would quite forget how to be trivial, and would read only the great
- books that we never get time to read in the world, and would
- remember only the great music, and the things that are really worth
- while would stand out clearly against that horizon over there. And
- of course I played the intermezzo from <i>Cavalleria Rusticana</i>
- for him; it goes rather better on an organ than most things do. He
- shuffled his feet and twisted his big hands up into knots and
- blurted out that he didn't know there was any music like that in
- the world. Why, there were tears in his voice, Wyllis! Yes, like
- Rossetti, I <i>heard</i> his tears. Then it dawned upon me that it
- was probably the first good music be had ever heard in all his
- life. Think of it, to care for music as he does and never to hear
- it, never to know that it exists on earth! To long for it as we
- long for other perfect experiences that never come. I can't tell
- you what music means to that man. I never saw any one so
- susceptible to it. It gave him speech, he became alive. When I had
- finished the intermezzo, he began telling me about a little
- crippled brother who died and whom he loved and used to carry
- everywhere in his arms. He did not wait for encouragement. He
- took up the story and told it slowly, as if to himself, just sort
- of rose up and told his own woe to answer Mascagni's. It overcame
- me."
-
- "Poor devil," said Wyllis, looking at her with mysterious
- eyes, "and so you've given him a new woe. Now he'll go on
- wanting Grieg and Schubert the rest of his days and never getting
- them. That's a girl's philanthropy for you!"
-
- Jerry Lockhart came out of the house screwing his chin over
- the unusual luxury of a stiff white collar, which his wife insisted
- upon as a necessary article of toilet while Miss Elliot was
- at the house. Jerry sat down on the step and smiled his broad, red
- smile at Margaret.
-
- "Well, I've got the music for your dance, Miss Elliot. Olaf
- Oleson will bring his accordion and Mollie will play the organ,
- when she isn't lookin' after the grub, and a little chap from
- Frenchtown will bring his fiddle--though the French don't mix with
- the Norwegians much."
-
- "Delightful! Mr. Lockhart, that dance will be the feature of
- our trip, and it's so nice of you to get it up for us. We'll see
- the Norwegians in character at last," cried Margaret, cordially.
-
- "See here, Lockhart, I'll settle with you for backing her in
- this scheme," said Wyllis, sitting up and knocking the ashes out of
- his pipe. "She's done crazy things enough on this trip, but to
- talk of dancing all night with a gang of half-mad Norwegians and
- taking the carriage at four to catch the six o'clock train out of
- Riverton--well, it's tommyrot, that's what it is!"
-
- "Wyllis, I leave it to your sovereign power of reason to
- decide whether it isn't easier to stay up all night than to get up
- at three in the morning. To get up at three, think what that
- means! No, sir, I prefer to keep my vigil and then get into a
- sleeper."
-
- "But what do you want with the Norwegians? I thought you were
- tired of dancing."
-
- "So I am, with some people. But I want to see a Norwegian
- dance, and I intend to. Come, Wyllis, you know how seldom it is
- that one really wants to do anything nowadays. I wonder when I
- have really wanted to go to a party before. It will be something
- to remember next month at Newport, when we have to and don't want
- to. Remember your own theory that contrast is about the only thing
- that makes life endurable. This is my party and Mr. Lockhart's;
- your whole duty tomorrow night will consist in being nice to the
- Norwegian girls. I'll warrant you were adept enough at it once.
- And you'd better be very nice indeed, for if there are many such
- young Valkyries as Eric's sister among them, they would simply tie
- you up in a knot if they suspected you were guying them."
-
- Wyllis groaned and sank back into the hammock to consider his
- fate, while his sister went on.
-
- "And the guests, Mr. Lockhart, did they accept?"
-
- Lockhart took out his knife and began sharpening it on the sole of
- his plowshoe.
-
- "Well, I guess we'll have a couple dozen. You see it's pretty
- hard to get a crowd together here any more. Most of 'em have gone
- over to the Free Gospellers, and they'd rather put their feet in
- the fire than shake 'em to a fiddle."
-
- Margaret made a gesture of impatience. "Those Free Gospellers
- have just cast an evil spell over this country, haven't they?"
-
- "Well," said Lockhart, cautiously, "I don't just like to pass
- judgment on any Christian sect, but if you're to know the chosen by
- their works, the Gospellers can't make a very proud showin', an'
- that's a fact. They're responsible for a few suicides, and they've
- sent a good-sized delegation to the state insane asylum, an' I
- don't see as they've made the rest of us much better than we were
- before. I had a little herdboy last spring, as square a little
- Dane as I want to work for me, but after the Gospellers got hold of
- him and sanctified him, the little beggar used to get down on his
- knees out on the prairie and pray by the hour and let the cattle
- get into the corn, an' I had to fire him. That's about the way it
- goes. Now there's Eric; that chap used to be a hustler and the
- spryest dancer in all this section-called all the dances. Now he's
- got no ambition and he's glum as a preacher. I don't suppose we
- can even get him to come in tomorrow night."
-
- "Eric? Why, he must dance, we can't let him off," said
- Margaret, quickly. "Why, I intend to dance with him myself."
-
- "I'm afraid he won't dance. I asked him this morning if he'd
- help us out and he said, 'I don't dance now, any more,' " said
- Lockhart, imitating the laboured English of the Norwegian.
-
- "'The Miller of Hofbau, the Miller of Hofbau, O my Princess!'"
- chirped Wyllis, cheerfully, from his hammock.
-
- The red on his sister's cheek deepened a little, and she
- laughed mischievously. "We'll see about that, sir. I'll not admit
- that I am beaten until I have asked him myself."
-
- Every night Eric rode over to St. Anne, a little village in
- the heart of the French settlement, for the mail. As the road lay
- through the most attractive part of the Divide country, on several
- occasions Margaret Elliot and her brother had accompanied him.
- Tonight Wyllis had business with Lockhart, and Margaret rode
- with Eric, mounted on a frisky little mustang that Mrs. Lockhart
- had broken to the sidesaddle. Margaret regarded her escort very
- much as she did the servant who always accompanied her on long
- rides at home, and the ride to the village was a silent one. She
- was occupied with thoughts of another world, and Eric was wrestling
- with more thoughts than had ever been crowded into his head before.
-
- He rode with his eyes riveted on that slight figure before him, as
- though he wished to absorb it through the optic nerves and hold it
- in his brain forever. He understood the situation perfectly. His
- brain worked slowly, but he had a keen sense of the values of
- things. This girl represented an entirely new species of humanity
- to him, but he knew where to place her. The prophets of old, when
- an angel first appeared unto them, never doubted its high origin.
-
- Eric was patient under the adverse conditions of his life, but
- he was not servile. The Norse blood in him had not entirely lost
- its self-reliance. He came of a proud fisher line, men who were
- not afraid of anything but the ice and the devil, and he had
- prospects before him when his father went down off the North Cape
- in the long Arctic night, and his mother, seized by a violent
- horror of seafaring life, had followed her brother to America.
- Eric was eighteen then, handsome as young Siegfried, a giant in
- stature, with a skin singularly pure and delicate, like a Swede's;
- hair as yellow as the locks of Tennyson's amorous Prince, and eyes
- of a fierce, burning blue, whose flash was most dangerous to women.
-
- He had in those days a certain pride of bearing, a certain
- confidence of approach, that usually accompanies physical
- perfection. It was even said of him then that he was in love with
- life, and inclined to levity, a vice most unusual on the Divide.
- But the sad history of those Norwegian exiles, transplanted in an
- arid soil and under a scorching sun, had repeated itself in his
- case. Toil and isolation had sobered him, and he grew more and
- more like the clods among which he laboured. It was as though some
- red-hot instrument had touched for a moment those delicate
- fibers of the brain which respond to acute pain or pleasure, in
- which lies the power of exquisite sensation, and had seared them
- quite away. It is a painful thing to watch the light die out of
- the eyes of those Norsemen, leaving an expression of impenetrable
- sadness, quite passive, quite hopeless, a shadow that is never
- lifted. With some this change comes almost at once, in the first
- bitterness of homesickness, with others it comes more slowly,
- according to the time it takes each man's heart to die.
-
- Oh, those poor Northmen of the Divide! They are dead many a
- year before they are put to rest in the little graveyard on the
- windy hill where exiles of all nations grow akin.
-
- The peculiar species of hypochondria to which the exiles of
- his people sooner or later succumb had not developed in Eric until
- that night at the Lone Star schoolhouse, when he had broken his
- violin across his knee. After that, the gloom of his people
- settled down upon him, and the gospel of maceration began its work.
-
- <i>"If thine eye offend thee, pluck it out,"</i> et cetera. The
- pagan smile that once hovered about his lips was gone, and he was
- one with sorrow. Religion heals a hundred hearts for one that it
- embitters, but when it destroys, its work is quick and deadly, and
- where the agony of the cross has been, joy will not come again.
- This man understood things literally: one must live without
- pleasure to die without fear; to save the soul, it was necessary to
- starve the soul.
-
- The sun hung low above the cornfields when Margaret and her
- cavalier left St. Anne. South of the town there is a stretch of
- road that runs for some three miles through the French settlement,
- where the prairie is as level as the surface of a lake. There the
- fields of flax and wheat and rye are bordered by precise rows of
- slender, tapering Lombard poplars. It was a yellow world that
- Margaret Elliot saw under the wide light of the setting sun.
-
- The girl gathered up her reins and called back to Eric, "It
- will be safe to run the horses here, won't it?"
-
- "Yes, I think so, now," he answered, touching his spur to his
- pony's flank. They were off like the wind. It is an old
- saying in the West that newcomers always ride a horse or two
- to death before they get broken in to the country. They are
- tempted by the great open spaces and try to outride the horizon, to
- get to the end of something. Margaret galloped over the level
- road, and Eric, from behind, saw her long veil fluttering in the
- wind. It had fluttered just so in his dreams last night and the
- night before. With a sudden inspiration of courage he overtook her
- and rode beside her, looking intently at her half-averted face.
- Before, he had only stolen occasional glances at it, seen it in
- blinding flashes, always with more or less embarrassment, but now
- he determined to let every line of it sink into his memory. Men of
- the world would have said that it was an unusual face, nervous,
- finely cut, with clear, elegant lines that betokened ancestry. Men
- of letters would have called it a historic face, and would have
- conjectured at what old passions, long asleep, what old sorrows
- forgotten time out of mind, doing battle together in ages gone, had
- curved those delicate nostrils, left their unconscious memory in
- those eyes. But Eric read no meaning in these details. To him
- this beauty was something more than colour and line; it was a flash
- of white light, in which one cannot distinguish colour because all
- colours are there. To him it was a complete revelation, an
- embodiment of those dreams of impossible loveliness that linger by
- a young man's pillow on midsummer nights; yet, because it held
- something more than the attraction of health and youth and
- shapeliness, it troubled him, and in its presence he felt as the
- Goths before the white marbles in the Roman Capitol, not knowing
- whether they were men or gods. At times he felt like uncovering
- his head before it, again the fury seized him to break and despoil,
- to find the clay in this spirit-thing and stamp upon it. Away from
- her, he longed to strike out with his arms, and take and hold; it
- maddened him that this woman whom he could break in his hands
- should be so much stronger than he. But near her, he never
- questioned this strength; he admitted its potentiality as he
- admitted the miracles of the Bible; it enervated and conquered him.
-
- Tonight, when he rode so close to her that he could have touched
- her, he knew that he might as well reach out his hand to
- take a star.
-
- Margaret stirred uneasily under his gaze and turned questioningly
- in her saddle.
-
- "This wind puts me a little out of breath when we ride fast,"
- she said.
-
- Eric turned his eyes away.
-
- "I want to ask you if I go to New York to work, if I maybe
- hear music like you sang last night? I been a purty good hand to
- work," he asked, timidly.
-
- Margaret looked at him with surprise, and then, as she studied
- the outline of his face, pityingly.
-
- "Well, you might--but you'd lose a good deal else. I shouldn't
- like you to go to New York--and be poor, you'd be out of
- atmosphere, some way," she said, slowly. Inwardly she was
- thinking: <i>There he would be altogether sordid, impossible--a
- machine who would carry one's trunks upstairs, perhaps. Here he is
- every inch a man, rather picturesque; why is it?</i> "No," she
- added aloud, "I shouldn't like that."
-
- "Then I not go," said Eric, decidedly.
-
- Margaret turned her face to hide a smile. She was a trifle
- amused and a trifle annoyed. Suddenly she spoke again.
-
- "But I'll tell you what I do want you to do, Eric. I want you
- to dance with us tomorrow night and teach me some of the Norwegian
- dances; they say you know them all. Won't you?"
-
- Eric straightened himself in his saddle and his eyes flashed
- as they had done in the Lone Star schoolhouse when he broke his
- violin across his knee.
-
- "Yes, I will," he said, quietly, and he believed that he
- delivered his soul to hell as he said it.
-
- They had reached the rougher country now, where the road wound
- through a narrow cut in one of the bluffs along the creek, when a
- beat of hoofs ahead and the sharp neighing of horses made the
- ponies start and Eric rose in his stirrups. Then down the gulch in
- front of them and over the steep clay banks thundered a herd of
- wild ponies, nimble as monkeys and wild as rabbits, such as horse-
- traders drive east from the plains of Montana to sell in the
- farming country. Margaret's pony made a shrill sound, a neigh that
- was almost a scream, and started up the clay bank to meet them, all
- the wild blood of the range breaking out in an instant. Margaret
- called to Eric just as he threw himself out of the saddle and
- caught her pony's bit. But the wiry little animal had gone mad and
- was kicking and biting like a devil. Her wild brothers of the
- range were all about her, neighing, and pawing the earth, and
- striking her with their forefeet and snapping at her flanks. It
- was the old liberty of the range that the little beast fought for.
-
- "Drop the reins and hold tight, tight!" Eric called, throwing
- all his weight upon the bit, struggling under those frantic
- forefeet that now beat at his breast, and now kicked at the wild
- mustangs that surged and tossed about him. He succeeded in
- wrenching the pony's head toward him and crowding her withers
- against the clay bank, so that she could not roll.
-
- "Hold tight, tight!" he shouted again, launching a kick at a
- snorting animal that reared back against Margaret's saddle. If she
- should lose her courage and fall now, under those hoofs-- He
- struck out again and again, kicking right and left with all his
- might. Already the negligent drivers had galloped into the cut,
- and their long quirts were whistling over the heads of the herd.
- As suddenly as it had come, the struggling, frantic wave of wild
- life swept up out of the gulch and on across the open prairie, and
- with a long despairing whinny of farewell the pony dropped her head
- and stood trembling in her sweat, shaking the foam and blood from
- her bit.
-
- Eric stepped close to Margaret's side and laid his hand on her
- saddle. "You are not hurt?" he asked, hoarsely. As he raised his
- face in the soft starlight she saw that it was white and drawn and
- that his lips were working nervously.
-
- "No, no, not at all. But you, you are suffering; they struck
- you!" she cried in sharp alarm.
-
- He stepped back and drew his hand across his brow.
-
- "No, it is not that," he spoke rapidly now, with his hands
- clenched at his side. "But if they had hurt you, I would beat
- their brains out with my hands. I would kill them all. I
- was never afraid before. You are the only beautiful thing that
- has ever come close to me. You came like an angel out of the sky.
- You are like the music you sing, you are like the stars and the
- snow on the mountains where I played when I was a little boy. You
- are like all that I wanted once and never had, you are all that
- they have killed in me. I die for you tonight, tomorrow, for all
- eternity. I am not a coward; I was afraid because I love you more
- than Christ who died for me, more than I am afraid of hell, or hope
- for heaven. I was never afraid before. If you had fallen--oh, my
- God!" He threw his arms out blindly and dropped his head upon the
- pony's mane, leaning ]imply against the animal like a man struck
- by some sickness. His shoulders rose and fell perceptibly with his
- laboured breathing. The horse stood cowed with exhaustion and
- fear. Presently Margaret laid her hand on Eric's head and said
- gently:
-
- "You are better now, shall we go on? Can you get your horse?"
-
- "No, he has gone with the herd. I will lead yours, she is not
- safe. I will not frighten you again." His voice was still husky,
- but it was steady now. He took hold of the bit and tramped home in
- silence.
-
- When they reached the house, Eric stood stolidly by the pony's
- head until Wyllis came to lift his sister from the saddle.
-
- "The horses were badly frightened, Wyllis. I think I was pretty
- thoroughly scared myself," she said as she took her brother's arm
- and went slowly up the hill toward the house. "No, I'm not hurt,
- thanks to Eric. You must thank him for taking such good care of
- me. He's a mighty fine fellow. I'll tell you all about it in the
- morning, dear. I was pretty well shaken up and I'm going right to
- bed now. Good night."
-
- When she reached the low room in which she slept, she sank
- upon the bed in her riding dress, face downward.
-
- "Oh, I pity him! I pity him!" she murmured, with a long sigh
- of exhaustion. She must have slept a little. When she rose again,
- she took from her dress a letter that had been waiting for her at
- the village post-office. It was closely written in a long,
- angular hand, covering a dozen pages of foreign note-paper, and
- began:
-
- My Dearest Margaret: if I should attempt to say <i>how like
- a winter hath thine absence been</i>, I should incur the risk of
- being tedious. Really, it takes the sparkle out of everything.
- Having nothing better to do, and not caring to go anywhere in
- particular without you, I remained in the city until Jack Courtwell
- noted my general despondency and brought me down here to his place
- on the sound to manage some open-air theatricals he is getting up.
- <i>As You Like It</i> is of course the piece selected. Miss
- Harrison plays Rosalind. I wish you had been here to take the
- part. Miss Harrison reads her lines well, but she is either a
- maiden-all-forlorn or a tomboy; insists on reading into the part
- all sorts of deeper meanings and highly coloured suggestions wholly
- out of harmony with the pastoral setting. Like most of the
- professionals, she exaggerates the emotional element and quite
- fails to do justice to Rosalind's facile wit and really brilliant
- mental qualities. Gerard will do Orlando, but rumor says he is
- <i>epris</i> of your sometime friend, Miss Meredith, and his memory
- is treacherous and his interest fitful.
-
- My new pictures arrived last week on the <i>Gascogne</i>. The
- Puvis de Chavannes is even more beautiful than I thought it in
- Paris. A pale dream-maiden sits by a pale dream-cow and a
- stream of anemic water flows at her feet. The Constant, you
- will remember, I got because you admired it. It is here in
- all its florid splendour, the whole dominated by a glowing
- sensuosity. The drapery of the female figure is as wonderful
- as you said; the fabric all barbaric pearl and gold, painted
- with an easy, effortless voluptuousness, and that white,
- gleaming line of African coast in the background recalls
- memories of you very precious to me. But it is useless to
- deny that Constant irritates me. Though I cannot prove the
- charge against him, his brilliancy always makes me suspect him
- of cheapness.
-
- Here Margaret stopped and glanced at the remaining pages of
- this strange love-letter. They seemed to be filled chiefly with
- discussions of pictures and books, and with a slow smile she laid
- them by.
-
- She rose and began undressing. Before she lay down she went
- to open the window. With her hand on the sill, she hesitated,
- feeling suddenly as though some danger were lurking outside, some
- inordinate desire waiting to spring upon her in the darkness. She
- stood there for a long time, gazing at the infinite sweep of the
- sky.
-
- "Oh, it is all so little, so little there," she murmured.
- "When everything else is so dwarfed, why should one expect love to
- be great? Why should one try to read highly coloured suggestions
- into a life like that? If only I could find one thing in it all
- that mattered greatly, one thing that would warm me when I am
- alone! Will life never give me that one great moment?"
-
- As she raised the window, she heard a sound in the plum bushes
- outside. It was only the house-dog roused from his sleep, but
- Margaret started violently and trembled so that she caught the foot
- of the bed for support. Again she felt herself pursued by some
- overwhelming longing, some desperate necessity for herself, like
- the outstretching of helpless, unseen arms in the darkness, and the
- air seemed heavy with sighs of yearning. She fled to her bed with
- the words, "I love you more than Christ who died for me!" ringing
- in her ears.
-
-
- III
-
- About midnight the dance at Lockhart's was at its height.
- Even the old men who had come to "look on" caught the spirit of
- revelry and stamped the floor with the vigor of old Silenus. Eric
- took the violin from the Frenchmen, and Minna Oleson sat at the
- organ, and the music grew more and more characteristic--rude, half
- mournful music, made up of the folksongs of the North, that the
- villagers sing through the long night in hamlets by the sea, when
- they are thinking of the sun, and the spring, and the fishermen so
- long away. To Margaret some of it sounded like Grieg's <i>Peer
- Gynt</i> music. She found something irresistibly infectious in
- the mirth of these people who were so seldom merry, and she felt
- almost one of them. Something seemed struggling for freedom in
- them tonight, something of the joyous childhood of the nations
- which exile had not killed. The girls were all boisterous with
- delight. Pleasure came to them but rarely, and when it came, they
- caught at it wildly and crushed its fluttering wings in their
- strong brown fingers. They had a hard life enough, most of them.
- Torrid summers and freezing winters, labour and drudgery and
- ignorance, were the portion of their girlhood; a short wooing, a
- hasty, loveless marriage, unlimited maternity, thankless sons,
- premature age and ugliness, were the dower of their womanhood. But
- what matter? Tonight there was hot liquor in the glass and hot
- blood in the heart; tonight they danced.
-
- Tonight Eric Hermannson had renewed his youth. He was no
- longer the big, silent Norwegian who had sat at Margaret's feet and
- looked hopelessly into her eyes. Tonight he was a man, with a
- man's rights and a man's power. Tonight he was Siegfried indeed.
- His hair was yellow as the heavy wheat in the ripe of summer, and
- his eyes flashed like the blue water between the ice packs in the
- north seas. He was not afraid of Margaret tonight, and when he
- danced with her he held her firmly. She was tired and dragged on
- his arm a little, but the strength of the man was like an all-
- pervading fluid, stealing through her veins, awakening under her
- heart some nameless, unsuspected existence that had slumbered there
- all these years and that went out through her throbbing fingertips
- to his that answered. She wondered if the hoydenish blood of some
- lawless ancestor, long asleep, were calling out in her tonight,
- some drop of a hotter fluid that the centuries had failed to cool,
- and why, if this curse were in her, it had not spoken before. But
- was it a curse, this awakening, this wealth before undiscovered,
- this music set free? For the first time in her life her heart held
- something stronger than herself, was not this worthwhile? Then she
- ceased to wonder. She lost sight of the lights and the faces and
- the music was drowned by the beating of her own arteries. She saw
- only the blue eyes that flashed above her, felt only the
- warmth of that throbbing hand which held hers and which the blood
- of his heart fed. Dimly, as in a dream, she saw the drooping
- shoulders, high white forehead and tight, cynical mouth of the man
- she was to marry in December. For an hour she had been crowding
- back the memory of that face with all her strength.
-
- "Let us stop, this is enough," she whispered. His only answer
- was to tighten the arm behind her. She sighed and let that
- masterful strength bear her where it would. She forgot that this
- man was little more than a savage, that they would part at dawn.
- The blood has no memories, no reflections, no regrets for the past,
- no consideration of the future.
-
- "Let us go out where it is cooler," she said when the music
- stopped; thinking, <i>I am growing faint here, I shall be all
- right in the open air</i>. They stepped out into the cool, blue
- air of the night.
-
- Since the older folk had begun dancing, the young Norwegians
- had been slipping out in couples to climb the windmill tower into
- the cooler atmosphere, as is their custom.
-
- "You like to go up?" asked Eric, close to her ear.
-
- She turned and looked at him with suppressed amusement. "How
- high is it?"
-
- "Forty feet, about. I not let you fall." There was a note of
- irresistible pleading in his voice, and she felt that he
- tremendously wished her to go. Well, why not? This was a night of
- the unusual, when she was not herself at all, but was living an
- unreality. Tomorrow, yes, in a few hours, there would be the
- Vestibule Limited and the world.
-
- "Well, if you'll take good care of me. I used to be able to
- climb, when I was a little girl."
-
- Once at the top and seated on the platform, they were silent.
- Margaret wondered if she would not hunger for that scene all her
- life, through all the routine of the days to come. Above them
- stretched the great Western sky, serenely blue, even in the night,
- with its big, burning stars, never so cold and dead and far away as
- in denser atmospheres. The moon would not be up for twenty minutes
- yet, and all about the horizon, that wide horizon, which
- seemed to reach around the world, lingered a pale white light, as
- of a universal dawn. The weary wind brought up to them the heavy
- odours of the cornfields. The music of the dance sounded faintly
- from below. Eric leaned on his elbow beside her, his legs swinging
- down on the ladder. His great shoulders looked more than ever like
- those of the stone Doryphorus, who stands in his perfect, reposeful
- strength in the Louvre, and had often made her wonder if such men
- died forever with the youth of Greece.
-
- "How sweet the corn smells at night," said Margaret nervously.
-
- "Yes, like the flowers that grow in paradise, I think."
-
- She was somewhat startled by this reply, and more startled
- when this taciturn man spoke again.
-
- "You go away tomorrow?"
-
- "Yes, we have stayed longer than we thought to now."
-
- "You not come back any more?"
-
- "No, I expect not. You see, it is a long trip halfway across
- the continent."
-
- "You soon forget about this country, I guess." It seemed to
- him now a little thing to lose his soul for this woman, but that
- she should utterly forget this night into which he threw all his
- life and all his eternity, that was a bitter thought.
-
- "No, Eric, I will not forget. You have all been too kind to
- me for that. And you won't be sorry you danced this one night,
- will you?"
-
- "I never be sorry. I have not been so happy before. I not be
- so happy again, ever. You will be happy many nights yet, I only
- this one. I will dream sometimes, maybe."
-
- The mighty resignation of his tone alarmed and touched her.
- It was as when some great animal composes itself for death, as when
- a great ship goes down at sea.
-
- She sighed, but did not answer him. He drew a little closer
- and looked into her eyes.
-
- "You are not always happy, too?" he asked.
-
- "No, not always, Eric; not very often, I think."
-
- "You have a trouble?"
-
- "Yes, but I cannot put it into words. Perhaps if I could do
- that, I could cure it."
-
- He clasped his hands together over his heart, as children do when
- they pray, and said falteringly, "If I own all the world, I give
- him you."
-
- Margaret felt a sudden moisture in her eyes, and laid her hand
- on his.
-
- "Thank you, Eric; I believe you would. But perhaps even then
- I should not be happy. Perhaps I have too much of it already."
-
- She did not take her hand away from him; she did not dare.
- She sat still and waited for the traditions in which she had always
- believed to speak and save her. But they were dumb. She belonged
- to an ultra-refined civilization which tries to cheat nature with
- elegant sophistries. Cheat nature? Bah! One generation may do
- it, perhaps two, but the third-- Can we ever rise above nature or
- sink below her? Did she not turn on Jerusalem as upon Sodom, upon
- St. Anthony in his desert as upon Nero in his seraglio? Does she
- not always cry in brutal triumph: "I am here still, at the bottom
- of things, warming the roots of life; you cannot starve me nor tame
- me nor thwart me; I made the world, I rule it, and I am its
- destiny."
-
- This woman, on a windmill tower at the world's end with a
- giant barbarian, heard that cry tonight, and she was afraid! Ah!
- the terror and the delight of that moment when first we fear
- ourselves! Until then we have not lived.
-
- "Come, Eric, let us go down; the moon is up and the music has
- begun again," she said.
-
- He rose silently and stepped down upon the ladder, putting his
- arm about her to help her. That arm could have thrown Thor's
- hammer out in the cornfields yonder, yet it scarcely touched her,
- and his hand trembled as it had done in the dance. His face was
- level with hers now and the moonlight fell sharply upon it. All
- her life she had searched the faces of men for the look that lay in
- his eyes. She knew that that look had never shone for her before,
- would never shine for her on earth again, that such love comes to
- one only in dreams or in impossible places like this, unattainable
- always. This was Love's self, in a moment it would die. Stung by
- the agonized appeal that emanated from the man's whole being, she
- leaned forward and laid her lips on his. Once, twice and again she
- heard the deep respirations rattle in his throat while she held
- them there, and the riotous force under her head became an
- engulfing weakness. He drew her up to him until he felt all the
- resistance go out of her body, until every nerve relaxed and
- yielded. When she drew her face back from
- his, it was white with fear.
-
- "Let us go down, oh, my God! let us go down!" she muttered.
- And the drunken stars up yonder seemed reeling to some appointed
- doom as she clung to the rounds of the ladder. All that she was to
- know of love she had left upon his lips.
-
- "The devil is loose again," whispered Olaf Oleson, as he saw Eric
- dancing a moment later, his eyes blazing.
-
- But Eric was thinking with an almost savage exultation of the
- time when he should pay for this. Ah, there would be no quailing
- then! if ever a soul went fearlessly, proudly down to the gates
- infernal, his should go. For a moment he fancied he was there
- already, treading down the tempest of flame, hugging the fiery
- hurricane to his breast. He wondered whether in ages gone, all the
- countless years of sinning in which men had sold and lost and flung
- their souls away, any man had ever so cheated Satan, had ever
- bartered his soul for so great a price.
-
- It seemed but a little while till dawn.
-
- The carriage was brought to the door and Wyllis Elliot and his
- sister said goodbye. She could not meet Eric's eyes as she gave
- him her hand, but as he stood by the horse's head, just as the
- carriage moved off, she gave him one swift glance that said, "I
- will not forget." In a moment the carriage was gone.
-
- Eric changed his coat and plunged his head into the water tank
- and went to the barn to hook up his team. As he led his horses to
- the door, a shadow fell across his path, and he saw Skinner rising
- in his stirrups. His rugged face was pale and worn with looking
- after his wayward flock, with dragging men into the way of
- salvation.
-
- "Good morning, Eric. There was a dance here last night?" he
- asked, sternly.
-
- "A dance? Oh, yes, a dance," replied Eric, cheerfully.
-
- "Certainly you did not dance, Eric?"
-
- "Yes, I danced. I danced all the time."
-
- The minister's shoulders drooped, and an expression of profound
- discouragement settled over his haggard face. There was almost
- anguish in the yearning he felt for this soul.
-
- "Eric, I didn't look for this from you. I thought God had set
- his mark on you if he ever had on any man. And it is for things
- like this that you set your soul back a thousand years from God. 0
- foolish and perverse generation!"
-
- Eric drew himself up to his full height and looked off to
- where the new day was gilding the corn-tassels and flooding the
- uplands with light. As his nostrils drew in the breath of the dew
- and the morning, something from the only poetry he had ever read
- flashed across his mind, and he murmured, half to himself, with
- dreamy exultation:
-
- "'And a day shall be as a thousand years, and a thousand years
- as a day.'"
-
-
-
-
- The Enchanted Bluff
-
- We had our swim before sundown, and while we were cooking our
- supper the oblique rays of light made a dazzling glare on the white
- sand about us. The translucent red ball itself sank behind the
- brown stretches of cornfield as we sat down to eat, and the warm
- layer of air that had rested over the water and our clean sand bar
- grew fresher and smelled of the rank ironweed and sunflowers
- growing on the flatter shore. The river was brown and sluggish,
- like any other of the half-dozen streams that water the Nebraska
- corn lands. On one shore was an irregular line of bald clay bluffs
- where a few scrub oaks with thick trunks and flat, twisted tops
- threw light shadows on the long grass. The western shore was low
- and level, with cornfields that stretched to the skyline, and all
- along the water's edge were little sandy coves and beaches where
- slim cottonwoods and willow saplings flickered.
-
- The turbulence of the river in springtime discouraged milling,
- and, beyond keeping the old red bridge in repair, the busy farmers
- did not concern themselves with the stream; so the Sandtown boys
- were left in undisputed possession. In the autumn we hunted quail
- through the miles of stubble and fodder land along the flat shore,
- and, after the winter skating season was over and the ice had gone
- out, the spring freshets and flooded bottoms gave us our great
- excitement of the year. The channel was never the same for two
- successive seasons. Every spring the swollen stream undermined a
- bluff to the east, or bit out a few acres of cornfield to the west
- and whirled the soil away, to deposit it in spumy mud banks
- somewhere else. When the water fell low in midsummer, new sand
- bars were thus exposed to dry and whiten in the August sun.
- Sometimes these were banked so firmly that the fury of the next
- freshet failed to unseat them; the little willow seedlings emerged
- triumphantly from the yellow froth, broke into spring leaf, shot up
- into summer growth, and with their mesh of roots bound together the
- moist sand beneath them against the batterings of another April.
- Here and there a cottonwood soon glittered among them, quivering in
- the low current of air that, even on breathless days when the dust
- hung like smoke above the wagon road, trembled along the face of
- the water.
-
- It was on such an island, in the third summer of its yellow
- green, that we built our watch fire; not in the thicket of dancing
- willow wands, but on the level terrace of fine sand which had been
- added that spring; a little new bit of world, beautifully ridged
- with ripple marks, and strewn with the tiny skeletons of turtles
- and fish, all as white and dry as if they had been expertly cured.
- We had been careful not to mar the freshness of the place, although
- we often swam to it on summer evenings and lay on the sand to rest.
-
- This was our last watch fire of the year, and there were
- reasons why I should remember it better than any of the others.
- Next week the other boys were to file back to their old places in
- the Sandtown High School, but I was to go up to the Divide to teach
- my first country school in the Norwegian district. I was already
- homesick at the thought of quitting the boys with whom I had always
- played; of leaving the river, and going up into a windy plain that
- was all windmills and cornfields and big pastures; where there was
- nothing wilful or unmanageable in the landscape, no new islands,
- and no chance of unfamiliar birds--such as often followed the
- watercourses.
-
- Other boys came and went and used the river for fishing or
- skating, but we six were sworn to the spirit of the stream, and we
- were friends mainly because of the river. There were the two
- Hassler boys, Fritz and Otto, sons of the little German tailor.
- They were the youngest of us; ragged boys of ten and twelve, with
- sunburned hair, weather-stained faces, and pale blue eyes. Otto,
- the elder, was the best mathematician in school, and clever
- at his books, but he always dropped out in the spring term as if
- the river could not get on without him. He and Fritz caught the
- fat, horned catfish and sold them about the town, and they lived
- so much in the water that they were as brown and sandy as the river
- itself.
-
- There was Percy Pound, a fat, freckled boy with chubby cheeks,
- who took half a dozen boys' story-papers and was always being kept
- in for reading detective stories behind his desk. There was Tip
- Smith, destined by his freckles and red hair to be the buffoon in
- all our games, though he walked like a timid little old man and had
- a funny, cracked laugh. Tip worked hard in his father's grocery
- store every afternoon, and swept it out before school in the
- morning. Even his recreations were laborious. He collected
- cigarette cards and tin tobacco-tags indefatigably, and would sit
- for hours humped up over a snarling little scroll-saw which he kept
- in his attic. His dearest possessions were some little pill
- bottles that purported to contain grains of wheat from the Holy
- Land, water from the Jordan and the Dead Sea, and earth from the
- Mount of Olives. His father had bought these dull things from a
- Baptist missionary who peddled them, and Tip seemed to derive great
- satisfaction from their remote origin.
-
- The tall boy was Arthur Adams. He had fine hazel eves that
- were almost too reflective and sympathetic for a boy, and such a
- pleasant voice that we all loved to hear him read aloud. Even when
- he had to read poetry aloud at school, no one ever thought of
- laughing. To be sure, he was not at school very much of the time.
- He was seventeen and should have finished the High School the year
- before, but he was always off somewhere with his gun. Arthur's
- mother was dead, and his father, who was feverishly absorbed in
- promoting schemes, wanted to send the boy away to school and get
- him off his hands; but Arthur always begged off for another year
- and promised to study. I remember him as a tall, brown boy with an
- intelligent face, always lounging among a lot of us little fellows,
- laughing at us oftener than with us, but such a soft, satisfied
- laugh that we felt rather flattered when we provoked it. In
- after-years people said that Arthur had been given to evil ways
- as a ]ad, and it is true that we often saw him with the gambler's
- sons and with old Spanish Fanny's boy, but if he learned anything
- ugly in their company he never betrayed it to us. We would have
- followed Arthur anywhere, and I am bound to say that he led us into
- no worse places than the cattail marshes and the stubble fields.
- These, then, were the boys who camped with me that summer night
- upon the sand bar.
-
- After we finished our supper we beat the willow thicket for
- driftwood. By the time we had collected enough, night had fallen,
- and the pungent, weedy smell from the shore increased with the
- coolness. We threw ourselves down about the fire and made another
- futile effort to show Percy Pound the Little Dipper. We had tried
- it often before, but he could never be got past the big one.
-
- "You see those three big stars just below the handle, with the
- bright one in the middle?" said Otto Hassler; "that's Orion's belt,
- and the bright one is the clasp." I crawled behind Otto's shoulder
- and sighted up his arm to the star that seemed perched upon the tip
- of his steady forefinger. The Hassler boys did seine-fishing at
- night, and they knew a good many stars.
-
- Percy gave up the Little Dipper and lay back on the sand, his
- hands clasped under his head. "I can see the North Star," he
- announced, contentedly, pointing toward it with his big toe.
- "Anyone might get lost and need to know that."
-
- We all looked up at it.
-
- "How do you suppose Columbus felt when his compass didn't
- point north any more?" Tip asked.
-
- Otto shook his head. "My father says that there was another
- North Star once, and that maybe this one won't last always. I
- wonder what would happen to us down here if anything went wrong
- with it?"
-
- Arthur chuckled. "I wouldn't worry, Ott. Nothing's apt to
- happen to it in your time. Look at the Milky Way! There must be
- lots of good dead Indians."
-
- We lay back and looked, meditating, at the dark cover of the
- world. The gurgle of the water had become heavier. We had often
- noticed a mutinous, complaining note in it at night, quite
- different from its cheerful daytime chuckle, and seeming like the
- voice of a much deeper and more powerful stream. Our water had
- always these two moods: the one of sunny complaisance, the other of
- inconsolable, passionate regret.
-
- "Queer how the stars are all in sort of diagrams," remarked
- Otto. "You could do most any proposition in geometry with 'em.
- They always look as if they meant something. Some folks say
- everybody's fortune is all written out in the stars, don't they?"
-
- "They believe so in the old country," Fritz affirmed.
-
- But Arthur only laughed at him. "You're thinking of Napoleon,
- Fritzey. He had a star that went out when he began to lose
- battles. I guess the stars don't keep any close tally on Sandtown
- folks."
-
- We were speculating on how many times we could count a hundred
- before the evening star went down behind the cornfields, when
- someone cried, "There comes the moon, and it's as big as a cart
- wheel!"
-
- We all jumped up to greet it as it swam over the bluffs behind
- us. It came up like a galleon in full sail; an enormous, barbaric
- thing, red as an angry heathen god.
-
- "When the moon came up red like that, the Aztecs used to
- sacrifice their prisoners on the temple top," Percy announced.
-
- "Go on, Perce. You got that out of <i>Golden Days</i>. Do you
- believe that, Arthur?" I appealed.
-
- Arthur answered, quite seriously: "Like as not. The moon was
- one of their gods. When my father was in Mexico City he saw the
- stone where they used to sacrifice their prisoners."
-
- As we dropped down by the fire again some one asked whether
- the Mound-Builders were older than the Aztecs. When we once got
- upon the Mound-Builders we never willingly got away from them, and
- we were still conjecturing when we heard a loud splash in the
- water.
-
- "Must have been a big cat jumping," said Fritz. "They do
- sometimes. They must see bugs in the dark. Look what a track the
- moon makes!"
-
- There was a long, silvery streak on the water, and where the
- current fretted over a big log it boiled up like gold pieces.
-
- "Suppose there ever <i>was</i> any gold hid away in this old
- river?" Fritz asked. He lay like a little brown Indian, close to
- the fire, his chin on his hand and his bare feet in the air. His
- brother laughed at him, but Arthur took his suggestion seriously.
-
- "Some of the Spaniards thought there was gold up here somewhere.
- Seven cities chuck full of gold, they had it, and Coronado and his
- men came up to hunt it. The Spaniards were all over this country
- once."
-
- Percy looked interested. "Was that before the Mormons went
- through?"
-
- We all laughed at this.
-
- "Long enough before. Before the Pilgrim Fathers, Perce. Maybe
- they came along this very river. They always followed the
- watercourses."
-
- "I wonder where this river really does begin?" Tip mused.
- That was an old and a favorite mystery which the map did not
- clearly explain. On the map the little black line stopped
- somewhere in western Kansas; but since rivers generally rose in
- mountains, it was only reasonable to suppose that ours came from
- the Rockies. Its destination, we knew, was the Missouri, and the
- Hassler boys always maintained that we could embark at Sandtown in
- floodtime, follow our noses, and eventually arrive at New Orleans.
- Now they took up their old argument. "If us boys had grit enough
- to try it, it wouldn't take no time to get to Kansas City and St.
- Joe."
-
- We began to talk about the places we wanted to go to. The
- Hassler boys wanted to see the stockyards in Kansas City, and Percy
- wanted to see a big store in Chicago. Arthur was interlocutor and
- did not betray himself.
-
- "Now it's your turn, Tip."
-
- Tip rolled over on his elbow and poked the fire, and his eyes
- looked shyly out of his queer, tight little face. "My place is
- awful far away. My Uncle Bill told me about it."
-
- Tip's Uncle Bill was a wanderer, bitten with mining fever, who
- had drifted into Sandtown with a broken arm, and when it was well
- had drifted out again.
-
- "Where is it?"
-
- "Aw, it's down in New Mexico somewheres. There aren't no
- railroads or anything. You have to go on mules, and you run out of
- water before you get there and have to drink canned tomatoes."
-
- "Well, go on, kid. What's it like when you do get there?"
-
- Tip sat up and excitedly began his story.
-
- "There's a big red rock there that goes right up out of the
- sand for about nine hundred feet. The country's flat all around
- it, and this here rock goes up all by itself, like a monument.
- They call it the Enchanted Bluff down there, because no white man
- has ever been on top of it. The sides are smooth rock, and
- straight up, like a wall. The Indians say that hundreds of years
- ago, before the Spaniards came, there was a village away up there
- in the air. The tribe that lived there had some sort of steps,
- made out of wood and bark, bung down over the face of the bluff,
- and the braves went down to hunt and carried water up in big jars
- swung on their backs. They kept a big supply of water and dried
- meat up there, and never went down except to hunt. They were a
- peaceful tribe that made cloth and pottery, and they went up there
- to get out of the wars. You see, they could pick off any war party
- that tried to get up their little steps. The Indians say they were
- a handsome people, and they had some sort of queer religion. Uncle
- Bill thinks they were Cliff-Dwellers who had got into trouble and
- left home. They weren't fighters, anyhow.
-
- "One time the braves were down hunting and an awful storm came
- up--a kind of waterspout--and when they got back to their rock they
- found their little staircase had been all broken to pieces, and
- only a few steps were left hanging away up in the air. While they
- were camped at the foot of the rock, wondering what to do, a
- war party from the north came along and massacred 'em to a man,
- with all the old folks and women looking on from the rock. Then
- the war party went on south and left the village to get down the
- best way they could. Of course they never got down. They starved
- to death up there, and when the war party came back on their way
- north, they could hear the children crying from the edge of the
- bluff where they had crawled out, but they didn't see a sign of a
- grown Indian, and nobody has ever been up there since."
-
- We exclaimed at this dolorous legend and sat up.
-
- "There couldn't have been many people up there," Percy demurred.
- "How big is the top, Tip?"
-
- "Oh, pretty big. Big enough so that the rock doesn't look
- nearly as tall as it is. The top's bigger than the base. The
- bluff is sort of worn away for several hundred feet up. That's one
- reason it's so hard to climb."
-
- I asked how the Indians got up, in the first place.
-
- "Nobody knows how they got up or when. A hunting party came
- along once and saw that there was a town up there, and that was
- all."
-
- Otto rubbed his chin and looked thoughtful. "Of course there
- must be some way to get up there. Couldn't people get a rope over
- someway and pull a ladder up?"
-
- Tip's little eyes were shining with excitement. "I know a
- way. Me and Uncle Bill talked it over. There's a kind of rocket
- that would take a rope over--lifesavers use 'em--and then you could
- hoist a rope ladder and peg it down at the bottom and make it tight
- with guy ropes on the other side. I'm going to climb that there
- bluff, and I've got it all planned out."
-
- Fritz asked what he expected to find when he got up there.
-
- "Bones, maybe, or the ruins of their town, or pottery, or some
- of their idols. There might be 'most anything up there. Anyhow,
- I want to see."
-
- "Sure nobody else has been up there, Tip?" Arthur asked.
-
- "Dead sure. Hardly anybody ever goes down there. Some hunters
- tried to cut steps in the rock once, but they didn't get higher
- than a man can reach. The Bluff's all red granite, and Uncle Bill
- thinks it's a boulder the glaciers left. It's a queer place,
- anyhow. Nothing but cactus and desert for hundreds of miles, and
- yet right under the Bluff there's good water and plenty of grass.
- That's why the bison used to go down there."
-
- Suddenly we heard a scream above our fire, and jumped up to
- see a dark, slim bird floating southward far above us--a whooping
- crane, we knew by her cry and her long neck. We ran to the edge of
- the island, hoping we might see her alight, but she wavered
- southward along the rivercourse until we lost her. The Hassler
- boys declared that by the look of the heavens it must be after
- midnight, so we threw more wood on our fire, put on our jackets,
- and curled down in the warm sand. Several of us pretended to doze,
- but I fancy we were really thinking about Tip's Bluff and the
- extinct people. Over in the wood the ring doves were calling
- mournfully to one another, and once we heard a dog bark, far away.
- "Somebody getting into old Tommy's melon patch," Fritz murmured
- sleepily, but nobody answered him. By and by Percy spoke out of
- the shadows.
-
- "Say, Tip, when you go down there will you take me with you?"
-
- "Maybe."
-
- "Suppose one of us beats you down there, Tip?"
-
- "Whoever gets to the Bluff first has got to promise to tell
- the rest of us exactly what he finds," remarked one of the Hassler
- boys, and to this we all readily assented.
-
- Somewhat reassured, I dropped off to sleep. I must have
- dreamed about a race for the Bluff, for I awoke in a kind of fear
- that other people were getting ahead of me and that I was losing my
- chance. I sat up in my damp clothes and looked at the other boys,
- who lay tumbled in uneasy attitudes about the dead fire. It was
- still dark, but the sky was blue with the last wonderful azure of
- night. The stars glistened like crystal globes, and trembled as if
- they shone through a depth of clear water. Even as I watched, they
- began to pale and the sky brightened. Day came suddenly, almost
- instantaneously. I turned for another look at the blue
- night, and it was gone. Everywhere the birds began to call, and
- all manner of little insects began to chirp and hop about in the
- willows. A breeze sprang up from the west and brought the heavy
- smell of ripened corn. The boys rolled over and shook themselves.
- We stripped and plunged into the river just as the sun came up over
- the windy bluffs.
-
- When I came home to Sandtown at Christmas time, we skated out
- to our island and talked over the whole project of the Enchanted
- Bluff, renewing our resolution to find it.
-
-
- Although that was twenty years ago, none of us have ever
- climbed the Enchanted Bluff. Percy Pound is a stockbroker in
- Kansas City and will go nowhere that his red touring car cannot
- carry him. Otto Hassler went on the railroad and lost his foot
- braking; after which he and Fritz succeeded their father as the
- town tailors.
-
- Arthur sat about the sleepy little town all his life--he died
- before he was twenty-five. The last time I saw him, when I was
- home on one of my college vacations, he was sitting in a steamer
- chair under a cottonwood tree in the little yard behind one of the
- two Sandtown saloons. He was very untidy and his hand was not
- steady, but when he rose, unabashed, to greet me, his eyes were as
- clear and warm as ever. When I had talked with him for an hour and
- heard him laugh again, I wondered how it was that when Nature had
- taken such pains with a man, from his hands to the arch of his long
- foot, she had ever lost him in Sandtown. He joked about Tip
- Smith's Bluff, and declared he was going down there just as soon as
- the weather got cooler; he thought the Grand Canyon might be worth
- while, too.
-
- I was perfectly sure when I left him that he would never get
- beyond the high plank fence and the comfortable shade of the
- cottonwood. And, indeed, it was under that very tree that he died
- one summer morning.
-
- Tip Smith still talks about going to New Mexico. He married
- a slatternly, unthrifty country girl, has been much tied to a
- perambulator, and has grown stooped and grey from irregular
- meals and broken sleep. But the worst of his difficulties are now
- over, and he has, as he says, come into easy water. When I was
- last in Sandtown I walked home with him late one moonlight night,
- after he had balanced his cash and shut up his store. We took the
- long way around and sat down on the schoolhouse steps, and between
- us we quite revived the romance of the lone red rock and the
- extinct people. Tip insists that he still means to go down there,
- but he thinks now he will wait until his boy Bert is old enough to
- go with him. Bert has been let into the story, and thinks of
- nothing but the Enchanted Bluff.
-
-
-
-
-
-
- The Bohemian Girl
-
- The transcontinental express swung along the windings of the
- Sand River Valley, and in the rear seat of the observation car a
- young man sat greatly at his ease, not in the least discomfited by
- the fierce sunlight which beat in upon his brown face and neck and
- strong back. There was a look of relaxation and of great passivity
- about his broad shoulders, which seemed almost too heavy until he
- stood up and squared them. He wore a pale flannel shirt and a blue
- silk necktie with loose ends. His trousers were wide and belted at
- the waist, and his short sack coat hung open. His heavy shoes had
- seen good service. His reddish-brown hair, like his clothes, had
- a foreign cut. He had deep-set, dark blue eyes under heavy reddish
- eyebrows. His face was kept clean only by close shaving, and even
- the sharpest razor left a glint of yellow in the smooth brown of
- his skin. His teeth and the palms of his hands were very white.
- His head, which looked hard and stubborn, lay indolently in the
- green cushion of the wicker chair, and as he looked out at the ripe
- summer country a teasing, not unkindly smile played over his lips.
- Once, as he basked thus comfortably, a quick light flashed in his
- eves, curiously dilating the pupils, and his mouth became a hard,
- straight line, gradually relaxing into its former smile of rather
- kindly mockery. He told himself, apparently, that there was no
- point in getting excited; and he seemed a master hand at taking his
- ease when he could. Neither the sharp whistle of the locomotive
- nor the brakeman's call disturbed him. It was not until after the
- train had stopped that he rose, put on a Panama hat, took from the
- rack a small valise and a flute case, and stepped deliberately to
- the station platform. The baggage was already unloaded, and the
- stranger presented a check for a battered sole-leather steamer
- trunk.
-
- "Can you keep it here for a day or two?" he asked the agent. "I
- may send for it, and I may not."
-
- "Depends on whether you like the country, I suppose?" demanded
- the agent in a challenging tone.
-
- "Just so."
-
- The agent shrugged his shoulders, looked scornfully at the
- small trunk, which was marked "N.E.," and handed out a claim check
- without further comment. The stranger watched him as he caught one
- end of the trunk and dragged it into the express room. The agent's
- manner seemed to remind him of something amusing. "Doesn't seem to
- be a very big place," he remarked, looking about.
-
- "It's big enough for us," snapped the agent, as he banged the
- trunk into a corner.
-
- That remark, apparently, was what Nils Ericson had wanted. He
- chuckled quietly as he took a leather strap from his pocket and
- swung his valise around his shoulder. Then he settled his Panama
- securely on his head, turned up his trousers, tucked the flute case
- under his arm, and started off across the fields. He gave the
- town, as he would have said, a wide berth, and cut through a great
- fenced pasture, emerging, when he rolled under the barbed wire at
- the farther corner, upon a white dusty road which ran straight up
- from the river valley to the high prairies, where the ripe wheat
- stood yellow and the tin roofs and weathercocks were twinkling in
- the fierce sunlight. By the time Nils had done three miles, the
- sun was sinking and the farm wagons on their way home from town
- came rattling by, covering him with dust and making him sneeze.
- When one of the farmers pulled up and offered to give him a lift,
- he clambered in willingly. The driver was a thin, grizzled old man
- with a long lean neck and a foolish sort of beard, like a goat's.
- "How fur ye goin'?" he asked, as he clucked to his horses and
- started off.
-
- "Do you go by the Ericson place?"
-
- "Which Ericson?" The old man drew in his reins as if he expected
- to stop again.
-
- "Preacher Ericson's."
-
- "Oh, the Old Lady Ericson's!" He turned and looked at Nils.
- "La, me! If you're goin' out there you might a' rid out in the
- automobile. That's a pity, now. The Old Lady Ericson was in town
- with her auto. You might 'a' heard it snortin' anywhere about the
- post-office er the butcher shop."
-
- "Has she a motor?" asked the stranger absently.
-
- "'Deed an' she has! She runs into town every night about this
- time for her mail and meat for supper. Some folks say she's afraid
- her auto won't get exercise enough, but I say that's jealousy."
-
- "Aren't there any other motors about here?"
-
- "Oh, yes! we have fourteen in all. But nobody else gets
- around like the Old Lady Ericson. She's out, rain er shine, over
- the whole county, chargin' into town and out amongst her farms, an'
- up to her sons' places. Sure you ain't goin' to the wrong place?"
- He craned his neck and looked at Nils' flute case with eager
- curiosity. "The old woman ain't got any piany that I knows on.
- Olaf, he has a grand. His wife's musical: took lessons in
- Chicago."
-
- "I'm going up there tomorrow," said Nils imperturbably. He
- saw that the driver took him for a piano tuner.
-
- "Oh, I see!" The old man screwed up his eyes mysteriously. He
- was a little dashed by the stranger's noncommunicativeness, but he
- soon broke out again.
-
- "I'm one o' Miss Ericson's tenants. Look after one of her
- places. I did own the place myself once, but I lost it a while
- back, in the bad years just after the World's Fair. Just as well,
- too, I say. Lets you out o' payin' taxes. The Ericsons do own
- most of the county now. I remember the old preacher's favorite
- text used to be, 'To them that hath shall be given.' They've spread
- something wonderful--run over this here country like bindweed. But
- I ain't one that begretches it to 'em. Folks is entitled to what
- they kin git; and they're hustlers. Olaf, he's in the Legislature
- now, and a likely man fur Congress. Listen, if that ain't the old
- woman comin' now. Want I should stop her?"
-
- Nils shook his head. He heard the deep chug-chug of a motor
- vibrating steadily in the clear twilight behind them. The pale
- lights of the car swam over the hill, and the old man slapped his
- reins and turned clear out of the road, ducking his head at
- the first of three angry snorts from behind. The motor was running
- at a hot, even speed, and passed without turning an inch from its
- course. The driver was a stalwart woman who sat at ease in the
- front seat and drove her car bareheaded. She left a cloud of dust
- and a trail of gasoline behind her. Her tenant threw back his head
- and sneezed.
-
- "Whew! I sometimes say I'd as lief be <i>before</i> Mrs. Ericson
- as behind her. She does beat all! Nearly seventy, and never lets
- another soul touch that car. Puts it into commission herself
- every morning, and keeps it tuned up by the hitch-bar all day. I
- never stop work for a drink o' water that I don't hear her a-
- churnin' up the road. I reckon her darter-in-laws never sets
- down easy nowadays. Never know when she'll pop in. Mis' Otto,
- she says to me: 'We're so afraid that thing'll blow up and do Ma
- some injury yet, she's so turrible venturesome.' Says I: 'I
- wouldn't stew, Mis' Otto; the old lady'll drive that car to the
- funeral of every darter-in-law she's got.' That was after the old
- woman had jumped a turrible bad culvert."
-
- The stranger heard vaguely what the old man was saying.
- Just now he was experiencing something very much like
- homesickness, and he was wondering what had brought it about.
- The mention of a name or two, perhaps; the rattle of a wagon
- along a dusty road; the rank, resinous smell of sunflowers and
- ironweed, which the night damp brought up from the draws and low
- places; perhaps, more than all, the dancing lights of the motor
- that had plunged by. He squared his shoulders with a comfortable
- sense of strength.
-
- The wagon, as it jolted westward, climbed a pretty steady
- up-grade. The country, receding from the rough river valley,
- swelled more and more gently, as if it had been smoothed out by
- the wind. On one of the last of the rugged ridges, at the end of
- a branch road, stood a grim square house with a tin roof and
- double porches. Behind the house stretched a row of broken,
- wind-racked poplars, and down the hill slope to the left
- straggled the sheds and stables. The old man stopped his horses
- where the Ericsons' road branched across a dry sand creek that
- wound about the foot of the hill.
-
- "That's the old lady's place. Want I should drive in?" "No,
- thank you. I'll roll out here. Much obliged to you. Good
- night."
-
- His passenger stepped down over the front wheel, and the old
- man drove on reluctantly, looking back as if he would like to see
- how the stranger would be received.
-
- As Nils was crossing the dry creek he heard the restive
- tramp of a horse coming toward him down the hill. Instantly he
- flashed out of the road and stood behind a thicket of wild plum
- bushes that grew in the sandy bed. Peering through the dusk, be
- saw a light horse, under tight rein, descending the hill at a
- sharp walk. The rider was a slender woman--barely visible
- against the dark hillside--wearing an old-fashioned derby hat and
- a long riding skirt. She sat lightly in the saddle, with her
- chin high, and seemed to be looking into the distance. As she
- passed the plum thicket her horse snuffed the air and shied. She
- struck him, pulling him in sharply, with an angry exclamation,
- <i>"Blazne!"</i> in Bohemian. Once in the main road, she let him
- out into a lope, and they soon emerged upon the crest of high land,
- where they moved along the skyline, silhouetted against the band
- of faint colour that lingered in the west. This horse and rider,
- with their free, rhythmical gallop, were the only moving things
- to be seen on the face of the flat country. They seemed, in the
- last sad light of evening, not to be there accidentally, but as
- an inevitable detail of the landscape.
-
- Nils watched them until they had shrunk to a mere moving
- speck against the sky, then he crossed the sand creek and climbed
- the hill. When he reached the gate the front of the house was
- dark, but a light was shining from the side windows. The pigs
- were squealing in the hog corral, and Nils could see a tall boy,
- who carried two big wooden buckets, moving about among them.
- Halfway between the barn and the house, the windmill wheezed
- lazily. Following the path that ran around to the back porch,
- Nils stopped to look through the screen door into the lamplit
- kitchen. The kitchen was the largest room in the house; Nils
- remembered that his older brothers used to give dances there when
- he was a boy. Beside the stove stood a little girl with two
- light yellow braids and a broad, flushed face, peering
- anxiously into a frying pan. In the dining-room beyond, a large,
- broad-shouldered woman was moving about the table. She walked
- with an active, springy step. Her face was heavy and florid,
- almost without wrinkles, and her hair was black at seventy. Nils
- felt proud of her as he watched her deliberate activity; never a
- momentary hesitation, or a movement that did not tell. He waited
- until she came out into the kitchen and, brushing the child aside,
- took her place at the stove. Then he tapped on the screen door
- and entered.
-
- "It's nobody but Nils, Mother. I expect you weren't looking
- for me."
-
- Mrs. Ericson turned away from the stove and stood staring at
- him. "Bring the lamp, Hilda, and let me look."
-
- Nils laughed and unslung his valise. "What's the matter,
- Mother? Don't you know me?"
-
- Mrs. Ericson put down the lamp. "You must be Nils. You
- don't look very different, anyway."
-
- "Nor you, Mother. You hold your own. Don't you wear
- glasses yet?"
-
- "Only to read by. Where's your trunk, Nils?"
-
- "Oh, I left that in town. I thought it might not be
- convenient for you to have company so near threshing-time."
-
- "Don't be foolish, Nils." Mrs. Ericson turned back to the
- stove. "I don't thresh now. I hitched the wheat land onto the
- next farm and have a tenant. Hilda, take some hot water up to
- the company room, and go call little Eric."
-
- The tow-haired child, who had been standing in mute
- amazement, took up the tea-kettle and withdrew, giving Nils a
- long, admiring look from the door of the kitchen stairs.
-
- "Who's the youngster?" Nils asked, dropping down on the
- bench behind the kitchen stove.
-
- "One of your Cousin Henrik's."
-
- "How long has Cousin Henrik been dead?"
-
- "Six years. There are two boys. One stays with Peter and
- one with Anders. Olaf is their guardeen."
-
- There was a clatter of pails on the porch, and a tall, lanky
- boy peered wonderingly in through the screen door. He had a
- fair, gentle face and big grey eyes, and wisps of soft yellow
- hair hung down under his cap. Nils sprang up and pulled
- him into the kitchen, hugging him and slapping him on the
- shoulders. "Well, if it isn't my kid! Look at the size of him!
- Don't you know me, Eric?"
-
- The boy reddened tinder his sunburn and freckles, and hung his
- head. "I guess it's Nils," he said shyly.
-
- "You're a good guesser," laughed Nils giving the lad's hand a
- swing. To himself he was thinking: "That's why the little girl
- looked so friendly. He's taught her to like me. He was only six
- when I went away, and he's remembered for twelve years."
-
- Eric stood fumbling with his cap and smiling. "You look just
- like I thought you would," he ventured.
-
- "Go wash your hands, Eric," called Mrs. Ericson. "I've got
- cob corn for supper, Nils. You used to like it. I guess you don't
- get much of that in the old country. Here's Hilda; she'll take you
- up to your room. You'll want to get the dust off you before you
- eat."
-
- Mrs. Ericson went into the dining-room to lay another plate,
- and the little girl came up and nodded to Nils as if to let him
- know that his room was ready. He put out his hand and she took it,
- with a startled glance up at his face. Little Eric dropped his
- towel, threw an arm about Nils and one about Hilda, gave them a
- clumsy squeeze, and then stumbled out to the porch.
-
- During supper Nils heard exactly how much land each of his
- eight grown brothers farmed, how their crops were coming on, and
- how much livestock they were feeding. His mother watched him
- narrowly as she talked. "You've got better looking, Nils," she
- remarked abruptly, whereupon he grinned and the children giggled.
- Eric, although he was eighteen and as tall as Nils, was always
- accounted a child, being the last of so many sons. His face seemed
- childlike, too, Nils thought, and he had the open, wandering eves
- of a little boy. All the others had been men at his age.
-
- After supper Nils went out to the front porch and sat down on
- the step to smoke a pipe. Mrs. Ericson drew a rocking-chair up
- near him and began to knit busily. It was one of the few Old World
- customs she had kept up, for she could not bear to sit with idle
- hands.
-
- "Where's little Eric, Mother?"
-
- "He's helping Hilda with the dishes. He does it of his own
- will; I don't like a boy to be too handy about the house."
-
- "He seems like a nice kid."
-
- "He's very obedient."
-
- Nils smiled a little in the dark. It was just as well to
- shift the line of conversation. "What are you knitting there,
- Mother?"
-
- "Baby stockings. The boys keep me busy." Mrs. Ericson
- chuckled and clicked her needles.
-
- "How many grandchildren have you?"
-
- "Only thirty-one now. Olaf lost his three. They were
- sickly, like their mother."
-
- "I supposed he had a second crop by this time!"
-
- "His second wife has no children. She's too proud. She
- tears about on horseback all the time. But she'll get caught up
- with, yet. She sets herself very high, though nobody knows what
- for. They were low enough Bohemians she came of. I never
- thought much of Bohemians; always drinking."
-
- Nils puffed away at his pipe in silence, and Mrs. Ericson
- knitted on. In a few moments she added grimly: "She was down
- here tonight, just before you came. She'd like to quarrel with
- me and come between me and Olaf, but I don't give her the chance.
- I suppose you'll be bringing a wife home some day."
-
- "I don't know. I've never thought much about it."
-
- "Well, perhaps it's best as it is," suggested Mrs. Ericson
- hopefully. "You'd never be contented tied down to the land.
- There was roving blood in your father's family, and it's come out
- in you. I expect your own way of life suits you best." Mrs.
- Ericson had dropped into a blandly agreeable tone which Nils well
- remembered. It seemed to amuse him a good deal and his white
- teeth flashed behind his pipe. His mother's strategies had
- always diverted him, even when he was a boy--they were so flimsy
- and patent, so illy proportioned to her vigor and force.
- "They've been waiting to see which way I'd jump," he reflected.
- He felt that Mrs. Ericson was pondering his case deeply as she
- sat clicking her needles.
-
- "I don't suppose you've ever got used to steady work," she went on
- presently. "Men ain't apt to if they roam around too long. It's
- a pity you didn't come back the year after the World's Fair. Your
- father picked up a good bit of land cheap then, in the hard times,
- and I expect maybe he'd have give you a farm. it's too bad you put
- off comin' back so long, for I always thought he meant to do
- something by you."
-
- Nils laughed and shook the ashes out of his pipe. "I'd have
- missed a lot if I had come back then. But I'm sorry I didn't get
- back to see father."
-
- "Well, I suppose we have to miss things at one end or the
- other. Perhaps you are as well satisfied with your own doings,
- now, as you'd have been with a farm," said Mrs. Ericson
- reassuringly.
-
- "Land's a good thing to have," Nils commented, as he lit
- another match and sheltered it with his hand.
-
- His mother looked sharply at his face until the match burned
- out. "Only when you stay on it!" she hastened to say.
-
- Eric came round the house by the path just then, and Nils
- rose, with a yawn. "Mother, if you don't mind, Eric and I will
- take a little tramp before bedtime. It will make me sleep."
-
- "Very well; only don't stay long. I'll sit up and wait for
- you. I like to lock up myself."
-
- Nils put his hand on Eric's shoulder, and the two tramped down
- the hill and across the sand creek into the dusty highroad beyond.
- Neither spoke. They swung along at an even gait, Nils puffing at
- his pipe. There was no moon, and the white road and the wide
- fields lay faint in the starlight. Over everything was darkness
- and thick silence, and the smell of dust and sunflowers. The
- brothers followed the road for a mile or more without finding a
- place to sit down. Finally, Nils perched on a stile over the wire
- fence, and Eric sat on the lower step.
-
- "I began to think you never would come back, Nils," said the
- boy softly.
-
- "Didn't I promise you I would?"
-
- "Yes; but people don't bother about promises they make to
- babies. Did you really know you were going away for good
- when you went to Chicago with the cattle that time?"
-
- "I thought it very likely, if I could make my way."
-
- "I don't see how you did it, Nils. Not many fellows could."
- Eric rubbed his shoulder against his brother's knee.
-
- "The hard thing was leaving home you and father. It was easy
- enough, once I got beyond Chicago. Of course I got awful homesick;
- used to cry myself to sleep. But I'd burned my bridges."
-
- "You had always wanted to go, hadn't you?"
-
- "Always. Do you still sleep in our little room? Is that
- cottonwood still by the window?"
-
- Eric nodded eagerly and smiled up at his brother in the grey
- darkness.
-
- "You remember how we always said the leaves were whispering
- when they rustled at night? Well, they always whispered to me
- about the sea. Sometimes they said names out of the geography
- books. In a high wind they had a desperate sound, like someone
- trying to tear loose."
-
- "How funny, Nils," said Eric dreamily, resting his chin on his
- hand. "That tree still talks like that, and 'most always it talks
- to me about you."
-
- They sat a while longer, watching the stars. At last Eric
- whispered anxiously: "Hadn't we better go back now? Mother will
- get tired waiting for us." They rose and took a short cut home,
- through the pasture.
-
-
- II
-
- The next morning Nils woke with the first flood of light that
- came with dawn. The white-plastered walls of his room reflected
- the glare that shone through the thin window shades, and he found
- it impossible to sleep. He dressed hurriedly and slipped down the
- hall and up the back stairs to the half-story room which be used to
- share with his little brother. Eric, in a skimpy nightshirt, was
- sitting on the edge of the bed, rubbing his eyes, his pale yellow
- hair standing up in tufts all over his head. When he saw Nils, he
- murmured something confusedly and hustled his long legs into
- his trousers. "I didn't expect you'd be up so early, Nils," he
- said, as his head emerged from his blue shirt.
-
- "Oh, you thought I was a dude, did you?" Nils gave him a
- playful tap which bent the tall boy up like a clasp knife. "See
- here: I must teach you to box." Nils thrust his hands into his
- pockets and walked about. "You haven't changed things much up
- here. Got most of my old traps, haven't you?"
-
- He took down a bent, withered piece of sapling that hung over
- the dresser. "If this isn't the stick Lou Sandberg killed himself
- with!"
-
- The boy looked up from his shoe-lacing.
-
- "Yes; you never used to let me play with that. Just how did
- he do it, Nils? You were with father when he found Lou, weren't
- you?"
-
- "Yes. Father was going off to preach somewhere, and, as we
- drove along, Lou's place looked sort of forlorn, and we thought
- we'd stop and cheer him up. When we found him father said he'd
- been dead a couple days. He'd tied a piece of binding twine round
- his neck, made a noose in each end, fixed the nooses over the ends
- of a bent stick, and let the stick spring straight; strangled
- himself."
-
- "What made him kill himself such a silly way?"
-
- The simplicity of the boy's question set Nils laughing. He
- clapped little Eric on the shoulder. "What made him such a silly
- as to kill himself at all, I should say!"
-
- "Oh, well! But his hogs had the cholera, and all up and died
- on him, didn't they?"
-
- "Sure they did; but he didn't have cholera; and there were
- plenty of bogs left in the world, weren't there?"
-
- "Well, but, if they weren't his, how could they do him any
- good?" Eric asked, in astonishment.
-
- "Oh, scat! He could have had lots of fun with other people's
- hogs. He was a chump, Lou Sandberg. To kill yourself for a pig--
- think of that, now!" Nils laughed all the way downstairs, and
- quite embarrassed little Eric, who fell to scrubbing his face and
- hands at the tin basin. While he was parting his wet hair at the
- kitchen looking glass, a heavy tread sounded on the stairs. The
- boy dropped his comb. "Gracious, there's Mother. We must have
- talked too long." He hurried out to the shed, slipped on his
- overalls, and disappeared with the milking pails.
-
- Mrs. Ericson came in, wearing a clean white apron, her black
- hair shining from the application of a wet brush.
-
- "Good morning, Mother. Can't I make the fire for you?"
-
- "No, thank you, Nils. It's no trouble to make a cob fire, and
- I like to manage the kitchen stove myself" Mrs. Ericson paused with
- a shovel full of ashes in her hand. "I expect you will be wanting
- to see your brothers as soon as possible. I'll take you up to
- Anders' place this morning. He's threshing, and most of our boys
- are over there."
-
- "Will Olaf be there?"
-
- Mrs. Ericson went on taking out the ashes, and spoke between
- shovels. "No; Olaf's wheat is all in, put away in his new barn.
- He got six thousand bushel this year. He's going to town today to
- get men to finish roofing his barn."
-
- "So Olaf is building a new barn?" Nils asked absently.
-
- "Biggest one in the county, and almost done. You'll likely be
- here for the barn-raising. He's going to have a supper and a dance
- as soon as everybody's done threshing. Says it keeps the voters in
- good humour. I tell him that's all nonsense; but Olaf has a head
- for politics."
-
- "Does Olaf farm all Cousin Henrik's land?"
-
- Mrs. Ericson frowned as she blew into the faint smoke curling up
- about the cobs. "Yes; he holds it in trust for the children, Hilda
- and her brothers. He keeps strict account of everything he raises
- on it, and puts the proceeds out at compound interest for them."
-
- Nils smiled as he watched the little flames shoot up. The
- door of the back stairs opened, and Hilda emerged, her arms behind
- her, buttoning up her long gingham apron as she came. He nodded to
- her gaily, and she twinkled at him out of her little blue eyes, set
- far apart over her wide cheekbones.
-
- "There, Hilda, you grind the coffee--and just put in an extra
- handful; I expect your Cousin Nils likes his strong," said Mrs.
- Ericson, as she went out to the shed.
-
- Nils turned to look at the little girl, who gripped the coffee
- grinder between her knees and ground so hard that her two braids
- bobbed and her face flushed under its broad spattering of
- freckles. He noticed on her middle finger something that had not
- been there last night, and that had evidently been put on for
- company: a tiny gold ring with a clumsily set garnet stone. As her
- hand went round and round he touched the ring with the tip of his
- finger, smiling.
-
- Hilda glanced toward the shed door through which Mrs. Ericson
- had disappeared. "My Cousin Clara gave me that," she whispered
- bashfully. "She's Cousin Olaf's wife."
-
-
- III
-
- Mrs. Olaf Ericson--Clara Vavrika, as many people still called
- her--was moving restlessly about her big bare house that morning.
- Her husband had left for the county town before his wife was out of
- bed--her lateness in rising was one of the many things the Ericson
- family had against her. Clara seldom came downstairs before eight
- o'clock, and this morning she was even later, for she had dressed
- with unusual care. She put on, however, only a tightfitting black
- dress, which people thereabouts thought very plain. She was a
- tall, dark woman of thirty, with a rather sallow complexion and a
- touch of dull salmon red in her cheeks, where the blood seemed to
- burn under her brown skin. Her hair, parted evenly above her low
- forehead, was so black that there were distinctly blue lights in
- it. Her black eyebrows were delicate half-moons and her lashes
- were long and heavy. Her eyes slanted a little, as if she had a
- strain of Tartar or gypsy blood, and were sometimes full of fiery
- determination and sometimes dull and opaque. Her expression was
- never altogether amiable; was often, indeed, distinctly sullen, or,
- when she was animated, sarcastic. She was most attractive in
- profile, for then one saw to advantage her small, well-shaped head
- and delicate ears, and felt at once that here was a very positive,
- if not an altogether pleasing, personality.
-
- The entire management of Mrs. Olaf's household devolved upon
- her aunt, Johanna Vavrika, a superstitious, doting woman of fifty.
- When Clara was a little girl her mother died, and Johanna's life
- had been spent in ungrudging service to her niece. Clara,
- like many self-willed and discontented persons, was really very
- apt, without knowing it, to do as other people told her, and to let
- her destiny be decided for her by intelligences much below her own.
- It was her Aunt Johanna who had humoured and spoiled her in her
- girlhood, who had got her off to Chicago to study piano, and who
- had finally persuaded her to marry Olaf Ericson as the best match
- she would be likely to make in that part of the country. Johanna
- Vavrika had been deeply scarred by smallpox in the old country.
- She was short and fat, homely and jolly and sentimental. She was
- so broad, and took such short steps when she walked, that her
- brother, Joe Vavrika, always called her his duck. She adored her
- niece because of her talent, because of her good looks and
- masterful ways, but most of all because of her selfishness.
-
- Clara's marriage with Olaf Ericson was Johanna's particular
- triumph. She was inordinately proud of Olaf's position, and she
- found a sufficiently exciting career in managing Clara's house, in
- keeping it above the criticism of the Ericsons, in pampering Olaf
- to keep him from finding fault with his wife, and in concealing
- from every one Clara's domestic infelicities. While Clara slept of
- a morning, Johanna Vavrika was bustling about, seeing that Olaf and
- the men had their breakfast, and that the cleaning or the butter-
- making or the washing was properly begun by the two girls in the
- kitchen. Then, at about eight o'clock, she would take Clara's
- coffee up to her, and chat with her while she drank it, telling her
- what was going on in the house. Old Mrs. Ericson frequently said
- that her daughter-in-law would not know what day of the week it was
- if Johanna did not tell her every morning. Mrs. Ericson despised
- and pitied Johanna, but did not wholly dislike her. The one thing
- she hated in her daughter-in-law above everything else was the way
- in which Clara could come it over people. It enraged her that the
- affairs of her son's big, barnlike house went on as well as they
- did, and she used to feel that in this world we have to wait
- overlong to see the guilty punished. "Suppose Johanna Vavrika died
- or got sick?" the old lady used to say to Olaf. "Your wife
- wouldn't know where to look for her own dish-cloth." Olaf
- only shrugged his shoulders. The fact remained that Johanna did
- not die, and, although Mrs. Ericson often told her she was
- looking poorly, she was never ill. She seldom left the house,
- and she slept in a little room off the kitchen. No Ericson, by
- night or day, could come prying about there to find fault without
- her knowing it. Her one weakness was that she was an incurable
- talker, and she sometimes made trouble without meaning to.
-
- This morning Clara was tying a wine-coloured ribbon about
- her throat when Johanna appeared with her coffee. After putting
- the tray on a sewing table, she began to make Clara's bed,
- chattering the while in Bohemian.
-
- "Well, Olaf got off early, and the girls are baking. I'm
- going down presently to make some poppy-seed bread for Olaf. He
- asked for prune preserves at breakfast, and I told him I was out
- of them, and to bring some prunes and honey and cloves from
- town."
-
- Clara poured her coffee. "Ugh! I don't see how men can eat
- so much sweet stuff. In the morning, too!"
-
- Her aunt chuckled knowingly. "Bait a bear with honey, as we
- say in the old country."
-
- "Was he cross?" her niece asked indifferently.
-
- "Olaf? Oh, no! He was in fine spirits. He's never cross if
- you know how to take him. I never knew a man to make so little
- fuss about bills. I gave him a list of things to get a yard
- long, and he didn't say a word; just folded it up and put it in
- his pocket."
-
- "I can well believe he didn't say a word," Clara remarked
- with a shrug. "Some day he'll forget how to talk."
-
- "Oh, but they say he's a grand speaker in the Legislature.
- He knows when to keep quiet. That's why he's got such influence
- in politics. The people have confidence in him." Johanna beat up
- a pillow and held it under her fat chin while she slipped on the
- case. Her niece laughed.
-
- "Maybe we could make people believe we were wise, Aunty, if
- we held our tongues. Why did you tell Mrs. Ericson that Norman
- threw me again last Saturday and turned my foot? She's been
- talking to Olaf."
-
- Johanna fell into great confusion. "Oh, but, my precious,
- the old lady asked for you, and she's always so angry if I can't
- give an excuse. Anyhow, she needn't talk; she's always tearing
- up something with that motor of hers."
-
- When her aunt clattered down to the kitchen, Clara went to
- dust the parlour. Since there was not much there to dust, this did
- not take very long. Olaf had built the house new for her before
- their marriage, but her interest in furnishing it had been short-
- lived. It went, indeed, little beyond a bathtub and her piano.
- They had disagreed about almost even, other article of furniture,
- and Clara had said she would rather have her house empty than full
- of things she didn't want. The house was set in a hillside, and
- the west windows of the parlour looked out above the kitchen yard
- thirty feet below. The east windows opened directly into the front
- yard. At one of the latter, Clara, while she was dusting, heard a
- low whistle. She did not turn at once, but listened intently as
- she drew her cloth slowly along the round of a chair. Yes, there
- it was:
-
- I dreamt that I dwelt in ma-a-arble halls.
-
- She turned and saw Nils Ericson laughing in the sunlight, his
- hat in his hand, just outside the window. As she crossed the room
- he leaned against the wire screen. "Aren't you at all surprised to
- see me, Clara Vavrika?"
-
- "No; I was expecting to see you. Mother Ericson telephoned
- Olaf last night that you were here."
-
- Nils squinted and gave a long whistle. "Telephoned? That must
- have been while Eric and I were out walking. Isn't she
- enterprising? Lift this screen, won't you?"
-
- Clara lifted the screen, and Nils swung his leg across the
- window-sill. As he stepped into the room she said: "You didn't
- think you were going to get ahead of your mother, did you?"
-
- He threw his hat on the piano. "Oh, I do sometimes. You see,
- I'm ahead of her now. I'm supposed to be in Anders' wheat-field.
- But, as we were leaving, Mother ran her car into a soft place
- beside the road and sank up to the hubs. While they were going for
- the horses to pull her out, I cut away behind the stacks and
- escaped." Nils chuckled. Clara's dull eyes lit up as she looked
- at him admiringly.
-
- "You've got them guessing already. 1 don't know what your
- mother said to Olaf over the telephone, but be came back looking as
- if he'd seen a ghost, and he didn't go to bed until a dreadful
- hour--ten o'clock, I should think. He sat out on the porch in the
- dark like a graven image. It had been one of his talkative days,
- too." They both laughed, easily and lightly, like people who have
- laughed a great deal together; but they remained standing.
-
- "Anders and Otto and Peter looked as if they had seen ghosts,
- too, over in the threshing field. What's the matter with them
- all?"
-
- Clara gave him a quick, searching look. "Well, for one thing,
- they've always been afraid you have the other will."
-
- Nils looked interested. "The other will?"
-
- "Yes. A later one. They knew your father made another, but
- they never knew what he did with it. They almost tore the old
- house to pieces looking for it. They always suspected that he
- carried on a clandestine correspondence with you, for the one thing
- he would do was to get his own mail himself. So they thought he
- might have sent the new will to you for safekeeping. The old one,
- leaving everything to your mother, was made long before you went
- away, and it's understood among them that it cuts you out--that she
- will leave all the property to the others. Your father made the
- second will to prevent that. I've been hoping you had it. It
- would be such fun to spring it on them." Clara laughed mirthfully,
- a thing she did not often do now.
-
- Nils shook his head reprovingly. "Come, now, you're malicious."
-
- "No, I'm not. But I'd like something to happen to stir them
- all up, just for once. There never was such a family for having
- nothing ever happen to them but dinner and threshing. I'd almost
- be willing to die, just to have a funeral. <i>You</i> wouldn't
- stand it for three weeks."
-
- Nils bent over the piano and began pecking at the keys with
- the finger of one hand. "I wouldn't? My dear young lady, how do
- you know what I can stand? <i>You</i> wouldn't wait to find out."
-
- Clara flushed darkly and frowned. "I didn't believe you would
- ever come back--" she said defiantly.
-
- "Eric believed I would, and he was only a baby when I went
- away. However, all's well that ends well, and I haven't come back
- to be a skeleton at the feast. We mustn't quarrel. Mother mill be
- here with a search warrant pretty soon." He swung round and faced
- her, thrusting his hands into his coat pockets. "Come, you ought
- to be glad to see me, if you want something to happen. I'm
- something, even without a will. We can have a little fun, can't
- we? I think we can!"
-
- She echoed him, "I think we can!" They both laughed and their
- eyes sparkled. Clara Vavrika looked ten years younger than when
- she had put the velvet ribbon about her throat that morning.
-
- "You know, I'm so tickled to see mother," Nils went on. "I
- didn't know I was so proud of her. A regular pile driver. How
- about little pigtails, down at the house? Is Olaf doing the square
- thing by those children?"
-
- Clara frowned pensively. "Olaf has to do something that looks
- like the square thing, now that he's a public man!" She glanced
- drolly at Nils. "But he makes a good commission out of it. On
- Sundays they all get together here and figure. He lets Peter and
- Anders put in big bills for the keep of the two boys, and he pays
- them out of the estate. They are always having what they call
- accountings. Olaf gets something out of it, too. I don't know
- just how they do it, but it's entirely a family matter, as they
- say. And when the Ericsons say that--" Clara lifted her eyebrows.
-
- Just then the angry <i>honk-honk</i> of an approaching motor
- sounded from down the road. Their eyes met and they began to
- laugh. They laughed as children do when they can not contain
- themselves, and can not explain the cause of their mirth to grown
- people, but share it perfectly together. When Clara Vavrika sat
- down at the piano after he was gone, she felt that she had laughed
- away a dozen years. She practised as if the house were burning
- over her head.
-
- When Nils greeted his mother and climbed into the front seat
- of the motor beside her, Mrs. Ericson looked grim, but she
- made no comment upon his truancy until she had turned her car and
- was retracing her revolutions along the road that ran by Olaf's big
- pasture. Then she remarked dryly:
-
- "If I were you I wouldn't see too much of Olaf's wife while
- you are here. She's the kind of woman who can't see much of men
- without getting herself talked about. She was a good deal talked
- about before he married her."
-
- "Hasn't Olaf tamed her?" Nils asked indifferently.
-
- Mrs. Ericson shrugged her massive shoulders. "Olaf don't seem
- to have much luck, when it comes to wives. The first one was meek
- enough, but she was always ailing. And this one has her own way.
- He says if he quarreled with her she'd go back to her father, and
- then he'd lose the Bohemian vote. There are a great many Bohunks
- in this district. But when you find a man under his wife's thumb
- you can always be sure there's a soft spot in him somewhere."
-
- Nils thought of his own father, and smiled. "She brought him
- a good deal of money, didn't she, besides the Bohemian vote?"
-
- Mrs. Ericson sniffed. "Well, she has a fair half section in
- her own name, but I can't see as that does Olaf much good. She
- will have a good deal of property some day, if old Vavrika don't
- marry again. But I don't consider a saloonkeeper's money as good
- as other people's money,"
-
- Nils laughed outright. "Come, Mother, don't let your
- prejudices carry you that far. Money's money. Old Vavrika's a
- mighty decent sort of saloonkeeper. Nothing rowdy about him."
-
- Mrs. Ericson spoke up angrily. "Oh, I know you always stood
- up for them! But hanging around there when you were a boy never
- did you any good, Nils, nor any of the other boys who went there.
- There weren't so many after her when she married Olaf, let me tell
- you. She knew enough to grab her chance."
-
- Nils settled back in his seat. "Of course I liked to go
- there, Mother, and you were always cross about it. You never took
- the trouble to find out that it was the one jolly house in this
- country for a boy to go to. All the rest of you were working
- yourselves to death, and the houses were mostly a mess, full
- of babies and washing and flies. oh, it was all right--I understand
- that; but you are young only once, and I happened to be young then.
- Now, Vavrika's was always jolly. He played the violin, and I used
- to take my flute, and Clara played the piano, and Johanna used to
- sing Bohemian songs. She always had a big supper for us--herrings
- and pickles and poppy-seed bread, and lots of cake and preserves.
- Old Joe had been in the army in the old country, and he could tell
- lots of good stories. I can see him cutting bread, at the head of
- the table, now. I don't know what I'd have done when I was a kid
- if it hadn't been for the Vavrikas, really."
-
- "And all the time he was taking money that other people had
- worked hard in the fields for," Mrs. Ericson observed.
-
- "So do the circuses, Mother, and they're a good thing. People
- ought to get fun for some of their money. Even father liked old
- Joe."
-
- "Your father," Mrs. Ericson said grimly, "liked everybody."
-
- As they crossed the sand creek and turned into her own place,
- Mrs. Ericson observed, "There's Olaf's buggy. He's stopped on his
- way from town." Nils shook himself and prepared to greet his
- brother, who was waiting on the porch.
-
- Olaf was a big, heavy Norwegian, slow of speech and movement.
- His head was large and square, like a block of wood. When Nils, at
- a distance, tried to remember what his brother looked like, he
- could recall only his heavy head, high forehead, large nostrils,
- and pale blue eyes, set far apart. Olaf's features were
- rudimentary: the thing one noticed was the face itself, wide and
- flat and pale; devoid of any expression, betraying his fifty years
- as little as it betrayed anything else, and powerful by reason of
- its very stolidness. When Olaf shook hands with Nils he looked at
- him from under his light eyebrows, but Nils felt that no one could
- ever say what that pale look might mean. The one thing he had
- always felt in Olaf was a heavy stubbornness, like the unyielding
- stickiness of wet loam against the plow. He had always found Olaf
- the most difficult of his brothers.
-
- "How do you do, Nils? Expect to stay with us long?"
-
- "Oh, I may stay forever," Nils answered gaily. "I like this
- country better than I used to."
-
- "There's been some work put into it since you left," Olaf remarked.
-
- "Exactly. I think it's about ready to live in now--and I'm
- about ready to settle down." Nils saw his brother lower his big
- head ("Exactly like a bull," he thought.) "Mother's been persuading
- me to slow down now, and go in for farming," he went on lightly.
-
- Olaf made a deep sound in his throat. "Farming ain't learned
- in a day," he brought out, still looking at the ground.
-
- "Oh, I know! But I pick things up quickly." Nils had not meant
- to antagonize his brother, and he did not know now why he was doing
- it. "Of course," he went on, "I shouldn't expect to make a big
- success, as you fellows have done. But then, I'm not ambitious.
- I won't want much. A little land, and some cattle, maybe."
-
- Olaf still stared at the ground, his head down. He wanted to
- ask Nils what he had been doing all these years, that he didn't
- have a business somewhere he couldn't afford to leave; why he
- hadn't more pride than to come back with only a little sole-leather
- trunk to show for himself, and to present himself as the only
- failure in the family. He did not ask one of these questions, but
- he made them all felt distinctly.
-
- "Humph!" Nils thought. "No wonder the man never talks, when
- he can butt his ideas into you like that without ever saying a
- word. I suppose he uses that kind of smokeless powder on his wife
- all the time. But I guess she has her innings." He chuckled, and
- Olaf looked up. "Never mind me, Olaf. I laugh without knowing
- why, like little Eric. He's another cheerful dog."
-
- "Eric," said Olaf slowly, "is a spoiled kid. He's just let
- his mother's best cow go dry because he don't milk her right. I
- was hoping you'd take him away somewhere and put him into business.
-
- If he don't do any good among strangers, he never will." This was
- a long speech for Olaf, and as he finished it he climbed into his
- buggy.
-
- Nils shrugged his shoulders. "Same old tricks," he
- thought. "Hits from behind you every time. What a whale of a
- man!" He turned and went round to the kitchen, where his mother
- was scolding little Eric for letting the gasoline get low.
-
-
- IV
-
- Joe Vavrika's saloon was not in the county seat, where Olaf
- and Mrs. Ericson did their trading, but in a cheerfuller place, a
- little Bohemian settlement which lay at the other end of the
- county, ten level miles north of Olaf's farm. Clara rode up to see
- her father almost every day. Vavrika's house was, so to speak, in
- the back yard of his saloon. The garden between the two buildings
- was inclosed by a high board fence as tight as a partition, and in
- summer Joe kept beer tables and wooden benches among the gooseberry
- bushes under his little cherry tree. At one of these tables Nils
- Ericson was seated in the late afternoon, three days after his
- return home. Joe had gone in to serve a customer, and Nils was
- lounging on his elbows, looking rather mournfully into his half-
- emptied pitcher, when he heard a laugh across the little garden.
- Clara, in her riding habit, was standing at the back door of the
- house, under the grapevine trellis that old Joe had grown there
- long ago. Nils rose.
-
- "Come out and keep your father and me company. We've been
- gossiping all afternoon. Nobody to bother us but the flies."
-
- She shook her head. "No, I never come out here any more. Olaf
- doesn't like it. I must live up to my position, you know."
-
- "You mean to tell me you never come out and chat with the boys, as
- you used to? He <i>has</i> tamed you! Who keeps up these
- flower-beds?"
-
- "I come out on Sundays, when father is alone, and read the
- Bohemian papers to him. But I am never here when the bar is open.
- What have you two been doing?"
-
- "Talking, as I told you. I've been telling him about my
- travels. I find I can't talk much at home, not even to Eric."
-
- Clara reached up and poked with her riding-whip at a white
- moth that was fluttering in the sunlight among the vine leaves. "I
- suppose you will never tell me about all those things."
-
- "Where can I tell them? Not in Olaf's house, certainly.
- What's the matter with our talking here?" He pointed persuasively
- with his hat to the bushes and the green table, where the flies
- were singing lazily above the empty beer glasses.
-
- Clara shook her head weakly. "No, it wouldn't do. Besides,
- I am going now."
-
- "I'm on Eric's mare. Would you be angry if I overtook you?"
-
- Clara looked back and laughed. "You might try and see. I can
- leave you if I don't want you. Eric's mare can't keep up with
- Norman."
-
- Nils went into the bar and attempted to pay his score. Big
- Joe, six feet four, with curly yellow hair and mustache, clapped
- him on the shoulder. "Not a Goddamn a your money go in my drawer,
- you hear? Only next time you bring your flute, te-te-te-te-te-ty."
- Joe wagged his fingers in imitation of the flute player's position.
-
- "My Clara, she come all-a-time Sundays an' play for me. She not
- like to play at Ericson's place." He shook his yellow curls and
- laughed. "Not a Goddamn a fun at Ericson's. You come a Sunday.
- You like-a fun. No forget de flute." Joe talked very rapidly and
- always tumbled over his English. He seldom spoke it to his
- customers, and had never learned much.
-
- Nils swung himself into the saddle and trotted to the west of
- the village, where the houses and gardens scattered into prairie
- land and the road turned south. Far ahead of him, in the declining
- light, he saw Clara Vavrika's slender figure, loitering on
- horseback. He touched his mare with the whip, and shot along the
- white, level road, under the reddening sky. When he overtook
- Olaf's wife he saw that she had been crying. "What's the matter,
- Clara Vavrika?" he asked kindly.
-
- "Oh, I get blue sometimes. It was awfully jolly living there
- with father. I wonder why I ever went away."
-
- Nils spoke in a low, kind tone that he sometimes used with women:
- "That's what I've been wondering these many years. You were the
- last girl in the country I'd have picked for a wife for Olaf. What
- made you do it, Clara?"
-
- "I suppose I really did it to oblige the neighbours"--Clara
- tossed her head. "People were beginning to wonder."
-
- "To wonder?"
-
- "Yes--why I didn't get married. I suppose I didn't like to
- keep them in suspense. I've discovered that most girls marry out
- of consideration for the neighbourhood."
-
- Nils bent his head toward her and his white teeth flashed.
- "I'd have gambled that one girl I knew would say, 'Let the
- neighbourhood be damned.'"
-
- Clara shook her head mournfully. "You see, they have it on
- you, Nils; that is, if you're a woman. They say you're beginning
- to go off. That's what makes us get married: we can't stand the
- laugh."
-
- Nils looked sidewise at her. He had never seen her head droop
- before. Resignation was the last thing he would have expected of
- her. "In your case, there wasn't something else?"
-
- "Something else?"
-
- "I mean, you didn't do it to spite somebody? Somebody who
- didn't come back?"
-
- Clara drew herself up. "Oh, I never thought you'd come back.
- Not after I stopped writing to you, at least. <i>That</i> was all
- over, long before I married Olaf."
-
- "It never occurred to you, then, that the meanest thing you
- could do to me was to marry Olaf?"
-
- Clara laughed. "No; I didn't know you were so fond of Olaf."
-
- Nils smoothed his horse's mane with his glove. "You know,
- Clara Vavrika, you are never going to stick it out. You'll cut
- away some day, and I've been thinking you might as well cut away
- with me."
-
- Clara threw up her chin. "Oh, you don't know me as well as
- you think. I won't cut away. Sometimes, when I'm with father, I
- feel like it. But I can hold out as long as the Ericsons can.
- They've never got the best of me yet, and one can live, so long as
- one isn't beaten. If I go back to father, it's all up with Olaf in
- politics. He knows that, and he never goes much beyond
- sulking. I've as much wit as the Ericsons. I'll never leave them
- unless I can show them a thing or two."
-
- "You mean unless you can come it over them?"
-
- "Yes--unless I go away with a man who is cleverer than they
- are, and who has more money."
-
- Nils whistled. "Dear me, you are demanding a good deal. The
- Ericsons, take the lot of them, are a bunch to beat. But I should
- think the excitement of tormenting them would have worn off by this
- time."
-
- "It has, I'm afraid," Clara admitted mournfully.
-
- "Then why don't you cut away? There are more amusing games
- than this in the world. When I came home I thought it might amuse
- me to bully a few quarter sections out of the Ericsons; but I've
- almost decided I can get more fun for my money somewhere else."
-
- Clara took in her breath sharply. "Ah, you have got the other
- will! That was why you came home!"
-
- "No, it wasn't. I came home to see how you were getting on
- with Olaf."
-
- Clara struck her horse with the whip, and in a bound she was
- far ahead of him. Nils dropped one word, "Damn!" and whipped after
- her; but she leaned forward in her saddle and fairly cut the wind.
- Her long riding skirt rippled in the still air behind her. The sun
- was just sinking behind the stubble in a vast, clear sky, and the
- shadows drew across the fields so rapidly that Nils could scarcely
- keep in sight the dark figure on the road. When he overtook her he
- caught her horse by the bridle. Norman reared, and Nils was
- frightened for her; but Clara kept her seat.
-
- "Let me go, Nils Ericson!" she cried. "I hate you more than
- any of them. You were created to torture me, the whole tribe of
- you--to make me suffer in every possible way."
-
- She struck her horse again and galloped away from him. Nils
- set his teeth and looked thoughtful. He rode slowly home along the
- deserted road, watching the stars come out in the clear violet sky.
-
- They flashed softly into the limpid heavens, like jewels let fall
- into clear water. They were a reproach, he felt, to a sordid
- world. As he turned across the sand creek, he looked up at
- the North Star and smiled, as if there were an understanding
- between them. His mother scolded him for being late for supper.
-
-
- V
-
- On Sunday afternoon Joe Vavrika, in his shirt sleeves arid
- carpet slippers, was sitting in his garden, smoking a long-tasseled
- porcelain pipe with a hunting scene painted on the bowl. Clara sat
- under the cherry tree, reading aloud to him from the, weekly
- Bohemian papers. She had worn a white muslin dress under her
- riding habit, and the leaves of the cherry tree threw a pattern of
- sharp shadows over her skirt. The black cat was dozing in the
- sunlight at her feet, and Joe's dachshund was scratching a hole
- under the scarlet geraniums and dreaming of badgers. Joe was
- filling his pipe for the third time since dinner, when he heard a
- knocking on the fence. He broke into a loud guffaw and unlatched
- the little door that led into the street. He did not call Nils by
- name, but caught him by the hand and dragged him in. Clara
- stiffened and the colour deepened under her dark skin. Nils, too,
- felt a little awkward. He had not seen her since the night when
- she rode away from him and left him alone on the level road between
- the fields. Joe dragged him to the wooden bench beside the green
- table.
-
- "You bring de flute," he cried, tapping the leather case under
- Nils' arm. "Ah, das-a good' Now we have some liddle fun like old
- times. I got somet'ing good for you." Joe shook his finger at
- Nils and winked his blue eye, a bright clear eye, full of fire,
- though the tiny bloodvessels on the ball were always a little
- distended. "I got somet'ing for you from"--he paused and waved his
- hand-- "Hongarie. You know Hongarie? You wait!" He pushed Nils
- down on the bench, and went through the back door of his saloon.
-
- Nils looked at Clara, who sat frigidly with her white skirts
- drawn tight about her. "He didn't tell you he had asked me to
- come, did he? He wanted a party and proceeded to arrange it.
- Isn't he fun? Don't be cross; let's give him a good time."
-
- Clara smiled and shook out her skirt. "Isn't that like
- Father? And he has sat here so meekly all day. Well, I won't
- pout. I'm glad you came. He doesn't have very many good times now
- any more. There are so few of his kind left. The second
- generation are a tame lot."
-
- Joe came back with a flask in one hand and three wine glasses
- caught by the stems between the fingers of the other. These he
- placed on the table with an air of ceremony, and, going behind
- Nils, held the flask between him and the sun, squinting into it
- admiringly. "You know dis, Tokai? A great friend of mine, he
- bring dis to me, a present out of Hongarie. You know how much it
- cost, dis wine? Chust so much what it weigh in gold. Nobody but
- de nobles drink him in Bohemie. Many, many years I save him up,
- dis Tokai." Joe whipped out his official corkscrew and delicately
- removed the cork. "De old man die what bring him to me, an' dis
- wine he lay on his belly in my cellar an' sleep. An' now,"
- carefully pouring out the heavy yellow wine, "an' now he wake up;
- and maybe he wake us up, too!" He carried one of the glasses to
- his daughter and presented it with great gallantry.
-
- Clara shook her head, but, seeing her father's disappointment,
- relented. "You taste it first. I don't want so much."
-
- Joe sampled it with a beatific expression, and turned to Nils.
- "You drink him slow, dis wine. He very soft, but he go down hot.
- You see!"
-
- After a second glass Nils declared that he couldn't take any
- more without getting sleepy. "Now get your fiddle, Vavrika," he
- said as he opened his flute case.
-
- But Joe settled back in his wooden rocker and wagged his big
- carpet slipper. "No-no-no-no-no-no-no! No play fiddle now any
- more: too much ache in de finger," waving them, "all-a-time
- rheumatic. You play de flute, te-tety-tetety-te. Bohemie songs."
-
- "I've forgotten all the Bohemian songs I used to play with you
- and Johanna. But here's one that will make Clara pout. You
- remember how her eyes used to snap when we called her the Bohemian
- Girl?" Nils lifted his flute and began "When Other Lips and Other
- Hearts," and Joe hummed the air in a husky baritone, waving
- his carpet slipper. "Oh-h-h, das-a fine music," he cried, clapping
- his hands as Nils finished. "Now 'Marble Halls, Marble Halls'!
- Clara, you sing him."
-
- Clara smiled and leaned back in her chair, beginning softly:
-
- I dreamt that I dwelt in ma-a-arble halls,
- With vassals and serfs at my knee,"
-
- and Joe hummed like a big bumblebee.
-
- "There's one more you always played," Clara said quietly, "I
- remember that best." She locked her hands over her knee and began
- "The Heart Bowed Down," and sang it through without groping for the
- words. She was singing with a good deal of warmth when she came to
- the end of the old song:
-
- "For memory is the only friend
- That grief can call its own."
-
- Joe flashed out his red silk handkerchief and blew his nose,
- shaking his head. "No-no-no-no-no-no-no! Too sad, too sad! I not
- like-a dat. Play quick somet'ing gay now."
-
- Nils put his lips to the instrument, and Joe lay back in his
- chair, laughing and singing, "Oh, Evelina, Sweet Evelina!" Clara
- laughed, too. Long ago, when she and Nils went to high school, the
- model student of their class was a very homely girl in thick
- spectacles. Her name was Evelina Oleson; she had a long, swinging
- walk which somehow suggested the measure of that song, and they
- used mercilessly to sing it at her.
-
- "Dat ugly Oleson girl, she teach in de school," Joe gasped,
- "an' she still walks chust like dat, yup-a, yup-a, yup-a, chust
- like a camel she go! Now, Nils, we have some more li'l drink. Oh,
- yes-yes-yes-yes-yes-yes-<i>yes</i>! Dis time you haf to drink, and
- Clara she haf to, so she show she not jealous. So, we all drink to
- your girl. You not tell her name, eh? No-no-no, I no make you
- tell. She pretty, eh? She make good sweetheart? I bet!" Joe
- winked and lifted his glass. "How soon you get married?"
-
- Nils screwed up his eyes. "That I don't know. When she says."
-
- Joe threw out his chest. "Das-a way boys talks. No way for
- mans. Mans say, 'You come to de church, an' get a hurry on you.'
- Das-a way mans talks."
-
- "Maybe Nils hasn't got enough to keep a wife," put in Clara
- ironically. "How about that, Nils?" she asked him frankly, as if
- she wanted to know.
-
- Nils looked at her coolly, raising one eyebrow. "oh, I can
- keep her, all right."
-
- "The way she wants to be kept?"
-
- "With my wife, I'll decide that," replied Nils calmly. "I'll
- give her what's good for her."
-
- Clara made a wry face. "You'll give her the strap, I expect,
- like old Peter Oleson gave his wife."
-
- "When she needs it," said Nils lazily, locking his hands
- behind his head and squinting up through the leaves of the cherry
- tree. "Do you remember the time I squeezed the cherries all over
- your clean dress, and Aunt Johanna boxed my ears for me? My
- gracious, weren't you mad! You had both hands full of cherries,
- and I squeezed 'em and made the juice fly all over you. I liked to
- have fun with you; you'd get so mad."
-
- "We <i>did</i> have fun, didn't we? None of the other kids ever
- had so much fun. We knew how to play."
-
- Nils dropped his elbows on the table and looked steadily
- across at her. "I've played with lots of girls since, but I
- haven't found one who was such good fun."
-
- Clara laughed. The late afternoon sun was shining full in her
- face, and deep in the back of her eyes there shone something fiery,
- like the yellow drops of Tokai in the brown glass bottle. "Can you
- still play, or are you only pretending?"
-
- "I can play better than I used to, and harder."
-
- "Don't you ever work, then?" She had not intended to say it.
- It slipped out because she was confused enough to say just the
- wrong thing.
-
- "I work between times." Nils' steady gaze still beat upon her.
- "Don't you worry about my working, Mrs. Ericson. You're getting
- like all the rest of them." He reached his brown, warm hand across
- the table and dropped it on Clara's, which was cold as an
- icicle. "Last call for play, Mrs. Ericson!" Clara shivered, and
- suddenly her hands and cheeks grew warm. Her fingers lingered in
- his a moment, and they looked at each other earnestly. Joe Vavrika
- had put the mouth of the bottle to his lips and was swallowing the
- last drops of the Tokai, standing. The sun, just about to sink
- behind his shop, glistened on the bright glass, on his flushed face
- and curly yellow hair. "Look," Clara whispered, "that's the way I
- want to grow old."
-
-
- VI
-
- On the day of Olaf Ericson's barn-raising, his wife, for once
- in a way, rose early. Johanna Vavrika had been baking cakes and
- frying and boiling and spicing meats for a week beforehand, but it
- was not until the day before the party was to take place that Clara
- showed any interest in it. Then she was seized with one of her
- fitful spasms of energy, and took the wagon and little Eric and
- spent the day on Plum Creek, gathering vines and swamp goldenrod
- to decorate the barn.
-
- By four o'clock in the afternoon buggies and wagons began to
- arrive at the big unpainted building in front of Olaf's house.
- When Nils and his mother came at five, there were more than fifty
- people in the barn, and a great drove of children. On the ground
- floor stood six long tables, set with the crockery of seven
- flourishing Ericson families, lent for the occasion. In the middle
- of each table was a big yellow pumpkin, hollowed out and filled
- with woodbine. In one corner of the barn, behind a pile of green-
- and-white striped watermelons, was a circle of chairs for the old
- people; the younger guests sat on bushel measures or barbed-wire
- spools, and the children tumbled about in the haymow. The box
- stalls Clara had converted into booths. The framework was hidden
- by goldenrod and sheaves of wheat, and the partitions were covered
- 'With wild grapevines full of fruit. At one of these Johanna
- Vavrika watched over her cooked meats, enough to provision an army;
- and at the next her kitchen girls had ranged the ice-cream
- freezers, and Clara was already cutting pies and cakes
- against the hour of serving. At the third stall, little Hilda, in
- a bright pink lawn dress, dispensed lemonade throughout the
- afternoon. Olaf, as a public man, had thought it inadvisable
- to serve beer in his barn; but Joe Vavrika had come over with two
- demijohns concealed in his buggy, and after his arrival the wagon
- shed was much frequented by the men.
-
- "Hasn't Cousin Clara fixed things lovely?" little Hilda
- whispered, when Nils went up to her stall and asked for lemonade.
-
- Nils leaned against the booth, talking to the excited little
- girl and watching the people. The barn faced the west, and the
- sun, pouring in at the big doors, filled the whole interior with a
- golden light, through which filtered fine particles of dust from
- the haymow, where the children were romping. There was a great
- chattering from the stall where Johanna Vavrika exhibited to the
- admiring women her platters heaped with fried chicken, her roasts
- of beef, boiled tongues, and baked hams with cloves stuck in the
- crisp brown fat and garnished with tansy and parsley. The older
- women, having assured themselves that there were twenty kinds of
- cake, not counting cookies, and three dozen fat pies, repaired to
- the corner behind the pile of watermelons, put on their white
- aprons, and fell to their knitting and fancywork. They were a fine
- company of old women, and a Dutch painter would have loved to find
- them there together, where the sun made bright patches on the floor
- and sent long, quivering shafts of gold through the dusky shade up
- among the rafters. There were fat, rosy old women who looked hot
- in their best black dresses; spare, alert old women with brown,
- dark-veined hands; and several of almost heroic frame, not less
- massive than old Mrs. Ericson herself. Few of them wore glasses,
- and old Mrs. Svendsen, a Danish woman, who was quite bald, wore the
- only cap among them. Mrs. Oleson, who had twelve big
- grandchildren, could still show two braids of yellow hair as thick
- as her own wrists. Among all these grandmothers there were more
- brown heads than white. They all had a pleased, prosperous air, as
- if they were more than satisfied with themselves and with life.
- Nils, leaning against Hilda's lemonade stand, watched them
- as they sat chattering in four languages, their fingers never
- lagging behind their tongues.
-
- "Look at them over there," he whispered, detaining Clara as
- she passed him. "Aren't they the Old Guard? I've just counted
- thirty hands. I guess they've wrung many a chicken's neck and
- warmed many a boy's jacket for him in their time."
-
- In reality he fell into amazement when he thought of the
- Herculean labours those fifteen pairs of hands had performed: of
- the cows they had milked, the butter they had made, the gardens
- they had planted, the children and grandchildren they had tended,
- the brooms they had worn out, the mountains of food they had
- cooked. It made him dizzy. Clara Vavrika smiled a hard,
- enigmatical smile at him and walked rapidly away. Nils' eyes
- followed her white figure as she went toward the house. He
- watched her walking alone in the sunlight, looked at her slender,
- defiant shoulders and her little hard-set head with its coils of
- blue-black hair. "No," he reflected; "she'd never be like them,
- not if she lived here a hundred years. She'd only grow more
- bitter. You can't tame a wild thing; you can only chain it.
- People aren't all alike. I mustn't lose my nerve." He gave
- Hilda's pigtail a parting tweak and set out after Clara. "Where
- to?" he asked, as he came upon her in the kitchen.
-
- "I'm going to the cellar for preserves."
-
- "Let me go with you. I never get a moment alone with you.
- Why do you keep out of my way?"
-
- Clara laughed. "I don't usually get in anybody's way."
-
- Nils followed her down the stairs and to the far corner of
- the cellar, where a basement window let in a stream of light.
- From a swinging shelf Clara selected several glass jars, each
- labeled in Johanna's careful hand. Nils took up a brown flask.
- "What's this? It looks good."
-
- "It is. It's some French brandy father gave me when I was
- married. Would you like some? Have you a corkscrew? I'll get
- glasses."
-
- When she brought them, Nils took them from her and put them
- down on the window-sill. "Clara Vavrika, do you remember how
- crazy I used to be about you?"
-
- Clara shrugged her shoulders. "Boys are always crazy
- about somebody or another. I dare say some silly has been crazy
- about Evelina Oleson. You got over it in a hurry."
-
- "Because I didn't come back, you mean? I had to get on, you
- know, and it was hard sledding at first. Then I heard you'd
- married Olaf."
-
- "And then you stayed away from a broken heart," Clara laughed.
-
- "And then I began to think about you more than I had since I
- first went away. I began to wonder if you were really as you had
- seemed to me when I was a boy. I thought I'd like to see. I've
- had lots of girls, but no one ever pulled me the same way. The
- more I thought about you, the more I remembered how it used to be--
- like hearing a wild tune you can't resist, calling you out at
- night. It had been a long while since anything had pulled me out
- of my boots, and I wondered whether anything ever could again."
- Nils thrust his hands into his coat pockets and squared his
- shoulders, as his mother sometimes squared hers, as Olaf, in a
- clumsier manner, squared his. "So I thought I'd come back and see.
- Of course the family have tried to do me, and I rather thought I'd
- bring out father's will and make a fuss. But they can have their
- old land; they've put enough sweat into it." He took the flask and
- filled the two glasses carefully to the brim. "I've found out what
- I want from the Ericsons. Drink <i>skoal</i>, Clara." He lifted
- his glass, and Clara took hers with downcast eyes. "Look at me,
- Clara Vavrika. <i>Skoal!</i>"
-
- She raised her burning eyes and answered fiercely: "<i>Skoal!</i>"
-
-
- The barn supper began at six o'clock and lasted for two
- hilarious hours. Yense Nelson had made a wager that he could eat
- two whole fried chickens, and he did. Eli Swanson stowed away two
- whole custard pies, and Nick Hermanson ate a chocolate layer cake
- to the last crumb. There was even a cooky contest among the
- children, and one thin, slablike Bohemian boy consumed sixteen and
- won the prize, a gingerbread pig which Johanna Vavrika had
- carefully decorated with red candies and burnt sugar. Fritz
- Sweiheart, the German carpenter, won in the pickle contest, but he
- disappeared soon after supper and was not seen for the rest of the
- evening. Joe Vavrika said that Fritz could have managed the
- pickles all right, but he had sampled the demijohn in his buggy too
- often before sitting down to the table.
-
- While the supper was being cleared away the two fiddlers began
- to tune up for the dance. Clara was to accompany them on her old
- upright piano, which had been brought down from her father's. By
- this time Nils had renewed old acquaintances. Since his interview
- with Clara in the cellar, he had been busy telling all the old
- women how young they looked, and all the young ones how pretty they
- were, and assuring the men that they had here the best farmland in
- the world. He had made himself so agreeable that old Mrs.
- Ericson's friends began to come up to her and tell how lucky she
- was to get her smart son back again, and please to get him to play
- his flute. Joe Vavrika, who could still play very well when he
- forgot that he had rheumatism, caught up a fiddle from Johnny
- Oleson and played a crazy Bohemian dance tune that set the wheels
- going. When he dropped the bow every one was ready to dance.
-
- Olaf, in a frock coat and a solemn made-up necktie, led the grand
- march with his mother. Clara had kept well out of <i>that</i>
- by sticking to the piano. She played the march with a pompous
- solemnity which greatly amused the prodigal son, who went over and
- stood behind her.
-
- "Oh, aren't you rubbing it into them, Clara Vavrika? And
- aren't you lucky to have me here, or all your wit would be thrown
- away."
-
- "I'm used to being witty for myself. It saves my life."
-
- The fiddles struck up a polka, and Nils convulsed Joe Vavrika
- by leading out Evelina Oleson, the homely schoolteacher. His next
- partner was a very fat Swedish girl, who, although she was an
- heiress, had not been asked for the first dance, but had stood
- against the wall in her tight, high-heeled shoes, nervously
- fingering a lace handkerchief. She was soon out of breath, so Nils
- led her, pleased and panting, to her seat, and went over to the
- piano, from which Clara had been watching his gallantry. "Ask
- Olena Yenson," she whispered. "She waltzes beautifully."
-
- Olena, too, was rather inconveniently plump, handsome in a smooth,
- heavy way, with a fine colour and good-natured, sleepy eyes. She
- was redolent of violet sachet powder, and had warm, soft, white
- hands, but she danced divinely, moving as smoothly as the tide
- coming in. "There, that's something like," Nils said as he released
- her. "You'll give me the next waltz, won't you? Now I must go and
- dance with my little cousin."
-
- Hilda was greatly excited when Nils went up to her stall and
- held out his arm. Her little eyes sparkled, but she declared that
- she could not leave her lemonade. Old Mrs. Ericson, who happened
- along at this moment, said she would attend to that, and Hilda came
- out, as pink as her pink dress. The dance was a schottische, and
- in a moment her yellow braids were fairly standing on end.
- "Bravo!" Nils cried encouragingly. "Where did you learn to dance
- so nicely?"
-
- "My Cousin Clara taught me," the little girl panted.
-
- Nils found Eric sitting with a group of boys who were too
- awkward or too shy to dance, and told him that he must dance the
- next waltz with Hilda.
-
- The boy screwed up his shoulders. "Aw, Nils, I can't dance.
- My feet are too big; I look silly."
-
- "Don't be thinking about yourself. It doesn't matter how boys
- look."
-
- Nils had never spoken to him so sharply before, and Eric made
- haste to scramble out of his corner and brush the straw from his
- coat.
-
- Clara nodded approvingly. "Good for you, Nils. I've been
- trying to get hold of him. They dance very nicely together; I
- sometimes play for them."
-
- "I'm obliged to you for teaching him. There's no reason why he
- should grow up to be a lout."
-
- "He'll never be that. He's more like you than any of them.
- Only he hasn't your courage." From her slanting eyes Clara shot
- forth one of those keen glances, admiring and at the same time
- challenging, which she seldom bestowed on any one, and which seemed
- to say, "Yes, I admire you, but I am your equal."
-
- Clara was proving a much better host than Olaf, who, once the
- supper was over, seemed to feel no interest in anything but the
- lanterns. He had brought a locomotive headlight from
- town to light the revels, and he kept skulking about as if he
- feared the mere light from it might set his new barn on fire.
- His wife, on the contrary, was cordial to every one, was
- animated and even gay. The deep salmon colour in her cheeks burned
- vividly, and her eyes were full of life. She gave the piano over
- to the fat Swedish heiress, pulled her father away from the corner
- where he sat gossiping with his cronies, and made him dance a
- Bohemian dance with her. In his youth Joe had been a famous
- dancer, and his daughter got him so limbered up that every one sat
- around and applauded them. The old ladies were particularly
- delighted, and made them go through the dance again. From their
- corner where they watched and commented, the old women kept time
- with their feet and hands, and whenever the fiddles struck up a new
- air old Mrs. Svendsen's white cap would begin to bob.
-
- Clara was waltzing with little Eric when Nils came up to them,
- brushed his brother aside, and swung her out among the dancers.
- "Remember how we used to waltz on rollers at the old skating rink
- in town? I suppose people don't do that any more. We used to keep
- it up for hours. You know, we never did moon around as other boys
- and girls did. It was dead serious with us from the beginning.
- When we were most in love with each other, we used to fight. You
- were always pinching people; your fingers were like little nippers.
-
- A regular snapping turtle, you were. Lord, how you'd like
- Stockholm! Sit out in the streets in front of cafes and talk all
- night in summer. just like a reception--officers and ladies and
- funny English people. Jolliest people in the world, the Swedes,
- once you get them going. Always drinking things--champagne and
- stout mixed, half-and-half, serve it out of big pitchers, and serve
- plenty. Slow pulse, you know; they can stand a lot. Once they
- light up, they're glowworms, I can tell you."
-
- "All the same, you don't really like gay people."
-
- "<i>I</i> don't?"
-
- "No; I could tell that when you were looking at the old women
- there this afternoon. They're the kind you really admire, after
- all; women like your mother. And that's the kind you'll marry."
-
- "Is it, Miss Wisdom? You'll see who I'll marry, and she
- won't have a domestic virtue to bless herself with. She'll be a
- snapping turtle, and she'll be a match for me. All the same,
- they're a fine bunch of old dames over there. You admire them
- yourself
-
- "No, I don't; I detest them."
-
- "You won't, when you look back on them from Stockholm or
- Budapest. Freedom settles all that. Oh, but you're the real
- Bohemian Girl, Clara Vavrika!" Nils laughed down at her sullen
- frown and began mockingly to sing:
-
- "Oh, how could a poor gypsy maiden like me
- Expect the proud bride of a baron to be?"
-
- Clara clutched his shoulder. "Hush, Nils; every one is looking at
- you."
-
- "I don't care. They can't gossip. It's all in the family, as
- the Ericsons say when they divide up little Hilda's patrimony
- amongst them. Besides, we'll give them something to talk about
- when we hit the trail. Lord, it will be a godsend to them! They
- haven't had anything so interesting to chatter about since the
- grasshopper year. It'll give them a new lease of life. And Olaf
- won't lose the Bohemian vote, either. They'll have the laugh on
- him so that they'll vote two apiece. They'll send him to Congress.
- They'll never forget his barn party, or us. They'll always
- remember us as we're dancing together now. We're making a legend.
- Where's my waltz, boys?" he called as they whirled past the
- fiddlers.
-
- The musicians grinned, looked at each other, hesitated, and
- began a new air; and Nils sang with them, as the couples fell from
- a quick waltz to a long, slow glide:
-
- "When other lips and other hearts
- Their tale of love shall tell,
- In language whose excess imparts
- The power they feel so well."
-
- The old women applauded vigorously. "What a gay one he is,
- that Nils!" And old Mrs. Svendsen's cap lurched dreamily
- from side to side to the flowing measure of the dance.
-
- Of days that have as ha-a-p-py been,
- And you'll remember me."
-
-
- VII
-
- The moonlight flooded that great, silent land. The reaped
- fields lay yellow in it. The straw stacks and poplar windbreaks
- threw sharp black shadows. The roads were white rivers of dust.
- The sky was a deep, crystalline blue, and the stars were few and
- faint. Everything seemed to have succumbed, to have sunk to sleep,
- under the great, golden, tender, midsummer moon. The splendour of
- it seemed to transcend human life and human fate. The senses were
- too feeble to take it in, and every time one looked up at the sky
- one felt unequal to it, as if one were sitting deaf under the waves
- of a great river of melody. Near the road, Nils Ericson was lying
- against a straw stack in Olaf's wheat field. His own life seemed
- strange and unfamiliar to him, as if it were something he had read
- about, or dreamed, and forgotten. He lay very still, watching the
- white road that ran in front of him, lost itself among the fields,
- and then, at a distance, reappeared over a little hill. At last,
- against this white band he saw something moving rapidly, and he got
- up and walked to the edge of the field. "She is passing the row of
- poplars now," he thought. He heard the padded beat of hoofs along
- the dusty road, and as she came into sight he stepped out and waved
- his arms. Then, for fear of frightening the horse, he drew back
- and waited. Clara had seen him, and she came up at a walk. Nils
- took the horse by the bit and stroked his neck.
-
- "What are you doing out so late, Clara Vavrika? I went to the
- house, but Johanna told me you had gone to your father's."
-
- "Who can stay in the house on a night like this? Aren't you
- out yourself?"
-
- "Ah, but that's another matter."
-
- Nils turned the horse into the field.
-
- "What are you doing? Where are you taking Norman?"
-
- "Not far, but I want to talk to you tonight; I have something to
- say to you. I can't talk to you at the house, with Olaf sitting
- there on the porch, weighing a thousand tons."
-
- Clara laughed. "He won't be sitting there now. He's in bed
- by this time, and asleep--weighing a thousand tons."
-
- Nils plodded on across the stubble. "Are you really going
- to spend the rest of your life like this, night after night,
- summer after summer? Haven't you anything better to do on a night
- like this than to wear yourself and Norman out tearing across the
- country to your father's and back? Besides, your father won't
- live forever, you know. His little place will be shut up or
- sold, and then you'll have nobody but the Ericsons. You'll have
- to fasten down the hatches for the winter then."
-
- Clara moved her head restlessly. "Don't talk about that. I
- try never to think of it. If I lost Father I'd lose everything,
- even my hold over the Ericsons."
-
- "Bah! You'd lose a good deal more than that. You'd lose
- your race, everything that makes you yourself. You've lost a
- good deal of it now."
-
- "Of what?"
-
- "Of your love of life, your capacity for delight."
-
- Clara put her hands up to her face. "I haven't, Nils
- Ericson, I haven't! Say anything to me but that. I won't have
- it!" she declared vehemently.
-
- Nils led the horse up to a straw stack, and turned to Clara,
- looking at her intently, as he had looked at her that Sunday
- afternoon at Vavrika's. "But why do you fight for that so? What
- good is the power to enjoy, if you never enjoy? Your hands are
- cold again; what are you afraid of all the time? Ah, you're
- afraid of losing it; that's what's the matter with you! And you
- will, Clara Vavrika, you will! When I used to know you--listen;
- you've caught a wild bird in your hand, haven't you, and felt its
- heart beat so hard that you were afraid it would shatter its
- little body to pieces? Well, you used to be just like that, a
- slender, eager thing with a wild delight inside you. That is how
- I remembered you. And I come back and find you--a bitter
- woman. This is a perfect ferret fight here; you live by biting
- and being bitten. Can't you remember what life used to be? Can't
- you remember that old delight? I've never forgotten it, or known
- its like, on land or sea."
-
- He drew the horse under the shadow of the straw stack.
- Clara felt him take her foot out of the stirrup, and she slid
- softly down into his arms. He kissed her slowly. He was a
- deliberate man, but his nerves were steel when he wanted
- anything. Something flashed out from him like a knife out of a
- sheath. Clara felt everything slipping away from her; she was
- flooded by the summer night. He thrust his hand into his pocket,
- and then held it out at arm's length. "Look," he said. The
- shadow of the straw stack fell sharp across his wrist, and in the
- palm of his hand she saw a silver dollar shining. "That's my
- pile," he muttered; "will you go with me?"
-
- Clara nodded, and dropped her forehead on his shoulder.
-
- Nils took a deep breath. "Will you go with me tonight?"
-
- "Where?" she whispered softly.
-
- "To town, to catch the midnight flyer."
-
- Clara lifted her head and pulled herself together. "Are you
- crazy, Nils? We couldn't go away like that."
-
- "That's the only way we ever will go. You can't sit on the
- bank and think about it. You have to plunge. That's the way
- I've always done, and it's the right way for people like you and
- me. There's nothing so dangerous as sitting still. You've only
- got one life, one youth, and you can let it slip through your
- fingers if you want to; nothing easier. Most people do that.
- You'd be better off tramping the roads with me than you are
- here." Nils held back her head and looked into her eyes. "But
- I'm not that kind of a tramp, Clara. You won't have to take in
- sewing. I'm with a Norwegian shipping line; came over on
- business with the New York offices, but now I'm going straight
- back to Bergen. I expect I've got as much money as the Ericsons.
- Father sent me a little to get started. They never knew about
- that. There, I hadn't meant to tell you; I wanted you to come on
- your own nerve."
-
- Clara looked off across the fields. "It isn't that, Nils,
- but something seems to hold me. I'm afraid to pull against it.
- It comes out of the ground, I think."
-
- "I know all about that. One has to tear loose. You're not
- needed here. Your father will understand; he's made like us. As
- for Olaf, Johanna will take better care of him than ever you
- could. It's now or never, Clara Vavrika. My bag's at the
- station; I smuggled it there yesterday."
-
- Clara clung to him and hid her face against his shoulder.
- "Not tonight," she whispered. "Sit here and talk to me tonight.
- I don't want to go anywhere tonight. I may never love you like
- this again."
-
- Nils laughed through his teeth. "You can't come that on me.
- That's not my way, Clara Vavrika. Eric's mare is over there
- behind the stacks, and I'm off on the midnight. It's goodbye, or
- off across the world with me. My carriage won't wait. I've
- written a letter to Olaf, I'll mail it in town. When he reads it
- he won't bother us--not if I know him. He'd rather have the
- land. Besides, I could demand an investigation of his
- administration of Cousin Henrik's estate, and that would be bad
- for a public man. You've no clothes, I know; but you can sit up
- tonight, and we can get everything on the way. Where's your old
- dash, Clara Vavrika? What's become of your Bohemian blood? I used
- to think you had courage enough for anything. Where's your
- nerve--what are you waiting for?"
-
- Clara drew back her head, and he saw the slumberous fire in
- her eyes. "For you to say one thing, Nils Ericson."
-
- "I never say that thing to any woman, Clara Vavrika." He
- leaned back, lifted her gently from the ground, and whispered
- through his teeth: "But I'll never, never let you go, not to any
- man on earth but me! Do you understand me? Now, wait here."
-
- Clara sank down on a sheaf of wheat and covered her face
- with her hands. She did not know what she was going to do--
- whether she would go or stay. The great, silent country seemed
- to lay a spell upon her. The ground seemed to hold her as if by
- roots. Her knees were soft under her. She felt as if she could
- not bear separation from her old sorrows, from her old discontent.
- They were dear to her, they had kept her alive, they were
- a part of her. There would be nothing left of her if she were
- wrenched away from them. Never could she pass beyond that skyline
- against which her restlessness had beat so many times. She felt
- as if her soul had built itself a nest there on that horizon at
- which she looked every morning and every evening, and it was dear
- to her, inexpressibly dear. She pressed her fingers against her
- eyeballs to shut it out. Beside her she heard the tramping of
- horses in the soft earth. Nils said nothing to her. He put his
- hands under her arms and lifted her lightly to her saddle. Then
- he swung himself into his own.
-
- "We shall have to ride fast to catch the midnight train. A
- last gallop, Clara Vavrika. Forward!"
-
- There was a start, a thud of hoofs along the moonlit road, two
- dark shadows going over the hill; and then the great, still land
- stretched untroubled under the azure night. Two shadows had
- passed.
-
-
- VII
-
- A year after the flight of Olaf Ericson's wife, the night
- train was steaming across the plains of Iowa. The conductor was
- hurrying through one of the day coaches, his lantern on his arm,
- when a lank, fair-haired boy sat up in one of the plush seats and
- tweaked him by the coat.
-
- "What is the next stop, please, sir?"
-
- "Red Oak, Iowa. But you go through to Chicago, don't you?"
- He looked down, and noticed that the boy's eyes were red and his
- face was drawn, as if he were in trouble.
-
- "Yes. But I was wondering whether I could get off at the
- next place and get a train back to Omaha."
-
- "Well, I suppose you could. Live in Omaha?"
-
- "No. In the western part of the State. How soon do we get
- to Red Oak?"
-
- "Forty minutes. You'd better make up your mind, so I can
- tell the baggageman to put your trunk off."
-
- "Oh, never mind about that! I mean, I haven't got any," the
- boy added, blushing.
-
- "Run away," the conductor thought, as he slammed the coach
- door behind him.
-
- Eric Ericson crumpled down in his seat and put his brown hand
- to his forehead. He had been crying, and he had had no supper, and
- his head was aching violently. "Oh, what shall I do?" he thought,
- as he looked dully down at his big shoes. "Nils will be ashamed of
- me; I haven't got any spunk."
-
- Ever since Nils had run away with his brother's wife, life at
- home had been hard for little Eric. His mother and Olaf both
- suspected him of complicity. Mrs. Ericson was harsh and
- faultfinding, constantly wounding the boy's pride; and Olaf was
- always setting her against him.
-
- Joe Vavrika heard often from his daughter. Clara had always
- been fond of her father, and happiness made her kinder. She wrote
- him long accounts of the voyage to Bergen, and of the trip she and
- Nils took through Bohemia to the little town where her father had
- grown up and where she herself was born. She visited all her
- kinsmen there, and sent her father news of his brother, who was a
- priest; of his sister, who had married a horse-breeder--of their
- big farm and their many children. These letters Joe always managed
- to read to little Eric. They contained messages for Eric and
- Hilda. Clara sent presents, too, which Eric never dared to take
- home and which poor little Hilda never even saw, though she loved
- to hear Eric tell about them when they were out getting the eggs
- together. But Olaf once saw Eric coming out of Vavrika's house--
- the old man had never asked the boy to come into his saloon--and
- Olaf went straight to his mother and told her. That night Mrs.
- Ericson came to Eric's room after he was in bed and made a terrible
- scene. She could be very terrifying when she was really angry.
- She forbade him ever to speak to Vavrika again, and after that
- night she would not allow him to go to town alone. So it was a
- long while before Eric got any more news of his brother. But old
- Joe suspected what was going on, and he carried Clara's letters
- about in his pocket. One Sunday he drove out to see a German
- friend of his, and chanced to catch sight of Eric, sitting by the
- cattle pond in the big pasture. They went together into Fritz
- Oberlies' barn, and read the letters and talked things over. Eric
- admitted that things were getting hard for him at home. That very
- night old Joe sat down and laboriously penned a statement of the
- case to his daughter.
-
- Things got no better for Eric. His mother and Olaf felt
- that, however closely he was watched, he still, as they said,
- "heard." Mrs. Ericson could not admit neutrality. She had sent
- Johanna Vavrika packing back to her brother's, though Olaf would
- much rather have kept her than Anders' eldest daughter, whom Mrs.
- Ericson installed in her place. He was not so highhanded as his
- mother, and he once sulkily told her that she might better have
- taught her granddaughter to cook before she sent Johanna away.
- Olaf could have borne a good deal for the sake of prunes spiced
- in honey, the secret of which Johanna had taken away with her.
-
- At last two letters came to Joe Vavrika: one from Nils,
- enclosing a postal order for money to pay Eric's passage to
- Bergen, and one from Clara, saying that Nils had a place for Eric
- in the offices of his company, that he was to live with them, and
- that they were only waiting for him to come. He was to leave New
- York on one of the boats of Nils' own line; the captain was one
- of their friends, and Eric was to make himself known at once.
-
- Nils' directions were so explicit that a baby could have
- followed them, Eric felt. And here he was, nearing Red Oak,
- Iowa, and rocking backward and forward in despair. Never had he
- loved his brother so much, and never had the big world called to
- him so hard. But there was a lump in his throat which would not
- go down. Ever since nightfall he had been tormented by the
- thought of his mother, alone in that big house that had sent
- forth so many men. Her unkindness now seemed so little, and her
- loneliness so great. He remembered everything she had ever done
- for him: how frightened she had been when he tore his hand in the
- corn-sheller, and how she wouldn't let Olaf scold him. When Nils
- went away he didn't leave his mother all alone, or he would never
- have gone. Eric felt sure of that.
-
- The train whistled. The conductor came in, smiling not unkindly.
- "Well, young man, what are you going to do? We stop at Red Oak in
- three minutes."
-
- "Yes, thank you. I'll let you know." The conductor went out,
- and the boy doubled up with misery. He couldn't let his one chance
- go like this. He felt for his breast pocket and crackled Nils'
- letter to give him courage. He didn't want Nils to be ashamed of
- him. The train stopped. Suddenly he remembered his brother's
- kind, twinkling eyes, that always looked at you as if from far
- away. The lump in his throat softened. "Ah, but Nils, Nils would
- <i>understand</i>!" he thought. "That's just it about Nils; he
- always understands."
-
- A lank, pale boy with a canvas telescope stumbled off the
- train to the Red Oak siding, just as the conductor called, "All
- aboard!"
-
- The next night Mrs. Ericson was sitting alone in her wooden
- rocking-chair on the front porch. Little Hilda had been sent to
- bed and had cried herself to sleep. The old woman's knitting was
- on her lap, but her hands lay motionless on top of it. For more
- than an hour she had not moved a muscle. She simply sat, as only
- the Ericsons and the mountains can sit. The house was dark, and
- there was no sound but the croaking of the frogs down in the pond
- of the little pasture.
-
- Eric did not come home by the road, but across the fields,
- where no one could see him. He set his telescope down softly in
- the kitchen shed, and slipped noiselessly along the path to the
- front porch. He sat down on the step without saying anything.
- Mrs. Ericson made no sign, and the frogs croaked on. At last the
- boy spoke timidly.
-
- "I've come back, Mother."
-
- "Very well," said Mrs. Ericson.
-
- Eric leaned over and picked up a little stick out of the grass.
-
- "How about the milking?" he faltered.
-
- "That's been done, hours ago."
-
- "Who did you get?"
-
- "Get? I did it myself. I can milk as good as any of you."
-
- Eric slid along the step nearer to her. "Oh, Mother, why did you?"
- he asked sorrowfully. "Why didn't you get one of Otto's boys?"
-
- "I didn't want anybody to know I was in need of a boy," said
- Mrs. Ericson bitterly. She looked straight in front of her and her
- mouth tightened. "I always meant to give you the home farm," she
- added.
-
- The boy stared and slid closer. "Oh, Mother," he faltered, "I
- don't care about the farm. I came back because I thought you might
- be needing me, maybe." He hung his head and got no further.
-
- "Very well," said Mrs. Ericson. Her hand went out from her
- suddenly and rested on his head. Her fingers twined themselves in
- his soft, pale hair. His tears splashed down on the boards;
- happiness filled his heart.
-
-
-
-
-
- The Troll Garden
-
-
-
-
-
- Flavia and Her Artists
-
- As the train neared Tarrytown, Imogen Willard began to
- wonder why she had consented to be one of Flavia's house party at
- all. She had not felt enthusiastic about it since leaving the
- city, and was experiencing a prolonged ebb of purpose, a current
- of chilling indecision, under which she vainly sought for the
- motive which had induced her to accept Flavia's invitation.
-
- Perhaps it was a vague curiosity to see Flavia's husband,
- who had been the magician of her childhood and the hero of
- innumerable Arabian fairy tales. Perhaps it was a desire to see
- M. Roux, whom Flavia had announced as the especial attraction of
- the occasion. Perhaps it was a wish to study that remarkable
- woman in her own setting.
-
- Imogen admitted a mild curiosity concerning Flavia. She was
- in the habit of taking people rather seriously, but somehow found
- it impossible to take Flavia so, because of the very vehemence
- and insistence with which Flavia demanded it. Submerged in her
- studies, Imogen had, of late years, seen very little of Flavia;
- but Flavia, in her hurried visits to New York, between her
- excursions from studio to studio--her luncheons with this lady
- who had to play at a matinee, and her dinners with that singer
- who had an evening concert--had seen enough of her friend's
- handsome daughter to conceive for her an inclination of such
- violence and assurance as only Flavia could afford. The fact
- that Imogen had shown rather marked capacity in certain esoteric
- lines of scholarship, and had decided to specialize in a well-
- sounding branch of philology at the Ecole des Chartes, had fairly
- placed her in that category of "interesting people" whom Flavia
- considered her natural affinities, and lawful prey.
-
- When Imogen stepped upon the station platform she was immediately
- appropriated by her hostess, whose commanding figure and assurance
- of attire she had recognized from a distance. She was hurried into
- a high tilbury and Flavia, taking the driver's cushion beside her,
- gathered up the reins with an experienced hand.
-
- "My dear girl," she remarked, as she turned the horses up the
- street, "I was afraid the train might be late. M. Roux insisted
- upon coming up by boat and did not arrive until after seven."
-
- "To think of M. Roux's being in this part of the world at
- all, and subject to the vicissitudes of river boats! Why in the
- world did he come over?" queried Imogen with lively interest.
- "He is the sort of man who must dissolve and become a shadow
- outside of Paris."
-
- "Oh, we have a houseful of the most interesting people,"
- said Flavia, professionally. "We have actually managed to get
- Ivan Schemetzkin. He was ill in California at the close of his
- concert tour, you know, and he is recuperating with us, after his
- wearing journey from the coast. Then there is Jules Martel, the
- painter; Signor Donati, the tenor; Professor Schotte, who has dug
- up Assyria, you know; Restzhoff, the Russian chemist; Alcee
- Buisson, the philologist; Frank Wellington, the novelist; and
- Will Maidenwood, the editor of <i>Woman</i>. Then there is my
- second cousin, Jemima Broadwood, who made such a hit in Pinero's
- comedy last winter, and Frau Lichtenfeld. <i>Have</i> you read
- her?"
-
- Imogen confessed her utter ignorance of Frau Lichtenfeld,
- and Flavia went on.
-
- "Well, she is a most remarkable person; one of those
- advanced German women, a militant iconoclast, and this drive will
- not be long enough to permit of my telling you her history. Such
- a story! Her novels were the talk of all Germany when I was there
- last, and several of them have been suppressed--an honor in
- Germany, I understand. 'At Whose Door' has been translated. I
- am so unfortunate as not to read German."
-
- "I'm all excitement at the prospect of meeting Miss
- Broadwood," said Imogen. "I've seen her in nearly everything she
- does. Her stage personality is delightful. She always reminds me
- of a nice, clean, pink-and-white boy who has just had his cold
- bath, and come down all aglow for a run before breakfast."
-
- "Yes, but isn't it unfortunate that she will limit herself to
- those minor comedy parts that are so little appreciated in this
- country? One ought to be satisfied with nothing less than the
- best, ought one?" The peculiar, breathy tone in which Flavia
- always uttered that word "best," the most worn in her vocabulary,
- always jarred on Imogen and always made her obdurate.
-
- "I don't at all agree with you," she said reservedly. "I
- thought everyone admitted that the most remarkable thing about Miss
- Broadwood is her admirable sense of fitness, which is rare enough
- in her profession."
-
- Flavia could not endure being contradicted; she always seemed
- to regard it in the light of a defeat, and usually colored
- unbecomingly. Now she changed the subject.
-
- "Look, my dear," she cried, "there is Frau Lichtenfeld now,
- coming to meet us. Doesn't she look as if she had just escaped out
- of Valhalla? She is actually over six feet."
-
- Imogen saw a woman of immense stature, in a very short skirt
- and a broad, flapping sun hat, striding down the hillside at a
- long, swinging gait. The refugee from Valhalla approached,
- panting. Her heavy, Teutonic features were scarlet from the rigor
- of her exercise, and her hair, under her flapping sun hat, was
- tightly befrizzled about her brow. She fixed her sharp little eves
- upon Imogen and extended both her hands.
-
- "So this is the little friend?" she cried, in a rolling baritone.
-
- Imogen was quite as tall as her hostess; but everything, she
- reflected, is comparative. After the introduction Flavia
- apologized.
-
- "I wish I could ask you to drive up with us, Frau Lichtenfeld."
-
- "Ah, no!" cried the giantess, drooping her head in humorous
- caricature of a time-honored pose of the heroines of sentimental
- romances. "It has never been my fate to be fitted into corners.
- I have never known the sweet privileges of the tiny."
-
- Laughing, Flavia started the ponies, and the colossal woman,
- standing in the middle of the dusty road, took off her wide hat
- and waved them a farewell which, in scope of gesture, recalled
- the salute of a plumed cavalier.
-
- When they arrived at the house, Imogen looked about her with
- keen curiosity, for this was veritably the work of Flavia's
- hands, the materialization of hopes long deferred. They passed
- directly into a large, square hall with a gallery on three sides,
- studio fashion. This opened at one end into a Dutch breakfast
- room, beyond which was the large dining room. At the other end
- of the hall was the music room. There was a smoking room, which
- one entered through the library behind the staircase. On the
- second floor there was the same general arrangement: a square
- hall, and, opening from it, the guest chambers, or, as Miss
- Broadwood termed them, the "cages."
-
- When Imogen went to her room, the guests had begun to return
- from their various afternoon excursions. Boys were gliding
- through the halls with ice water, covered trays, and flowers,
- colliding with maids and valets who carried shoes and other
- articles of wearing apparel. Yet, all this was done in response
- to inaudible bells, on felt soles, and in hushed voices, so that
- there was very little confusion about it.
-
- Flavia had at last built her house and hewn out her seven
- pillars; there could be no doubt, now, that the asylum for
- talent, the sanatorium of the arts, so long projected, was an
- accomplished fact. Her ambition had long ago outgrown the
- dimensions of her house on Prairie Avenue; besides, she had
- bitterly complained that in Chicago traditions were against her.
- Her project had been delayed by Arthur's doggedly standing out
- for the Michigan woods, but Flavia knew well enough that certain
- of the <i>rarae aves</i>--"the best"--could not be lured so far
- away from the seaport, so she declared herself for the historic
- Hudson and knew no retreat. The establishing of a New York office
- had at length overthrown Arthur's last valid objection to quitting
- the lake country for three months of the year; and Arthur could
- be wearied into anything, as those who knew him knew.
-
- Flavia's house was the mirror of her exultation; it was
- a temple to the gods of Victory, a sort of triumphal arch. In
- her earlier days she had swallowed experiences that would have
- unmanned one of less torrential enthusiasm or blind pertinacity.
- But, of late years, her determination had told; she saw less and
- less of those mysterious persons with mysterious obstacles in
- their path and mysterious grievances against the world, who had
- once frequented her house on Prairie Avenue. In the stead of
- this multitude of the unarrived, she had now the few, the select,
- "the best." Of all that band of indigent retainers who had once
- fed at her board like the suitors in the halls of Penelope, only
- Alcee Buisson still retained his right of entree. He alone had
- remembered that ambition hath a knapsack at his back, wherein he
- puts alms to oblivion, and he alone had been considerate enough
- to do what Flavia had expected of him, and give his name a
- current value in the world. Then, as Miss Broadwood put it, "he
- was her first real one,"--and Flavia, like Mohammed, could
- remember her first believer.
-
- "The House of Song," as Miss Broadwood had called it, was
- the outcome of Flavia's more exalted strategies. A woman who
- made less a point of sympathizing with their delicate organisms,
- might have sought to plunge these phosphorescent pieces into the
- tepid bath of domestic life; but Flavia's discernment was deeper.
- This must be a refuge where the shrinking soul, the sensitive
- brain, should be unconstrained; where the caprice of fancy should
- outweigh the civil code, if necessary. She considered that this
- much Arthur owed her; for she, in her turn, had made concessions.
- Flavia had, indeed, quite an equipment of epigrams to the effect
- that our century creates the iron genii which evolve its fairy
- tales: but the fact that her husband's name was annually painted
- upon some ten thousand threshing machines in reality contributed
- very little to her happiness.
-
- Arthur Hamilton was born and had spent his boyhood in the
- West Indies, and physically he had never lost the brand of the
- tropics. His father, after inventing the machine which bore his
- name, had returned to the States to patent and manufacture it.
- After leaving college, Arthur had spent five years ranching in
- the West and traveling abroad. Upon his father's death
- he had returned to Chicago and, to the astonishment of all his
- friends, had taken up the business--without any demonstration of
- enthusiasm, but with quiet perseverance, marked ability, and
- amazing industry. Why or how a self-sufficient, rather ascetic
- man of thirty, indifferent in manner, wholly negative in all
- other personal relations, should have doggedly wooed and finally
- married Flavia Malcolm was a problem that had vexed older heads
- than Imogen's.
-
- While Imogen was dressing she heard a knock at her door, and
- a young woman entered whom she at once recognized as Jemima
- Broadwood--"Jimmy" Broadwood she was called by people in her own
- profession. While there was something unmistakably professional
- in her frank <i>savoir-faire</i>, "Jimmy's" was one of those faces
- to which the rouge never seems to stick. Her eyes were keen and
- gray as a windy April sky, and so far from having been seared by
- calcium lights, you might have fancied they had never looked on
- anything less bucolic than growing fields and country fairs. She
- wore her thick, brown hair short and parted at the side; and,
- rather than hinting at freakishness, this seemed admirably in
- keeping with her fresh, boyish countenance. She extended to
- Imogen a large, well-shaped hand which it was a pleasure to
- clasp.
-
- "Ah! You are Miss Willard, and I see I need not introduce
- myself. Flavia said you were kind enough to express a wish to
- meet me, and I preferred to meet you alone. Do you mind if I
- smoke?"
-
- "Why, certainly not," said Imogen, somewhat disconcerted and
- looking hurriedly about for matches.
-
- "There, be calm, I'm always prepared," said Miss Broadwood,
- checking Imogen's flurry with a soothing gesture, and producing
- an oddly fashioned silver match-case from some mysterious recess
- in her dinner gown. She sat down in a deep chair, crossed her
- patent-leather Oxfords, and lit her cigarette. "This matchbox,"
- she went on meditatively, "once belonged to a Prussian officer.
- He shot himself in his bathtub, and I bought it at the sale of
- his effects."
-
- Imogen had not yet found any suitable reply to make to this
- rather irrelevant confidence, when Miss Broadwood turned to her
- cordially: "I'm awfully glad you've come, Miss Willard, though I've
- not quite decided why you did it. I wanted very much to meet you.
- Flavia gave me your thesis to read."
-
- "Why, how funny!" ejaculated Imogen.
-
- "On the contrary," remarked Miss Broadwood. "I thought it
- decidedly lacked humor."
-
- "I meant," stammered Imogen, beginning to feel very much
- like Alice in Wonderland, "I meant that I thought it rather
- strange Mrs. Hamilton should fancy you would be interested."
-
- Miss Broadwood laughed heartily. "Now, don't let my
- rudeness frighten you. Really, I found it very interesting, and
- no end impressive. You see, most people in my profession are
- good for absolutely nothing else, and, therefore, they have a
- deep and abiding conviction that in some other line they might
- have shone. Strange to say, scholarship is the object of our
- envious and particular admiration. Anything in type impresses us
- greatly; that's why so many of us marry authors or newspapermen
- and lead miserable lives." Miss Broadwood saw that she had rather
- disconcerted Imogen, and blithely tacked in another direction.
- "You see," she went on, tossing aside her half-consumed
- cigarette, "some years ago Flavia would not have deemed me worthy
- to open the pages of your thesis--nor to be one of her house
- party of the chosen, for that matter. I've Pinero to thank for
- both pleasures. It all depends on the class of business I'm
- playing whether I'm in favor or not. Flavia is my second cousin,
- you know, so I can say whatever disagreeable things I choose with
- perfect good grace. I'm quite desperate for someone to laugh
- with, so I'm going to fasten myself upon you--for, of course, one
- can't expect any of these gypsy-dago people to see anything
- funny. I don't intend you shall lose the humor of the situation.
- What do you think of Flavia's infirmary for the arts, anyway?"
-
- "Well, it's rather too soon for me to have any opinion at
- all," said Imogen, as she again turned to her dressing. "So far,
- you are the only one of the artists I've met."
-
- "One of them?" echoed Miss Broadwood. "One of the <i>artists</i>?
- My offense may be rank, my dear, but I really don't deserve
- that. Come, now, whatever badges of my tribe I may bear upon me,
- just let me divest you of any notion that I take myself seriously."
-
- Imogen turned from the mirror in blank astonishment and sat
- down on the arm of a chair, facing her visitor. "I can't fathom
- you at all, Miss Broadwood," she said frankly. "Why shouldn't
- you take yourself seriously? What's the use of beating about the
- bush? Surely you know that you are one of the few players on this
- side of the water who have at all the spirit of natural or
- ingenuous comedy?"
-
- "Thank you, my dear. Now we are quite even about the thesis,
- aren't we? Oh, did you mean it? Well, you <i>are</i> a clever
- girl. But you see it doesn't do to permit oneself to look at it
- in that light. If we do, we always go to pieces and waste our
- substance astarring as the unhappy daughter of the Capulets. But
- there, I hear Flavia coming to take you down; and just remember
- I'm not one of them--the artists, I mean."
-
-
- Flavia conducted Imogen and Miss Broadwood downstairs. As
- they reached the lower hall they heard voices from the music
- room, and dim figures were lurking in the shadows under the
- gallery, but their hostess led straight to the smoking room. The
- June evening was chilly, and a fire had been lighted in the
- fireplace. Through the deepening dusk, the firelight flickered
- upon the pipes and curious weapons on the wall and threw an
- orange glow over the Turkish hangings. One side of the smoking
- room was entirely of glass, separating it from the conservatory,
- which was flooded with white light from the electric bulbs.
- There was about the darkened room some suggestion of certain
- chambers in the Arabian Nights, opening on a court of palms.
- Perhaps it was partially this memory-evoking suggestion that
- caused Imogen to start so violently when she saw dimly, in a blur
- of shadow, the figure of a man, who sat smoking in a low, deep
- chair before the fire. He was long, and thin, and brown. His
- long, nerveless hands drooped from the arms of his chair. A
- brown mustache shaded his mouth, and his eyes were sleepy and
- apathetic. When Imogen entered he rose indolently and gave her
- his hand, his manner barely courteous.
-
- "I am glad you arrived promptly, Miss Willard," he said with
- an indifferent drawl. "Flavia was afraid you might be late. You
- had a pleasant ride up, I hope?"
-
- "Oh, very, thank you, Mr. Hamilton," she replied, feeling
- that he did not particularly care whether she replied at all.
-
- Flavia explained that she had not yet had time to dress for
- dinner, as she had been attending to Mr. Will Maidenwood, who had
- become faint after hurting his finger in an obdurate window, and
- immediately excused herself As she left, Hamilton turned to Miss
- Broadwood with a rather spiritless smile.
-
- "Well, Jimmy," he remarked, "I brought up a piano box full
- of fireworks for the boys. How do you suppose we'll manage to
- keep them until the Fourth?"
-
- "We can't, unless we steel ourselves to deny there are any on the
- premises," said Miss Broadwood, seating herself on a low stool by
- Hamilton's chair and leaning back against the mantel. "Have you
- seen Helen, and has she told you the tragedy of the tooth?"
-
- "She met me at the station, with her tooth wrapped up in
- tissue paper. I had tea with her an hour ago. Better sit down,
- Miss Willard;" he rose and pushed a chair toward Imogen, who was
- standing peering into the conservatory. "We are scheduled to
- dine at seven, but they seldom get around before eight."
-
- By this time Imogen had made out that here the plural
- pronoun, third person, always referred to the artists. As
- Hamilton's manner did not spur one to cordial intercourse, and as
- his attention seemed directed to Miss Broadwood, insofar as it
- could be said to be directed to anyone, she sat down facing the
- conservatory and watched him, unable to decide in how far he was
- identical with the man who had first met Flavia Malcolm in her
- mother's house, twelve years ago. Did he at all remember having
- known her as a little girl, and why did his indifference hurt her
- so, after all these years? Had some remnant of her childish
- affection for him gone on living, somewhere down in the sealed
- caves of her consciousness, and had she really expected to find
- it possible to be fond of him again? Suddenly she saw a light in
- the man's sleepy eyes, an unmistakable expression of
- interest and pleasure that fairly startled her. She turned
- quickly in the direction of his glance, and saw Flavia, just
- entering, dressed for dinner and lit by the effulgence of her
- most radiant manner. Most people considered Flavia handsome,
- and there was no gainsaying that she carried her five-and-thirty
- years splendidly. Her figure had never grown matronly, and her
- face was of the sort that does not show wear. Its blond tints
- were as fresh and enduring as enamel--and quite as hard. Its
- usual expression was one of tense, often strained, animation,
- which compressed her lips nervously. A perfect scream of
- animation, Miss Broadwood had called it, created and maintained
- by sheer, indomitable force of will. Flavia's appearance on any
- scene whatever made a ripple, caused a certain agitation and
- recognition, and, among impressionable people, a certain
- uneasiness, For all her sparkling assurance of manner, Flavia
- was certainly always ill at ease and, even more certainly,
- anxious. She seemed not convinced of the established order of
- material things, seemed always trying to conceal her feeling that
- walls might crumble, chasms open, or the fabric of her life fly
- to the winds in irretrievable entanglement. At least this was
- the impression Imogen got from that note in Flavia which was so
- manifestly false.
-
- Hamilton's keen, quick, satisfied glance at his wife had
- recalled to Imogen all her inventory of speculations about them.
- She looked at him with compassionate surprise. As a child she
- had never permitted herself to believe that Hamilton cared at all
- for the woman who had taken him away from her; and since she had
- begun to think about them again, it had never occurred to her
- that anyone could become attached to Flavia in that deeply
- personal and exclusive sense. It seemed quite as irrational as
- trying to possess oneself of Broadway at noon.
-
- When they went out to dinner Imogen realized the completeness of
- Flavia's triumph. They were people of one name, mostly, like
- kings; people whose names stirred the imagination like a romance or
- a melody. With the notable exception of M. Roux, Imogen had seen
- most of them before, either in concert halls or lecture rooms; but
- they looked noticeably older and dimmer than she remembered them.
-
- Opposite her sat Schemetzkin, the Russian pianist, a short,
- corpulent man, with an apoplectic face and purplish skin, his
- thick, iron-gray hair tossed back from his forehead. Next to the
- German giantess sat the Italian tenor --the tiniest of men--pale,
- with soft, light hair, much in disorder, very red lips, and
- fingers yellowed by cigarettes. Frau Lichtenfeld shone in a gown
- of emerald green, fitting so closely as to enhance her natural
- floridness. However, to do the good lady justice, let her attire
- be never so modest, it gave an effect of barbaric splendor. At
- her left sat Herr Schotte, the Assyriologist, whose features were
- effectually concealed by the convergence of his hair and beard,
- and whose glasses were continually falling into his plate. This
- gentleman had removed more tons of earth in the course of his
- explorations than had any of his confreres, and his vigorous
- attack upon his food seemed to suggest the strenuous nature of
- his accustomed toil. His eyes were small and deeply set, and his
- forehead bulged fiercely above his eves in a bony ridge. His
- heavy brows completed the leonine suggestion of his face. Even
- to Imogen, who knew something of his work and greatly respected
- it, he was entirely too reminiscent of the Stone Age to be
- altogether an agreeable dinner companion. He seemed, indeed, to
- have absorbed something of the savagery of those early types of
- life which he continually studied.
-
- Frank Wellington, the young Kansas man who had been two
- years out of Harvard and had published three historical novels,
- sat next to Mr. Will Maidenwood, who was still pale from his
- recent sufferings and carried his hand bandaged. They took
- little part in the general conversation, but, like the lion and
- the unicorn, were always at it, discussing, every time they met,
- whether there were or were not passages in Mr. Wellington's works
- which should be eliminated, out of consideration for the Young
- Person. Wellington had fallen into the hands of a great American
- syndicate which most effectually befriended struggling authors
- whose struggles were in the right direction, and which had
- guaranteed to make him famous before he was thirty. Feeling the
- security of his position he stoutly defended those passages which
- jarred upon the sensitive nerves of the young editor of
- <i>Woman</i>. Maidenwood, in the smoothest of voices, urged the
- necessity of the author's recognizing certain restrictions at the
- outset, and Miss Broadwood, who joined the argument quite without
- invitation or encouragement, seconded him with pointed and
- malicious remarks which caused the young editor manifest
- discomfort. Restzhoff, the chemist, demanded the attention of the
- entire company for his exposition of his devices for manufacturing
- ice cream from vegetable oils and for administering drugs in
- bonbons.
-
- Flavia, always noticeably restless at dinner, was somewhat
- apathetic toward the advocate of peptonized chocolate and was
- plainly concerned about the sudden departure of M. Roux, who had
- announced that it would be necessary for him to leave tomorrow.
- M. Emile Roux, who sat at Flavia's right, was a man in middle
- life and quite bald, clearly without personal vanity, though his
- publishers preferred to circulate only those of his portraits
- taken in his ambrosial youth. Imogen was considerably shocked at
- his unlikeness to the slender, black-stocked Rolla he had looked
- at twenty. He had declined into the florid, settled heaviness of
- indifference and approaching age. There was, however, a certain
- look of durability and solidity about him; the look of a man who
- has earned the right to be fat and bald, and even silent at
- dinner if he chooses.
-
- Throughout the discussion between Wellington and Will
- Maidenwood, though they invited his participation, he remained
- silent, betraying no sign either of interest or contempt. Since
- his arrival he had directed most of his conversation to Hamilton,
- who had never read one of his twelve great novels. This
- perplexed and troubled Flavia. On the night of his arrival Jules
- Martel had enthusiastically declared, "There are schools and
- schools, manners and manners; but Roux is Roux, and Paris sets
- its watches by his clock." Flavia bad already repeated this
- remark to Imogen. It haunted her, and each time she quoted it
- she was impressed anew.
-
- Flavia shifted the conversation uneasily, evidently exasperated
- and excited by her repeated failures to draw the novelist out.
- "Monsieur Roux," she began abruptly, with her most animated smile,
- "I remember so well a statement I read some years ago in your 'Mes
- Etudes des Femmes' to the effect that you had never met a really
- intellectual woman. May I ask, without being impertinent, whether
- that assertion still represents your experience?"
-
- "I meant, madam," said the novelist conservatively, "intellectual
- in a sense very special, as we say of men in whom the purely
- intellectual functions seem almost independent."
-
- "And you still think a woman so constituted a mythical
- personage?" persisted Flavia, nodding her head encouragingly.
-
- "<i>Une Meduse</i>, madam, who, if she were discovered, would
- transmute us all into stone," said the novelist, bowing gravely.
- "If she existed at all," he added deliberately, "it was my
- business to find her, and she has cost me many a vain pilgrimage.
- Like Rudel of Tripoli, I have crossed seas and penetrated deserts
- to seek her out. I have, indeed, encountered women of learning
- whose industry I have been compelled to respect; many who have
- possessed beauty and charm and perplexing cleverness; a few with
- remarkable information and a sort of fatal facility."
-
- "And Mrs. Browning, George Eliot, and your own Mme. Dudevant?"
- queried Flavia with that fervid enthusiasm with which she could, on
- occasion, utter things simply incomprehensible for their
- banality--at her feats of this sort Miss Broadwood was wont to sit
- breathless with admiration.
-
- "Madam, while the intellect was undeniably present in the
- performances of those women, it was only the stick of the rocket.
- Although this woman has eluded me I have studied her conditions
- and perturbances as astronomers conjecture the orbits of planets
- they have never seen. if she exists, she is probably neither an
- artist nor a woman with a mission, but an obscure personage, with
- imperative intellectual needs, who absorbs rather than produces."
-
- Flavia, still nodding nervously, fixed a strained glance of
- interrogation upon M. Roux. "Then you think she would be a woman
- whose first necessity would be to know, whose instincts would be
- satisfied only with the best, who could draw from others;
- appreciative, merely?"
-
- The novelist lifted his dull eyes to his interlocutress with
- an untranslatable smile and a slight inclination of his
- shoulders. "Exactly so; you are really remarkable, madam," he
- added, in a tone of cold astonishment.
-
- After dinner the guests took their coffee in the music room,
- where Schemetzkin sat down at the piano to drum ragtime, and give
- his celebrated imitation of the boardingschool girl's execution
- of Chopin. He flatly refused to play anything more serious, and
- would practice only in the morning, when he had the music room to
- himself. Hamilton and M. Roux repaired to the smoking room to
- discuss the necessity of extending the tax on manufactured
- articles in France--one of those conversations which particularly
- exasperated Flavia.
-
- After Schemetzkin had grimaced and tortured the keyboard
- with malicious vulgarities for half an hour, Signor Donati, to
- put an end to his torture, consented to sing, and Flavia and
- Imogen went to fetch Arthur to play his accompaniments. Hamilton
- rose with an annoyed look and placed his cigarette on the mantel.
- "Why yes, Flavia, I'll accompany him, provided he sings something
- with a melody, Italian arias or ballads, and provided the recital
- is not interminable."
-
- "You will join us, M. Roux?"
-
- "Thank you, but I have some letters to write," replied the
- novelist, bowing.
-
- As Flavia had remarked to Imogen, "Arthur really played
- accompaniments remarkably well." To hear him recalled vividly the
- days of her childhood, when he always used to spend his business
- vacations at her mother's home in Maine. He had possessed for
- her that almost hypnotic influence which young men sometimes
- exert upon little girls. It was a sort of phantom love affair,
- subjective and fanciful, a precocity of instinct, like that
- tender and maternal concern which some little girls feel for
- their dolls. Yet this childish infatuation is capable of all the
- depressions and exaltations of love itself, it has its bitter
- jealousies, cruel disappointments, its exacting caprices.
-
- Summer after summer she had awaited his coming and wept at his
- departure, indifferent to the gayer young men who had called her
- their sweetheart and laughed at everything she said. Although
- Hamilton never said so, she had been always quite sure that he was
- fond of her. When he pulled her up the river to hunt for fairy
- knolls shut about by low, hanging willows, he was often silent for
- an hour at a time, yet she never felt he was bored or was
- neglecting her. He would lie in the sand smoking, his eyes
- half-closed, watching her play, and she was always conscious that
- she was entertaining him. Sometimes he would take a copy of "Alice
- in Wonderland" in his pocket, and no one could read it as he could,
- laughing at her with his dark eyes, when anything amused him. No
- one else could laugh so, with just their eyes, and without moving
- a muscle of their face. Though he usually smiled at passages that
- seemed not at all funny to the child, she always laughed gleefully,
- because he was so seldom moved to mirth that any such demonstration
- delighted her and she took the credit of it entirely to herself Her
- own inclination had been for serious stories, with sad endings,
- like the Little Mermaid, which he had once told her in an unguarded
- moment when she had a cold, and was put to bed early on her
- birthday night and cried because she could not have her party. But
- he highly disapproved of this preference, and had called it a
- morbid taste, and always shook his finger at her when she asked for
- the story. When she had been particularly good, or particularly
- neglected by other people, then he would sometimes melt and tell
- her the story, and never laugh at her if she enjoyed the "sad
- ending" even to tears. When Flavia had taken him away and he came
- no more, she wept inconsolably for the space of two weeks, and
- refused to learn her lessons. Then she found the story of the
- Little Mermaid herself, and forgot him.
-
- Imogen had discovered at dinner that he could still smile at
- one secretly, out of his eyes, and that he had the old manner of
- outwardly seeming bored, but letting you know that he was not.
- She was intensely curious about his exact state of feeling toward
- his wife, and more curious still to catch a sense of his final
- adjustment to the conditions of life in general. This, she could
- not help feeling, she might get again--if she could have him alone
- for an hour, in some place where there was a little river and a
- sandy cove bordered by drooping willows, and a blue sky seen
- through white sycamore boughs.
-
- That evening, before retiring, Flavia entered her husband's
- room, where be sat in his smoking jacket, in one of his favorite
- low chairs.
-
- "I suppose it's a grave responsibility to bring an ardent,
- serious young thing like Imogen here among all these fascinating
- personages," she remarked reflectively. "But, after all, one can
- never tell. These grave, silent girls have their own charm, even
- for facile people."
-
- "Oh, so that is your plan?" queried her husband dryly. "I
- was wondering why you got her up here. She doesn't seem to mix
- well with the faciles. At least, so it struck me."
-
- Flavia paid no heed to this jeering remark, but repeated, "No,
- after all, it may not be a bad thing."
-
- "Then do consign her to that shaken reed, the tenor," said
- her husband yawning. "I remember she used to have a taste for
- the pathetic."
-
- "And then," remarked Flavia coquettishly, "after all, I owe her
- mother a return in kind. She was not afraid to trifle with
- destiny."
-
- But Hamilton was asleep in his chair.
-
-
- Next morning Imogen found only Miss Broadwood in the breakfast
- room.
-
- "Good morning, my dear girl, whatever are you doing up so
- early? They never breakfast before eleven. Most of them take
- their coffee in their room. Take this place by me."
-
- Miss Broadwood looked particularly fresh and encouraging in
- her blue serge walking skirt, her open jacket displaying an
- expanse of stiff, white shirt bosom, dotted with some almost
- imperceptible figure, and a dark blue-and-white necktie, neatly
- knotted under her wide, rolling collar. She wore a white rosebud
- in the lapel of her coat, and decidedly she seemed more than ever
- like a nice, clean boy on his holiday. Imogen was just hoping
- that they would breakfast alone when Miss Broadwood exclaimed,
- "Ah, there comes Arthur with the children. That's the reward of
- early rising in this house; you never get to see the youngsters
- at any other time."
-
- Hamilton entered, followed by two dark, handsome little
- boys. The girl, who was very tiny, blonde like her mother, and
- exceedingly frail, he carried in his arms. The boys came up and
- said good morning with an ease and cheerfulness uncommon, even in
- well-bred children, but the little girl hid her face on her
- father's shoulder.
-
- "She's a shy little lady," he explained as he put her gently
- down in her chair. "I'm afraid she's like her father; she can't
- seem to get used to meeting people. And you, Miss Willard, did
- you dream of the White Rabbit or the Little Mermaid?"
-
- "Oh, I dreamed of them all! All the personages of that
- buried civilization," cried Imogen, delighted that his estranged
- manner of the night before had entirely vanished and feeling
- that, somehow, the old confidential relations had been restored
- during the night.
-
- "Come, William," said Miss Broadwood, turning to the younger
- of the two boys, "and what did you dream about?"
-
- "We dreamed," said William gravely--he was the more assertive of
- the two and always spoke for both--"we dreamed that there were
- fireworks hidden in the basement of the carriage house; lots and
- lots of fireworks."
-
- His elder brother looked up at him with apprehensive
- astonishment, while Miss Broadwood hastily put her napkin to her
- lips and Hamilton dropped his eyes. "If little boys dream
- things, they are so apt not to come true," he reflected sadly.
- This shook even the redoubtable William, and he glanced nervously
- at his brother. "But do things vanish just because they have
- been dreamed?" he objected.
-
- "Generally that is the very best reason for their vanishing,"
- said Arthur gravely.
-
- "But, Father, people can't help what they dream,"
- remonstrated Edward gently.
-
- "Oh, come! You're making these children talk like a
- Maeterlinck dialogue," laughed Miss Broadwood.
-
- Flavia presently entered, a book in her hand, and bade them all
- good morning. "Come, little people, which story shall it be this
- morning?" she asked winningly. Greatly excited, the children
- followed her into the garden. "She does then, sometimes," murmured
- Imogen as they left the breakfast room.
-
- "Oh, yes, to be sure," said Miss Broadwood cheerfully. "She
- reads a story to them every morning in the most picturesque part
- of the garden. The mother of the Gracchi, you know. She does so
- long, she says, for the time when they will be intellectual
- companions for her. What do you say to a walk over the hills?"
-
- As they left the house they met Frau Lichtenfeld and the
- bushy Herr Schotte--the professor cut an astonishing figure in
- golf stockings--returning from a walk and engaged in an animated
- conversation on the tendencies of German fiction.
-
- "Aren't they the most attractive little children," exclaimed
- Imogen as they wound down the road toward the river.
-
- "Yes, and you must not fail to tell Flavia that you think
- so. She will look at you in a sort of startled way and say,
- 'Yes, aren't they?' and maybe she will go off and hunt them up
- and have tea with them, to fully appreciate them. She is awfully
- afraid of missing anything good, is Flavia. The way those
- youngsters manage to conceal their guilty presence in the House
- of Song is a wonder."
-
- "But don't any of the artist-folk fancy children?" asked Imogen.
-
- "Yes, they just fancy them and no more. The chemist remarked the
- other day that children are like certain salts which need not be
- actualized because the formulae are quite sufficient for practical
- purposes. I don't see how even Flavia can endure to have that man
- about."
-
- "I have always been rather curious to know what Arthur
- thinks of it all," remarked Imogen cautiously.
-
- "Thinks of it!" ejaculated Miss Broadwood. "Why, my dear,
- what would any man think of having his house turned into an
- hotel, habited by freaks who discharge his servants, borrow his
- money, and insult his neighbors? This place is shunned like a
- lazaretto!"
-
- Well, then, why does he--why does he--" persisted Imogen.
-
- "Bah!" interrupted Miss Broadwood impatiently, "why did he
- in the first place? That's the question."
-
- "Marry her, you mean?" said Imogen coloring.
-
- "Exactly so," said Miss Broadwood sharply, as she snapped
- the lid of her matchbox.
-
- "I suppose that is a question rather beyond us, and
- certainly one which we cannot discuss," said Imogen. "But his
- toleration on this one point puzzles me, quite apart from other
- complications."
-
- "Toleration? Why this point, as you call it, simply is
- Flavia. Who could conceive of her without it? I don't know where
- it's all going to end, I'm sure, and I'm equally sure that, if it
- were not for Arthur, I shouldn't care," declared Miss Broadwood,
- drawing her shoulders together.
-
- "But will it end at all, now?"
-
- "Such an absurd state of things can't go on indefinitely. A
- man isn't going to see his wife make a guy of herself forever, is
- he? Chaos has already begun in the servants' quarters. There are
- six different languages spoken there now. You see, it's all on
- an entirely false basis. Flavia hasn't the slightest notion of
- what these people are really like, their good and their bad alike
- escape her. They, on the other hand, can't imagine what she is
- driving at. Now, Arthur is worse off than either faction; he is
- not in the fairy story in that he sees these people exactly as
- they are, <i>but</i> he is utterly unable to see Flavia as they see
- her. There you have the situation. Why can't he see her as we do?
- My dear, that has kept me awake o' nights. This man who has
- thought so much and lived so much, who is naturally a critic,
- really takes Flavia at very nearly her own estimate. But now I am
- entering upon a wilderness. From a brief acquaintance with her
- you can know nothing of the icy fastnesses of Flavia's self-
- esteem. It's like St. Peter's; you can't realize its magnitude
- at once. You have to grow into a sense of it by living under its
- shadow. It has perplexed even Emile Roux, that merciless
- dissector of egoism. She has puzzled him the more because be saw
- at a glance what some of them do not perceive at once, and what
- will be mercifully concealed from Arthur until the trump sounds;
- namely, that all Flavia's artists have done or ever will do means
- exactly as much to her as a symphony means to an oyster; that
- there is no bridge by which the significance of any work of art
- could be conveyed to her."
-
- "Then, in the name of goodness, why does she bother?" gasped
- Imogen. "She is pretty, wealthy, well-established; why should
- she bother?"
-
- "That's what M. Roux has kept asking himself. I can't pretend to
- analyze it. She reads papers on the Literary Landmarks of Paris,
- the Loves of the Poets, and that sort of thing, to clubs out in
- Chicago. To Flavia it is more necessary to be called clever than
- to breathe. I would give a good deal to know that glum Frenchman's
- diagnosis. He has been watching her out of those fishy eyes of his
- as a biologist watches a hemisphereless frog."
-
- For several days after M. Roux's departure Flavia gave an
- embarrassing share of her attention to Imogen. Embarrassing,
- because Imogen had the feeling of being energetically and
- futilely explored, she knew not for what. She felt herself under
- the globe of an air pump, expected to yield up something. When
- she confined the conversation to matters of general interest
- Flavia conveyed to her with some pique that her one endeavor in
- life had been to fit herself to converse with her friends upon
- those things which vitally interested them. "One has no right to
- accept their best from people unless one gives, isn't it so? I
- want to be able to give--!" she declared vaguely. Yet whenever
- Imogen strove to pay her tithes and plunged bravely into her
- plans for study next winter, Flavia grew absent-minded and
- interrupted her by amazing generalizations or by such
- embarrassing questions as, "And these grim studies really have
- charm for you; you are quite buried in them; they make other
- things seem light and ephemeral?"
-
- "I rather feel as though I had got in here under false
- pretenses," Imogen confided to Miss Broadwood. "I'm sure I don't
- know what it is that she wants of me."
-
- "Ah," chuckled Jemima, "you are not equal to these heart to
- heart talks with Flavia. You utterly fail to communicate to her
- the atmosphere of that untroubled joy in which you dwell. You
- must remember that she gets no feeling out of things
- herself, and she demands that you impart yours to her by some
- process of psychic transmission. I once met a blind girl, blind
- from birth, who could discuss the peculiarities of the Barbizon
- school with just Flavia's glibness and enthusiasm. Ordinarily
- Flavia knows how to get what she wants from people, and her
- memory is wonderful. One evening I heard her giving Frau
- Lichtenfeld some random impressions about Hedda Gabler which she
- extracted from me five years ago; giving them with an impassioned
- conviction of which I was never guilty. But I have known other
- people who could appropriate your stories and opinions; Flavia
- is infinitely more subtle than that; she can soak up the very
- thrash and drift of your daydreams, and take the very thrills
- off your back, as it were."
-
- After some days of unsuccessful effort, Flavia withdrew
- herself, and Imogen found Hamilton ready to catch her when she
- was tossed afield. He seemed only to have been awaiting this
- crisis, and at once their old intimacy reestablished itself as a
- thing inevitable and beautifully prepared for. She convinced
- herself that she had not been mistaken in him, despite all the
- doubts that had come up in later years, and this renewal of faith
- set more than one question thumping in her brain. "How did he,
- how can he?" she kept repeating with a tinge of her childish
- resentment, "what right had he to waste anything so fine?"
-
- When Imogen and Arthur were returning from a walk before
- luncheon one morning about a week after M. Roux's departure, they
- noticed an absorbed group before one of the hall windows. Herr
- Schotte and Restzhoff sat on the window seat with a newspaper
- between them, while Wellington, Schemetzkin, and Will Maidenwood
- looked over their shoulders. They seemed intensely interested,
- Herr Schotte occasionally pounding his knees with his fists in
- ebullitions of barbaric glee. When imogen entered the hall,
- however, the men were all sauntering toward the breakfast room
- and the paper was lying innocently on the divan. During luncheon
- the personnel of that window group were unwontedly animated and
- agreeable all save Schemetzkin, whose stare was blanker than
- ever, as though Roux's mantle of insulting indifference
- had fallen upon him, in addition to his own oblivious self-
- absorption. Will Maidenwood seemed embarrassed and annoyed; the
- chemist employed himself with making polite speeches to Hamilton.
- Flavia did not come down to lunch--and there was a malicious
- gleam under Herr Schotte's eyebrows. Frank Wellington announced
- nervously that an imperative letter from his protecting syndicate
- summoned him to the city.
-
- After luncheon the men went to the golf links, and Imogen,
- at the first opportunity, possessed herself of the newspaper
- which had been left on the divan. One of the first things that
- caught her eye was an article headed "Roux on Tuft Hunters; The
- Advanced American Woman as He Sees Her; Aggressive, Superficial,
- and Insincere." The entire interview was nothing more nor less
- than a satiric characterization of Flavia, aquiver with
- irritation and vitriolic malice. No one could mistake it; it was
- done with all his deftness of portraiture. Imogen had not finished
- the article when she heard a footstep, and clutching the paper she
- started precipitately toward the stairway as Arthur entered. He
- put out his hand, looking critically at her distressed face.
-
- "Wait a moment, Miss Willard," he said peremptorily, "I want
- to see whether we can find what it was that so interested our
- friends this morning. Give me the paper, please."
-
- Imogen grew quite white as he opened the journal. She
- reached forward and crumpled it with her hands. "Please don't,
- please don't," she pleaded; "it's something I don't want you to
- see. Oh, why will you? it's just something low and despicable
- that you can't notice."
-
- Arthur had gently loosed her hands, and he pointed her to a chair.
- He lit a cigar and read the article through without comment. When
- he had finished it he walked to the fireplace, struck a match, and
- tossed the flaming journal between the brass andirons.
-
- "You are right," he remarked as he came back, dusting his
- hands with his handkerchief. "It's quite impossible to comment.
- There are extremes of blackguardism for which we have no name.
- The only thing necessary is to see that Flavia gets no
- wind of this. This seems to be my cue to act; poor girl."
-
- Imogen looked at him tearfully; she could only murmur, "Oh,
- why did you read it!"
-
- Hamilton laughed spiritlessly. "Come, don't you worry about
- it. You always took other people's troubles too seriously. When
- you were little and all the world was gay and everybody happy,
- you must needs get the Little Mermaid's troubles to grieve over.
- Come with me into the music room. You remember the musical
- setting I once made you for the Lay of the Jabberwock? I was
- trying it over the other night, long after you were in bed, and I
- decided it was quite as fine as the Erl-King music. How I wish I
- could give you some of the cake that Alice ate and make you a
- little girl again. Then, when you had got through the glass door
- into the little garden, you could call to me, perhaps, and tell
- me all the fine things that were going on there. What a pity it
- is that you ever grew up!" he added, laughing; and Imogen, too,
- was thinking just that.
-
- At dinner that evening, Flavia, with fatal persistence,
- insisted upon turning the conversation to M. Roux. She had been
- reading one of his novels and had remembered anew that Paris set
- its watches by his clock. Imogen surmised that she was tortured
- by a feeling that she had not sufficiently appreciated him while
- she had had him. When she first mentioned his name she was
- answered only by the pall of silence that fell over the company.
- Then everyone began to talk at once, as though to correct a false
- position. They spoke of him with a fervid, defiant admiration,
- with the sort of hot praise that covers a double purpose. Imogen
- fancied she could see that they felt a kind of relief at what the
- man had done, even those who despised him for doing it; that they
- felt a spiteful hate against Flavia, as though she had tricked
- them, and a certain contempt for themselves that they had been
- beguiled. She was reminded of the fury of the crowd in the fairy
- tale, when once the child had called out that the king was in his
- night clothes. Surely these people knew no more about Flavia
- than they had known before, but the mere fact that the
- thing had been said altered the situation. Flavia, meanwhile,
- sat chattering amiably, pathetically unconscious of her nakedness.
-
- Hamilton lounged, fingering the stem of his wineglass,
- gazing down the table at one face after another and studying the
- various degrees of self-consciousness they exhibited. Imogen's
- eyes followed his, fearfully. When a lull came in the spasmodic
- flow of conversation, Arthur, leaning back in his chair, remarked
- deliberately, "As for M. Roux, his very profession places him
- in that class of men whom society has never been able to accept
- unconditionally because it has never been able to assume that
- they have any ordered notion of taste. He and his ilk remain,
- with the mountebanks and snake charmers, people indispensable to
- our civilization, but wholly unreclaimed by it; people whom we
- receive, but whose invitations we do not accept."
-
- Fortunately for Flavia, this mine was not exploded until
- just before the coffee was brought. Her laughter was pitiful to
- hear; it echoed through the silent room as in a vault, while she
- made some tremulously light remark about her husband's drollery,
- grim as a jest from the dying. No one responded and she sat
- nodding her head like a mechanical toy and smiling her white, set
- smile through her teeth, until Alcee Buisson and Frau Lichtenfeld
- came to her support.
-
- After dinner the guests retired immediately to their rooms,
- and Imogen went upstairs on tiptoe, feeling the echo of breakage
- and the dust of crumbling in the air. She wondered whether
- Flavia's habitual note of uneasiness were not, in a manner,
- prophetic, and a sort of unconscious premonition, after all. She
- sat down to write a letter, but she found herself so nervous, her
- head so hot and her hands so cold, that she soon abandoned the
- effort. just as she was about to seek Miss Broadwood, Flavia
- entered and embraced her hysterically.
-
- "My dearest girl," she began, "was there ever such an
- unfortunate and incomprehensible speech made before? Of course
- it is scarcely necessary to explain to you poor Arthur's lack of
- tact, and that he meant nothing. But they! Can they be
- expected to understand? He will feel wretchedly about it when
- he realizes what he has done, but in the meantime? And M. Roux,
- of all men! When we were so fortunate as to get him, and he made
- himself so unreservedly agreeable, and I fancied that, in his way,
- Arthur quite admired him. My dear, you have no idea what that
- speech has done. Schemetzkin and Herr Schotte have already sent
- me word that they must leave us tomorrow. Such a thing from a
- host!" Flavia paused, choked by tears of vexation and despair.
-
- Imogen was thoroughly disconcerted; this was the first time
- she had ever seen Flavia betray any personal emotion which was
- indubitably genuine. She replied with what consolation she
- could. "Need they take it personally at all? It was a mere
- observation upon a class of people--"
-
- "Which he knows nothing whatever about, and with whom he has
- no sympathy," interrupted Flavia. "Ah, my dear, you could not be
- <i>expected</i> to understand. You can't realize, knowing Arthur
- as you do, his entire lack of any aesthetic sense whatever. He is
- absolutely <i>nil</i>, stone deaf and stark blind, on that side.
- He doesn't mean to be brutal, it is just the brutality of utter
- ignorance. They always feel it--they are so sensitive to
- unsympathetic influences, you know; they know it the moment they
- come into the house. I have spent my life apologizing for him
- and struggling to conceal it; but in spite of me, he wounds them;
- his very attitude, even in silence, offends them. Heavens! Do I
- not know? Is it not perpetually and forever wounding me? But
- there has never been anything so dreadful as this--never! If I
- could conceive of any possible motive, even!"
-
- "But, surely, Mrs. Hamilton, it was, after all, a mere
- expression of opinion, such as we are any of us likely to venture
- upon any subject whatever. It was neither more personal nor more
- extravagant than many of M. Roux's remarks."
-
- "But, Imogen, certainly M. Roux has the right. It is a part
- of his art, and that is altogether another matter. Oh, this is
- not the only instance!" continued Flavia passionately, "I've
- always had that narrow, bigoted prejudice to contend with. It
- has always held me back. But this--!"
-
- "I think you mistake his attitude," replied Imogen, feeling
- a flush that made her ears tingle. "That is, I fancy he is more
- appreciative than he seems. A man can't be very demonstrative
- about those things--not if he is a real man. I should not think
- you would care much about saving the feelings of people who are
- too narrow to admit of any other point of view than their own."
- She stopped, finding herself in the impossible position of
- attempting to explain Hamilton to his wife; a task which, if once
- begun, would necessitate an entire course of enlightenment which
- she doubted Flavia's ability to receive, and which she could
- offer only with very poor grace.
-
- "That's just where it stings most"--here Flavia began pacing
- the floor--"it is just because they have all shown such tolerance
- and have treated Arthur with such unfailing consideration that I
- can find no reasonable pretext for his rancor. How can he fail
- to see the value of such friendships on the children's account,
- if for nothing else! What an advantage for them to grow up among
- such associations! Even though he cares nothing about these
- things himself he might realize that. Is there nothing I could
- say by way of explanation? To them, I mean? If someone were to
- explain to them how unfortunately limited he is in these
- things--"
-
- "I'm afraid I cannot advise you," said Imogen decidedly,
- "but that, at least, seems to me impossible."
-
- Flavia took her hand and glanced at her affectionately,
- nodding nervously. "Of course, dear girl, I can't ask you to be
- quite frank with me. Poor child, you are trembling and your
- hands are icy. Poor Arthur! But you must not judge him by this
- altogether; think how much he misses in life. What a cruel shock
- you've had. I'll send you some sherry, Good night, my dear."
-
- When Flavia shut the door Imogen burst into a fit of nervous
- weeping.
-
- Next morning she awoke after a troubled and restless night. At
- eight o'clock Miss Broadwood entered in a red and white striped
- bathrobe.
-
- "Up, up, and see the great doom's image!" she cried, her
- eyes sparkling with excitement. "The hall is full of
- trunks, they are packing. What bolt has fallen? It's you, <i>ma
- cherie</i>, you've brought Ulysses home again and the slaughter has
- begun!" she blew a cloud of smoke triumphantly from her lips and
- threw herself into a chair beside the bed.
-
- Imogen, rising on her elbow, plunged excitedly into the
- story of the Roux interview, which Miss Broadwood heard with the
- keenest interest, frequently interrupting her with exclamations
- of delight. When Imogen reached the dramatic scene which
- terminated in the destruction of the newspaper, Miss Broadwood
- rose and took a turn about the room, violently switching the
- tasselled cords of her bathrobe.
-
- "Stop a moment," she cried, "you mean to tell me that he had
- such a heaven-sent means to bring her to her senses and didn't
- use it--that he held such a weapon and threw it away?"
-
- "Use it?" cried Imogen unsteadily. "Of course he didn't! He
- bared his back to the tormentor, signed himself over to
- punishment in that speech he made at dinner, which everyone
- understands but Flavia. She was here for an hour last night and
- disregarded every limit of taste in her maledictions."
-
- "My dear!" cried Miss Broadwood, catching her hand in
- inordinate delight at the situation, "do you see what he has
- done? There'll be no end to it. Why he has sacrificed himself to
- spare the very vanity that devours him, put rancors in the
- vessels of his peace, and his eternal jewel given to the common
- enemy of man, to make them kings, the seed of Banquo kings! He is
- magnificent!"
-
- "Isn't he always that?" cried Imogen hotly. "He's like a
- pillar of sanity and law in this house of shams and swollen
- vanities, where people stalk about with a sort of madhouse
- dignity, each one fancying himself a king or a pope. If you
- could have heard that woman talk of him! Why, she thinks him
- stupid, bigoted, blinded by middleclass prejudices. She talked
- about his having no aesthetic sense and insisted that her artists
- had always shown him tolerance. I don't know why it should get
- on my nerves so, I'm sure, but her stupidity and assurance are
- enough to drive one to the brink of collapse."
-
- "Yes, as opposed to his singular fineness, they are
- calculated to do just that," said Miss Broadwood gravely, wisely
- ignoring Imogen's tears. "But what has been is nothing to what
- will be. Just wait until Flavia's black swans have flown! You
- ought not to try to stick it out; that would only make it harder
- for everyone. Suppose you let me telephone your mother to wire
- you to come home by the evening train?"
-
- "Anything, rather than have her come at me like that again. It
- puts me in a perfectly impossible position, and he <i>is</i> so
- fine!"
-
- "Of course it does," said Miss Broadwood sympathetically,
- "and there is no good to be got from facing it. I will stay
- because such things interest me, and Frau Lichtenfeld will stay
- because she has no money to get away, and Buisson will stay
- because he feels somewhat responsible. These complications are
- interesting enough to cold-blooded folk like myself who have an
- eye for the dramatic element, but they are distracting and
- demoralizing to young people with any serious purpose in life."
-
- Miss Broadwood's counsel was all the more generous seeing
- that, for her, the most interesting element of this denouement
- would be eliminated by Imogen's departure. "If she goes now,
- she'll get over it," soliloquized Miss Broadwood. "If she stays,
- she'll be wrung for him and the hurt may go deep enough to last.
- I haven't the heart to see her spoiling things for herself." She
- telephoned Mrs. Willard and helped Imogen to pack. She even took
- it upon herself to break the news of Imogen's going to Arthur,
- who remarked, as he rolled a cigarette in his nerveless fingers:
-
- "Right enough, too. What should she do here with old cynics
- like you and me, Jimmy? Seeing that she is brim full of dates and
- formulae and other positivisms, and is so girt about with
- illusions that she still casts a shadow in the sun. You've been
- very tender of her, haven't you? I've watched you. And to think
- it may all be gone when we see her next. 'The common fate of all
- things rare,' you know. What a good fellow you are, anyway,
- Jimmy," he added, putting his hands affectionately on her
- shoulders.
-
- Arthur went with them to the station. Flavia was so
- prostrated by the concerted action of her guests that she was
- able to see Imogen only for a moment in her darkened sleeping
- chamber, where she kissed her hysterically, without lifting her
- head, bandaged in aromatic vinegar. On the way to the station
- both Arthur and Imogen threw the burden of keeping up appearances
- entirely upon Miss Broadwood, who blithely rose to the occasion.
- When Hamilton carried Imogen's bag into the car, Miss Broadwood
- detained her for a moment, whispering as she gave her a large,
- warm handclasp, "I'll come to see you when I get back to town;
- and, in the meantime, if you meet any of our artists, tell them
- you have left Caius Marius among the ruins of Carthage."
-
-
-
-
-
- The Sculptor's Funeral
-
- A group of the townspeople stood on the station siding of a
- little Kansas town, awaiting the coming of the night train, which
- was already twenty minutes overdue. The snow had fallen thick
- over everything; in the pale starlight the line of bluffs across
- the wide, white meadows south of the town made soft, smoke-
- colored curves against the clear sky. The men on the siding
- stood first on one foot and then on the other, their hands thrust
- deep into their trousers pockets, their overcoats open, their
- shoulders screwed up with the cold; and they glanced from time to
- time toward the southeast, where the railroad track wound along
- the river shore. They conversed in low tones and moved about
- restlessly, seeming uncertain as to what was expected of them.
- There was but one of the company who looked as though he knew
- exactly why he was there; and he kept conspicuously apart;
- walking to the far end of the platform, returning to the station
- door, then pacing up the track again, his chin sunk in the high
- collar of his overcoat, his burly shoulders drooping forward, his
- gait heavy and dogged. Presently he was approached by a tall,
- spare, grizzled man clad in a faded Grand Army suit, who shuffled
- out from the group and advanced with a certain deference, craning
- his neck forward until his back made the angle of a jackknife
- three-quarters open.
-
- "I reckon she's agoin' to be pretty late ag'in tonight,
- Jim," he remarked in a squeaky falsetto. "S'pose it's the snow?"
-
- "I don't know," responded the other man with a shade of
- annoyance, speaking from out an astonishing cataract of red beard
- that grew fiercely and thickly in all directions.
-
- The spare man shifted the quill toothpick he was chewing to
- the other side of his mouth. "It ain't likely that anybody from
- the East will come with the corpse, I s'pose," he went on
- reflectively.
-
- "I don't know," responded the other, more curtly than before.
-
- "It's too bad he didn't belong to some lodge or other. I
- like an order funeral myself. They seem more appropriate for
- people of some reputation," the spare man continued, with an
- ingratiating concession in his shrill voice, as he carefully
- placed his toothpick in his vest pocket. He always carried the
- flag at the G. A. R. funerals in the town.
-
- The heavy man turned on his heel, without replying, and walked up
- the siding. The spare man shuffled back to the uneasy group.
- "Jim's ez full ez a tick, ez ushel," he commented commiseratingly.
-
- Just then a distant whistle sounded, and there was a
- shuffling of feet on the platform. A number of lanky boys of all
- ages appeared as suddenly and slimily as eels wakened by the
- crack of thunder; some came from the waiting room, where they had
- been warming themselves by the red stove, or half-asleep on the
- slat benches; others uncoiled themselves from baggage trucks or
- slid out of express wagons. Two clambered down from the driver's
- seat of a hearse that stood backed up against the siding. They
- straightened their stooping shoulders and lifted their heads, and
- a flash of momentary animation kindled their dull eyes at that
- cold, vibrant scream, the world-wide call for men. It stirred
- them like the note of a trumpet; just as it had often stirred the
- man who was coming home tonight, in his boyhood.
-
- The night express shot, red as a rocket, from out the eastward
- marsh lands and wound along the river shore under the long lines of
- shivering poplars that sentineled the meadows, the escaping steam
- hanging in gray masses against the pale sky and blotting out the
- Milky Way. In a moment the red glare from the headlight streamed
- up the snow-covered track before the siding and glittered on the
- wet, black rails. The burly man with the disheveled red beard
- walked swiftly up the platform toward the approaching train,
- uncovering his head as he went. The group of men behind him
- hesitated, glanced questioningly at one another, and awkwardly
- followed his example. The train stopped, and the crowd shuffled up
- to the express car just as the door was thrown open, the spare man
- in the G. A. B. suit thrusting his head forward with curiosity.
- The express messenger appeared in the doorway, accompanied by a
- young man in a long ulster and traveling cap.
-
- "Are Mr. Merrick's friends here?" inquired the young man.
-
- The group on the platform swayed and shuffled uneasily.
- Philip Phelps, the banker, responded with dignity: "We have come
- to take charge of the body. Mr. Merrick's father is very feeble
- and can't be about."
-
- "Send the agent out here," growled the express messenger,
- "and tell the operator to lend a hand."
-
- The coffin was got out of its rough box and down on the
- snowy platform. The townspeople drew back enough to make room
- for it and then formed a close semicircle about it, looking
- curiously at the palm leaf which lay across the black cover. No
- one said anything. The baggage man stood by his truck, waiting
- to get at the trunks. The engine panted heavily, and the fireman
- dodged in and out among the wheels with his yellow torch and long
- oilcan, snapping the spindle boxes. The young Bostonian, one of
- the dead sculptor's pupils who had come with the body, looked
- about him helplessly. He turned to the banker, the only one of
- that black, uneasy, stoop-shouldered group who seemed enough of
- an individual to be addressed.
-
- "None of Mr. Merrick's brothers are here?" he asked uncertainly.
-
- The man with the red heard for the first time stepped up and
- joined the group. "No, they have not come yet; the family is
- scattered. The body will be taken directly to the house." He
- stooped and took hold of one of the handles of the coffin.
-
- "Take the long hill road up, Thompson--it will be easier on
- the horses," called the liveryman as the undertaker snapped the
- door of the hearse and prepared to mount to the driver's seat.
-
- Laird, the red-bearded lawyer, turned again to the stranger:
- "We didn't know whether there would be anyone with him or not,"
- he explained. "It's a long walk, so you'd better go up in the
- hack." He pointed to a single, battered conveyance, but the young
- man replied stiffly: "Thank you, but I think I will go up with
- the hearse. If you don't object," turning to the undertaker,
- "I'll ride with you."
-
- They clambered up over the wheels and drove off in the
- starlight tip the long, white hill toward the town. The lamps in
- the still village were shining from under the low, snow-burdened
- roofs; and beyond, on every side, the plains reached out into
- emptiness, peaceful and wide as the soft sky itself, and wrapped
- in a tangible, white silence.
-
- When the hearse backed up to a wooden sidewalk before a naked,
- weatherbeaten frame house, the same composite, ill-defined group
- that had stood upon the station siding was huddled about the gate.
- The front yard was an icy swamp, and a couple of warped planks,
- extending from the sidewalk to the door, made a sort of rickety
- footbridge. The gate hung on one hinge and was opened wide with
- difficulty. Steavens, the young stranger, noticed that something
- black was tied to the knob of the front door.
-
- The grating sound made by the casket, as it was drawn from the
- hearse, was answered by a scream from the house; the front door was
- wrenched open, and a tall, corpulent woman rushed out bareheaded
- into the snow and flung herself upon the coffin, shrieking: "My
- boy, my boy! And this is how you've come home to me!"
-
- As Steavens turned away and closed his eyes with a shudder
- of unutterable repulsion, another woman, also tall, but flat and
- angular, dressed entirely in black, darted out of the house and
- caught Mrs. Merrick by the shoulders, crying sharply: "Come,
- come, Mother; you mustn't go on like this!" Her tone changed to
- one of obsequious solemnity as she turned to the banker: "The
- parlor is ready, Mr. Phelps."
-
- The bearers carried the coffin along the narrow boards,
- while the undertaker ran ahead with the coffin-rests. They
- bore it into a large, unheated room that smelled of dampness and
- disuse and furniture polish, and set it down under a hanging lamp
- ornamented with jingling glass prisms and before a "Rogers group"
- of John Alden and Priscilla, wreathed with smilax. Henry
- Steavens stared about him with the sickening conviction that
- there had been some horrible mistake, and that he had somehow
- arrived at the wrong destination. He looked painfully about over
- the clover-green Brussels, the fat plush upholstery, among the
- hand-painted china plaques and panels, and vases, for some mark
- of identification, for something that might once conceivably have
- belonged to Harvey Merrick. It was not until he recognized his
- friend in the crayon portrait of a little boy in kilts and curls
- hanging above the piano that he felt willing to let any of these
- people approach the coffin.
-
- "Take the lid off, Mr. Thompson; let me see my boy's face,"
- wailed the elder woman between her sobs. This time Steavens
- looked fearfully, almost beseechingly into her face, red and
- swollen under its masses of strong, black, shiny hair. He
- flushed, dropped his eyes, and then, almost incredulously, looked
- again. There was a kind of power about her face--a kind of
- brutal handsomeness, even, but it was scarred and furrowed by
- violence, and so colored and coarsened by fiercer passions that
- grief seemed never to have laid a gentle finger there. The long
- nose was distended and knobbed at the end, and there were deep
- lines on either side of it; her heavy, black brows almost met
- across her forehead; her teeth were large and square and set far
- apart--teeth that could tear. She filled the room; the men were
- obliterated, seemed tossed about like twigs in an angry water,
- and even Steavens felt himself being drawn into the whirlpool.
-
- The daughter--the tall, rawboned woman in crepe, with a
- mourning comb in her hair which curiously lengthened her long
- face sat stiffly upon the sofa, her hands, conspicuous for their
- large knuckles, folded in her lap, her mouth and eyes drawn down,
- solemnly awaiting the opening of the coffin. Near the door stood
- a mulatto woman, evidently a servant in the house, with a timid
- bearing and an emaciated face pitifully sad and gentle.
- She was weeping silently, the corner of her calico apron lifted
- to her eyes, occasionally suppressing a long, quivering sob.
- Steavens walked over and stood beside her.
-
- Feeble steps were heard on the stairs, and an old man, tall
- and frail, odorous of pipe smoke, with shaggy, unkept gray hair
- and a dingy beard, tobacco stained about the mouth, entered
- uncertainly. He went slowly up to the coffin and stood, rolling
- a blue cotton handkerchief between his hands, seeming so pained
- and embarrassed by his wife's orgy of grief that he had no
- consciousness of anything else.
-
- "There, there, Annie, dear, don't take on so," he quavered
- timidly, putting out a shaking hand and awkwardly patting her
- elbow. She turned with a cry and sank upon his shoulder with
- such violence that he tottered a little. He did not even glance
- toward the coffin, but continued to look at her with a dull,
- frightened, appealing expression, as a spaniel looks at the whip.
- His sunken cheeks slowly reddened and burned with miserable
- shame. When his wife rushed from the room her daughter strode
- after her with set lips. The servant stole up to the coffin,
- bent over it for a moment, and then slipped away to the kitchen,
- leaving Steavens, the lawyer, and the father to themselves. The
- old man stood trembling and looking down at his dead son's face.
- The sculptor's splendid head seemed even more noble in its rigid
- stillness than in life. The dark hair had crept down upon the
- wide forehead; the face seemed strangely long, but in it there
- was not that beautiful and chaste repose which we expect to find
- in the faces of the dead. The brows were so drawn that there
- were two deep lines above the beaked nose, and the chin was
- thrust forward defiantly. It was as though the strain of life
- had been so sharp and bitter that death could not at once wholly
- relax the tension and smooth the countenance into perfect peace--
- as though he were still guarding something precious and holy,
- which might even yet be wrested from him.
-
- The old man's lips were working under his stained beard. He
- turned to the lawyer with timid deference: "Phelps and the rest are
- comin' back to set up with Harve, ain't they?" he asked. "Thank
- 'ee, Jim, thank 'ee." He brushed the hair back gently from his
- son's forehead. "He was a good boy, Jim; always a good boy. He
- was ez gentle ez a child and the kindest of 'em all--only we didn't
- none of us ever onderstand him." The tears trickled slowly down
- his beard and dropped upon the sculptor's coat.
-
- "Martin, Martin. Oh, Martin! come here," his wife wailed
- from the top of the stairs. The old man started timorously:
- "Yes, Annie, I'm coming." He turned away, hesitated stood for a
- moment in miserable indecision; then he reached back and patted
- the dead man's hair softly, and stumbled from the room.
-
- "Poor old man, I didn't think he had any tears left. Seems
- as if his eyes would have gone dry long ago. At his age nothing
- cuts very deep," remarked the lawyer.
-
- Something in his tone made Steavens glance up. While the
- mother had been in the room the young man had scarcely seen
- anyone else; but now, from the moment he first glanced into Jim
- Laird's florid face and bloodshot eyes, he knew that he had found
- what he had been heartsick at not finding before--the feeling,
- the understanding, that must exist in someone, even here.
-
- The man was red as his beard, with features swollen and
- blurred by dissipation, and a hot, blazing blue eye. His face
- was strained--that of a man who is controlling himself with
- difficulty--and he kept plucking at his beard with a sort of
- fierce resentment. Steavens, sitting by the window, watched him
- turn down the glaring lamp, still its jangling pendants with an
- angry gesture, and then stand with his hands locked behind him,
- staring down into the master's face. He could not help wondering
- what link there could have been between the porcelain vessel and
- so sooty a lump of potter's clay.
-
- From the kitchen an uproar was sounding; when the dining-
- room door opened the import of it was clear. The mother was
- abusing the maid for having forgotten to make the dressing for
- the chicken salad which had been prepared for the watchers.
- Steavens had never heard anything in the least like it; it was
- injured, emotional, dramatic abuse, unique and masterly
- in its excruciating cruelty, as violent and unrestrained as had
- been her grief of twenty minutes before. With a shudder of
- disgust the lawyer went into the dining room and closed the door
- into the kitchen.
-
- "Poor Roxy's getting it now," he remarked when he came back.
- "The Merricks took her out of the poorhouse years ago; and if her
- loyalty would let her, I guess the poor old thing could tell
- tales that would curdle your blood. She's the mulatto woman who
- was standing in here a while ago, with her apron to her eyes.
- The old woman is a fury; there never was anybody like her for
- demonstrative piety and ingenious cruelty. She made Harvey's
- life a hell for him when he lived at home; he was so sick ashamed
- of it. I never could see how he kept himself so sweet."
-
- "He was wonderful," said Steavens slowly, "wonderful; but
- until tonight I have never known how wonderful."
-
- "That is the true and eternal wonder of it, anyway; that it
- can come even from such a dung heap as this," the lawyer cried,
- with a sweeping gesture which seemed to indicate much more than
- the four walls within which they stood.
-
- "I think I'll see whether I can get a little air. The room
- is so close I am beginning to feel rather faint," murmured
- Steavens, struggling with one of the windows. The sash was
- stuck, however, and would not yield, so he sat down dejectedly
- and began pulling at his collar. The lawyer came over, loosened
- the sash with one blow of his red fist, and sent the window up a
- few inches. Steavens thanked him, but the nausea which had been
- gradually climbing into his throat for the last half-hour left
- him with but one desire--a desperate feeling that he must get
- away from this place with what was left of Harvey Merrick. Oh,
- he comprehended well enough now the quiet bitterness of the smile
- that he had seen so often on his master's lips!
-
- He remembered that once, when Merrick returned from a visit
- home, he brought with him a singularly feeling and suggestive
- bas-relief of a thin, faded old woman, sitting and sewing
- something pinned to her knee; while a full-lipped, full-blooded
- little urchin, his trousers held up by a single gallows,
- stood beside her, impatiently twitching her gown to call her
- attention to a butterfly he had caught. Steavens, impressed by
- the tender and delicate modeling of the thin, tired face, had
- asked him if it were his mother. He remembered the dull flush
- that had burned up in the sculptor's face.
-
- The lawyer was sitting in a rocking chair beside the coffin,
- his head thrown back and his eyes closed. Steavens looked at him
- earnestly, puzzled at the line of the chin, and wondering why a
- man should conceal a feature of such distinction under that
- disfiguring shock of beard. Suddenly, as though he felt the
- young sculptor's keen glance, he opened his eyes.
-
- "Was he always a good deal of an oyster?" he asked abruptly.
- "He was terribly shy as a boy."
-
- "Yes, he was an oyster, since you put it so," rejoined
- Steavens. "Although he could be very fond of people, he always
- gave one the impression of being detached. He disliked violent
- emotion; he was reflective, and rather distrustful of himself--
- except, of course, as regarded his work. He was surefooted
- enough there. He distrusted men pretty thoroughly and women even
- more, yet somehow without believing ill of them. He was
- determined, indeed, to believe the best, but he seemed afraid to
- investigate."
-
- "A burnt dog dreads the fire," said the lawyer grimly, and
- closed his eyes.
-
- Steavens went on and on, reconstructing that whole miserable
- boyhood. All this raw, biting ugliness had been the portion of
- the man whose tastes were refined beyond the limits of the
- reasonable--whose mind was an exhaustless gallery of beautiful
- impressions, and so sensitive that the mere shadow of a poplar
- leaf flickering against a sunny wall would be etched and held
- there forever. Surely, if ever a man had the magic word in his
- fingertips, it was Merrick. Whatever he touched, he revealed its
- holiest secret; liberated it from enchantment and restored it to
- its pristine loveliness, like the Arabian prince who fought the
- enchantress spell for spell. Upon whatever he had come in
- contact with, he had left a beautiful record of the experience--a
- sort of ethereal signature; a scent, a sound, a color that was
- his own.
-
- Steavens understood now the real tragedy of his master's
- life; neither love nor wine, as many had conjectured, but a blow
- which had fallen earlier and cut deeper than these could have
- done--a shame not his, and yet so unescapably his, to bide in his
- heart from his very boyhood. And without--the frontier warfare;
- the yearning of a boy, cast ashore upon a desert of newness and
- ugliness and sordidness, for all that is chastened and old, and
- noble with traditions.
-
- At eleven o'clock the tall, flat woman in black crepe
- entered, announced that the watchers were arriving, and asked
- them "to step into the dining room." As Steavens rose the lawyer
- said dryly: "You go on--it'll be a good experience for you,
- doubtless; as for me, I'm not equal to that crowd tonight; I've
- had twenty years of them."
-
- As Steavens closed the door after him be glanced back at the
- lawyer, sitting by the coffin in the dim light, with his chin
- resting on his hand.
-
- The same misty group that had stood before the door of the
- express car shuffled into the dining room. In the light of the
- kerosene lamp they separated and became individuals. The
- minister, a pale, feeble-looking man with white hair and blond
- chin-whiskers, took his seat beside a small side table and placed
- his Bible upon it. The Grand Army man sat down behind the stove
- and tilted his chair back comfortably against the wall, fishing
- his quill toothpick from his waistcoat pocket. The two bankers,
- Phelps and Elder, sat off in a corner behind the dinner table,
- where they could finish their discussion of the new usury law and
- its effect on chattel security loans. The real estate agent, an
- old man with a smiling, hypocritical face, soon joined them. The
- coal-and-lumber dealer and the cattle shipper sat on opposite
- sides of the hard coal-burner, their feet on the nickelwork.
- Steavens took a book from his pocket and began to read. The talk
- around him ranged through various topics of local interest while
- the house was quieting down. When it was clear that the members
- of the family were in bed the Grand Army man hitched his
- shoulders and, untangling his long legs, caught his heels on the
- rounds of his chair.
-
- "S'pose there'll be a will, Phelps?" he queried in his weak
- falsetto.
-
- The banker laughed disagreeably and began trimming his nails
- with a pearl-handled pocketknife.
-
- "There'll scarcely be any need for one, will there?" he
- queried in his turn.
-
- The restless Grand Army man shifted his position again,
- getting his knees still nearer his chin. "Why, the ole man says
- Harve's done right well lately," he chirped.
-
- The other banker spoke up. "I reckon he means by that Harve
- ain't asked him to mortgage any more farms lately, so as he could
- go on with his education."
-
- "Seems like my mind don't reach back to a time when Harve
- wasn't bein' edycated," tittered the Grand Army man.
-
- There was a general chuckle. The minister took out his
- handkerchief and blew his nose sonorously. Banker Phelps closed
- his knife with a snap. "It's too bad the old man's sons didn't
- turn out better," he remarked with reflective authority. "They
- never hung together. He spent money enough on Harve to stock a
- dozen cattle farms and he might as well have poured it into Sand
- Creek. If Harve had stayed at home and helped nurse what little
- they had, and gone into stock on the old man's bottom farm, they
- might all have been well fixed. But the old man had to trust
- everything to tenants and was cheated right and left."
-
- "Harve never could have handled stock none," interposed the
- cattleman. "He hadn't it in him to be sharp. Do you remember
- when he bought Sander's mules for eight-year-olds, when everybody
- in town knew that Sander's father-in-law give 'em to his wife for
- a wedding present eighteen years before, an' they was full-grown
- mules then."
-
- Everyone chuckled, and the Grand Army man rubbed his knees
- with a spasm of childish delight.
-
- "Harve never was much account for anything practical, and he
- shore was never fond of work," began the coal-and-lumber dealer.
- "I mind the last time he was home; the day he left, when the old
- man was out to the barn helpin' his hand hitch up to take
- Harve to the train, and Cal Moots was patchin' up the fence, Harve,
- he come out on the step and sings out, in his ladylike voice: 'Cal
- Moots, Cal Moots! please come cord my trunk.'"
-
- "That's Harve for you," approved the Grand Army man
- gleefully. "I kin hear him howlin' yet when he was a big feller
- in long pants and his mother used to whale him with a rawhide in
- the barn for lettin' the cows git foundered in the cornfield when
- he was drivin' 'em home from pasture. He killed a cow of mine
- that-a-way onc't--a pure Jersey and the best milker I had, an'
- the ole man had to put up for her. Harve, he was watchin' the
- sun set acros't the marshes when the anamile got away; he argued
- that sunset was oncommon fine."
-
- "Where the old man made his mistake was in sending the boy
- East to school," said Phelps, stroking his goatee and speaking in
- a deliberate, judicial tone. "There was where he got his head
- full of traipsing to Paris and all such folly. What Harve
- needed, of all people, was a course in some first-class Kansas
- City business college."
-
- The letters were swimming before Steavens's eyes. Was it
- possible that these men did not understand, that the palm on the
- coffin meant nothing to them? The very name of their town would
- have remained forever buried in the postal guide had it not been
- now and again mentioned in the world in connection with Harvey
- Merrick's. He remembered what his master had said to him on the
- day of his death, after the congestion of both lungs had shut off
- any probability of recovery, and the sculptor had asked his pupil
- to send his body home. "It's not a pleasant place to be lying
- while the world is moving and doing and bettering," he had said
- with a feeble smile, "but it rather seems as though we ought to
- go back to the place we came from in the end. The townspeople
- will come in for a look at me; and after they have had their say
- I shan't have much to fear from the judgment of God. The wings
- of the Victory, in there"--with a weak gesture toward his studio--
- will not shelter me."
-
- The cattleman took up the comment. "Forty's young for a
- Merrick to cash in; they usually hang on pretty well. Probably
- he helped it along with whisky."
-
- "His mother's people were not long-lived, and Harvey never
- had a robust constitution," said the minister mildly. He would
- have liked to say more. He had been the boy's Sunday-school
- teacher, and had been fond of him; but he felt that he was not in
- a position to speak. His own sons had turned out badly, and it
- was not a year since one of them had made his last trip home in
- the express car, shot in a gambling house in the Black Hills.
-
- "Nevertheless, there is no disputin' that Harve frequently
- looked upon the wine when it was red, also variegated, and it
- shore made an oncommon fool of him," moralized the cattleman.
-
- Just then the door leading into the parlor rattled loudly,
- and everyone started involuntarily, looking relieved when only
- Jim Laird came out. His red face was convulsed with anger, and
- the Grand Army man ducked his head when he saw the spark in his
- blue, bloodshot eye. They were all afraid of Jim; he was a
- drunkard, but he could twist the law to suit his client's needs
- as no other man in all western Kansas could do; and there were
- many who tried. The lawyer closed the door gently behind him,
- leaned back against it and folded his arms, cocking his head a
- little to one side. When he assumed this attitude in the
- courtroom, ears were always pricked up, as it usually foretold a
- flood of withering sarcasm.
-
- "I've been with you gentlemen before," he began in a dry,
- even tone, "when you've sat by the coffins of boys born and
- raised in this town; and, if I remember rightly, you were never
- any too well satisfied when you checked them up. What's the
- matter, anyhow? Why is it that reputable young men are as scarce
- as millionaires in Sand City? It might almost seem to a stranger
- that there was some way something the matter with your
- progressive town. Why did Ruben Sayer, the brightest young
- lawyer you ever turned out, after he had come home from the
- university as straight as a die, take to drinking and forge a
- check and shoot himself? Why did Bill Merrit's son die of the
- shakes in a saloon in Omaha? Why was Mr. Thomas's son, here,
- shot in a gambling house? Why did young Adams burn his mill to
- beat the insurance companies and go to the pen?"
-
- The lawyer paused and unfolded his arms, laying one clenched
- fist quietly on the table. "I'll tell you why. Because you
- drummed nothing but money and knavery into their ears from the
- time they wore knickerbockers; because you carped away at them as
- you've been carping here tonight, holding our friends Phelps and
- Elder up to them for their models, as our grandfathers held up
- George Washington and John Adams. But the boys, worse luck, were
- young and raw at the business you put them to; and how could they
- match coppers with such artists as Phelps and Elder? You wanted
- them to be successful rascals; they were only unsuccessful ones--
- that's all the difference. There was only one boy ever raised in
- this borderland between ruffianism and civilization who didn't
- come to grief, and you hated Harvey Merrick more for winning out
- than you hated all the other boys who got under the wheels.
- Lord, Lord, how you did hate him! Phelps, here, is fond of saying
- that he could buy and sell us all out any time he's a mind to;
- but he knew Harve wouldn't have given a tinker's damn for his
- bank and all his cattle farms put together; and a lack of
- appreciation, that way, goes hard with Phelps.
-
- "Old Nimrod, here, thinks Harve drank too much; and this
- from such as Nimrod and me!"
-
- "Brother Elder says Harve was too free with the old man's
- money--fell short in filial consideration, maybe. Well, we can
- all remember the very tone in which brother Elder swore his own
- father was a liar, in the county court; and we all know that the
- old man came out of that partnership with his son as bare as a
- sheared lamb. But maybe I'm getting personal, and I'd better be
- driving ahead at what I want to say."
-
- The lawyer paused a moment, squared his heavy shoulders, and
- went on: "Harvey Merrick and I went to school together, back
- East. We were dead in earnest, and we wanted you all to be proud
- of us some day. We meant to be great men. Even 1, and I haven't
- lost my sense of humor, gentlemen, I meant to be a great man. I
- came back here to practice, and I found you didn't in the least
- want me to be a great man. You wanted me to be a shrewd lawyer--
- oh, yes! Our veteran here wanted me to get him an increase of
- pension, because he had dyspepsia; Phelps wanted a new county
- survey that would put the widow Wilson's little bottom
- farm inside his south line; Elder wanted to lend money at 5 per
- cent a month and get it collected; old Stark here wanted to
- wheedle old women up in Vermont into investing their annuities in
- real estate mortgages that are not worth the paper they are
- written on. Oh, you needed me hard enough, and you'll go on
- needing me; and that's why I'm not afraid to plug the truth home
- to you this once.
-
- "Well, I came back here and became the damned shyster you
- wanted me to be. You pretend to have some sort of respect for
- me; and yet you'll stand up and throw mud at Harvey Merrick,
- whose soul you couldn't dirty and whose hands you couldn't tie.
- Oh, you're a discriminating lot of Christians! There have been
- times when the sight of Harvey's name in some Eastern paper has
- made me hang my head like a whipped dog; and, again, times when I
- liked to think of him off there in the world, away from all this
- hog wallow, doing his great work and climbing the big, clean
- upgrade he'd set for himself.
-
- "And we? Now that we've fought and lied and sweated and
- stolen, and hated as only the disappointed strugglers in a
- bitter, dead little Western town know how to do, what have we got
- to show for it? Harvey Merrick wouldn't have given one sunset
- over your marshes for all you've got put together, and you know
- it. It's not for me to say why, in the inscrutable wisdom of
- God, a genius should ever have been called from this place of
- hatred and bitter waters; but I want this Boston man to know that
- the drivel he's been hearing here tonight is the only tribute any
- truly great man could ever have from such a lot of sick, side-
- tracked, burnt-dog, land-poor sharks as the here-present
- financiers of Sand City--upon which town may God have mercy!"
-
- The lawyer thrust out his hand to Steavens as he passed him,
- caught up his overcoat in the hall, and had left the house before
- the Grand Army man had had time to lift his ducked head and crane
- his long neck about at his fellows.
-
-
- Next day Jim Laird was drunk and unable to attend the
- funeral services. Steavens called twice at his office, but was
- compelled to start East without seeing him. He had a
- presentiment that he would hear from him again, and left his
- address on the lawyer's table; but if Laird found it, he never
- acknowledged it. The thing in him that Harvey Merrick had loved
- must have gone underground with Harvey Merrick's coffin; for it
- never spoke again, and Jim got the cold he died of driving across
- the Colorado mountains to defend one of Phelps's sons, who had
- got into trouble out there by cutting government timber.
-
-
-
-
-
- "A Death in the Desert"
-
- Everett Hilgarde was conscious that the man in the seat
- across the aisle was looking at him intently. He was a large,
- florid man, wore a conspicuous diamond solitaire upon his third
- finger, and Everett judged him to be a traveling salesman of some
- sort. He had the air of an adaptable fellow who had been about
- the world and who could keep cool and clean under almost any
- circumstances.
-
- The "High Line Flyer," as this train was derisively called
- among railroad men, was jerking along through the hot afternoon
- over the monotonous country between Holdridge and Cheyenne.
- Besides the blond man and himself the only occupants of the car
- were two dusty, bedraggled-looking girls who had been to the
- Exposition at Chicago, and who were earnestly discussing the cost
- of their first trip out of Colorado. The four uncomfortable
- passengers were covered with a sediment of fine, yellow dust
- which clung to their hair and eyebrows like gold powder. It blew
- up in clouds from the bleak, lifeless country through which they
- passed, until they were one color with the sagebrush and
- sandhills. The gray-and-yellow desert was varied only by
- occasional ruins of deserted towns, and the little red boxes of
- station houses, where the spindling trees and sickly vines in the
- bluegrass yards made little green reserves fenced off in that
- confusing wilderness of sand.
-
- As the slanting rays of the sun beat in stronger and
- stronger through the car windows, the blond gentleman asked the
- ladies' permission to remove his coat, and sat in his lavender
- striped shirt sleeves, with a black silk handkerchief tucked
- carefully about his collar. He had seemed interested in Everett
- since they had boarded the train at Holdridge, and kept
- glancing at him curiously and then looking reflectively out of
- the window, as though he were trying to recall something. But
- wherever Everett went someone was almost sure to look at him with
- that curious interest, and it had ceased to embarrass or annoy him.
- Presently the stranger, seeming satisfied with his observation,
- leaned back in his seat, half-closed his eyes, and began softly
- to whistle the "Spring Song" from <i>Proserpine</i>, the cantata
- that a dozen years before had made its young composer famous in a
- night. Everett had heard that air on guitars in Old Mexico, on
- mandolins at college glees, on cottage organs in New England
- hamlets, and only two weeks ago he had heard it played on
- sleighbells at a variety theater in Denver. There was literally no
- way of escaping his brother's precocity. Adriance could live on
- the other side of the Atlantic, where his youthful indiscretions
- were forgotten in his mature achievements, but his brother had
- never been able to outrun <i>Proserpine</i>, and here he found it
- again in the Colorado sand hills. Not that Everett was exactly
- ashamed of <i>Proserpine</i>; only a man of genius could have
- written it, but it was the sort of thing that a man of genius
- outgrows as soon as he can.
-
- Everett unbent a trifle and smiled at his neighbor across
- the aisle. Immediately the large man rose and, coming over,
- dropped into the seat facing Hilgarde, extending his card.
-
- "Dusty ride, isn't it? I don't mind it myself; I'm used to
- it. Born and bred in de briar patch, like Br'er Rabbit. I've
- been trying to place you for a long time; I think I must have met
- you before."
-
- "Thank you," said Everett, taking the card; "my name is
- Hilgarde. You've probably met my brother, Adriance; people often
- mistake me for him."
-
- The traveling man brought his hand down upon his knee with
- such vehemence that the solitaire blazed.
-
- "So I was right after all, and if you're not Adriance
- Hilgarde, you're his double. I thought I couldn't be mistaken.
- Seen him? Well, I guess! I never missed one of his recitals at
- the Auditorium, and he played the piano score of <i>Proserpine</i>
- through to us once at the Chicago Press Club. I used to be on
- the <i>Commercial</i> there before I <i>146</i> began to travel
- for the publishing department of the concern. So you're Hilgarde's
- brother, and here I've run into you at the jumping-off place.
- Sounds like a newspaper yarn, doesn't it?"
-
- The traveling man laughed and offered Everett a cigar, and
- plied him with questions on the only subject that people ever
- seemed to care to talk to Everett about. At length the salesman
- and the two girls alighted at a Colorado way station, and Everett
- went on to Cheyenne alone.
-
- The train pulled into Cheyenne at nine o'clock, late by a
- matter of four hours or so; but no one seemed particularly
- concerned at its tardiness except the station agent, who grumbled
- at being kept in the office overtime on a summer night. When
- Everett alighted from the train he walked down the platform and
- stopped at the track crossing, uncertain as to what direction he
- should take to reach a hotel. A phaeton stood near the crossing,
- and a woman held the reins. She was dressed in white, and her
- figure was clearly silhouetted against the cushions, though it
- was too dark to see her face. Everett had scarcely noticed her,
- when the switch engine came puffing up from the opposite
- direction, and the headlight threw a strong glare of light on his
- face. Suddenly the woman in the phaeton uttered a low cry and
- dropped the reins. Everett started forward and caught the
- horse's head, but the animal only lifted its ears and whisked its
- tail in impatient surprise. The woman sat perfectly still, her
- head sunk between her shoulders and her handkerchief pressed to
- her face. Another woman came out of the depot and hurried toward
- the phaeton, crying, "Katharine, dear, what is the matter?"
-
- Everett hesitated a moment in painful embarrassment, then
- lifted his hat and passed on. He was accustomed to sudden
- recognitions in the most impossible places, especially by women,
- but this cry out of the night had shaken him.
-
- While Everett was breakfasting the next morning, the headwaiter
- leaned over his chair to murmur that there was a gentleman waiting
- to see him in the parlor. Everett finished his coffee and went in
- the direction indicated, where he found his visitor restlessly
- pacing the floor. His whole manner betrayed a high degree of
- agitation, though his physique was not that of a man whose nerves
- lie near the surface. He was something below medium height,
- square-shouldered and solidly built. His thick, closely cut hair
- was beginning to show gray about the ears, and his bronzed face was
- heavily lined. His square brown hands were locked behind him, and
- he held his shoulders like a man conscious of responsibilities;
- yet, as he turned to greet Everett, there was an incongruous
- diffidence in his address.
-
- "Good morning, Mr. Hilgarde," he said, extending his hand;
- "I found your name on the hotel register. My name is Gaylord.
- I'm afraid my sister startled you at the station last night, Mr.
- Hilgarde, and I've come around to apologize."
-
- "Ah! The young lady in the phaeton? I'm sure I didn't know
- whether I had anything to do with her alarm or not. If I did, it
- is I who owe the apology."
-
- The man colored a little under the dark brown of his face.
-
- "Oh, it's nothing you could help, sir, I fully understand
- that. You see, my sister used to be a pupil of your brother's,
- and it seems you favor him; and when the switch engine threw a
- light on your face it startled her."
-
- Everett wheeled about in his chair. "Oh! <i>Katharine</i> Gaylord!
- Is it possible! Now it's you who have given me a turn. Why, I
- used to know her when I was a boy. What on earth--"
-
- "Is she doing here?" said Gaylord, grimly filling out the
- pause. "You've got at the heart of the matter. You knew my
- sister had been in bad health for a long time?"
-
- "No, I had never heard a word of that. The last I knew of
- her she was singing in London. My brother and I correspond
- infrequently and seldom get beyond family matters. I am deeply
- sorry to hear this. There are more reasons why I am concerned
- than I can tell you."
-
- The lines in Charley Gaylord's brow relaxed a little.
-
- "What I'm trying to say, Mr. Hilgarde, is that she wants to see
- you. I hate to ask you, but she's so set on it. We live several
- miles out of town, but my rig's below, and I can take you out
- anytime you can go."
-
- "I can go now, and it will give me real pleasure to do so," said
- Everett, quickly. "I'll get my hat and be with you in a moment."
-
- When he came downstairs Everett found a cart at the door,
- and Charley Gaylord drew a long sigh of relief as he gathered up
- the reins and settled back into his own element.
-
- "You see, I think I'd better tell you something about my
- sister before you see her, and I don't know just where to begin.
- She traveled in Europe with your brother and his wife, and sang
- at a lot of his concerts; but I don't know just how much you know
- about her."
-
- "Very little, except that my brother always thought her the
- most gifted of his pupils, and that when I knew her she was very
- young and very beautiful and turned my head sadly for a while."
-
- Everett saw that Gaylord's mind was quite engrossed by his
- grief. He was wrought up to the point where his reserve and
- sense of proportion had quite left him, and his trouble was the
- one vital thing in the world. "That's the whole thing," he went
- on, flicking his horses with the whip.
-
- "She was a great woman, as you say, and she didn't come of a
- great family. She had to fight her own way from the first. She
- got to Chicago, and then to New York, and then to Europe, where
- she went up like lightning, and got a taste for it all; and now
- she's dying here like a rat in a hole, out of her own world, and
- she can't fall back into ours. We've grown apart, some way--
- miles and miles apart--and I'm afraid she's fearfully unhappy."
-
- "It's a very tragic story that you are telling me, Gaylord,"
- said Everett. They were well out into the country now, spinning
- along over the dusty plains of red grass, with the ragged-blue
- outline of the mountains before them.
-
- "Tragic!" cried Gaylord, starting up in his seat, "my God, man,
- nobody will ever know how tragic. It's a tragedy I live with and
- eat with and sleep with, until I've lost my grip on everything.
- You see she had made a good bit of money, but she spent it all
- going to health resorts. It's her lungs, you know. I've got money
- enough to send her anywhere, but the doctors all say it's no use.
- She hasn't the ghost of a chance. It's just getting through the
- days now. I had no notion she was half so bad before she came to
- me. She just wrote that she was all run down. Now that she's
- here, I think she'd be happier anywhere under the sun, but she
- won't leave. She says it's easier to let go of life here, and that
- to go East would be dying twice. There was a time when I was a
- brakeman with a run out of Bird City, Iowa, and she was a little
- thing I could carry on my shoulder, when I could get her everything
- on earth she wanted, and she hadn't a wish my $80 a month didn't
- cover; and now, when I've got a little property together, I can't
- buy her a night's sleep!"
-
- Everett saw that, whatever Charley Gaylord's present status
- in the world might be, he had brought the brakeman's heart up the
- ladder with him, and the brakeman's frank avowal of sentiment.
- Presently Gaylord went on:
-
- "You can understand how she has outgrown her family. We're
- all a pretty common sort, railroaders from away back. My father
- was a conductor. He died when we were kids. Maggie, my other
- sister, who lives with me, was a telegraph operator here while I
- was getting my grip on things. We had no education to speak of.
- I have to hire a stenographer because I can't spell straight--the
- Almighty couldn't teach me to spell. The things that make up
- life to Kate are all Greek to me, and there's scarcely a point
- where we touch any more, except in our recollections of the old
- times when we were all young and happy together, and Kate sang in
- a church choir in Bird City. But I believe, Mr. Hilgarde, that
- if she can see just one person like you, who knows about the
- things and people she's interested in, it will give her about the
- only comfort she can have now."
-
- The reins slackened in Charley Gaylord's hand as they drew
- up before a showily painted house with many gables and a round
- tower. "Here we are," he said, turning to Everett, "and I guess
- we understand each other."
-
- They were met at the door by a thin, colorless woman, whom
- Gaylord introduced as "my sister, Maggie." She asked her brother
- to show Mr. Hilgarde into the music room, where Katharine wished
- to see him alone.
-
- When Everett entered the music room he gave a little start
- of surprise, feeling that he had stepped from the glaring Wyoming
- sunlight into some New York studio that he had always known. He
- wondered which it was of those countless studios, high up under
- the roofs, over banks and shops and wholesale houses, that this
- room resembled, and he looked incredulously out of the window at
- the gray plain that ended in the great upheaval of the Rockies.
-
- The haunting air of familiarity about the room perplexed
- him. Was it a copy of some particular studio he knew, or was it
- merely the studio atmosphere that seemed so individual and
- poignantly reminiscent here in Wyoming? He sat down in a reading
- chair and looked keenly about him. Suddenly his eye fell upon a
- large photograph of his brother above the piano. Then it all
- became clear to him: this was veritably his brother's room. If
- it were not an exact copy of one of the many studios that
- Adriance had fitted up in various parts of the world, wearying of
- them and leaving almost before the renovator's varnish had dried,
- it was at least in the same tone. In every detail Adriance's
- taste was so manifest that the room seemed to exhale his
- personality.
-
- Among the photographs on the wall there was one of Katharine
- Gaylord, taken in the days when Everett had known her, and when
- the flash of her eye or the flutter of her skirt was enough to
- set his boyish heart in a tumult. Even now, he stood before the
- portrait with a certain degree of embarrassment. It was the face
- of a woman already old in her first youth, thoroughly
- sophisticated and a trifle hard, and it told of what her brother
- had called her fight. The camaraderie of her frank, confident
- eyes was qualified by the deep lines about her mouth and the
- curve of the lips, which was both sad and cynical. Certainly she
- had more good will than confidence toward the world, and the
- bravado of her smile could not conceal the shadow of an unrest
- that was almost discontent. The chief charm of the woman, as
- Everett had known her, lay in her superb figure and in her eyes,
- which possessed a warm, lifegiving quality like the sunlight;
- eyes which glowed with a sort of perpetual <i>salutat</i> to the
- world. Her head, Everett remembered as peculiarly well-shaped and
- proudly poised. There had been always a little of the imperatrix
- about her, and her pose in the photograph revived all his old
- impressions of her unattachedness, of how absolutely and valiantly
- she stood alone.
-
- Everett was still standing before the picture, his hands behind him
- and his head inclined, when he heard the door open. A very tall
- woman advanced toward him, holding out her hand. As she started to
- speak, she coughed slightly; then, laughing, said, in a low, rich
- voice, a trifle husky: "You see I make the traditional Camille
- entrance--with the cough. How good of you to come, Mr. Hilgarde."
-
- Everett was acutely conscious that while addressing him she
- was not looking at him at all, and, as he assured her of his
- pleasure in coming, he was glad to have an opportunity to collect
- himself. He had not reckoned upon the ravages of a long illness.
- The long, loose folds of her white gown had been especially
- designed to conceal the sharp outlines of her emaciated body, but
- the stamp of her disease was there; simple and ugly and obtrusive,
- a pitiless fact that could not be disguised or evaded. The
- splendid shoulders were stooped, there was a swaying unevenness in
- her gait, her arms seemed disproportionately long, and her hands
- were transparently white and cold to the touch. The changes in her
- face were less obvious; the proud carriage of the head, the warm,
- clear eyes, even the delicate flush of color in her cheeks, all
- defiantly remained, though they were all in a lower key--older,
- sadder, softer.
-
- She sat down upon the divan and began nervously to arrange the
- pillows. "I know I'm not an inspiring object to look upon, but you
- must be quite frank and sensible about that and get used to it at
- once, for we've no time to lose. And if I'm a trifle irritable you
- won't mind?--for I'm more than usually nervous."
-
- "Don't bother with me this morning, if you are tired," urged
- Everett. "I can come quite as well tomorrow."
-
- "Gracious, no!" she protested, with a flash of that quick,
- keen humor that he remembered as a part of her. "It's solitude
- that I'm tired to death of--solitude and the wrong kind of people.
- You see, the minister, not content with reading the prayers for the
- sick, called on me this morning. He happened to be riding
- by on his bicycle and felt it his duty to stop. Of course, he
- disapproves of my profession, and I think he takes it for granted
- that I have a dark past. The funniest feature of his conversation
- is that he is always excusing my own vocation to me--condoning it,
- you know--and trying to patch up my peace with my conscience by
- suggesting possible noble uses for what he kindly calls my talent."
-
- Everett laughed. "Oh! I'm afraid I'm not the person to call
- after such a serious gentleman--I can't sustain the situation.
- At my best I don't reach higher than low comedy. Have you
- decided to which one of the noble uses you will devote yourself?"
-
- Katharine lifted her hands in a gesture of renunciation and
- exclaimed: "I'm not equal to any of them, not even the least
- noble. I didn't study that method."
-
- She laughed and went on nervously: "The parson's not so bad.
- His English never offends me, and he has read Gibbon's <i>Decline
- and Fall</i>, all five volumes, and that's something. Then, he has
- been to New York, and that's a great deal. But how we are losing
- time! Do tell me about New York; Charley says you're just on from
- there. How does it look and taste and smell just now? I think a
- whiff of the Jersey ferry would be as flagons of cod-liver oil to
- me. Who conspicuously walks the Rialto now, and what does he or
- she wear? Are the trees still green in Madison Square, or have
- they grown brown and dusty? Does the chaste Diana on the Garden
- Theatre still keep her vestal vows through all the exasperating
- changes of weather? Who has your brother's old studio now, and
- what misguided aspirants practice their scales in the rookeries
- about Carnegie Hall? What do people go to see at the theaters,
- and what do they eat and drink there in the world nowadays? You
- see, I'm homesick for it all, from the Battery to Riverside. Oh,
- let me die in Harlem!" She was interrupted by a violent attack
- of coughing, and Everett, embarrassed by her discomfort, plunged
- into gossip about the professional people he had met in town
- during the summer and the musical outlook for the winter. He was
- diagraming with his pencil, on the back of an old envelope he
- found in his pocket, some new mechanical device to be
- used at the Metropolitan in the production of the <i>Rheingold</i>,
- when he became conscious that she was looking at him intently, and
- that he was talking to the four walls.
-
- Katharine was lying back among the pillows, watching him
- through half-closed eyes, as a painter looks at a picture. He
- finished his explanation vaguely enough and put the envelope back
- in his pocket. As he did so she said, quietly: "How wonderfully
- like Adriance you are!" and he felt as though a crisis of some
- sort had been met and tided over.
-
- He laughed, looking up at her with a touch of pride in his
- eyes that made them seem quite boyish. "Yes, isn't it absurd?
- It's almost as awkward as looking like Napoleon--but, after all,
- there are some advantages. It has made some of his friends like
- me, and I hope it will make you."
-
- Katharine smiled and gave him a quick, meaning glance from
- under her lashes. "Oh, it did that long ago. What a haughty,
- reserved youth you were then, and how you used to stare at people
- and then blush and look cross if they paid you back in your own
- coin. Do you remember that night when you took me home from a
- rehearsal and scarcely spoke a word to me?"
-
- "It was the silence of admiration," protested Everett, "very
- crude and boyish, but very sincere and not a little painful.
- Perhaps you suspected something of the sort? I remember you saw
- fit to be very grown-up and worldly.
-
- "I believe I suspected a pose; the one that college boys
- usually affect with singers--'an earthen vessel in love with a
- star,' you know. But it rather surprised me in you, for you must
- have seen a good deal of your brother's pupils. Or had you an
- omnivorous capacity, and elasticity that always met the
- occasion?"
-
- "Don't ask a man to confess the follies of his youth," said
- Everett, smiling a little sadly; "I am sensitive about some of
- them even now. But I was not so sophisticated as you imagined.
- I saw my brother's pupils come and go, but that was about all.
- Sometimes I was called on to play accompaniments, or to fill out
- a vacancy at a rehearsal, or to order a carriage for an
- infuriated soprano who had thrown up her part. But they never
- spent any time on me, unless it was to notice the resemblance you
- speak of."
-
- "Yes", observed Katharine, thoughtfully, "I noticed it then,
- too; but it has grown as you have grown older. That is rather
- strange, when you have lived such different lives. It's not
- merely an ordinary family likeness of feature, you know, but a
- sort of interchangeable individuality; the suggestion of the
- other man's personality in your face like an air transposed to
- another key. But I'm not attempting to define it; it's beyond
- me; something altogether unusual and a trifle--well, uncanny,"
- she finished, laughing.
-
- "I remember," Everett said seriously, twirling the pencil
- between his fingers and looking, as he sat with his head thrown
- back, out under the red window blind which was raised just a
- little, and as it swung back and forth in the wind revealed the
- glaring panorama of the desert--a blinding stretch of yellow,
- flat as the sea in dead calm, splotched here and there with deep
- purple shadows; and, beyond, the ragged-blue outline of the
- mountains and the peaks of snow, white as the white clouds--"I
- remember, when I was a little fellow I used to be very sensitive
- about it. I don't think it exactly displeased me, or that I would
- have had it otherwise if I could, but it seemed to me like a
- birthmark, or something not to be lightly spoken of. People were
- naturally always fonder of Ad than of me, and I used to feel the
- chill of reflected light pretty often. It came into even my
- relations with my mother. Ad went abroad to study when he was
- absurdly young, you know, and mother was all broken up over it.
- She did her whole duty by each of us, but it was sort of
- generally understood among us that she'd have made burnt
- offerings of us all for Ad any day. I was a little fellow then,
- and when she sat alone on the porch in the summer dusk she used
- sometimes to call me to her and turn my face up in the light that
- streamed out through the shutters and kiss me, and then I always
- knew she was thinking of Adriance."
-
- "Poor little chap," said Katharine, and her tone was a
- trifle huskier than usual. "How fond people have always been of
- Adriance! Now tell me the latest news of him. I haven't heard,
- except through the press, for a year or more. He was in Algeria
- then, in the valley of the Chelif, riding horseback night and day
- in an Arabian costume, and in his usual enthusiastic fashion he
- had quite made up his mind to adopt the Mohammedan faith
- and become as nearly an Arab as possible. How many countries and
- faiths has be adopted, I wonder? Probably he was playing Arab to
- himself all the time. I remember he was a sixteenth-century duke
- in Florence once for weeks together."
-
- "Oh, that's Adriance," chuckled Everett. "He is himself
- barely long enough to write checks and be measured for his
- clothes. I didn't hear from him while he was an Arab; I missed
- that."
-
- "He was writing an Algerian suite for the piano then; it
- must be in the publisher's hands by this time. I have been too
- ill to answer his letter, and have lost touch with him."
-
- Everett drew a letter from his pocket. "This came about a
- month ago. It's chiefly about his new opera, which is to be
- brought out in London next winter. Read it at your leisure."
-
- "I think I shall keep it as a hostage, so that I may be sure
- you will come again. Now I want you to play for me. Whatever
- you like; but if there is anything new in the world, in mercy let
- me hear it. For nine months I have heard nothing but 'The
- Baggage Coach Ahead' and 'She Is My Baby's Mother.'"
-
- He sat down at the piano, and Katharine sat near him,
- absorbed in his remarkable physical likeness to his brother and
- trying to discover in just what it consisted. She told herself
- that it was very much as though a sculptor's finished work had
- been rudely copied in wood. He was of a larger build than
- Adriance, and his shoulders were broad and heavy, while those of
- his brother were slender and rather girlish. His face was of the
- same oval mold, but it was gray and darkened about the mouth by
- continual shaving. His eyes were of the same inconstant April
- color, but they were reflective and rather dull; while Adriance's
- were always points of highlight, and always meaning another thing
- than the thing they meant yesterday. But it was hard to see why
- this earnest man should so continually suggest that lyric,
- youthful face that was as gay as his was grave. For Adriance,
- though he was ten years the elder, and though his hair was
- streaked with silver, had the face of a boy of twenty, so mobile
- that it told his thoughts before he could put them into words.
- A contralto, famous for the extravagance of her vocal
- methods and of her affections, had once said to him that the
- shepherd boys who sang in the Vale of Tempe must certainly have
- looked like young Hilgarde; and the comparison had been
- appropriated by a hundred shyer women who preferred to quote.
-
-
- As Everett sat smoking on the veranda of the InterOcean
- House that night, he was a victim to random recollections. His
- infatuation for Katharine Gaylord, visionary as it was, had been
- the most serious of his boyish love affairs, and had long
- disturbed his bachelor dreams. He was painfully timid in
- everything relating to the emotions, and his hurt had withdrawn
- him from the society of women. The fact that it was all so done
- and dead and far behind him, and that the woman had lived her
- life out since then, gave him an oppressive sense of age and
- loss. He bethought himself of something he had read about
- "sitting by the hearth and remembering the faces of women without
- desire," and felt himself an octogenarian.
-
- He remembered how bitter and morose he had grown during his
- stay at his brother's studio when Katharine Gaylord was working
- there, and how he had wounded Adriance on the night of his last
- concert in New York. He had sat there in the box while his
- brother and Katharine were called back again and again after the
- last number, watching the roses go up over the footlights until
- they were stacked half as high as the piano, brooding, in his
- sullen boy's heart, upon the pride those two felt in each other's
- work--spurring each other to their best and beautifully
- contending in song. The footlights had seemed a hard, glittering
- line drawn sharply between their life and his; a circle of flame
- set about those splendid children of genius. He walked back to
- his hotel alone and sat in his window staring out on Madison
- Square until long after midnight, resolving to beat no more at
- doors that he could never enter and realizing more keenly than
- ever before how far this glorious world of beautiful creations
- lay from the paths of men like himself. He told himself that he
- had in common with this woman only the baser uses of life.
-
- Everett's week in Cheyenne stretched to three, and he saw no
- prospect of release except through the thing he dreaded. The
- bright, windy days of the Wyoming autumn passed swiftly. Letters
- and telegrams came urging him to hasten his trip to the coast,
- but he resolutely postponed his business engagements. The
- mornings he spent on one of Charley Gaylord's ponies, or fishing
- in the mountains, and in the evenings he sat in his room writing
- letters or reading. In the afternoon he was usually at his post
- of duty. Destiny, he reflected, seems to have very positive
- notions about the sort of parts we are fitted to play. The scene
- changes and the compensation varies, but in the end we usually
- find that we have played the same class of business from first to
- last. Everett had been a stopgap all his life. He remembered
- going through a looking glass labyrinth when he was a boy and
- trying gallery after gallery, only at every turn to bump his nose
- against his own face--which, indeed, was not his own, but his
- brother's. No matter what his mission, east or west, by land or
- sea, he was sure to find himself employed in his brother's
- business, one of the tributary lives which helped to swell the
- shining current of Adriance Hilgarde's. It was not the first
- time that his duty had been to comfort, as best he could, one of
- the broken things his brother's imperious speed had cast aside
- and forgotten. He made no attempt to analyze the situation or to
- state it in exact terms; but he felt Katharine Gaylord's need for
- him, and he accepted it as a commission from his brother to help
- this woman to die. Day by day he felt her demands on him grow
- more imperious, her need for him grow more acute and positive;
- and day by day he felt that in his peculiar relation to her his
- own individuality played a smaller and smaller part. His power
- to minister to her comfort, he saw, lay solely in his link with
- his brother's life. He understood all that his physical
- resemblance meant to her. He knew that she sat by him always
- watching for some common trick of gesture, some familiar play of
- expression, some illusion of light and shadow, in which he should
- seem wholly Adriance. He knew that she lived upon this and that
- her disease fed upon it; that it sent shudders of remembrance
- through her and that in the exhaustion which followed this
- turmoil of her dying senses, she slept deep and sweet and
- dreamed of youth and art and days in a certain old Florentine
- garden, and not of bitterness and death.
-
- The question which most perplexed him was, "How much shall I
- know? How much does she wish me to know?" A few days after his
- first meeting with Katharine Gaylord, he had cabled his brother
- to write her. He had merely said that she was mortally ill; he
- could depend on Adriance to say the right thing--that was a part
- of his gift. Adriance always said not only the right thing, but
- the opportune, graceful, exquisite thing. His phrases took the
- color of the moment and the then-present condition, so that they
- never savored of perfunctory compliment or frequent usage. He
- always caught the lyric essence of the moment, the poetic
- suggestion of every situation. Moreover, he usually did the
- right thing, the opportune, graceful, exquisite thing--except,
- when he did very cruel things--bent upon making people happy
- when their existence touched his, just as he insisted that his
- material environment should be beautiful; lavishing upon those
- near him all the warmth and radiance of his rich nature, all the
- homage of the poet and troubadour, and, when they were no longer
- near, forgetting--for that also was a part of Adriance's gift.
-
- Three weeks after Everett had sent his cable, when he made
- his daily call at the gaily painted ranch house, he found
- Katharine laughing like a schoolgirl. "Have you ever thought,"
- she said, as he entered the music room, "how much these seances
- of ours are like Heine's 'Florentine Nights,' except that I don't
- give you an opportunity to monopolize the conversation as Heine
- did?" She held his hand longer than usual, as she greeted him,
- and looked searchingly up into his face. "You are the kindest
- man living; the kindest," she added, softly.
-
- Everett's gray face colored faintly as he drew his hand
- away, for he felt that this time she was looking at him and not
- at a whimsical caricature of his brother. "Why, what have I done
- now?" he asked, lamely. "I can't remember having sent you any
- stale candy or champagne since yesterday."
-
- She drew a letter with a foreign postmark from between
- the leaves of a book and held it out, smiling. "You got him to
- write it. Don't say you didn't, for it came direct, you see, and
- the last address I gave him was a place in Florida. This deed
- shall be remembered of you when I am with the just in Paradise.
- But one thing you did not ask him to do, for you didn't know about
- it. He has sent me his latest work, the new sonata, the most
- ambitious thing he has ever done, and you are to play it for me
- directly, though it looks horribly intricate. But first for the
- letter; I think you would better read it aloud to me."
-
- Everett sat down in a low chair facing the window seat in
- which she reclined with a barricade of pillows behind her. He
- opened the letter, his lashes half-veiling his kind eyes, and saw
- to his satisfaction that it was a long one--wonderfully tactful
- and tender, even for Adriance, who was tender with his valet and
- his stable boy, with his old gondolier and the beggar-women who
- prayed to the saints for him.
-
- The letter was from Granada, written in the Alhambra, as he
- sat by the fountain of the Patio di Lindaraxa. The air was
- heavy, with the warm fragrance of the South and full of the sound
- of splashing, running water, as it had been in a certain old
- garden in Florence, long ago. The sky was one great turquoise,
- heated until it glowed. The wonderful Moorish arches threw
- graceful blue shadows all about him. He had sketched an outline
- of them on the margin of his notepaper. The subtleties of Arabic
- decoration had cast an unholy spell over him, and the brutal
- exaggerations of Gothic art were a bad dream, easily forgotten.
- The Alhambra itself had, from the first, seemed perfectly
- familiar to him, and he knew that he must have trod that court,
- sleek and brown and obsequious, centuries before Ferdinand rode
- into Andalusia. The letter was full of confidences about his
- work, and delicate allusions to their old happy days of study and
- comradeship, and of her own work, still so warmly remembered and
- appreciatively discussed everywhere he went.
-
- As Everett folded the letter he felt that Adriance had
- divined the thing needed and had risen to it in his own wonderful
- way. The letter was consistently egotistical and seemed to him
- even a trifle patronizing, yet it was just what she had
- wanted. A strong realization of his brother's charm and intensity
- and power came over him; he felt the breath of that whirlwind of
- flame in which Adriance passed, consuming all in his path, and
- himself even more resolutely than he consumed others. Then he
- looked down at this white, burnt-out brand that lay before him.
- "Like him, isn't it?" she said, quietly.
-
- "I think I can scarcely answer his letter, but when you see
- him next you can do that for me. I want you to tell him many
- things for me, yet they can all be summed up in this: I want him
- to grow wholly into his best and greatest self, even at the cost
- of the dear boyishness that is half his charm to you and me. Do
- you understand me?"
-
- "I know perfectly well what you mean," answered Everett,
- thoughtfully. "I have often felt so about him myself. And yet
- it's difficult to prescribe for those fellows; so little makes,
- so little mars."
-
- Katharine raised herself upon her elbow, and her face
- flushed with feverish earnestness. "Ah, but it is the waste of
- himself that I mean; his lashing himself out on stupid and
- uncomprehending people until they take him at their own estimate.
- He can kindle marble, strike fire from putty, but is it worth
- what it costs him?"
-
- "Come, come," expostulated Everett, alarmed at her excitement.
- "Where is the new sonata? Let him speak for himself."
-
- He sat down at the piano and began playing the first
- movement, which was indeed the voice of Adriance, his proper
- speech. The sonata was the most ambitious work he had done up to
- that time and marked the transition from his purely lyric vein to
- a deeper and nobler style. Everett played intelligently and with
- that sympathetic comprehension which seems peculiar to a certain
- lovable class of men who never accomplish anything in particular.
- When he had finished he turned to Katharine.
-
- "How he has grown!" she cried. "What the three last years have
- done for him! He used to write only the tragedies of passion; but
- this is the tragedy of the soul, the shadow coexistent with the
- soul. This is the tragedy of effort and failure, the thing Keats
- called hell. This is my tragedy, as I lie here spent by the
- racecourse, listening to the feet of the runners as they pass me.
- Ah, God! The swift feet of the runners!"
-
- She turned her face away and covered it with her straining
- hands. Everett crossed over to her quickly and knelt beside her.
- In all the days he had known her she had never before, beyond an
- occasional ironical jest, given voice to the bitterness of her
- own defeat. Her courage had become a point of pride with him,
- and to see it going sickened him.
-
- "Don't do it," he gasped. "I can't stand it, I really
- can't, I feel it too much. We mustn't speak of that; it's too
- tragic and too vast."
-
- When she turned her face back to him there was a ghost of the old,
- brave, cynical smile on it, more bitter than the tears she could
- not shed. "No, I won't be so ungenerous; I will save that for the
- watches of the night when I have no better company. Now you may
- mix me another drink of some sort. Formerly, when it was not
- <i>if</i> I should ever sing Brunnhilde, but quite simply when I
- <i>should</i> sing Brunnhilde, I was always starving myself and
- thinking what I might drink and what I might not. But broken music
- boxes may drink whatsoever they list, and no one cares whether they
- lose their figure. Run over that theme at the beginning again.
- That, at least, is not new. It was running in his head when we
- were in Venice years ago, and he used to drum it on his glass at
- the dinner table. He had just begun to work it out when the late
- autumn came on, and the paleness of the Adriatic oppressed him,
- and he decided to go to Florence for the winter, and lost touch
- with the theme during his illness. Do you remember those
- frightful days? All the people who have loved him are not strong
- enough to save him from himself! When I got word from Florence
- that he had been ill I was in Nice filling a concert engagement.
- His wife was hurrying to him from Paris, but I reached him first.
- I arrived at dusk, in a terrific storm. They had taken an old
- palace there for the winter, and I found him in the library--a
- long, dark room full of old Latin books and heavy furniture and
- bronzes. He was sitting by a wood fire at one end of the room,
- looking, oh, so worn and pale!--as he always does when he is ill,
- you know. Ah, it is so good that you <i>do</i> know! Even
- his red smoking jacket lent no color to his face. His first words
- were not to tell me how ill he had been, but that that morning he
- had been well enough to put the last strokes to the score of his
- <i>Souvenirs d'Automne</i>. He was as I most like to remember him:
- so calm and happy and tired; not gay, as he usually is, but just
- contented and tired with that heavenly tiredness that comes after
- a good work done at last. Outside, the rain poured down in
- torrents, and the wind moaned for the pain of all the world and
- sobbed in the branches of the shivering olives and about the walls
- of that desolated old palace. How that night comes back to me!
- There were no lights in the room, only the wood fire which glowed
- upon the hard features of the bronze Dante, like the reflection of
- purgatorial flames, and threw long black shadows about us; beyond
- us it scarcely penetrated the gloom at all, Adriance sat staring at
- the fire with the weariness of all his life in his eves, and of all
- the other lives that must aspire and suffer to make up one such
- life as his. Somehow the wind with all its world-pain had got into
- the room, and the cold rain was in our eyes, and the wave came up
- in both of us at once--that awful, vague, universal pain, that
- cold fear of life and death and God and hope--and we were like
- two clinging together on a spar in midocean after the shipwreck
- of everything. Then we heard the front door open with a great
- gust of wind that shook even the walls, and the servants came
- running with lights, announcing that Madam had returned, <i>'and in
- the book we read no more that night.'</i>"
-
- She gave the old line with a certain bitter humor, and with
- the hard, bright smile in which of old she had wrapped her
- weakness as in a glittering garment. That ironical smile, worn
- like a mask through so many years, had gradually changed even the
- lines of her face completely, and when she looked in the mirror
- she saw not herself, but the scathing critic, the amused observer
- and satirist of herself. Everett dropped his head upon his hand
- and sat looking at the rug. "How much you have cared!" he said.
-
- "Ah, yes, I cared," she replied, closing her eyes with a
- long-drawn sigh of relief; and lying perfectly still, she went
- on: "You can't imagine what a comfort it is to have you know how I
- cared, what a relief it is to be able to tell it to someone. I
- used to want to shriek it out to the world in the long nights when
- I could not sleep. It seemed to me that I could not die with it.
- It demanded some sort of expression. And now that you know, you
- would scarcely believe how much less sharp the anguish of it is."
-
- Everett continued to look helplessly at the floor. "I was
- not sure how much you wanted me to know," he said.
-
- "Oh, I intended you should know from the first time I looked
- into your face, when you came that day with Charley. I flatter
- myself that I have been able to conceal it when I chose, though I
- suppose women always think that. The more observing ones may
- have seen, but discerning people are usually discreet and often
- kind, for we usually bleed a little before we begin to discern.
- But I wanted you to know; you are so like him that it is almost
- like telling him himself. At least, I feel now that he will know
- some day, and then I will be quite sacred from his compassion,
- for we none of us dare pity the dead. Since it was what my life
- has chiefly meant, I should like him to know. On the whole I am
- not ashamed of it. I have fought a good fight."
-
- "And has he never known at all?" asked Everett, in a thick voice.
-
- "Oh! Never at all in the way that you mean. Of course, he
- is accustomed to looking into the eyes of women and finding love
- there; when he doesn't find it there he thinks he must have been
- guilty of some discourtesy and is miserable about it. He has a
- genuine fondness for everyone who is not stupid or gloomy, or old
- or preternaturally ugly. Granted youth and cheerfulness, and a
- moderate amount of wit and some tact, and Adriance will always be
- glad to see you coming around the corner. I shared with the
- rest; shared the smiles and the gallantries and the droll little
- sermons. It was quite like a Sunday-school picnic; we wore our
- best clothes and a smile and took our turns. It was his kindness
- that was hardest. I have pretty well used my life up at standing
- punishment."
-
- "Don't; you'll make me hate him," groaned Everett.
-
- Katharine laughed and began to play nervously with her fan.
- "It wasn't in the slightest degree his fault; that is the most
- grotesque part of it. Why, it had really begun before I
- ever met him. I fought my way to him, and I drank my doom
- greedily enough."
-
- Everett rose and stood hesitating. "I think I must go. You ought
- to be quiet, and I don't think I can hear any more just now."
-
- She put out her hand and took his playfully. "You've put in
- three weeks at this sort of thing, haven't you? Well, it may
- never be to your glory in this world, perhaps, but it's been the
- mercy of heaven to me, and it ought to square accounts for a much
- worse life than yours will ever be."
-
- Everett knelt beside her, saying, brokenly: "I stayed because I
- wanted to be with you, that's all. I have never cared about other
- women since I met you in New York when I was a lad. You are a part
- of my destiny, and I could not leave you if I would."
-
- She put her hands on his shoulders and shook her head. "No,
- no; don't tell me that. I have seen enough of tragedy, God
- knows. Don't show me any more just as the curtain is going down.
- No, no, it was only a boy's fancy, and your divine pity and my
- utter pitiableness have recalled it for a moment. One does not
- love the dying, dear friend. If some fancy of that sort had been
- left over from boyhood, this would rid you of it, and that were
- well. Now go, and you will come again tomorrow, as long as there
- are tomorrows, will you not?" She took his hand with a smile that
- lifted the mask from her soul, that was both courage and despair,
- and full of infinite loyalty and tenderness, as she said softly:
-
- For ever and for ever, farewell, Cassius;
- If we do meet again, why, we shall smile;
- If not, why then, this parting was well made.
-
- The courage in her eyes was like the clear light of a star to him
- as he went out.
-
- On the night of Adriance Hilgarde's opening concert in Paris
- Everett sat by the bed in the ranch house in Wyoming, watching
- over the last battle that we have with the flesh before we are
- done with it and free of it forever. At times it seemed that the
- serene soul of her must have left already and found some refuge
- from the storm, and only the tenacious animal life were left to do
- battle with death. She labored under a delusion at once pitiful
- and merciful, thinking that she was in the Pullman on her way to
- New York, going back to her life and her work. When she aroused
- from her stupor it was only to ask the porter to waken her half an
- hour out of Jersey City, or to remonstrate with him about the
- delays and the roughness of the road. At midnight Everett and the
- nurse were left alone with her. Poor Charley Gaylord had lain down
- on a couch outside the door. Everett sat looking at the sputtering
- night lamp until it made his eyes ache. His head dropped forward
- on the foot of the bed, and he sank into a heavy, distressful
- slumber. He was dreaming of Adriance's concert in Paris, and of
- Adriance, the troubadour, smiling and debonair, with his boyish
- face and the touch of silver gray in his hair. He heard the
- applause and he saw the roses going up over the footlights until
- they were stacked half as high as the piano, and the petals fell
- and scattered, making crimson splotches on the floor. Down this
- crimson pathway came Adriance with his youthful step, leading his
- prima donna by the hand; a dark woman this time, with Spanish eyes.
-
- The nurse touched him on the shoulder; he started and awoke.
- She screened the lamp with her hand. Everett saw that Katharine
- was awake and conscious, and struggling a little. He lifted her
- gently on his arm and began to fan her. She laid her hands
- lightly on his hair and looked into his face with eyes that
- seemed never to have wept or doubted. "Ah, dear Adriance, dear,
- dear," she whispered.
-
- Everett went to call her brother, but when they came back
- the madness of art was over for Katharine.
-
- Two days later Everett was pacing the station siding,
- waiting for the westbound train. Charley Gaylord walked beside
- him, but the two men had nothing to say to each other. Everett's
- bags were piled on the truck, and his step was hurried and his
- eyes were full of impatience, as he gazed again and again up the
- track, watching for the train. Gaylord's impatience was not less
- than his own; these two, who had grown so close, had now become
- painful and impossible to each other, and longed for the
- wrench of farewell.
-
- As the train pulled in Everett wrung Gaylord's hand among
- the crowd of alighting passengers. The people of a German opera
- company, en route to the coast, rushed by them in frantic haste
- to snatch their breakfast during the stop. Everett heard an
- exclamation in a broad German dialect, and a massive woman whose
- figure persistently escaped from her stays in the most improbable
- places rushed up to him, her blond hair disordered by the wind,
- and glowing with joyful surprise she caught his coat sleeve with
- her tightly gloved hands.
-
- "<i>Herr Gott</i>, Adriance, <i>lieber Freund</i>," she cried,
- emotionally.
-
- Everett quickly withdrew his arm and lifted his hat,
- blushing. "Pardon me, madam, but I see that you have mistaken
- me for Adriance Hilgarde. I am his brother," he said quietly,
- and turning from the crestfallen singer, he hurried into the car.
-
-
-
-
- The Garden Lodge
-
- When Caroline Noble's friends learned that Raymond d'Esquerre was
- to spend a month at her place on the Sound before he sailed to fill
- his engagement for the London opera season, they considered it
- another striking instance of the perversity of things. That the
- month was May, and the most mild and florescent of all the
- blue-and-white Mays the middle coast had known in years, but added
- to their sense of wrong. D'Esquerre, they learned, was ensconced
- in the lodge in the apple orchard, just beyond Caroline's glorious
- garden, and report went that at almost any hour the sound of the
- tenor's voice and of Caroline's crashing accompaniment could be
- heard floating through the open windows, out among the snowy apple
- boughs. The Sound, steel-blue and dotted with white sails, was
- splendidly seen from the windows of the lodge. The garden to the
- left and the orchard to the right had never been so riotous with
- spring, and had burst into impassioned bloom, as if to accommodate
- Caroline, though she was certainly the last woman to whom the
- witchery of Freya could be attributed; the last woman, as her
- friends affirmed, to at all adequately appreciate and make the most
- of such a setting for the great tenor.
-
- Of course, they admitted, Caroline was musical--well, she
- ought to be!--but in that, as in everything, she was paramountly
- cool-headed, slow of impulse, and disgustingly practical; in
- that, as in everything else, she had herself so provokingly well
- in hand. Of course, it would be she, always mistress of herself
- in any situation, she, who would never be lifted one inch from
- the ground by it, and who would go on superintending her
- gardeners and workmen as usual--it would be she who got him.
- Perhaps some of them suspected that this was exactly why
- she did get him, and it but nettled them the more.
-
- Caroline's coolness, her capableness, her general success,
- especially exasperated people because they felt that, for the
- most part, she had made herself what she was; that she had cold-
- bloodedly set about complying with the demands of life and making
- her position comfortable and masterful. That was why, everyone
- said, she had married Howard Noble. Women who did not get
- through life so well as Caroline, who could not make such good
- terms either with fortune or their husbands, who did not find
- their health so unfailingly good, or hold their looks so well, or
- manage their children so easily, or give such distinction to all
- they did, were fond of stamping Caroline as a materialist, and
- called her hard.
-
- The impression of cold calculation, of having a definite
- policy, which Caroline gave, was far from a false one; but there
- was this to be said for her--that there were extenuating
- circumstances which her friends could not know.
-
- If Caroline held determinedly to the middle course, if she
- was apt to regard with distrust everything which inclined toward
- extravagance, it was not because she was unacquainted with other
- standards than her own, or had never seen another side of life.
- She had grown up in Brooklyn, in a shabby little house under the
- vacillating administration of her father, a music teacher who
- usually neglected his duties to write orchestral compositions for
- which the world seemed to have no especial need. His spirit was
- warped by bitter vindictiveness and puerile self-commiseration,
- and he spent his days in scorn of the labor that brought him
- bread and in pitiful devotion to the labor that brought him only
- disappointment, writing interminable scores which demanded of the
- orchestra everything under heaven except melody.
-
- It was not a cheerful home for a girl to grow up in. The
- mother, who idolized her husband as the music lord of the future,
- was left to a lifelong battle with broom and dustpan, to
- neverending conciliatory overtures to the butcher and grocer, to
- the making of her own gowns and of Caroline's, and to the delicate
- task of mollifying Auguste's neglected pupils.
-
- The son, Heinrich, a painter, Caroline's only brother, had
- inherited all his father's vindictive sensitiveness without his
- capacity for slavish application. His little studio on the third
- floor had been much frequented by young men as unsuccessful as
- himself, who met there to give themselves over to contemptuous
- derision of this or that artist whose industry and stupidity had
- won him recognition. Heinrich, when he worked at all, did
- newspaper sketches at twenty-five dollars a week. He was too
- indolent and vacillating to set himself seriously to his art, too
- irascible and poignantly self-conscious to make a living, too
- much addicted to lying late in bed, to the incontinent reading of
- poetry, and to the use of chloral to be anything very positive
- except painful. At twenty-six he shot himself in a frenzy, and
- the whole wretched affair had effectually shattered his mother's
- health and brought on the decline of which she died. Caroline
- had been fond of him, but she felt a certain relief when he no
- longer wandered about the little house, commenting ironically
- upon its shabbiness, a Turkish cap on his head and a cigarette
- hanging from between his long, tremulous fingers.
-
- After her mother's death Caroline assumed the management of
- that bankrupt establishment. The funeral expenses were unpaid,
- and Auguste's pupils had been frightened away by the shock of
- successive disasters and the general atmosphere of wretchedness
- that pervaded the house. Auguste himself was writing a symphonic
- poem, Icarus, dedicated to the memory of his son. Caroline was
- barely twenty when she was called upon to face this tangle of
- difficulties, but she reviewed the situation candidly. The house
- had served its time at the shrine of idealism; vague, distressing,
- unsatisfied yearnings had brought it low enough. Her mother,
- thirty years before, had eloped and left Germany with her music
- teacher, to give herself over to lifelong, drudging bondage at the
- kitchen range. Ever since Caroline could remember, the law in the
- house had been a sort of mystic worship of things distant,
- intangible and unattainable. The family had lived in successive
- ebullitions of generous enthusiasm, in talk of masters and
- masterpieces, only to come down to the cold facts in the case; to
- boiled mutton and to the necessity of turning the dining-room
- carpet. All these emotional pyrotechnics had ended in petty
- jealousies, in neglected duties, and in cowardly fear of the little
- grocer on the corner.
-
- From her childhood she had hated it, that humiliating and
- uncertain existence, with its glib tongue and empty pockets, its
- poetic ideals and sordid realities, its indolence and poverty
- tricked out in paper roses. Even as a little girl, when vague
- dreams beset her, when she wanted to lie late in bed and commune
- with visions, or to leap and sing because the sooty little trees
- along the street were putting out their first pale leaves in the
- sunshine, she would clench her hands and go to help her mother
- sponge the spots from her father's waistcoat or press Heinrich's
- trousers. Her mother never permitted the slightest question
- concerning anything Auguste or Heinrich saw fit to do, but from
- the time Caroline could reason at all she could not help thinking
- that many things went wrong at home. She knew, for example, that
- her father's pupils ought not to be kept waiting half an hour
- while he discussed Schopenhauer with some bearded socialist over
- a dish of herrings and a spotted tablecloth. She knew that
- Heinrich ought not to give a dinner on Heine's birthday, when the
- laundress had not been paid for a month and when he frequently
- had to ask his mother for carfare. Certainly Caroline had served
- her apprenticeship to idealism and to all the embarrassing
- inconsistencies which it sometimes entails, and she decided to
- deny herself this diffuse, ineffectual answer to the sharp
- questions of life.
-
- When she came into the control of herself and the house she
- refused to proceed any further with her musical education. Her
- father, who had intended to make a concert pianist of her, set
- this down as another item in his long list of disappointments and
- his grievances against the world. She was young and pretty, and
- she had worn turned gowns and soiled gloves and improvised hats
- all her life. She wanted the luxury of being like other people,
- of being honest from her hat to her boots, of having nothing to
- hide, not even in the matter of stockings, and she was willing to
- work for it. She rented a little studio away from that house of
- misfortune and began to give lessons. She managed well and was
- the sort of girl people liked to help. The bills were
- paid and Auguste went on composing, growing indignant only when
- she refused to insist that her pupils should study his compositions
- for the piano. She began to get engagements in New York to play
- accompaniments at song recitals. She dressed well, made herself
- agreeable, and gave herself a chance. She never permitted herself
- to look further than a step ahead, and set herself with all the
- strength of her will to see things as they are and meet them
- squarely in the broad day. There were two things she feared even
- more than poverty: the part of one that sets up an idol and the
- part of one that bows down and worships it.
-
- When Caroline was twenty-four she married Howard Noble, then
- a widower of forty, who had been for ten years a power in Wall
- Street. Then, for the first time, she had paused to take breath.
- It took a substantialness as unquestionable as his; his money,
- his position, his energy, the big vigor of his robust person, to
- satisfy her that she was entirely safe. Then she relaxed a
- little, feeling that there was a barrier to be counted upon
- between her and that world of visions and quagmires and failure.
-
- Caroline had been married for six years when Raymond
- d'Esquerre came to stay with them. He came chiefly because
- Caroline was what she was; because he, too, felt occasionally the
- need of getting out of Klingsor's garden, of dropping down
- somewhere for a time near a quiet nature, a cool head, a strong
- hand. The hours he had spent in the garden lodge were hours of
- such concentrated study as, in his fevered life, he seldom got in
- anywhere. She had, as he told Noble, a fine appreciation of the
- seriousness of work.
-
- One evening two weeks after d'Esquerre had sailed, Caroline
- was in the library giving her husband an account of the work she
- had laid out for the gardeners. She superintended the care of
- the grounds herself. Her garden, indeed, had become quite a part
- of her; a sort of beautiful adjunct, like gowns or jewels. It
- was a famous spot, and Noble was very proud of it.
-
- "What do you think, Caroline, of having the garden lodge torn down
- and putting a new summer house there at the end of the arbor; a big
- rustic affair where you could have tea served in midsummer?" he
- asked.
-
- "The lodge?" repeated Caroline looking at him quickly. "Why, that
- seems almost a shame, doesn't it, after d'Esquerre has used it?"
-
- Noble put down his book with a smile of amusement.
-
- "Are you going to be sentimental about it? Why, I'd sacrifice the
- whole place to see that come to pass. But I don't believe you
- could do it for an hour together."
-
- "I don't believe so, either," said his wife, smiling.
-
- Noble took up his book again and Caroline went into the
- music room to practice. She was not ready to have the lodge torn
- down. She had gone there for a quiet hour every day during the
- two weeks since d'Esquerre had left them. It was the sheerest
- sentiment she had ever permitted herself. She was ashamed of it,
- but she was childishly unwilling to let it go.
-
- Caroline went to bed soon after her husband, but she was not
- able to sleep. The night was close and warm, presaging storm.
- The wind had fallen, and the water slept, fixed and motionless as
- the sand. She rose and thrust her feet into slippers and,
- putting a dressing gown over her shoulders, opened the door of
- her husband's room; he was sleeping soundly. She went into the
- hall and down the stairs; then, leaving the house through a side
- door, stepped into the vine-covered arbor that led to the garden
- lodge. The scent of the June roses was heavy in the still air,
- and the stones that paved the path felt pleasantly cool through
- the thin soles of her slippers. Heat-lightning flashed
- continuously from the bank of clouds that had gathered over the
- sea, but the shore was flooded with moonlight and, beyond, the
- rim of the Sound lay smooth and shining. Caroline had the key of
- the lodge, and the door creaked as she opened it. She stepped
- into the long, low room radiant with the moonlight which streamed
- through the bow window and lay in a silvery pool along the waxed
- floor. Even that part of the room which lay in the shadow was
- vaguely illuminated; the piano, the tall candlesticks, the
- picture frames and white casts standing out as clearly in the
- half-light as did the sycamores and black poplars of the garden
- against the still, expectant night sky. Caroline sat
- down to think it all over. She had come here to do just that
- every day of the two weeks since d'Esquerre's departure, but,
- far from ever having reached a conclusion, she had succeeded
- only in losing her way in a maze of memories--sometimes
- bewilderingly confused, sometimes too acutely distinct--where
- there was neither path, nor clue, nor any hope of finality. She
- had, she realized, defeated a lifelong regimen; completely
- confounded herself by falling unaware and incontinently into
- that luxury of reverie which, even as a little girl, she had so
- determinedly denied herself, she had been developing with
- alarming celerity that part of one which sets up an idol and
- that part of one which bows down and worships it.
-
- It was a mistake, she felt, ever to have asked d'Esquerre to come
- at all. She had an angry feeling that she had done it rather in
- self-defiance, to rid herself finally of that instinctive fear of
- him which had always troubled and perplexed her. She knew that she
- had reckoned with herself before he came; but she had been equal to
- so much that she had never really doubted she would be equal to
- this. She had come to believe, indeed, almost arrogantly in her
- own malleability and endurance; she had done so much with herself
- that she had come to think that there was nothing which she could
- not do; like swimmers, overbold, who reckon upon their strength and
- their power to hoard it, forgetting the ever-changing moods of
- their adversary, the sea.
-
- And d'Esquerre was a man to reckon with. Caroline did not
- deceive herself now upon that score. She admitted it humbly
- enough, and since she had said good-by to him she had not been
- free for a moment from the sense of his formidable power. It
- formed the undercurrent of her consciousness; whatever she might
- be doing or thinking, it went on, involuntarily, like her
- breathing, sometimes welling up until suddenly she found herself
- suffocating. There was a moment of this tonight, and Caroline
- rose and stood shuddering, looking about her in the blue
- duskiness of the silent room. She had not been here at night
- before, and the spirit of the place seemed more troubled and
- insistent than ever it had in the quiet of the afternoons.
- Caroline brushed her hair back from her damp forehead
- and went over to the bow window. After raising it she sat down
- upon the low seat. Leaning her head against the sill, and
- loosening her nightgown at the throat, she half-closed her eyes
- and looked off into the troubled night, watching the play of
- the heat-lightning upon the massing clouds between the pointed
- tops of the poplars.
-
- Yes, she knew, she knew well enough, of what absurdities
- this spell was woven; she mocked, even while she winced. His
- power, she knew, lay not so much in anything that he actually
- had--though he had so much--or in anything that he actually was,
- but in what he suggested, in what he seemed picturesque enough to
- have or be and that was just anything that one chose to believe
- or to desire. His appeal was all the more persuasive and alluring
- in that it was to the imagination alone, in that it was as
- indefinite and impersonal as those cults of idealism which so
- have their way with women. What he had was that, in his mere
- personality, he quickened and in a measure gratified that
- something without which--to women--life is no better than
- sawdust, and to the desire for which most of their mistakes and
- tragedies and astonishingly poor bargains are due.
-
- D'Esquerre had become the center of a movement, and the
- Metropolitan had become the temple of a cult. When he could be
- induced to cross the Atlantic, the opera season in New York was
- successful; when he could not, the management lost money; so much
- everyone knew. It was understood, too, that his superb art had
- disproportionately little to do with his peculiar position.
- Women swayed the balance this way or that; the opera, the
- orchestra, even his own glorious art, achieved at such a cost, were
- but the accessories of himself; like the scenery and costumes and
- even the soprano, they all went to produce atmosphere, were the
- mere mechanics of the beautiful illusion.
-
- Caroline understood all this; tonight was not the first time
- that she had put it to herself so. She had seen the same feeling
- in other people, watched for it in her friends, studied it in the
- house night after night when he sang, candidly putting herself
- among a thousand others.
-
- D'Esquerre's arrival in the early winter was the signal for
- a feminine hegira toward New York. On the nights when he sang
- women flocked to the Metropolitan from mansions and hotels, from
- typewriter desks, schoolrooms, shops, and fitting rooms. They
- were of all conditions and complexions. Women of the world who
- accepted him knowingly as they sometimes took champagne for its
- agreeable effect; sisters of charity and overworked shopgirls,
- who received him devoutly; withered women who had taken doctorate
- degrees and who worshipped furtively through prism spectacles;
- business women and women of affairs, the Amazons who dwelt afar
- from men in the stony fastnesses of apartment houses. They all
- entered into the same romance; dreamed, in terms as various as
- the hues of fantasy, the same dream; drew the same quick breath
- when he stepped upon the stage, and, at his exit, felt the same
- dull pain of shouldering the pack again.
-
- There were the maimed, even; those who came on crutches, who
- were pitted by smallpox or grotesquely painted by cruel birth
- stains. These, too, entered with him into enchantment. Stout
- matrons became slender girls again; worn spinsters felt their
- cheeks flush with the tenderness of their lost youth. Young and
- old, however hideous, however fair, they yielded up their heat--
- whether quick or latent--sat hungering for the mystic bread
- wherewith he fed them at this eucharist of sentiment.
-
- Sometimes, when the house was crowded from the orchestra to
- the last row of the gallery, when the air was charged with this
- ecstasy of fancy, he himself was the victim of the burning
- reflection of his power. They acted upon him in turn; he felt
- their fervent and despairing appeal to him; it stirred him as the
- spring drives the sap up into an old tree; he, too, burst into
- bloom. For the moment he, too, believed again, desired again, he
- knew not what, but something.
-
- But it was not in these exalted moments that Caroline had
- learned to fear him most. It was in the quiet, tired reserve,
- the dullness, even, that kept him company between these outbursts
- that she found that exhausting drain upon her sympathies which
- was the very pith and substance of their alliance. It was the
- tacit admission of disappointment under all this glamour
- of success--the helplessness of the enchanter to at all enchant
- himself--that awoke in her an illogical, womanish desire to in
- some way compensate, to make it up to him.
-
- She had observed drastically to herself that it was her
- eighteenth year he awoke in her--those hard years she had spent
- in turning gowns and placating tradesmen, and which she had never
- had time to live. After all, she reflected, it was better to
- allow one's self a little youth--to dance a little at the
- carnival and to live these things when they are natural and
- lovely, not to have them coming back on one and demanding arrears
- when they are humiliating and impossible. She went over tonight
- all the catalogue of her self-deprivations; recalled how, in the
- light of her father's example, she had even refused to humor her
- innocent taste for improvising at the piano; how, when she began
- to teach, after her mother's death, she had struck out one little
- indulgence after another, reducing her life to a relentless
- routine, unvarying as clockwork. It seemed to her that ever
- since d'Esquerre first came into the house she had been haunted
- by an imploring little girlish ghost that followed her about,
- wringing its hands and entreating for an hour of life.
-
- The storm had held off unconscionably long; the air within
- the lodge was stifling, and without the garden waited,
- breathless. Everything seemed pervaded by a poignant distress;
- the hush of feverish, intolerable expectation. The still earth,
- the heavy flowers, even the growing darkness, breathed the
- exhaustion of protracted waiting. Caroline felt that she ought
- to go; that it was wrong to stay; that the hour and the place
- were as treacherous as her own reflections. She rose and began
- to pace the floor, stepping softly, as though in fear of
- awakening someone, her figure, in its thin drapery, diaphanously
- vague and white. Still unable to shake off the obsession of the
- intense stillness, she sat down at the piano and began to run
- over the first act of the <i>Walkure</i>, the last of his roles
- they had practiced together; playing listlessly and absently at
- first, but with gradually increasing seriousness. Perhaps it was
- the still heat of the summer night, perhaps it was the heavy odors
- from the garden that came in through the open windows; but as she
- played there grew and grew the feeling that he was there, beside
- her, standing in his accustomed place. In the duet at the end of
- the first act she heard him clearly: <i>"Thou art the Spring for
- which I sighed in Winter's cold embraces."<i/> Once as he sang
- it, he had put his arm about her, his one hand under her heart,
- while with the other he took her right from the keyboard, holding
- her as he always held <i>Sieglinde</i> when he drew her toward the
- window. She had been wonderfully the mistress of herself at the
- time; neither repellent nor acquiescent. She remembered that she
- had rather exulted, then, in her self-control--which he had seemed
- to take for granted, though there was perhaps the whisper of a
- question from the hand under her heart. <i>"Thou art the Spring
- for which I sighed in Winter's cold embraces."</i> Caroline lifted
- her hands quickly from the keyboard, and she bowed her head in
- them, sobbing.
-
- The storm broke and the rain beat in, spattering her
- nightdress until she rose and lowered the windows. She dropped
- upon the couch and began fighting over again the battles of other
- days, while the ghosts of the slain rose as from a sowing of
- dragon's teeth, The shadows of things, always so scorned and
- flouted, bore down upon her merciless and triumphant. It was not
- enough; this happy, useful, well-ordered life was not enough. It
- did not satisfy, it was not even real. No, the other things, the
- shadows-they were the realities. Her father, poor Heinrich, even
- her mother, who had been able to sustain her poor romance and
- keep her little illusions amid the tasks of a scullion, were
- nearer happiness than she. Her sure foundation was but made
- ground, after all, and the people in Klingsor's garden were more
- fortunate, however barren the sands from which they conjured
- their paradise.
-
- The lodge was still and silent; her fit of weeping over,
- Caroline made no sound, and within the room, as without in the
- garden, was the blackness of storm. Only now and then a flash of
- lightning showed a woman's slender figure rigid on the couch, her
- face buried in her hands.
-
- Toward morning, when the occasional rumbling of thunder was
- heard no more and the beat of the raindrops upon the orchard
- leaves was steadier, she fell asleep and did not waken
- until the first red streaks of dawn shone through the twisted
- boughs of the apple trees. There was a moment between world and
- world, when, neither asleep nor awake, she felt her dream grow
- thin, melting away from her, felt the warmth under her heart
- growing cold. Something seemed to slip from the clinging hold
- of her arms, and she groaned protestingly through her parted lips,
- following it a little way with fluttering hands. Then her eyes
- opened wide and she sprang up and sat holding dizzily to the
- cushions of the couch, staring down at her bare, cold feet, at
- her laboring breast, rising and falling under her open nightdress.
-
- The dream was gone, but the feverish reality of it still
- pervaded her and she held it as the vibrating string holds a
- tone. In the last hour the shadows had had their way with
- Caroline. They had shown her the nothingness of time and space,
- of system and discipline, of closed doors and broad waters.
- Shuddering, she thought of the Arabian fairy tale in which the
- genie brought the princess of China to the sleeping prince of
- Damascus and carried her through the air back to her palace at
- dawn. Caroline closed her eyes and dropped her elbows weakly
- upon her knees, her shoulders sinking together. The horror was
- that it had not come from without, but from within. The dream
- was no blind chance; it was the expression of something she had
- kept so close a prisoner that she had never seen it herself, it
- was the wail from the donjon deeps when the watch slept. Only as
- the outcome of such a night of sorcery could the thing have been
- loosed to straighten its limbs and measure itself with her; so
- heavy were the chains upon it, so many a fathom deep, it was
- crushed down into darkness. The fact that d'Esquerre happened to
- be on the other side of the world meant nothing; had he been
- here, beside her, it could scarcely have hurt her self-respect
- so much. As it was, she was without even the extenuation of an
- outer impulse, and she could scarcely have despised herself more
- had she come to him here in the night three weeks ago and thrown
- herself down upon the stone slab at the door there.
-
- Caroline rose unsteadily and crept guiltily from the lodge
- and along the path under the arbor, terrified lest the
- servants should be stirring, trembling with the chill air, while
- the wet shrubbery, brushing against her, drenched her nightdress
- until it clung about her limbs.
-
- At breakfast her husband looked across the table at her with
- concern. "It seems to me that you are looking rather fagged,
- Caroline. It was a beastly night to sleep. Why don't you go up
- to the mountains until this hot weather is over? By the way, were
- you in earnest about letting the lodge stand?"
-
- Caroline laughed quietly. "No, I find I was not very serious. I
- haven't sentiment enough to forego a summer house. Will you tell
- Baker to come tomorrow to talk it over with me? If we are to have
- a house party, I should like to put him to work on it at once."
-
- Noble gave her a glance, half-humorous, half-vexed. "Do you
- know I am rather disappointed?" he said. "I had almost hoped
- that, just for once, you know, you would be a little bit foolish."
-
- "Not now that I've slept over it," replied Caroline, and
- they both rose from the table, laughing.
-
-
-
-
- The Marriage of Phaedra
-
- The sequence of events was such that MacMaster did not make his
- pilgrimage to Hugh Treffinger's studio until three years after that
- painter's death. MacMaster was himself a painter, an American of
- the Gallicized type, who spent his winters in New York, his summers
- in Paris, and no inconsiderable amount of time on the broad waters
- between. He had often contemplated stopping in London on one of
- his return trips in the late autumn, but he had always deferred
- leaving Paris until the prick of necessity drove him home by the
- quickest and shortest route.
-
- Treffinger was a comparatively young man at the time of his
- death, and there had seemed no occasion for haste until haste was
- of no avail. Then, possibly, though there had been some
- correspondence between them, MacMaster felt certain qualms about
- meeting in the flesh a man who in the flesh was so diversely
- reported. His intercourse with Treffinger's work had been so
- deep and satisfying, so apart from other appreciations, that he
- rather dreaded a critical juncture of any sort. He had always
- felt himself singularly inept in personal relations, and in this
- case he had avoided the issue until it was no longer to be feared
- or hoped for. There still remained, however, Treffinger's great
- unfinished picture, the <i>Marriage of Phaedra</i>, which had never
- left his studio, and of which MacMaster's friends had now and again
- brought report that it was the painter's most characteristic
- production.
-
- The young man arrived in London in the evening, and the next
- morning went out to Kensington to find Treffinger's studio. It
- lay in one of the perplexing bystreets off Holland Road, and the
- number he found on a door set in a high garden wall, the top of
- which was covered with broken green glass and over which
- a budding lilac bush nodded. Treffinger's plate was still there,
- and a card requesting visitors to ring for the attendant. In
- response to MacMaster's ring, the door was opened by a cleanly
- built little man, clad in a shooting jacket and trousers that had
- been made for an ampler figure. He had a fresh complexion, eyes
- of that common uncertain shade of gray, and was closely shaven
- except for the incipient muttonchops on his ruddy cheeks. He
- bore himself in a manner strikingly capable, and there was a sort
- of trimness and alertness about him, despite the too-generous
- shoulders of his coat. In one hand he held a bulldog pipe, and
- in the other a copy of <i>Sporting Life</i>. While MacMaster was
- explaining the purpose of his call he noticed that the man surveyed
- him critically, though not impertinently. He was admitted into a
- little tank of a lodge made of whitewashed stone, the back door
- and windows opening upon a garden. A visitor's book and a pile
- of catalogues lay on a deal table, together with a bottle of ink
- and some rusty pens. The wall was ornamented with photographs
- and colored prints of racing favorites.
-
- "The studio is h'only open to the public on Saturdays and Sundays,"
- explained the man--he referred to himself as "Jymes"--"but of
- course we make exceptions in the case of pynters. Lydy Elling
- Treffinger 'erself is on the Continent, but Sir 'Ugh's orders was
- that pynters was to 'ave the run of the place." He selected a key
- from his pocket and threw open the door into the studio which, like
- the lodge, was built against the wall of the garden.
-
- MacMaster entered a long, narrow room, built of smoothed
- planks, painted a light green; cold and damp even on that fine
- May morning. The room was utterly bare of furniture--unless a
- stepladder, a model throne, and a rack laden with large leather
- portfolios could be accounted such--and was windowless, without
- other openings than the door and the skylight, under which hung
- the unfinished picture itself. MacMaster had never seen so many
- of Treffinger's paintings together. He knew the painter had
- married a woman with money and had been able to keep such of his
- pictures as he wished. These, with all of <i>182</i> his
- replicas and studies, he had left as a sort of common legacy to
- the younger men of the school he had originated.
-
- As soon as he was left alone MacMaster sat down on the edge
- of the model throne before the unfinished picture. Here indeed
- was what he had come for; it rather paralyzed his receptivity for
- the moment, but gradually the thing found its way to him.
-
- At one o'clock he was standing before the collection of studies
- done for <i>Boccaccio's Garden</i> when he heard a voice at his
- elbow.
-
- "Pardon, sir, but I was just about to lock up and go to
- lunch. Are you lookin' for the figure study of Boccaccio
- 'imself?" James queried respectfully. "Lydy Elling Treffinger
- give it to Mr. Rossiter to take down to Oxford for some lectures
- he's been agiving there."
-
- "Did he never paint out his studies, then?" asked MacMaster
- with perplexity. "Here are two completed ones for this picture.
- Why did he keep them?"
-
- "I don't know as I could say as to that, sir," replied James,
- smiling indulgently, "but that was 'is way. That is to say, 'e
- pynted out very frequent, but 'e always made two studies to stand;
- one in watercolors and one in oils, before 'e went at the final
- picture--to say nothink of all the pose studies 'e made in pencil
- before he begun on the composition proper at all. He was that
- particular. You see, 'e wasn't so keen for the final effect as for
- the proper pyntin' of 'is pictures. 'E used to say they ought to
- be well made, the same as any other h'article of trade. I can lay
- my 'and on the pose studies for you, sir." He rummaged in one of
- the portfolios and produced half a dozen drawings, "These three,"
- he continued, "was discarded; these two was the pose he finally
- accepted; this one without alteration, as it were.
-
- "That's in Paris, as I remember," James continued reflectively.
- "It went with the <i>Saint Cecilia</i> into the Baron H---'s
- collection. Could you tell me, sir, 'as 'e it still? I
- don't like to lose account of them, but some 'as changed 'ands
- since Sir 'Ugh's death."
-
- "H---'s collection is still intact, I believe," replied MacMaster.
- "You were with Treffinger long?"
-
- "From my boyhood, sir," replied James with gravity. "I was
- a stable boy when 'e took me."
-
- "You were his man, then?"
-
- "That's it, sir. Nobody else ever done anything around the studio.
- I always mixed 'is colors and 'e taught me to do a share of the
- varnishin'; 'e said as 'ow there wasn't a 'ouse in England as could
- do it proper. You ayn't looked at the <i>Marriage</i> yet, sir?"
- he asked abruptly, glancing doubtfully at MacMaster, and indicating
- with his thumb the picture under the north light.
-
- "Not very closely. I prefer to begin with something simpler;
- that's rather appalling, at first glance," replied MacMaster.
-
- "Well may you say that, sir," said James warmly. "That one regular
- killed Sir 'Ugh; it regular broke 'im up, and nothink will ever
- convince me as 'ow it didn't bring on 'is second stroke."
-
- When MacMaster walked back to High Street to take his bus
- his mind was divided between two exultant convictions. He felt
- that he had not only found Treffinger's greatest picture, but
- that, in James, he had discovered a kind of cryptic index to the
- painter's personality--a clue which, if tactfully followed, might
- lead to much.
-
- Several days after his first visit to the studio, MacMaster
- wrote to Lady Mary Percy, telling her that he would be in London
- for some time and asking her if he might call. Lady Mary was an
- only sister of Lady Ellen Treffinger, the painter's widow, and
- MacMaster had known her during one winter he spent at Nice. He
- had known her, indeed, very well, and Lady Mary, who was
- astonishingly frank and communicative upon all subjects, had been
- no less so upon the matter of her sister's unfortunate marriage.
-
- In her reply to his note Lady Mary named an afternoon when
- she would be alone. She was as good as her word, and when
- MacMaster arrived he found the drawing room empty. Lady Mary
- entered shortly after he was announced. She was a tall woman,
- thin and stiffly jointed, and her body stood out under the folds
- of her gown with the rigor of cast iron. This rather metallic
- suggestion was further carried out in her heavily knuckled hands,
- her stiff gray hair, and her long, bold-featured face,
- which was saved from freakishness only by her alert eyes.
-
- "Really," said Lady Mary, taking a seat beside him and
- giving him a sort of military inspection through her nose
- glasses, "really, I had begun to fear that I had lost you
- altogether. It's four years since I saw you at Nice, isn't it? I
- was in Paris last winter, but I heard nothing from you."
-
- "I was in New York then."
-
- "It occurred to me that you might be. And why are you in London?"
-
- "Can you ask?" replied MacMaster gallantly.
-
- Lady Mary smiled ironically. "But for what else, incidentally?"
-
- "Well, incidentally, I came to see Treffinger's studio and
- his unfinished picture. Since I've been here, I've decided to
- stay the summer. I'm even thinking of attempting to do a
- biography of him."
-
- "So that is what brought you to London?"
-
- "Not exactly. I had really no intention of anything so serious
- when I came. It's his last picture, I fancy, that has rather
- thrust it upon me. The notion has settled down on me like a thing
- destined."
-
- "You'll not be offended if I question the clemency of such a
- destiny," remarked Lady Mary dryly. "Isn't there rather a
- surplus of books on that subject already?"
-
- "Such as they are. Oh, I've read them all"--here MacMaster
- faced Lady Mary triumphantly. "He has quite escaped your amiable
- critics," he added, smiling.
-
- "I know well enough what you think, and I daresay we are not
- much on art," said Lady Mary with tolerant good humor. "We leave
- that to peoples who have no physique. Treffinger made a stir for
- a time, but it seems that we are not capable of a sustained
- appreciation of such extraordinary methods. In the end we go
- back to the pictures we find agreeable and unperplexing. He was
- regarded as an experiment, I fancy; and now it seems that he was
- rather an unsuccessful one. If you've come to us in a missionary
- spirit, we'll tolerate you politely, but we'll laugh in our
- sleeve, I warn you."
-
- "That really doesn't daunt me, Lady Mary," declared
- MacMaster blandly. "As I told you, I'm a man with a mission."
-
- Lady Mary laughed her hoarse, baritone laugh. "Bravo! And
- you've come to me for inspiration for your panegyric?"
-
- MacMaster smiled with some embarrassment. "Not altogether
- for that purpose. But I want to consult you, Lady Mary, about
- the advisability of troubling Lady Ellen Treffinger in the
- matter. It seems scarcely legitimate to go on without asking her
- to give some sort of grace to my proceedings, yet I feared the
- whole subject might be painful to her. I shall rely wholly upon
- your discretion."
-
- "I think she would prefer to be consulted," replied Lady
- Mary judicially. "I can't understand how she endures to have the
- wretched affair continually raked up, but she does. She seems to
- feel a sort of moral responsibility. Ellen has always been
- singularly conscientious about this matter, insofar as her light
- goes,--which rather puzzles me, as hers is not exactly a
- magnanimous nature. She is certainly trying to do what she
- believes to be the right thing. I shall write to her, and you
- can see her when she returns from Italy."
-
- "I want very much to meet her. She is, I hope, quite
- recovered in every way," queried MacMaster, hesitatingly.
-
- "No, I can't say that she is. She has remained in much the
- same condition she sank to before his death. He trampled over
- pretty much whatever there was in her, I fancy. Women don't
- recover from wounds of that sort--at least, not women of Ellen's
- grain. They go on bleeding inwardly."
-
- "You, at any rate, have not grown more reconciled," MacMaster
- ventured.
-
- "Oh I give him his dues. He was a colorist, I grant you;
- but that is a vague and unsatisfactory quality to marry to; Lady
- Ellen Treffinger found it so."
-
- "But, my dear Lady Mary," expostulated MacMaster, "and just
- repress me if I'm becoming too personal--but it must, in the
- first place, have been a marriage of choice on her part as well
- as on his."
-
- Lady Mary poised her glasses on her large forefinger and
- assumed an attitude suggestive of the clinical lecture room as
- she replied. "Ellen, my dear boy, is an essentially
- romantic person. She is quiet about it, but she runs deep. I
- never knew how deep until I came against her on the issue of that
- marriage. She was always discontented as a girl; she found
- things dull and prosaic, and the ardor of his courtship was
- agreeable to her. He met her during her first season in town.
- She is handsome, and there were plenty of other men, but I grant
- you your scowling brigand was the most picturesque of the lot.
- In his courtship, as in everything else, he was theatrical to the
- point of being ridiculous, but Ellen's sense of humor is not her
- strongest quality. He had the charm of celebrity, the air of a
- man who could storm his way through anything to get what he
- wanted. That sort of vehemence is particularly effective with
- women like Ellen, who can be warmed only by reflected heat, and
- she couldn't at all stand out against it. He convinced her of his
- necessity; and that done, all's done."
-
- "I can't help thinking that, even on such a basis, the marriage
- should have turned out better," MacMaster remarked reflectively.
-
- "The marriage," Lady Mary continued with a shrug, "was made
- on the basis of a mutual misunderstanding. Ellen, in the nature
- of the case, believed that she was doing something quite out of
- the ordinary in accepting him, and expected concessions which,
- apparently, it never occurred to him to make. After his marriage
- he relapsed into his old habits of incessant work, broken by
- violent and often brutal relaxations. He insulted her friends
- and foisted his own upon her--many of them well calculated to
- arouse aversion in any well-bred girl. He had Ghillini
- constantly at the house--a homeless vagabond, whose conversation
- was impossible. I don't say, mind you, that he had not
- grievances on his side. He had probably overrated the girl's
- possibilities, and he let her see that he was disappointed in
- her. Only a large and generous nature could have borne with him,
- and Ellen's is not that. She could not at all understand that
- odious strain of plebeian pride which plumes itself upon not
- having risen above its sources.
-
- As MacMaster drove back to his hotel he reflected that Lady
- Mary Percy had probably had good cause for dissatisfaction
- with her brother-in-law. Treffinger was, indeed, the last man who
- should have married into the Percy family. The son of a small
- tobacconist, he had grown up a sign-painter's apprentice; idle,
- lawless, and practically letterless until he had drifted into the
- night classes of the Albert League, where Ghillini sometimes
- lectured. From the moment he came under the eye and influence of
- that erratic Italian, then a political exile, his life had swerved
- sharply from its old channel. This man had been at once incentive
- and guide, friend and master, to his pupil. He had taken the raw
- clay out of the London streets and molded it anew. Seemingly he
- had divined at once where the boy's possibilities lay, and had
- thrown aside every canon of orthodox instruction in the training of
- him. Under him Treffinger acquired his superficial, yet facile,
- knowledge of the classics; had steeped himself in the monkish Latin
- and medieval romances which later gave his work so naive and remote
- a quality. That was the beginning of the wattle fences, the cobble
- pave, the brown roof beams, the cunningly wrought fabrics that gave
- to his pictures such a richness of decorative effect.
-
- As he had told Lady Mary Percy, MacMaster had found the imperative
- inspiration of his purpose in Treffinger's unfinished picture, the
- <i>Marriage of Phaedra</i>. He had always believed that the key to
- Treffinger's individuality lay in his singular education; in the
- <i>Roman de la Rose</i>, in Boccaccio, and Amadis, those works
- which had literally transcribed themselves upon the blank soul of
- the London street boy, and through which he had been born into the
- world of spiritual things. Treffinger had been a man who lived
- after his imagination; and his mind, his ideals and, as MacMaster
- believed, even his personal ethics, had to the last been colored by
- the trend of his early training. There was in him alike the
- freshness and spontaneity, the frank brutality and the religious
- mysticism, which lay well back of the fifteenth century. In the
- <i>Marriage of Phaedra</i> MacMaster found the ultimate expression
- of this spirit, the final word as to Treffinger's point of view.
-
- As in all Treffinger's classical subjects, the conception
- was wholly medieval. This Phaedra, just turning from her husband
- and maidens to greet her husband's son, giving him her
- first fearsome glance from under her half-lifted veil, was no
- daughter of Minos. The daughter of <i>heathenesse</i> and the
- early church she was; doomed to torturing visions and scourgings,
- and the wrangling of soul with flesh. The venerable Theseus
- might have been victorious Charlemagne, and Phaedra's maidens
- belonged rather in the train of Blanche of Castile than at the
- Cretan court. In the earlier studies Hippolytus had been done
- with a more pagan suggestion; but in each successive drawing the
- glorious figure bad been deflowered of something of its serene
- unconsciousness, until, in the canvas under the skylight, he
- appeared a very Christian knight. This male figure, and the face
- of Phaedra, painted with such magical preservation of tone under
- the heavy shadow of the veil, were plainly Treffinger's highest
- achievements of craftsmanship. By what labor he had reached the
- seemingly inevitable composition of the picture--with its twenty
- figures, its plenitude of light and air, its restful distances
- seen through white porticoes--countless studies bore witness.
-
- From James's attitude toward the picture MacMaster could
- well conjecture what the painter's had been. This picture was
- always uppermost in James's mind; its custodianship formed, in
- his eyes, his occupation. He was manifestly apprehensive when
- visitors--not many came nowadays--lingered near it. "It was the
- <i>Marriage</i> as killed 'im," he would often say, "and for the
- matter 'o that, it did like to 'av been the death of all of us."
-
- By the end of his second week in London MacMaster had begun the
- notes for his study of Hugh Treffinger and his work. When his
- researches led him occasionally to visit the studios of
- Treffinger's friends and erstwhile disciples, he found their
- Treffinger manner fading as the ring of Treffinger's personality
- died out in them. One by one they were stealing back into the
- fold of national British art; the hand that had wound them up was
- still. MacMaster despaired of them and confined himself more and
- more exclusively to the studio, to such of Treffinger's letters
- as were available--they were for the most part singularly negative
- and colorless--and to his interrogation of Treffinger's man.
-
- He could not himself have traced the successive steps
- by which he was gradually admitted into James's confidence.
- Certainly most of his adroit strategies to that end failed
- humiliatingly, and whatever it was that built up an understanding
- between them must have been instinctive and intuitive on both
- sides. When at last James became anecdotal, personal, there was
- that in every word he let fall which put breath and blood into
- MacMaster's book. James had so long been steeped in that
- penetrating personality that he fairly exuded it. Many of his
- very phrases, mannerisms, and opinions were impressions that he
- had taken on like wet plaster in his daily contact with
- Treffinger. Inwardly he was lined with cast-off epitheliums, as
- outwardly he was clad in the painter's discarded coats. If the
- painter's letters were formal and perfunctory, if his expressions
- to his friends had been extravagant, contradictory, and often
- apparently insincere--still, MacMaster felt himself not entirely
- without authentic sources. It was James who possessed
- Treffinger's legend; it was with James that he had laid aside his
- pose. Only in his studio, alone, and face to face with his work,
- as it seemed, had the man invariably been himself. James had
- known him in the one attitude in which he was entirely honest;
- their relation had fallen well within the painter's only
- indubitable integrity. James's report of Treffinger was
- distorted by no hallucination of artistic insight, colored by no
- interpretation of his own. He merely held what he had heard and
- seen; his mind was a sort of camera obscura. His very
- limitations made him the more literal and minutely accurate.
-
- One morning, when MacMaster was seated before the <i>Marriage
- of Phaedra</i>, James entered on his usual round of dusting.
-
- "I've 'eard from Lydy Elling by the post, sir," he remarked,
- "an' she's give h'orders to 'ave the 'ouse put in readiness. I
- doubt she'll be 'ere by Thursday or Friday next."
-
- "She spends most of her time abroad?" queried MacMaster; on
- the subject of Lady Treffinger James consistently maintained a
- very delicate reserve.
-
- "Well, you could 'ardly say she does that, sir. She finds
- the 'ouse a bit dull, I daresay, so durin' the season she stops
- mostly with Lydy Mary Percy, at Grosvenor Square. Lydy
- Mary's a h'only sister." After a few moments he continued,
- speaking in jerks governed by the rigor of his dusting: "H'only
- this morning I come upon this scarfpin," exhibiting a very
- striking instance of that article, "an' I recalled as 'ow Sir
- 'Ugh give it me when 'e was acourting of Lydy Elling. Blowed if
- I ever see a man go in for a 'oman like 'im! 'E was that gone,
- sir. 'E never went in on anythink so 'ard before nor since,
- till 'e went in on the <i>Marriage</i> there--though 'e mostly
- went in on things pretty keen; 'ad the measles when 'e was
- thirty, strong as cholera, an' come close to dyin' of 'em.
- 'E wasn't strong for Lydy Elling's set; they was a bit too stiff
- for 'im. A free an' easy gentleman, 'e was; 'e liked 'is dinner
- with a few friends an' them jolly, but 'e wasn't much on what you
- might call big affairs. But once 'e went in for Lydy Elling 'e
- broke 'imself to new paces; He give away 'is rings an' pins, an'
- the tylor's man an' the 'aberdasher's man was at 'is rooms
- continual. 'E got 'imself put up for a club in Piccadilly; 'e
- starved 'imself thin, an' worrited 'imself white, an' ironed
- 'imself out, an' drawed 'imself tight as a bow string. It was a
- good job 'e come a winner, or I don't know w'at'd 'a been to
- pay."
-
- The next week, in consequence of an invitation from Lady
- Ellen Treffinger, MacMaster went one afternoon to take tea with
- her. He was shown into the garden that lay between the residence
- and the studio, where the tea table was set under a gnarled pear
- tree. Lady Ellen rose as he approached--he was astonished to
- note how tall she was-and greeted him graciously, saying that she
- already knew him through her sister. MacMaster felt a certain
- satisfaction in her; in her reassuring poise and repose, in the
- charming modulations of her voice and the indolent reserve of her
- full, almond eyes. He was even delighted to find her face so
- inscrutable, though it chilled his own warmth and made the open
- frankness he had wished to permit himself impossible. It was a
- long face, narrow at the chin, very delicately featured, yet
- steeled by an impassive mask of self-control. It was behind just
- such finely cut, close-sealed faces, MacMaster reflected, that
- nature sometimes hid astonishing secrets. But in spite of this
- suggestion of hardness he felt that the unerring taste that
- Treffinger had always shown in larger matters had not deserted
- him when he came to the choosing of a wife, and he admitted that
- he could not himself have selected a woman who looked more as
- Treffinger's wife should look.
-
- While he was explaining the purpose of his frequent visits
- to the studio she heard him with courteous interest. "I have
- read, I think, everything that has been published on Sir Hugh
- Treffinger's work, and it seems to me that there is much left to
- be said," he concluded.
-
- "I believe they are rather inadequate," she remarked vaguely. She
- hesitated a moment, absently fingering the ribbons of her gown,
- then continued, without raising her eyes; "I hope you will not
- think me too exacting if I ask to see the proofs of such chapters
- of your work as have to do with Sir Hugh's personal life. I have
- always asked that privilege."
-
- MacMaster hastily assured her as to this, adding, "I mean to touch
- on only such facts in his personal life as have to do directly with
- his work--such as his monkish education under Ghillini."
-
- "I see your meaning, I think," said Lady Ellen, looking at
- him with wide, uncomprehending eyes.
-
- When MacMaster stopped at the studio on leaving the house he
- stood for some time before Treffinger's one portrait of himself,
- that brigand of a picture, with its full throat and square head;
- the short upper lip blackened by the close-clipped mustache, the
- wiry hair tossed down over the forehead, the strong white teeth
- set hard on a short pipestem. He could well understand what
- manifold tortures the mere grain of the man's strong red and
- brown flesh might have inflicted upon a woman like Lady Ellen.
- He could conjecture, too, Treffinger's impotent revolt against
- that very repose which had so dazzled him when it first defied
- his daring; and how once possessed of it, his first instinct had
- been to crush it, since he could not melt it.
-
- Toward the close of the season Lady Ellen Treffinger left
- town. MacMaster's work was progressing rapidly, and he and James
- wore away the days in their peculiar relation, which by this time
- had much of friendliness. Excepting for the regular visits of a
- Jewish picture dealer, there were few intrusions upon their
- solitude. Occasionally a party of Americans rang at the
- little door in the garden wall, but usually they departed speedily
- for the Moorish hall and tinkling fountain of the great show
- studio of London, not far away.
-
- This Jew, an Austrian by birth, who had a large business in
- Melbourne, Australia, was a man of considerable discrimination,
- and at once selected the <i>Marriage of Phaedra</i> as the object
- of his especial interest. When, upon his first visit, Lichtenstein
- had declared the picture one of the things done for time, MacMaster
- had rather warmed toward him and had talked to him very freely.
- Later, however, the man's repulsive personality and innate
- vulgarity so wore upon him that, the more genuine the Jew's
- appreciation, the more he resented it and the more base he somehow
- felt it to be. It annoyed him to see Lichtenstein walking up and
- down before the picture, shaking his head and blinking his watery
- eyes over his nose glasses, ejaculating: "Dot is a chem, a chem!
- It is wordt to gome den dousant miles for such a bainting, eh? To
- make Eurobe abbreciate such a work of ardt it is necessary to take
- it away while she is napping. She has never abbreciated until she
- has lost, but," knowingly, "she will buy back."
-
- James had, from the first, felt such a distrust of the man
- that he would never leave him alone in the studio for a moment.
- When Lichtenstein insisted upon having Lady Ellen Treffinger's
- address James rose to the point of insolence. "It ayn't no use
- to give it, noway. Lydy Treffinger never has nothink to do with
- dealers." MacMaster quietly repented his rash confidences,
- fearing that he might indirectly cause Lady Ellen annoyance from
- this merciless speculator, and he recalled with chagrin that
- Lichtenstein had extorted from him, little by little, pretty much
- the entire plan of his book, and especially the place in it which
- the <i>Marriage of Phaedra</i> was to occupy.
-
- By this time the first chapters of MacMaster's book were in
- the hands of his publisher, and his visits to the studio were
- necessarily less frequent. The greater part of his time was now
- employed with the engravers who were to reproduce such of
- Treffinger's pictures as he intended to use as illustrations.
-
- He returned to his hotel late one evening after a long
- and vexing day at the engravers to find James in his room, seated
- on his steamer trunk by the window, with the outline of a great
- square draped in sheets resting against his knee.
-
- "Why, James, what's up?" he cried in astonishment, glancing
- inquiringly at the sheeted object.
-
- "Ayn't you seen the pypers, sir?" jerked out the man.
-
- "No, now I think of it, I haven't even looked at a paper. I've
- been at the engravers' plant all day. I haven't seen anything."
-
- James drew a copy of the <i>Times</i> from his pocket and handed it
- to him, pointing with a tragic finger to a paragraph in the
- social column. It was merely the announcement of Lady Ellen
- Treffinger's engagement to Captain Alexander Gresham.
-
- "Well, what of it, my man? That surely is her privilege."
-
- James took the paper, turned to another page, and silently pointed
- to a paragraph in the art notes which stated that Lady Treffinger
- had presented to the X--gallery the entire collection of paintings
- and sketches now in her late husband's studio, with the exception
- of his unfinished picture, the <i>Marriage Of Phaedra</i>, which
- she had sold for a large sum to an Australian dealer who had come
- to London purposely to secure some of Treffinger's paintings.
-
- MacMaster pursed up his lips and sat down, his overcoat
- still on. "Well, James, this is something of a--something of a
- jolt, eh? It never occurred to me she'd really do it."
-
- "Lord, you don't know 'er, sir," said James bitterly, still
- staring at the floor in an attitude of abandoned dejection.
-
- MacMaster started up in a flash of enlightenment, "What on
- earth have you got there, James? It's not-surely it's not--"
-
- Yes, it is, sir," broke in the man excitedly. "It's the
- <i>Marriage</i> itself. It ayn't agoing to H'Australia, no'ow!"
-
- "But man, what are you going to do with it? It's
- Lichtenstein's property now, as it seems."
-
- It ayn't, sir, that it ayn't. No, by Gawd, it ayn't!"
- shouted James, breaking into a choking fury. He controlled
- himself with an effort and added supplicatingly: "Oh, sir, you
- ayn't agoing to see it go to H'Australia, w'ere they send
- convic's?" He unpinned and flung aside the sheets as though to
- let <i>Phaedra</i> plead for herself.
-
- MacMaster sat down again and looked sadly at the doomed
- masterpiece. The notion of James having carried it across London
- that night rather appealed to his fancy. There was certainly a
- flavor about such a highhanded proceeding. "However did you get
- it here?" he queried.
-
- "I got a four-wheeler and come over direct, sir. Good job I
- 'appened to 'ave the chaynge about me."
-
- "You came up High Street, up Piccadilly, through the
- Haymarket and Trafalgar Square, and into the Strand?" queried
- MacMaster with a relish.
-
- "Yes, sir. Of course, sir, " assented James with surprise.
-
- MacMaster laughed delightedly. "It was a beautiful idea,
- James, but I'm afraid we can't carry it any further."
-
- "I was thinkin' as 'ow it would be a rare chance to get you to take
- the <i>Marriage</i> over to Paris for a year or two, sir, until the
- thing blows over?" suggested James blandly.
-
- "I'm afraid that's out of the question, James. I haven't
- the right stuff in me for a pirate, or even a vulgar smuggler,
- I'm afraid." MacMaster found it surprisingly difficult to say
- this, and he busied himself with the lamp as he said it. He heard
- James's hand fall heavily on the trunk top, and he discovered
- that he very much disliked sinking in the man's estimation.
-
- "Well, sir," remarked James in a more formal tone, after a
- protracted silence; "then there's nothink for it but as 'ow I'll
- 'ave to make way with it myself."
-
- "And how about your character, James? The evidence would be
- heavy against you, and even if Lady Treffinger didn't prosecute
- you'd be done for."
-
- "Blow my character!--your pardon, sir," cried James, starting to
- his feet. "W'at do I want of a character? I'll chuck the 'ole
- thing, and damned lively, too. The shop's to be sold out, an' my
- place is gone any'ow. I'm agoing to enlist, or try the gold
- fields. I've lived too long with h'artists; I'd never give
- satisfaction in livery now. You know 'ow it is yourself, sir;
- there ayn't no life like it, no'ow."
-
- For a moment MacMaster was almost equal to abetting James in
- his theft. He reflected that pictures had been whitewashed, or
- hidden in the crypts of churches, or under the floors of palaces
- from meaner motives, and to save them from a fate less
- ignominious. But presently, with a sigh, he shook his head.
-
- "No, James, it won't do at all. It has been tried over and
- over again, ever since the world has been agoing and pictures
- amaking. It was tried in Florence and in Venice, but the
- pictures were always carried away in the end. You see, the
- difficulty is that although Treffinger told you what was not to
- be done with the picture, he did not say definitely what was to
- be done with it. Do you think Lady Treffinger really understands
- that he did not want it to be sold?"
-
- "Well, sir, it was like this, sir," said James, resuming his seat
- on the trunk and again resting the picture against his knee. "My
- memory is as clear as glass about it. After Sir 'Ugh got up from
- 'is first stroke, 'e took a fresh start at the <i>Marriage</i>.
- Before that 'e 'ad been working at it only at night for a while
- back; the <i>Legend</i> was the big picture then, an' was under the
- north light w'ere 'e worked of a morning. But one day 'e bid me
- take the <i>Legend</i> down an' put the <i>Marriage</i> in its
- place, an' 'e says, dashin' on 'is jacket, 'Jymes, this is a start
- for the finish, this time.'
-
- "From that on 'e worked at the night picture in the mornin'--a
- thing contrary to 'is custom. The <i>Marriage</i> went wrong, and
- wrong--an' Sir 'Ugh agettin' seedier an' seedier every day. 'E
- tried models an' models, an' smudged an' pynted out on account of
- 'er face goin' wrong in the shadow. Sometimes 'e layed it on the
- colors, an' swore at me an' things in general. He got that
- discouraged about 'imself that on 'is low days 'e used to say to
- me: 'Jymes, remember one thing; if anythink 'appens to me, the
- <i>Marriage</i> is not to go out of 'ere unfinished. It's worth
- the lot of 'em, my boy, an' it's not agoing to go shabby for lack
- of pains.' 'E said things to that effect repeated.
-
- "He was workin' at the picture the last day, before 'e went
- to 'is club. 'E kept the carriage waitin' near an hour while 'e
- put on a stroke an' then drawed back for to look at it, an' then
- put on another, careful like. After 'e 'ad 'is gloves on,
- 'e come back an' took away the brushes I was startin' to clean, an'
- put in another touch or two. 'It's acomin', Jymes,' 'e says, 'by
- gad if it ayn't.' An' with that 'e goes out. It was cruel sudden,
- w'at come after.
-
- "That night I was lookin' to 'is clothes at the 'ouse when
- they brought 'im 'ome. He was conscious, but w'en I ran
- downstairs for to 'elp lift 'im up, I knowed 'e was a finished
- man. After we got 'im into bed 'e kept lookin' restless at me
- and then at Lydy Elling and ajerkin' of 'is 'and. Finally 'e
- quite raised it an' shot 'is thumb out toward the wall. 'He
- wants water; ring, Jymes,' says Lydy Elling, placid. But I
- knowed 'e was pointin' to the shop.
-
- "'Lydy Treffinger,' says I, bold, 'he's pointin' to the studio. He
- means about the <i>Marriage</i>; 'e told me today as 'ow 'e never
- wanted it sold unfinished. Is that it, Sir 'Ugh?'
-
- "He smiled an' nodded slight an' closed 'is eyes. 'Thank
- you, Jymes,' says Lydy Elling, placid. Then 'e opened 'is eyes
- an' looked long and 'ard at Lydy Elling.
-
- "'Of course I'll try to do as you'd wish about the picture,
- 'Ugh, if that's w'at's troublin' you,' she says quiet. With that
- 'e closed 'is eyes and 'e never opened 'em. He died unconscious
- at four that mornin'.
-
- "You see, sir, Lydy Elling was always cruel 'ard on the
- <i>Marriage</i>. From the first it went wrong, an' Sir 'Ugh was
- out of temper pretty constant. She came into the studio one day
- and looked at the picture an 'asked 'im why 'e didn't throw it up
- an' quit aworriting 'imself. He answered sharp, an' with that she
- said as 'ow she didn't see w'at there was to make such a row
- about, no'ow. She spoke 'er mind about that picture, free; an'
- Sir 'Ugh swore 'ot an' let a 'andful of brushes fly at 'is study,
- an' Lydy Elling picked up 'er skirts careful an' chill, an'
- drifted out of the studio with 'er eyes calm and 'er chin 'igh.
- If there was one thing Lydy Elling 'ad no comprehension of, it
- was the usefulness of swearin'. So the <i>Marriage</i> was a sore
- thing between 'em. She is uncommon calm, but uncommon bitter, is
- Lydy Elling. She's never come anear the studio since that day she
- went out 'oldin' up of 'er skirts. W'en 'er friends goes over she
- excuses 'erself along o' the strain. Strain--Gawd!" James ground
- his wrath short in his teeth.
-
- "I'll tell you what I'll do, James, and it's our only hope. I'll
- see Lady Ellen tomorrow. The <i>Times</i> says she returned today.
- You take the picture back to its place, and I'll do what I can
- for it. If anything is done to save it, it must be done through
- Lady Ellen Treffinger herself, that much is clear. I can't think
- that she fully understands the situation. If she did, you know,
- she really couldn't have any motive--" He stopped suddenly.
- Somehow, in the dusky lamplight, her small, close-sealed face
- came ominously back to him. He rubbed his forehead and knitted
- his brows thoughtfully. After a moment he shook his head and
- went on: "I am positive that nothing can be gained by highhanded
- methods, James. Captain Gresham is one of the most popular men
- in London, and his friends would tear up Treffinger's bones if he
- were annoyed by any scandal of our making--and this scheme you
- propose would inevitably result in scandal. Lady Ellen has, of
- course, every legal right to sell the picture. Treffinger made
- considerable inroads upon her estate, and, as she is about to
- marry a man without income, she doubtless feels that she has a
- right to replenish her patrimony."
-
- He found James amenable, though doggedly skeptical. He went
- down into the street, called a carriage, and saw James and his
- burden into it. Standing in the doorway, he watched the carriage
- roll away through the drizzling mist, weave in and out among the
- wet, black vehicles and darting cab lights, until it was
- swallowed up in the glare and confusion of the Strand. "It is
- rather a fine touch of irony," he reflected, "that he, who is so
- out of it, should be the one to really care. Poor Treffinger,"
- he murmured as, with a rather spiritless smile, he turned back
- into his hotel. "Poor Treffinger; <i>sic transit gloria</i>."
-
- The next afternoon MacMaster kept his promise. When he
- arrived at Lady Mary Percy's house he saw preparations for a
- function of some sort, but he went resolutely up the steps,
- telling the footman that his business was urgent. Lady Ellen
- came down alone, excusing her sister. She was dressed for
- receiving, and MacMaster had never seen one so beautiful.
- The color in her cheeks sent a softening glow over her small,
- delicately cut features.
-
- MacMaster apologized for his intrusion and came unflinchingly
- to the object of his call. He had come, he said, not only to offer
- her his warmest congratulations, but to express his regret that a
- great work of art was to leave England.
-
- Lady Treffinger looked at him in wide-eyed astonishment.
- Surely, she said, she had been careful to select the best of the
- pictures for the X--- gallery, in accordance with Sir Hugh
- Treffinger's wishes.
-
- "And did he--pardon me, Lady Treffinger, but in mercy set my
- mind at rest--did he or did he not express any definite wish
- concerning this one picture, which to me seems worth all the
- others, unfinished as it is?"
-
- Lady Treffinger paled perceptibly, but it was not the pallor
- of confusion. When she spoke there was a sharp tremor in her
- smooth voice, the edge of a resentment that tore her like pain.
- "I think his man has some such impression, but I believe it to be
- utterly unfounded. I cannot find that he ever expressed any wish
- concerning the disposition of the picture to any of his friends.
- Unfortunately, Sir Hugh was not always discreet in his remarks to
- his servants."
-
- "Captain Gresham, Lady Ellingham, and Miss Ellingham,"
- announced a servant, appearing at the door.
-
- There was a murmur in the hall, and MacMaster greeted the
- smiling Captain and his aunt as he bowed himself out.
-
- To all intents and purposes the <i>Marriage of Phaedra</i> was
- already entombed in a vague continent in the Pacific, somewhere
- on the other side of the world.
-
-
-
-
- A Wagner Matinee
-
- I received one morning a letter, written in pale ink on
- glassy, blue-lined notepaper, and bearing the postmark of a
- little Nebraska village. This communication, worn and rubbed,
- looking as though it had been carried for some days in a coat
- pocket that was none too clean, was from my Uncle Howard and
- informed me that his wife had been left a small legacy by a
- bachelor relative who had recently died, and that it would be
- necessary for her to go to Boston to attend to the settling of
- the estate. He requested me to meet her at the station and
- render her whatever services might be necessary. On examining
- the date indicated as that of her arrival I found it no later
- than tomorrow. He had characteristically delayed writing until,
- had I been away from home for a day, I must have missed the good
- woman altogether.
-
- The name of my Aunt Georgiana called up not alone her own
- figure, at once pathetic and grotesque, but opened before my feet
- a gulf of recollection so wide and deep that, as the letter
- dropped from my hand, I felt suddenly a stranger to all the
- present conditions of my existence, wholly ill at ease and out of
- place amid the familiar surroundings of my study. I became, in
- short, the gangling farm boy my aunt had known, scourged with
- chilblains and bashfulness, my hands cracked and sore from the
- corn husking. I felt the knuckles of my thumb tentatively, as
- though they were raw again. I sat again before her parlor organ,
- fumbling the scales with my stiff, red hands, while she, beside
- me, made canvas mittens for the huskers.
-
- The next morning, after preparing my landlady somewhat, I
- set out for the station. When the train arrived I had some
- difficulty in finding my aunt. She was the last of
- the passengers to alight, and it was not until I got her into the
- carriage that she seemed really to recognize me. She had come
- all the way in a day coach; her linen duster had become black
- with soot, and her black bonnet gray with dust, during the
- journey. When we arrived at my boardinghouse the landlady put
- her to bed at once and I did not see her again until the next
- morning.
-
- Whatever shock Mrs. Springer experienced at my aunt's
- appearance she considerately concealed. As for myself, I saw my
- aunt's misshapen figure with that feeling of awe and respect with
- which we behold explorers who have left their ears and fingers
- north of Franz Josef Land, or their health somewhere along the
- Upper Congo. My Aunt Georgiana had been a music teacher at the
- Boston Conservatory, somewhere back in the latter sixties. One
- summer, while visiting in the little village among the Green
- Mountains where her ancestors had dwelt for generations, she had
- kindled the callow fancy of the most idle and shiftless of all
- the village lads, and had conceived for this Howard Carpenter one
- of those extravagant passions which a handsome country boy of
- twenty-one sometimes inspires in an angular, spectacled woman of
- thirty. When she returned to her duties in Boston, Howard
- followed her, and the upshot of this inexplicable infatuation was
- that she eloped with him, eluding the reproaches of her family
- and the criticisms of her friends by going with him to the
- Nebraska frontier. Carpenter, who, of course, had no money, had
- taken a homestead in Red Willow County, fifty miles from the
- railroad. There they had measured off their quarter section
- themselves by driving across the prairie in a wagon, to the wheel
- of which they had tied a red cotton handkerchief, and counting
- off its revolutions. They built a dugout in the red hillside,
- one of those cave dwellings whose inmates so often reverted to
- primitive conditions. Their water they got from the lagoons
- where the buffalo drank, and their slender stock of provisions
- was always at the mercy of bands of roving Indians. For thirty
- years my aunt had not been further than fifty miles from the
- homestead.
-
- But Mrs. Springer knew nothing of all this, and must have
- been considerably shocked at what was left of my kinswoman.
- Beneath the soiled linen duster which, on her arrival, was the most
- conspicuous feature of her costume, she wore a black stuff dress,
- whose ornamentation showed that she had surrendered herself
- unquestioningly into the hands of a country dressmaker. My poor
- aunt's figure, however, would have presented astonishing
- difficulties to any dressmaker. Originally stooped, her shoulders
- were now almost bent together over her sunken chest. She wore no
- stays, and her gown, which trailed unevenly behind, rose in a sort
- of peak over her abdomen. She wore ill-fitting false teeth, and
- her skin was as yellow as a Mongolian's from constant exposure to
- a pitiless wind and to the alkaline water which hardens the most
- transparent cuticle into a sort of flexible leather.
-
- I owed to this woman most of the good that ever came my way
- in my boyhood, and had a reverential affection for her. During
- the years when I was riding herd for my uncle, my aunt, after
- cooking the three meals--the first of which was ready at six
- o'clock in the morning-and putting the six children to bed, would
- often stand until midnight at her ironing board, with me at the
- kitchen table beside her, hearing me recite Latin declensions and
- conjugations, gently shaking me when my drowsy head sank down
- over a page of irregular verbs. It was to her, at her ironing or
- mending, that I read my first Shakespeare', and her old textbook
- on mythology was the first that ever came into my empty hands.
- She taught me my scales and exercises, too--on the little parlor
- organ, which her husband had bought her after fifteen years,
- during which she had not so much as seen any instrument, but an
- accordion that belonged to one of the Norwegian farmhands. She
- would sit beside me by the hour, darning and counting while I
- struggled with the "Joyous Farmer," but she seldom talked to me
- about music, and I understood why. She was a pious woman; she
- had the consolations of religion and, to her at least, her
- martyrdom was not wholly sordid. Once when I had been doggedly
- beating out some easy passages from an old score of
- <i>Euryanthe</i> I had found among her music books, she came up to
- me and, putting her hands over my eyes, gently drew my head back
- upon her shoulder, saying tremulously, "Don't love it so well,
- Clark, or it may be taken from you. Oh, dear boy, pray that
- whatever your sacrifice may be, it be not that."
-
- When my aunt appeared on the morning after her arrival she
- was still in a semi-somnambulant state. She seemed not to realize
- that she was in the city where she had spent her youth, the place
- longed for hungrily half a lifetime. She had been so wretchedly
- train-sick throughout the journey that she bad no recollection of
- anything but her discomfort, and, to all intents and purposes,
- there were but a few hours of nightmare between the farm in Red
- Willow County and my study on Newbury Street. I had planned a
- little pleasure for her that afternoon, to repay her for some of
- the glorious moments she had given me when we used to milk
- together in the straw-thatched cowshed and she, because I was
- more than usually tired, or because her husband had spoken
- sharply to me, would tell me of the splendid performance of the
- <i>Huguenots</i> she had seen in Paris, in her youth. At two
- o'clock the Symphony Orchestra was to give a Wagner program, and I
- intended to take my aunt; though, as I conversed with her I grew
- doubtful about her enjoyment of it. Indeed, for her own sake, I
- could only wish her taste for such things quite dead, and the
- long struggle mercifully ended at last. I suggested our visiting
- the Conservatory and the Common before lunch, but she seemed
- altogether too timid to wish to venture out. She questioned me
- absently about various changes in the city, but she was chiefly
- concerned that she had forgotten to leave instructions about
- feeding half-skimmed milk to a certain weakling calf, "old
- Maggie's calf, you know, Clark," she explained, evidently having
- forgotten how long I had been away. She was further troubled
- because she had neglected to tell her daughter about the freshly
- opened kit of mackerel in the cellar, which would spoil if it
- were not used directly.
-
- I asked her whether she had ever heard any of the Wagnerian
- operas and found that she had not, though she was perfectly
- familiar with their respective situations, and had once possessed
- the piano score of <i>The Flying Dutchman</i>. I began to think it
- would have been best to get her back to Red Willow County without
- waking her, and regretted having suggested the concert.
-
- From the time we entered the concert hall, however, she was
- a trifle less passive and inert, and for the first time seemed to
- perceive her surroundings. I had felt some trepidation lest she
- might become aware of the absurdities of her attire, or might
- experience some painful embarrassment at stepping suddenly into
- the world to which she had been dead for a quarter of a century.
- But, again, I found how superficially I had judged her. She sat
- looking about her with eyes as impersonal, almost as stony, as
- those with which the granite Rameses in a museum watches the
- froth and fret that ebbs and flows about his pedestal-separated
- from it by the lonely stretch of centuries. I have seen this
- same aloofness in old miners who drift into the Brown Hotel at
- Denver, their pockets full of bullion, their linen soiled, their
- haggard faces unshaven; standing in the thronged corridors as
- solitary as though they were still in a frozen camp on the Yukon,
- conscious that certain experiences have isolated them from their
- fellows by a gulf no haberdasher could bridge.
-
- We sat at the extreme left of the first balcony, facing the
- arc of our own and the balcony above us, veritable hanging
- gardens, brilliant as tulip beds. The matinee audience was made
- up chiefly of women. One lost the contour of faces and figures--
- indeed, any effect of line whatever-and there was only the color
- of bodices past counting, the shimmer of fabrics soft and firm,
- silky and sheer: red, mauve, pink, blue, lilac, purple, ecru,
- rose, yellow, cream, and white, all the colors that an
- impressionist finds in a sunlit landscape, with here and there
- the dead shadow of a frock coat. My Aunt Georgiana regarded them
- as though they had been so many daubs of tube-paint on a palette.
-
- When the musicians came out and took their places, she gave
- a little stir of anticipation and looked with quickening interest
- down over the rail at that invariable grouping, perhaps the first
- wholly familiar thing that had greeted her eye since she had left
- old Maggie and her weakling calf. I could feel how all those
- details sank into her soul, for I had not forgotten how they had
- sunk into mine when. I came fresh from plowing forever and
- forever between green aisles of corn, where, as in a treadmill,
- one might walk from daybreak to dusk without perceiving a shadow
- of change. The clean profiles of the musicians, the gloss of
- their linen, the dull black of their coats, the beloved shapes of
- the instruments, the patches of yellow light thrown by the green-
- shaded lamps on the smooth, varnished bellies of the cellos and
- the bass viols in the rear, the restless, wind-tossed forest of
- fiddle necks and bows-I recalled how, in the first orchestra I
- had ever heard, those long bow strokes seemed to draw the heart
- out of me, as a conjurer's stick reels out yards of paper ribbon
- from a hat.
-
- The first number was the <i>Tannhauser</i> overture. When the
- horns drew out the first strain of the Pilgrim's chorus my Aunt
- Georgiana clutched my coat sleeve. Then it was I first realized
- that for her this broke a silence of thirty years; the
- inconceivable silence of the plains. With the battle between the
- two motives, with the frenzy of the Venusberg theme and its
- ripping of strings, there came to me an overwhelming sense of the
- waste and wear we are so powerless to combat; and I saw again the
- tall, naked house on the prairie, black and grim as a wooden
- fortress; the black pond where I had learned to swim, its margin
- pitted with sun-dried cattle tracks; the rain-gullied clay banks
- about the naked house, the four dwarf ash seedlings where the
- dishcloths were always hung to dry before the kitchen door. The
- world there was the flat world of the ancients; to the east, a
- cornfield that stretched to daybreak; to the west, a corral that
- reached to sunset; between, the conquests of peace, dearer bought
- than those of war.
-
- The overture closed; my aunt released my coat sleeve, but
- she said nothing. She sat staring at the orchestra through a
- dullness of thirty years, through the films made little by little
- by each of the three hundred and sixty-five days in every one of
- them. What, I wondered, did she get from it? She had been a good
- pianist in her day I knew, and her musical education had been
- broader than that of most music teachers of a quarter of a
- century ago. She had often told me of Mozart's operas and
- Meyerbeer's, and I could remember hearing her sing, years ago,
- certain melodies of Verdi's. When I had fallen ill with a fever
- in her house she used to sit by my cot in the evening--when the
- cool, night wind blew in through the faded mosquito netting
- tacked over the window, and I lay watching a certain bright star
- that burned red above the cornfield--and sing "Home to our
- mountains, O, let us return!" in a way fit to break the heart of
- a Vermont boy near dead of homesickness already.
-
- I watched her closely through the prelude to <i>Tristan and
- Isolde</i>, trying vainly to conjecture what that seething turmoil
- of strings and winds might mean to her, but she sat mutely staring
- at the violin bows that drove obliquely downward, like the
- pelting streaks of rain in a summer shower. Had this music any
- message for her? Had she enough left to at all comprehend this
- power which had kindled the world since she had left it? I was
- in a fever of curiosity, but Aunt Georgiana sat silent upon her
- peak in Darien. She preserved this utter immobility throughout
- the number from <i>The Flying Dutchman</i>, though her fingers
- worked mechanically upon her black dress, as though, of themselves,
- they were recalling the piano score they had once played. Poor old
- hands! They had been stretched and twisted into mere tentacles to
- hold and lift and knead with; the palms unduly swollen, the
- fingers bent and knotted--on one of them a thin, worn band that
- had once been a wedding ring. As I pressed and gently quieted
- one of those groping hands I remembered with quivering eyelids
- their services for me in other days.
-
- Soon after the tenor began the "Prize Song," I heard a quick
- drawn breath and turned to my aunt. Her eyes were closed, but
- the tears were glistening on her cheeks, and I think, in a moment
- more, they were in my eyes as well. It never really died, then--
- the soul that can suffer so excruciatingly and so interminably;
- it withers to the outward eye only; like that strange moss which
- can lie on a dusty shelf half a century and yet, if placed in
- water, grows green again. She wept so throughout the development
- and elaboration of the melody.
-
- During the intermission before the second half of the concert, I
- questioned my aunt and found that the "Prize Song" was not new to
- her. Some years before there had drifted to the farm in Red Willow
- County a young German, a tramp cowpuncher, who had sung the chorus
- at Bayreuth, when he was a boy, along with the other peasant boys
- and girls. Of a Sunday morning he used to sit on his
- gingham-sheeted bed in the hands' bedroom which opened off the
- kitchen, cleaning the leather of his boots and saddle, singing the
- "Prize Song," while my aunt went about her work in the kitchen.
- She had hovered about him until she had prevailed upon him to join
- the country church, though his sole fitness for this step, insofar
- as I could gather, lay in his boyish face and his possession of
- this divine melody. Shortly afterward he had gone to town on the
- Fourth of July, been drunk for several days, lost his money at a
- faro table, ridden a saddled Texan steer on a bet, and disappeared
- with a fractured collarbone. All this my aunt told me huskily,
- wanderingly, as though she were talking in the weak lapses of
- illness.
-
- "Well, we have come to better things than the old <i>Trovatore</i>
- at any rate, Aunt Georgie?" I queried, with a well-meant effort
- at jocularity.
-
- Her lip quivered and she hastily put her handkerchief up to
- her mouth. From behind it she murmured, "And you have been
- hearing this ever since you left me, Clark?" Her question was the
- gentlest and saddest of reproaches.
-
- The second half of the program consisted of four numbers from the
- <i>Ring</i>, and closed with Siegfried's funeral march. My
- aunt wept quietly, but almost continuously, as a shallow vessel
- overflows in a rainstorm. From time to time her dim eyes looked
- up at the lights which studded the ceiling, burning softly under
- their dull glass globes; doubtless they were stars in truth to
- her. I was still perplexed as to what measure of musical
- comprehension was left to her, she who had heard nothing but the
- singing of gospel hymns at Methodist services in the square frame
- schoolhouse on Section Thirteen for so many years. I was wholly
- unable to gauge how much of it had been dissolved in soapsuds, or
- worked into bread, or milked into the bottom of a pail.
-
- The deluge of sound poured on and on; I never knew what she
- found in the shining current of it; I never knew how far it bore
- her, or past what happy islands. From the trembling of her face
- I could well believe that before the last numbers she had been
- carried out where the myriad graves are, into the gray,
- nameless burying grounds of the sea; or into some world of death
- vaster yet, where, from the beginning of the world, hope has lain
- down with hope and dream with dream and, renouncing, slept.
-
- The concert was over; the people filed out of the hall
- chattering and laughing, glad to relax and find the living level
- again, but my kinswoman made no effort to rise. The harpist
- slipped its green felt cover over his instrument; the flute
- players shook the water from their mouthpieces; the men of the
- orchestra went out one by one, leaving the stage to the chairs
- and music stands, empty as a winter cornfield.
-
- I spoke to my aunt. She burst into tears and sobbed pleadingly.
- "I don't want to go, Clark, I don't want to go!"
-
- I understood. For her, just outside the door of the concert
- hall, lay the black pond with the cattle-tracked bluffs; the
- tall, unpainted house, with weather-curled boards; naked as a
- tower, the crook-backed ash seedlings where the dishcloths hung
- to dry; the gaunt, molting turkeys picking up refuse about the
- kitchen door.
-
-
-
-
- Paul's Case
-
- <i>A Study in Temperament</i>
-
- It was Paul's afternoon to appear before the faculty of the
- Pittsburgh High School to account for his various misdemeanors.
- He had been suspended a week ago, and his father had called at
- the Principal's office and confessed his perplexity about his
- son. Paul entered the faculty room suave and smiling. His
- clothes were a trifle outgrown, and the tan velvet on the collar
- of his open overcoat was frayed and worn; but for all that there
- was something of the dandy about him, and he wore an opal pin in
- his neatly knotted black four-in-hand, and a red carnation in his
- buttonhole. This latter adornment the faculty somehow felt was
- not properly significant of the contrite spirit befitting a boy
- under the ban of suspension.
-
- Paul was tall for his age and very thin, with high, cramped
- shoulders and a narrow chest. His eyes were remarkable for a
- certain hysterical brilliancy, and he continually used them in a
- conscious, theatrical sort of way, peculiarly offensive in a boy.
- The pupils were abnormally large, as though he were addicted to
- belladonna, but there was a glassy glitter about them which that
- drug does not produce.
-
- When questioned by the Principal as to why he was there Paul
- stated, politely enough, that he wanted to come back to school.
- This was a lie, but Paul was quite accustomed to lying; found it,
- indeed, indispensable for overcoming friction. His teachers were
- asked to state their respective charges against him, which they
- did with such a rancor and aggrievedness as evinced that this was
- not a usual case, Disorder and impertinence were among the
- offenses named, yet each of his instructors felt that it was
- scarcely possible to put into words the real cause of the trouble,
- which lay in a sort of hysterically defiant manner of the boy's; in
- the contempt which they all knew he felt for them, and which he
- seemingly made not the least effort to conceal. Once, when he
- had been making a synopsis of a paragraph at the blackboard, his
- English teacher had stepped to his side and attempted to guide
- his hand. Paul had started back with a shudder and thrust his
- hands violently behind him. The astonished woman could scarcely
- have been more hurt and embarrassed had he struck at her. The
- insult was so involuntary and definitely personal as to be
- unforgettable. in one way and another he had made all his
- teachers, men and women alike, conscious of the same feeling of
- physical aversion. In one class he habitually sat with his hand
- shading his eyes; in another he always looked out of the window
- during the recitation; in another he made a running commentary on
- the lecture, with humorous intention.
-
- His teachers felt this afternoon that his whole attitude was
- symbolized by his shrug and his flippantly red carnation flower,
- and they fell upon him without mercy, his English teacher leading
- the pack. He stood through it smiling, his pale lips parted over
- his white teeth. (His lips were continually twitching, and be had
- a habit of raising his eyebrows that was contemptuous and
- irritating to the last degree.) Older boys than Paul had broken
- down and shed tears under that baptism of fire, but his set smile
- did not once desert him, and his only sign of discomfort was the
- nervous trembling of the fingers that toyed with the buttons of
- his overcoat, and an occasional jerking of the other hand that
- held his hat. Paul was always smiling, always glancing about
- him, seeming to feel that people might be watching him and trying
- to detect something. This conscious expression, since it was as
- far as possible from boyish mirthfulness, was usually attributed
- to insolence or "smartness."
-
- As the inquisition proceeded one of his instructors repeated
- an impertinent remark of the boy's, and the Principal asked him
- whether he thought that a courteous speech to have made a
- woman. Paul shrugged his shoulders slightly and his eyebrows
- twitched.
-
- "I don't know," he replied. "I didn't mean to be polite or
- impolite, either. I guess it's a sort of way I have of saying
- things regardless."
-
- The Principal, who was a sympathetic man, asked him whether
- he didn't think that a way it would be well to get rid of. Paul
- grinned and said he guessed so. When he was told that he could
- go he bowed gracefully and went out. His bow was but a
- repetition of the scandalous red carnation.
-
- His teachers were in despair, and his drawing master voiced
- the feeling of them all when he declared there was something
- about the boy which none of them understood. He added: "I don't
- really believe that smile of his comes altogether from insolence;
- there's something sort of haunted about it. The boy is not
- strong, for one thing. I happen to know that he was born in
- Colorado, only a few months before his mother died out there of a
- long illness. There is something wrong about the fellow."
-
- The drawing master had come to realize that, in looking at
- Paul, one saw only his white teeth and the forced animation of
- his eyes. One warm afternoon the boy had gone to sleep at his
- drawing board, and his master had noted with amazement what a
- white, blue-veined face it was; drawn and wrinkled like an old
- man's about the eyes, the lips twitching even in his sleep, and
- stiff with a nervous tension that drew them back from his teeth.
-
- His teachers left the building dissatisfied and unhappy;
- humiliated to have felt so vindictive toward a mere boy, to have
- uttered this feeling in cutting terms, and to have set each other
- on, as it were, in the gruesome game of intemperate reproach.
- Some of them remembered having seen a miserable street cat set at
- bay by a ring of tormentors.
-
- As for Paul, he ran down the hill whistling the "Soldiers' Chorus"
- from <i>Faust</i>, looking wildly behind him now and then to see
- whether some of his teachers were not there to writhe under his
- lightheartedness. As it was now late in the afternoon and Paul
- was on duty that evening as usher at Carnegie Hall, he decided
- that he would not go home to supper. When he reached the
- concert hall the doors were not yet open and, as it was chilly
- outside, he decided to go up into the picture gallery--always
- deserted at this hour--where there were some of Raffelli's gay
- studies of Paris streets and an airy blue Venetian scene or two
- that always exhilarated him. He was delighted to find no one in
- the gallery but the old guard, who sat in one corner, a newspaper
- on his knee, a black patch over one eye and the other closed.
- Paul possessed himself of the peace and walked confidently up and
- down, whistling under his breath. After a while he sat down before
- a blue Rico and lost himself. When he bethought him to look at his
- watch, it was after seven o'clock, and he rose with a start and ran
- downstairs, making a face at Augustus, peering out from the cast
- room, and an evil gesture at the Venus de Milo as he passed her on
- the stairway.
-
- When Paul reached the ushers' dressing room half a dozen
- boys were there already, and he began excitedly to tumble into
- his uniform. It was one of the few that at all approached
- fitting, and Paul thought it very becoming-though he knew that
- the tight, straight coat accentuated his narrow chest, about
- which he was exceedingly sensitive. He was always considerably
- excited while be dressed, twanging all over to the tuning of the
- strings and the preliminary flourishes of the horns in the music
- room; but tonight he seemed quite beside himself, and he teased
- and plagued the boys until, telling him that he was crazy, they
- put him down on the floor and sat on him.
-
- Somewhat calmed by his suppression, Paul dashed out to the
- front of the house to seat the early comers. He was a model
- usher; gracious and smiling he ran up and down the aisles;
- nothing was too much trouble for him; he carried messages and
- brought programs as though it were his greatest pleasure in life,
- and all the people in his section thought him a charming boy,
- feeling that he remembered and admired them. As the house
- filled, he grew more and more vivacious and animated, and the
- color came to his cheeks and lips. It was very much as though
- this were a great reception and Paul were the host. just as the
- musicians came out to take their places, his English teacher
- arrived with checks for the seats which a prominent
- manufacturer had taken for the season. She betrayed some
- embarrassment when she handed Paul the tickets, and a hauteur
- which subsequently made her feel very foolish. Paul was
- startled for a moment, and had the feeling of wanting to put her
- out; what business had she here among all these fine people and
- gay colors? He looked her over and decided that she was not
- appropriately dressed and must be a fool to sit downstairs in
- such togs. The tickets had probably been sent her out of
- kindness, he reflected as he put down a seat for her, and she had
- about as much right to sit there as he had.
-
- When the symphony began Paul sank into one of the rear seats
- with a long sigh of relief, and lost himself as he had done
- before the Rico. It was not that symphonies, as such, meant
- anything in particular to Paul, but the first sigh of the
- instruments seemed to free some hilarious and potent spirit
- within him; something that struggled there like the genie in the
- bottle found by the Arab fisherman. He felt a sudden zest of
- life; the lights danced before his eyes and the concert hall
- blazed into unimaginable splendor. When the soprano soloist came
- on Paul forgot even the nastiness of his teacher's being there
- and gave himself up to the peculiar stimulus such personages
- always had for him. The soloist chanced to be a German woman, by
- no means in her first youth, and the mother of many children; but
- she wore an elaborate gown and a tiara, and above all she had
- that indefinable air of achievement, that world-shine upon her,
- which, in Paul's eyes, made her a veritable queen of Romance.
-
- After a concert was over Paul was always irritable and
- wretched until he got to sleep, and tonight he was even more than
- usually restless. He had the feeling of not being able to let
- down, of its being impossible to give up this delicious
- excitement which was the only thing that could be called living
- at all. During the last number he withdrew and, after hastily
- changing his clothes in the dressing room, slipped out to the
- side door where the soprano's carriage stood. Here he began
- pacing rapidly up and down the walk, waiting to see her come out.
-
- Over yonder, the Schenley, in its vacant stretch, loomed big and
- square through the fine rain, the windows of its twelve stories
- glowing like those of a lighted cardboard house under a Christmas
- tree. All the actors and singers of the better class stayed there
- when they were in the city, and a number of the big manufacturers
- of the place lived there in the winter. Paul had often hung about
- the hotel, watching the people go in and out, longing to enter and
- leave schoolmasters and dull care behind him forever.
-
- At last the singer came out, accompanied by the conductor, who
- helped her into her carriage and closed the door with a cordial
- <i>auf wiedersehen</i> which set Paul to wondering whether she
- were not an old sweetheart of his. Paul followed the carriage
- over to the hotel, walking so rapidly as not to be far from the
- entrance when the singer alighted, and disappeared behind the
- swinging glass doors that were opened by a Negro in a tall hat
- and a long coat. In the moment that the door was ajar it seemed
- to Paul that he, too, entered. He seemed to feel himself go
- after her up the steps, into the warm, lighted building, into an
- exotic, tropical world of shiny, glistening surfaces and basking
- ease. He reflected upon the mysterious dishes that were brought
- into the dining room, the green bottles in buckets of ice, as he
- had seen them in the supper party pictures of the <i>Sunday
- World</i> supplement. A quick gust of wind brought the rain down
- with sudden vehemence, and Paul was startled to find that he was
- still outside in the slush of the gravel driveway; that his boots
- were letting in the water and his scanty overcoat was clinging wet
- about him; that the lights in front of the concert hall were out
- and that the rain was driving in sheets between him and the
- orange glow of the windows above him. There it was, what be
- wanted--tangibly before him, like the fairy world of a Christmas
- pantomime--but mocking spirits stood guard at the doors, and, as
- the rain beat in his face, Paul wondered whether he were destined
- always to shiver in the black night outside, looking up at it.
-
- He turned and walked reluctantly toward the car tracks. The
- end had to come sometime; his father in his nightclothes at the
- top of the stairs, explanations that did not explain, hastily
- improvised fictions that were forever tripping him up,
- his upstairs room and its horrible yellow wallpaper, the creaking
- bureau with the greasy plush collarbox, and over his painted
- wooden bed the pictures of George Washington and John Calvin, and
- the framed motto, "Feed my Lambs," which had been worked in red
- worsted by his mother.
-
- Half an hour later Paul alighted from his car and went
- slowly down one of the side streets off the main thoroughfare.
- It was a highly respectable street, where all the houses were
- exactly alike, and where businessmen of moderate means begot and
- reared large families of children, all of whom went to Sabbath
- school and learned the shorter catechism, and were interested in
- arithmetic; all of whom were as exactly alike as their homes, and
- of a piece with the monotony in which they lived. Paul never
- went up Cordelia Street without a shudder of loathing. His home
- was next to the house of the Cumberland minister. He approached
- it tonight with the nerveless sense Of defeat, the hopeless
- feeling of sinking back forever into ugliness and commonness that
- he had always had when he came home. The moment he turned into
- Cordelia Street he felt the waters close above his head. After
- each of these orgies of living he experienced all the physical
- depression which follows a debauch; the loathing of respectable
- beds, of common food, of a house penetrated by kitchen odors; a
- shuddering repulsion for the flavorless, colorless mass of
- everyday existence; a morbid desire for cool things and soft
- lights and fresh flowers.
-
- The nearer he approached the house, the more absolutely
- unequal Paul felt to the sight of it all: his ugly sleeping
- chamber; the cold bathroom with the grimy zinc tub, the cracked
- mirror, the dripping spiggots; his father, at the top of the
- stairs, his hairy legs sticking out from his nightshirt, his feet
- thrust into carpet slippers. He was so much later than usual
- that there would certainly be inquiries and reproaches. Paul
- stopped short before the door. He felt that he could not be
- accosted by his father tonight; that he could not toss again on
- that miserable bed. He would not go in. He would tell his
- father that he had no carfare and it was raining so hard he had
- gone home with one of the boys and stayed all night.
-
- Meanwhile, he was wet and cold. He went around to the back
- of the house and tried one of the basement windows, found it
- open, raised it cautiously, and scrambled down the cellar wall to
- the floor. There he stood, holding his breath, terrified by the
- noise he had made, but the floor above him was silent, and there
- was no creak on the stairs. He found a soapbox, and carried it
- over to the soft ring of light that streamed from the furnace
- door, and sat down. He was horribly afraid of rats, so he did
- not try to sleep, but sat looking distrustfully at the dark,
- still terrified lest he might have awakened his father. In such
- reactions, after one of the experiences which made days and
- nights out of the dreary blanks of the calendar, when his senses
- were deadened, Paul's head was always singularly clear. Suppose
- his father had heard him getting in at the window and had come
- down and shot him for a burglar? Then, again, suppose his father
- had come down, pistol in hand, and he had cried out in time to
- save himself, and his father had been horrified to think how
- nearly he had killed him? Then, again, suppose a day should come
- when his father would remember that night, and wish there had
- been no warning cry to stay his hand? With this last supposition
- Paul entertained himself until daybreak.
-
- The following Sunday was fine; the sodden November chill was
- broken by the last flash of autumnal summer. In the morning Paul
- had to go to church and Sabbath school, as always. On seasonable
- Sunday afternoons the burghers of Cordelia Street always sat out
- on their front stoops and talked to their neighbors on the next
- stoop, or called to those across the street in neighborly
- fashion. The men usually sat on gay cushions placed upon the
- steps that led down to the sidewalk, while the women, in their
- Sunday "waists," sat in rockers on the cramped porches, pretending
- to be greatly at their ease. The children played in the
- streets; there were so many of them that the place resembled the
- recreation grounds of a kindergarten. The men on the steps--all
- in their shirt sleeves, their vests unbuttoned--sat with their
- legs well apart, their stomachs comfortably protruding, and
- talked of the prices of things, or told anecdotes of the sagacity
- of their various chiefs and overlords. They occasionally looked
- over the multitude of squabbling children, listened
- affectionately to their high-pitched, nasal voices, smiling to
- see their own proclivities reproduced in their offspring, and
- interspersed their legends of the iron kings with remarks about
- their sons' progress at school, their grades in arithmetic, and
- the amounts they had saved in their toy banks.
-
- On this last Sunday of November Paul sat all the afternoon
- on the lowest step of his stoop, staring into the street, while
- his sisters, in their rockers, were talking to the minister's
- daughters next door about how many shirtwaists they had made in
- the last week, and bow many waffles someone had eaten at the last
- church supper. When the weather was warm, and his father was in
- a particularly jovial frame of mind, the girls made lemonade,
- which was always brought out in a red-glass pitcher, ornamented
- with forget-me-nots in blue enamel. This the girls thought very
- fine, and the neighbors always joked about the suspicious color
- of the pitcher.
-
- Today Paul's father sat on the top step, talking to a young
- man who shifted a restless baby from knee to knee. He happened
- to be the young man who was daily held up to Paul as a model, and
- after whom it was his father's dearest hope that he would
- pattern. This young man was of a ruddy complexion, with a
- compressed, red mouth, and faded, nearsighted eyes, over which he
- wore thick spectacles, with gold bows that curved about his ears.
- He was clerk to one of the magnates of a great steel corporation,
- and was looked upon in Cordelia Street as a young man with a
- future. There was a story that, some five years ago--he was now
- barely twenty-six--he had been a trifle dissipated, but in order
- to curb his appetites and save the loss of time and strength that
- a sowing of wild oats might have entailed, he had taken his
- chief's advice, oft reiterated to his employees, and at twenty-
- one had married the first woman whom he could persuade to share
- his fortunes. She happened to be an angular schoolmistress, much
- older than he, who also wore thick glasses, and who had now borne
- him four children, all nearsighted, like herself.
-
- The young man was relating how his chief, now cruising in
- the Mediterranean, kept in touch with all the details of
- the business, arranging his office hours on his yacht just as
- though he were at home, and "knocking off work enough to keep two
- stenographers busy." His father told, in turn, the plan his
- corporation was considering, of putting in an electric railway
- plant in Cairo. Paul snapped his teeth; he had an awful
- apprehension that they might spoil it all before he got there.
- Yet he rather liked to hear these legends of the iron kings that
- were told and retold on Sundays and holidays; these stories of
- palaces in Venice, yachts on the Mediterranean, and high play at
- Monte Carlo appealed to his fancy, and he was interested in the
- triumphs of these cash boys who had become famous, though he had
- no mind for the cash-boy stage.
-
- After supper was over and he had helped to dry the dishes,
- Paul nervously asked his father whether he could go to George's
- to get some help in his geometry, and still more nervously asked
- for carfare. This latter request he had to repeat, as his
- father, on principle, did not like to hear requests for money,
- whether much or little. He asked Paul whether he could not go to
- some boy who lived nearer, and told him that he ought not to
- leave his schoolwork until Sunday; but he gave him the dime. He
- was not a poor man, but he had a worthy ambition to come up in
- the world. His only reason for allowing Paul to usher was that
- he thought a boy ought to be earning a little.
-
- Paul bounded upstairs, scrubbed the greasy odor of the
- dishwater from his hands with the ill-smelling soap he hated, and
- then shook over his fingers a few drops of violet water from the
- bottle he kept hidden in his drawer. He left the house with his
- geometry conspicuously under his arm, and the moment he got out
- of Cordelia Street and boarded a downtown car, he shook off the
- lethargy of two deadening days and began to live again.
-
- The leading juvenile of the permanent stock company which played at
- one of the downtown theaters was an acquaintance of Paul's, and the
- boy had been invited to drop in at the Sunday-night rehearsals
- whenever he could. For more than a year Paul had spent every
- available moment loitering about Charley Edwards's dressing room.
- He had won a place among Edwards's following not only because the
- young actor, who could not afford to employ a dresser, often found
- him useful, but because he recognized in Paul something akin to
- what churchmen term "vocation."
-
- It was at the theater and at Carnegie Hall that Paul really
- lived; the rest was but a sleep and a forgetting. This was
- Paul's fairy tale, and it had for him all the allurement of a
- secret love. The moment he inhaled the gassy, painty, dusty odor
- behind the scenes, he breathed like a prisoner set free, and felt
- within him the possibility of doing or saying splendid,
- brilliant, poetic things. The moment the cracked orchestra beat
- out the overture from <i>Martha</i>, or jerked at the serenade from
- <i>Rigoletto</i>, all stupid and ugly things slid from him, and his
- senses were deliciously, yet delicately fired.
-
- Perhaps it was because, in Paul's world, the natural nearly
- always wore the guise of ugliness, that a certain element of
- artificiality seemed to him necessary in beauty. Perhaps it was
- because his experience of life elsewhere was so full of Sabbath-
- school picnics, petty economies, wholesome advice as to how to
- succeed in life, and the inescapable odors of cooking, that he
- found this existence so alluring, these smartly clad men and
- women so attractive, that he was so moved by these starry apple
- orchards that bloomed perennially under the limelight.
-
- It would be difficult to put it strongly enough how
- convincingly the stage entrance of that theater was for Paul the
- actual portal of Romance. Certainly none of the company ever
- suspected it, least of all Charley Edwards. It was very like the
- old stories that used to float about London of fabulously rich
- Jews, who had subterranean halls there, with palms, and
- fountains, and soft lamps and richly appareled women who never
- saw the disenchanting light of London day. So, in the midst of
- that smoke-palled city, enamored of figures and grimy toil, Paul
- had his secret temple, his wishing carpet, his bit of blue-and-
- white Mediterranean shore bathed in perpetual sunshine.
-
- Several of Paul's teachers had a theory that his imagination
- had been perverted by garish fiction, but the truth was that he
- scarcely ever read at all. The books at home were not such as
- would either tempt or corrupt a youthful mind, and as for reading
- the novels that some of his friends urged upon him--well, he got
- what he wanted much more quickly from music; any sort of music,
- from an orchestra to a barrel organ. He needed only the spark, the
- indescribable thrill that made his imagination master of his
- senses, and he could make plots and pictures enough of his own. It
- was equally true that he was not stagestruck-not, at any rate, in
- the usual acceptation of that expression. He had no desire to
- become an actor, any more than he had to become a musician. He
- felt no necessity to do any of these things; what he wanted was
- to see, to be in the atmosphere, float on the wave of it, to be
- carried out, blue league after blue league, away from everything.
-
- After a night behind the scenes Paul found the schoolroom
- more than ever repulsive; the bare floors and naked walls; the
- prosy men who never wore frock coats, or violets in their
- buttonholes; the women with their dull gowns, shrill voices, and
- pitiful seriousness about prepositions that govern the dative.
- He could not bear to have the other pupils think, for a moment,
- that he took these people seriously; he must convey to them that
- he considered it all trivial, and was there only by way of a
- jest, anyway. He had autographed pictures of all the members of
- the stock company which he showed his classmates, telling them
- the most incredible stories of his familiarity with these people,
- of his acquaintance with the soloists who came to Carnegie Hall,
- his suppers with them and the flowers he sent them. When these
- stories lost their effect, and his audience grew listless, he
- became desperate and would bid all the boys good-by, announcing
- that he was going to travel for a while; going to Naples, to
- Venice, to Egypt. Then, next Monday, he would slip back,
- conscious and nervously smiling; his sister was ill, and he
- should have to defer his voyage until spring.
-
- Matters went steadily worse with Paul at school. In the
- itch to let his instructors know how heartily he despised them
- and their homilies, and how thoroughly he was appreciated
- elsewhere, he mentioned once or twice that he had no time to fool
- with theorems; adding--with a twitch of the eyebrows and a touch
- of that nervous bravado which so perplexed them--that he was
- helping the people down at the stock company; they were old
- friends of his.
-
- The upshot of the matter was that the Principal went to
- Paul's father, and Paul was taken out of school and put to work.
- The manager at Carnegie Hall was told to get another usher in his
- stead; the doorkeeper at the theater was warned not to admit him
- to the house; and Charley Edwards remorsefully promised the boy's
- father not to see him again.
-
- The members of the stock company were vastly amused when
- some of Paul's stories reached them--especially the women. They
- were hardworking women, most of them supporting indigent husbands
- or brothers, and they laughed rather bitterly at having stirred
- the boy to such fervid and florid inventions. They agreed with
- the faculty and with his father that Paul's was a bad case.
-
-
- The eastbound train was plowing through a January snowstorm;
- the dull dawn was beginning to show gray when the engine whistled
- a mile out of Newark. Paul started up from the seat where he had
- lain curled in uneasy slumber, rubbed the breath-misted window
- glass with his hand, and peered out. The snow was whirling in
- curling eddies above the white bottom lands, and the drifts lay
- already deep in the fields and along the fences, while here and
- there the long dead grass and dried weed stalks protruded black
- above it. Lights shone from the scattered houses, and a gang of
- laborers who stood beside the track waved their lanterns.
-
- Paul had slept very little, and he felt grimy and uncomfortable.
- He had made the all-night journey in a day coach, partly because he
- was ashamed, dressed as he was, to go into a Pullman, and partly
- because he was afraid of being seen there by some Pittsburgh
- businessman, who might have noticed him in Denny & Carson's office.
- When the whistle awoke him, he clutched quickly at his breast
- pocket, glancing about him with an uncertain smile. But the
- little, clay-bespattered Italians were still sleeping, the
- slatternly women across the aisle were in open-mouthed oblivion,
- and even the crumby, crying babies were for the nonce stilled.
- Paul settled back to struggle with his impatience as best he could.
-
- When he arrived at the Jersey City station he hurried through his
- breakfast, manifestly ill at ease and keeping a sharp eye about
- him. After he reached the Twenty-third Street station, he
- consulted a cabman and had himself driven to a men's-furnishings
- establishment that was just opening for the day. He spent upward
- of two hours there, buying with endless reconsidering and great
- care. His new street suit he put on in the fitting room; the frock
- coat and dress clothes he had bundled into the cab with his linen.
- Then he drove to a hatter's and a shoe house. His next errand was
- at Tiffany's, where he selected his silver and a new scarf pin. He
- would not wait to have his silver marked, he said. Lastly, he
- stopped at a trunk shop on Broadway and had his purchases packed
- into various traveling bags.
-
- It was a little after one o'clock when he drove up to the
- Waldorf, and after settling with the cabman, went into the
- office. He registered from Washington; said his mother and
- father had been abroad, and that he had come down to await the
- arrival of their steamer. He told his story plausibly and had no
- trouble, since he volunteered to pay for them in advance, in
- engaging his rooms; a sleeping room, sitting room, and bath.
-
- Not once, but a hundred times, Paul had planned this entry
- into New York. He had gone over every detail of it with Charley
- Edwards, and in his scrapbook at home there were pages of
- description about New York hotels, cut from the Sunday papers.
- When he was shown to his sitting room on the eighth floor he saw
- at a glance that everything was as it should be; there was but
- one detail in his mental picture that the place did not realize,
- so he rang for the bellboy and sent him down for flowers. He
- moved about nervously until the boy returned, putting away his
- new linen and fingering it delightedly as he did so. When the
- flowers came he put them hastily into water, and then tumbled
- into a hot bath. Presently he came out of his white bathroom,
- resplendent in his new silk underwear, and playing with the
- tassels of his red robe. The snow was whirling so fiercely
- outside his windows that he could scarcely see across the street,
- but within the air was deliciously soft and fragrant. He put the
- violets and jonquils on the taboret beside the couch, and threw
- himself down, with a long sigh, covering himself with a Roman
- blanket. He was thoroughly tired; he had been in such haste, he
- had stood up to such a strain, covered so much ground in the last
- twenty-four hours, that he wanted to think how it had all come
- about. Lulled by the sound of the wind, the warm air, and the
- cool fragrance of the flowers, he sank into deep, drowsy
- retrospection.
-
- It had been wonderfully simple; when they had shut him out
- of the theater and concert hall, when they had taken away his
- bone, the whole thing was virtually determined. The rest was a
- mere matter of opportunity. The only thing that at all surprised
- him was his own courage-for he realized well enough that he had
- always been tormented by fear, a sort of apprehensive dread that,
- of late years, as the meshes of the lies he had told closed about
- him, had been pulling the muscles of his body tighter and
- tighter. Until now he could not remember the time when he had
- not been dreading something. Even when he was a little boy it
- was always there--behind him, or before, or on either side.
- There had always been the shadowed corner, the dark place into
- which he dared not look, but from which something seemed always
- to be watching him--and Paul had done things that were not pretty
- to watch, he knew.
-
- But now he had a curious sense of relief, as though he had
- at last thrown down the gauntlet to the thing in the corner.
-
- Yet it was but a day since he had been sulking in the
- traces; but yesterday afternoon that he had been sent to the bank
- with Denny & Carson's deposit, as usual--but this time he was
- instructed to leave the book to be balanced. There was above two
- thousand dollars in checks, and nearly a thousand in the bank
- notes which he had taken from the book and quietly transferred to
- his pocket. At the bank he had made out a new deposit slip. His
- nerves had been steady enough to permit of his returning to the
- office, where he had finished his work and asked for a full day's
- holiday tomorrow, Saturday, giving a perfectly reasonable
- pretext. The bankbook, be knew, would not be returned before
- Monday or Tuesday, and his father would be out of town for the
- next week. From the time he slipped the bank notes into his
- pocket until he boarded the night train for New York, he
- had not known a moment's hesitation. It was not the first time
- Paul had steered through treacherous waters.
-
- How astonishingly easy it had all been; here he was, the
- thing done; and this time there would be no awakening, no figure
- at the top of the stairs. He watched the snowflakes whirling by
- his window until he fell asleep.
-
- When he awoke, it was three o'clock in the afternoon. He
- bounded up with a start; half of one of his precious days gone
- already! He spent more than an hour in dressing, watching every
- stage of his toilet carefully in the mirror. Everything was
- quite perfect; he was exactly the kind of boy he had always
- wanted to be.
-
- When he went downstairs Paul took a carriage and drove up
- Fifth Avenue toward the Park. The snow had somewhat abated;
- carriages and tradesmen's wagons were hurrying soundlessly to and
- fro in the winter twilight; boys in woolen mufflers were
- shoveling off the doorsteps; the avenue stages made fine spots of
- color against the white street. Here and there on the corners
- were stands, with whole flower gardens blooming under glass
- cases, against the sides of which the snowflakes stuck and
- melted; violets, roses, carnations, lilies of the valley--somehow
- vastly more lovely and alluring that they blossomed thus
- unnaturally in the snow. The Park itself was a wonderful stage
- winterpiece.
-
- When he returned, the pause of the twilight had ceased and
- the tune of the streets had changed. The snow was falling
- faster, lights streamed from the hotels that reared their dozen
- stories fearlessly up into the storm, defying the raging Atlantic
- winds. A long, black stream of carriages poured down the avenue,
- intersected here and there by other streams, tending
- horizontally. There were a score of cabs about the entrance of
- his hotel, and his driver had to wait. Boys in livery were
- running in and out of the awning stretched across the sidewalk,
- up and down the red velvet carpet laid from the door to the
- street. Above, about, within it all was the rumble and roar, the
- hurry and toss of thousands of human beings as hot for pleasure
- as himself, and on every side of him towered the glaring
- affirmation of the omnipotence of wealth.
-
- The boy set his teeth and drew his shoulders together in a
- spasm of realization; the plot of all dramas, the text of all
- romances, the nerve-stuff of all sensations was whirling about
- him like the snowflakes. He burnt like a faggot in a tempest.
-
- When Paul went down to dinner the music of the orchestra
- came floating up the elevator shaft to greet him. His head
- whirled as he stepped into the thronged corridor, and he sank
- back into one of the chairs against the wall to get his breath.
- The lights, the chatter, the perfumes, the bewildering medley of
- color--he had, for a moment, the feeling of not being able to
- stand it. But only for a moment; these were his own people, he
- told himself. He went slowly about the corridors, through the
- writing rooms, smoking rooms, reception rooms, as though he were
- exploring the chambers of an enchanted palace, built and peopled
- for him alone.
-
- When he reached the dining room he sat down at a table near a
- window. The flowers, the white linen, the many-colored
- wineglasses, the gay toilettes of the women, the low popping of
- corks, the undulating repetitions of the <i>Blue Danube</i> from
- the orchestra, all flooded Paul's dream with bewildering radiance.
- When the roseate tinge of his champagne was added--that cold,
- precious, bubbling stuff that creamed and foamed in his glass--
- Paul wondered that there were honest men in the world at all.
- This was what all the world was fighting for, he reflected; this
- was what all the struggle was about. He doubted the reality of
- his past. Had he ever known a place called Cordelia Street, a
- place where fagged-looking businessmen got on the early car; mere
- rivets in a machine they seemed to Paul,--sickening men, with
- combings of children's hair always hanging to their coats, and
- the smell of cooking in their clothes. Cordelia Street--Ah, that
- belonged to another time and country; had he not always been
- thus, had he not sat here night after night, from as far back as
- he could remember, looking pensively over just such shimmering
- textures and slowly twirling the stem of a glass like this one
- between his thumb and middle finger? He rather thought he had.
-
- He was not in the least abashed or lonely. He had no
- especial desire to meet or to know any of these people; all
- he demanded was the right to look on and conjecture, to watch the
- pageant. The mere stage properties were all he contended for.
- Nor was he lonely later in the evening, in his lodge at the
- Metropolitan. He was now entirely rid of his nervous misgivings,
- of his forced aggressiveness, of the imperative desire to show
- himself different from his surroundings. He felt now that his
- surroundings explained him. Nobody questioned the purple; he had
- only to wear it passively. He had only to glance down at his
- attire to reassure himself that here it would be impossible for
- anyone to humiliate him.
-
- He found it hard to leave his beautiful sitting room to go
- to bed that night, and sat long watching the raging storm from
- his turret window. When he went to sleep it was with the lights
- turned on in his bedroom; partly because of his old timidity, and
- partly so that, if he should wake in the night, there would be no
- wretched moment of doubt, no horrible suspicion of yellow
- wallpaper, or of Washington and Calvin above his bed.
-
- Sunday morning the city was practically snowbound. Paul
- breakfasted late, and in the afternoon he fell in with a wild San
- Francisco boy, a freshman at Yale, who said he had run down for a
- "little flyer" over Sunday. The young man offered to show Paul
- the night side of the town, and the two boys went out together
- after dinner, not returning to the hotel until seven o'clock the
- next morning. They had started out in the confiding warmth of a
- champagne friendship, but their parting in the elevator was
- singularly cool. The freshman pulled himself together to make
- his train, and Paul went to bed. He awoke at two o'clock in the
- afternoon, very thirsty and dizzy, and rang for icewater, coffee,
- and the Pittsburgh papers.
-
- On the part of the hotel management, Paul excited no suspicion.
- There was this to be said for him, that he wore his spoils with
- dignity and in no way made himself conspicuous. Even under the
- glow of his wine he was never boisterous, though he found the stuff
- like a magician's wand for wonder-building. His chief greediness
- lay in his ears and eyes, and his excesses were not offensive ones.
- His dearest pleasures were the gray winter twilights in his sitting
- room; his quiet enjoyment of his flowers, his clothes, his wide
- divan, his cigarette, and his sense of power. He could not
- remember a time when he had felt so at peace with himself. The
- mere release from the necessity of petty lying, lying every day and
- every day, restored his self-respect. He had never lied for
- pleasure, even at school; but to be noticed and admired, to assert
- his difference from other Cordelia Street boys; and he felt a good
- deal more manly, more honest, even, now that he had no need for
- boastful pretensions, now that he could, as his actor friends used
- to say, "dress the part." It was characteristic that remorse did
- not occur to him. His golden days went by without a shadow, and he
- made each as perfect as he could.
-
- On the eighth day after his arrival in New York he found the whole
- affair exploited in the Pittsburgh papers, exploited with a wealth
- of detail which indicated that local news of a sensational nature
- was at a low ebb. The firm of Denny & Carson announced that the
- boy's father had refunded the full amount of the theft and that
- they had no intention of prosecuting. The Cumberland minister had
- been interviewed, and expressed his hope of yet reclaiming the
- motherless lad, and his Sabbath-school teacher declared that she
- would spare no effort to that end. The rumor had reached
- Pittsburgh that the boy had been seen in a New York hotel, and his
- father had gone East to find him and bring him home.
-
- Paul had just come in to dress for dinner; he sank into a
- chair, weak to the knees, and clasped his head in his hands. It
- was to be worse than jail, even; the tepid waters of Cordelia
- Street were to close over him finally and forever. The gray
- monotony stretched before him in hopeless, unrelieved years;
- Sabbath school, Young People's Meeting, the yellow-papered room,
- the damp dishtowels; it all rushed back upon him with a sickening
- vividness. He had the old feeling that the orchestra had
- suddenly stopped, the sinking sensation that the play was over.
- The sweat broke out on his face, and he sprang to his feet,
- looked about him with his white, conscious smile, and winked at
- himself in the mirror, With something of the old childish belief
- in miracles with which he had so often gone to class, all his
- lessons unlearned, Paul dressed and dashed whistling down the
- corridor to the elevator.
-
- He had no sooner entered the dining room and caught the
- measure of the music than his remembrance was lightened by his
- old elastic power of claiming the moment, mounting with it, and
- finding it all-sufficient. The glare and glitter about him, the
- mere scenic accessories had again, and for the last time, their
- old potency. He would show himself that he was game, he would
- finish the thing splendidly. He doubted, more than ever, the
- existence of Cordelia Street, and for the first time he drank his
- wine recklessly. Was he not, after all, one of those fortunate
- beings born to the purple, was he not still himself and in his
- own place? He drummed a nervous accompaniment to the Pagliacci
- music and looked about him, telling himself over and over that it
- had paid.
-
- He reflected drowsily, to the swell of the music and the
- chill sweetness of his wine, that he might have done it more
- wisely. He might have caught an outbound steamer and been well
- out of their clutches before now. But the other side of the
- world had seemed too far away and too uncertain then; he could
- not have waited for it; his need had been too sharp. If he had
- to choose over again, he would do the same thing tomorrow. He
- looked affectionately about the dining room, now gilded with a
- soft mist. Ah, it had paid indeed!
-
- Paul was awakened next morning by a painful throbbing in his
- head and feet. He had thrown himself across the bed without
- undressing, and had slept with his shoes on. His limbs and hands
- were lead heavy, and his tongue and throat were parched and
- burnt. There came upon him one of those fateful attacks of
- clearheadedness that never occurred except when he was physically
- exhausted and his nerves hung loose. He lay still, closed his
- eyes, and let the tide of things wash over him.
-
- His father was in New York; "stopping at some joint or
- other," he told himself. The memory of successive summers on the
- front stoop fell upon him like a weight of black water. He had
- not a hundred dollars left; and he knew now, more than ever, that
- money was everything, the wall that stood between all he loathed
- and all he wanted. The thing was winding itself up; he
- had thought of that on his first glorious day in New York, and
- had even provided a way to snap the thread. It lay on his
- dressing table now; he had got it out last night when he came
- blindly up from dinner, but the shiny metal hurt his eyes, and he
- disliked the looks of it.
-
- He rose and moved about with a painful effort, succumbing now and
- again to attacks of nausea. It was the old depression exaggerated;
- all the world had become Cordelia Street. Yet somehow he was not
- afraid of anything, was absolutely calm; perhaps because he had
- looked into the dark corner at last and knew. It was bad enough,
- what he saw there, but somehow not so bad as his long fear of it
- had been. He saw everything clearly now. He had a feeling that he
- had made the best of it, that he had lived the sort of life he was
- meant to live, and for half an hour he sat staring at the revolver.
- But he told himself that was not the way, so he went downstairs and
- took a cab to the ferry.
-
- When Paul arrived in Newark he got off the train and took
- another cab, directing the driver to follow the Pennsylvania
- tracks out of the town. The snow lay heavy on the roadways and
- had drifted deep in the open fields. Only here and there the
- dead grass or dried weed stalks projected, singularly black,
- above it. Once well into the country, Paul dismissed the
- carriage and walked, floundering along the tracks, his mind a
- medley of irrelevant things. He seemed to hold in his brain an
- actual picture of everything he had seen that morning. He
- remembered every feature of both his drivers, of the toothless
- old woman from whom he had bought the red flowers in his coat,
- the agent from whom he had got his ticket, and all of his fellow
- passengers on the ferry. His mind, unable to cope with vital
- matters near at hand, worked feverishly and deftly at sorting and
- grouping these images. They made for him a part of the ugliness
- of the world, of the ache in his head, and the bitter burning on
- his tongue. He stooped and put a handful of snow into his mouth
- as he walked, but that, too, seemed hot. When he reached a
- little hillside, where the tracks ran through a cut some twenty
- feet below him, he stopped and sat down.
-
- The carnations in his coat were drooping with the cold, he
- noticed, their red glory all over. It occurred to him that all
- the flowers he had seen in the glass cases that first night must
- have gone the same way, long before this. It was only one
- splendid breath they had, in spite of their brave mockery at the
- winter outside the glass; and it was a losing game in the end, it
- seemed, this revolt against the homilies by which the world is
- run. Paul took one of the blossoms carefully from his coat and
- scooped a little hole in the snow, where he covered it up. Then
- he dozed awhile, from his weak condition, seemingly insensible to
- the cold.
-
- The sound of an approaching train awoke him, and he started
- to his feet, remembering only his resolution, and afraid lest he
- should be too late. He stood watching the approaching
- locomotive, his teeth chattering, his lips drawn away from them
- in a frightened smile; once or twice he glanced nervously
- sidewise, as though he were being watched. When the right moment
- came, he jumped. As he fell, the folly of his haste occurred to
- him with merciless clearness, the vastness of what he had left
- undone. There flashed through his brain, clearer than ever
- before, the blue of Adriatic water, the yellow of Algerian sands.
-
- He felt something strike his chest, and that his body was
- being thrown swiftly through the air, on and on, immeasurably far
- and fast, while his limbs were gently relaxed. Then, because the
- picture-making mechanism was crushed, the disturbing visions
- flashed into black, and Paul dropped back into the immense design
- of things.
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